Bye

Today is honestly the worst day of my life.

One whole day of mental torture and pressure and i cant take it nemore.

I was just sufferin silently to myself and ponderin and rethinkin and feelin disheartened and all..when all i wana do is just to run out of the class and neva come back agen

in the midst of all these, pple around me are grumbling stomping their feet, frowning..when they're results are a thousand times better than mine.

Luke tht Jedi..(yea right) kept grumbling and chanting beside me ALL DAY or probabbly singing thanks to the three masketeers of yesterday;s party. Yea and guess wot he was grumbling abt...his humans when he had all of his other subs ALL FULL DISTINCTION!!

right into my ear the WHOLE DAY!

OMG SHUT UP!!!!!! WILL SHE?!!]

IM gona break DOWN HERE!!! and there u are chanting agen

WHY IS EVRYONE CHANTIN AROUND ME
I CANT TAKE it anymore!!

wot do u pple noe?? all of u have distinctions and stuff all ova..ME? 1 distinction!

And ive neva done so badly eva. Not Even when i didnt study much last year.

Wot is this? another setback evrytime i get a paper.

Whats the point with harboring any hope at all
U pple SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stop ur grumblings!! bcos if u are grumbling and sayin how much ur gone fail and stuff.. Dont u eva think abt me?? IF ur gona die, oh then i most probably belong to the 18th level of hell, dont u think?

Ur like givin me the message tht im supposed to jump down from some 20 story building or sumfin. Ur urgin me to. U dont understand.

U pple are just chanting there and stuff

Me?? yea.. Honestly i wana die.

I cant take it. Especially the last period..me still bein sick and all tht and all the pple around me discussing their grades..How alienated i felt. HOw disheartened and horrible i was feeling?? NO one will understand this pain!

This is PRELIMS!

I cant take this. I am so tortured mentally. WHY is evrything soo horrible. Another setback after another.
even my cca! HOw much i contributed in track..U have no idea how much mental n physical torture ive been through this past four years. And i only got an A2!

I dont even belong in my class full of geniuses. Evryone around me is getting the a1 flow. I am gettin peanuts.

I was doin so well earlier this year. Now pple who were behind me are way UP there better than me like a ton.

I dont deserve my E1 frenz. Their all geniuses. I feel like a nitwit with them Esp when their talkin abt grades.

evrytime u pple are tlakin abt grades it tortures me so much Like i just wana explode and die.

Its like ill neva be close to em anymore...what i have planned for JC and stuff..they'll be goin to good JCs while ill be sufferin in a JC full of punks and noisy pple and alienated once more like when i was in E5

MY frenz are gona be so unreachable.

Ive ruined evrything. MYself My evrything. nobody eva thinks abt how i feel when they say how horrible their grades are.

I feel terrible. I have lost faith in all aspects of life. Like i can neva achieve anything good in life anymore. Im not an achiever im a failure. This is perhaps now a turnin point in my life Bcos i have no faith to work hard anymore.

U dont noe how hard im goin through all this and ur yelling at me.

NOw i have no idea how i am gona face my parents. They are sure to punish me by not allowing me to enter a JC

I will neva wana enter a poly.

I wana just fall and fall and neva come back. cryin will not help bcos the mucus will just be running and running and its uncomfortable. but i wish i could stop crying.

This will be MY LAST POST!!! I repeat MY LAST POST until after my O lvls.

I will not be blogging agen until after NOvember.

BYE BYE.

Graduation day

So we had a graduation farewell party.

And the tchers were sugary sweet.

Balloons and all.

And well it isnt evryday u get to see ur history or english tcher dancing to a song they;ve ahem composed.

In fact, it was so sugary sweetish it made Jy cry.

I guess sometimes when u are deprived of sweet-ish things for some moment in ur life when ur all stressed out and screaming..It just brings tears to ur eyes to see a lollipop starin right in ur face.

Okay im talkin gobbledygook ere =S


Balloonieeeeessssssssssss galore!!!



Esther chatting merrily


Or pple eating Yum YUm

Some video on farewell messages from the tchers

Yay we were all chillin and just takin pix after the concert!

Cheryl da 20th century cleopartra.

Sitting on e stairs

CHeyrl and Mat! My wuvly fwenz!

Jiaying and Yanqi :D

Liting and her Balloonieeeee!!!

I dont expect a total kowtow of gratitude for being such a benevolent soul by putting up these pix here for u to save to ur frenster. Just a nice piece of chocolate fudge cake will do. :P

alright im jk

Sup!

Its been two crazy weeks durin e prelims!!

So well i was sorta emm..in a fiesty mood which was den we decided to go to seoul gardens...tht meat haven or possibly the place to rake up my torturous memory of eating Fried Watermelons with overcooked soup whilst playin truth or dare.

So well..u might think it wouldnt hurt to go shopping for a lil while after facial in orchard. Afterall, Orchard is the heart of all attractions. Not with 6cm aqua-blue heels resembling this howeva:

But i guess the shopping trip would have been worse with pairs of heels resembling this:

I can just imagine the pressure exerted on those poor terrains on pathways when woman wearin heels like these strut around. The force of the weight over area is dreadfully infinite.

Hey or maybe...it isnt so bad afterall...cos lets not forget abt the shopping bag or shd i say plastic bag.

And OOoooO Yes!! a surfer's paradise polo tee. It may look reli simply but its gorgeous!!

But just as i got home with two agonizing feet...and for once started lookin arnd the household..

Ive realized how extraordinarily weird e house has become
check this out:

Its a snake!! its an out-of-e-world plant!! Its some Dry Pomelo Skin!!!

to ward off mosquitoes accordin to dad

Speakin of dad, we've bought him birthday pressies.

Which is umm the first time we've eva reli bought him one!! sad to say =S

Hey or Mayb..some weirdly framed piece of information on Honey resting on my side table!!


A weird house containing a sis with an exceptionally large mouth and fiery temper and a weird mom

I dont need anymore of tht.

yawnz

sorry for not updatng all day and stuff and not visiting u guyz!!

But i was soo horribly busy the whole day!! first it was e shopping spree den e buffet

den e revamp.

Oh yea...and in e morning..exams which were pretty okay

den e setting up of e misc page!!! Go check it out!!

And im goin to go for facial in e morning

So ill b back at e com at abt 4 or woteba

Im not reli typing clear-headedly cos im soo groggy its alredi in e wee hrs of e mornin of 1.26am

THANK U GUYZ!!! soo much xoxox Luv ya xoxox for all e support and all :D

whew

Hullo!!! wots up?? and dont say the sky!!

Im back but not fully back!!!

But i can at least breathe a lil at da moment!!

so im here to just tell u guyz wots been goin on!!

prelims were Okay...Some were horrible..for eg. today's AMaths which i know im goin to fail it. Ive been sleeping only 2-3 hrs a day. I dont know why but im so full of energy even as im exclaiming tht fact.

Ive neva eva gotten below A1 for amaths before
i think im goin to get real terribuloso red marks evrywhere for it. Quele horreur!!

So im not really back yet u see...the other paper ones

SO ill b back to bloggin some other time!!! when my exams are done nx week!

At da moment..ive seen sumfin kewl so id just like to share it with u guyz!! click Here

Au revoir xox

WOOHOO

YAY we took neo prints!!!
I have no choice but came on to e com!
no harm comin on for a while right??

PS: captions at e top of e pix!!

We all Love this picture like crazy!!!! From e top right hand corner..anticlockwise, Me, sis, amanda, sindhu, and arabel!

Honestly..we were reli squeezing our heads im tellin u!!

Im pushed so much to the front!!! I had to practically look up at e cam tht i look so weird!! and who da hell wrote tht 'we are beautiful' there?? Muz be Ys..she was decorating this!! lol

ARGH..im tellin u we were reli squeezing like there's no tmr! Im sure u can see tht for urselves.



I lurve mandy, arabel and sindhu!!!! I LUVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE u guyzzzzzzzzz mUACKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ xoxoxoox IM sooo happy to take pix with u guyz!!!

on hiatus

Hey guyz.
Ill be on hiatus for a while
So ill not be bloggin until after my prelims.
CYa xoxox

HA

right.
Lately..ive discovered something..
Ive been thinkin abt it..alot!
which was then..i realized something...so i went to my tracking system who came to my blog.

And tht was when..I realized that someone had actually searched from Yahoo My Full Name. And no one..other than U would do that.

SO u saw evrything heh?

Honestly..when i knew what u saw..I was horribly upset..I felt soo sorry.

Those were all blabbers..IM soo soo sorry.

Now tht uve seen evrything...i feel horrible totally. I wished i hadnt wrote tht. Becos it is neva my intention to hurt u.

I do care for u but only as a fren.

Im so sorry bout evrything..I hope we can still be friends.

can we pls??

But in the first place.

If ud wanted my web journal..u shd have asked for my permission first or just ask from me straight. Why did u have to go all through this, searching yahoo and stuff..Its so not nice to do all tht..prying into my stuff like this

Bcos this is somewhat a
private diary..only my closest frenz see this.

U are prying into my stuff, intruding my privacy..now i have no idea how i am going to peacefully write another private post without u prying into my personal space.

PLS do not do this agen.

U searched for my name agen today!! i think ull come back agen. So if ur seein this..PLs dont do this agen.

U wouldnt want pple prying into ur diary righ??

SO now would u respect me and stopp doin stuff like this?? Its like ur spying on me when we're supposed to be frenz.

Mayb u dont consider me as a fren anymore or just probably an enemy. Whateva it is..once agen Im sorry! I still hope we can be frenz.

AHH

I saw a headless red-head auntie in the MRT at the Marina Bay stop peekin out from the window!

I almost died of a heart attack when i realized it was the job of the reflection of the glass i was seein through and the transparent-ness of it

The red-head auntie was sitting peacefully smiling to herself full-bodied.