These days have been blissful to say the least.

My time for peace and tranquility.

and quite some muay thai workload to do. I'll have to be down at NUS mending e booth tmr and next tues for e whole day. How sad.

I've not drafted the shirt design but ill do it on saturday cos ill be mighty busy for e next two days.

Hung out with my "brudda- in- law" these past two days for supper cos he was accompanying sis home. And he leaves in e East... i think im quite familiar with makin sure he catches his last train. Hes like a bigger brother to me cos hes so freakin nice.

Wispy spoilt my surprise. Thanks chen thanks. I love my dears =)

and im finally gonna see gerthy and jo tonight.

My CAP will be damn cui for the next two sems. I can predict already. We're gonna be damn busy organising the next inter-tertiary muay thai fight.

This season shall be spent with close friends and family members.

And alot of Muay thai... and finally after two years.... Joanne chan and gerthy =)

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I chanted to myself when a voice from within interrupted.

Today i woke up and had my head spinning like crazy.

My computer just cant get over e fact that id accidentally downloaded virus. Please get a life, commy.

Im going out again tonight. i just wanna stay at home :(

Enough is really enough enough enough enough enough X infinity.

I'm sitting in starbucks at novena.. my favourite hangout to get lost with myself. Sher likes to make fun of that.

the jazz music, fragrant smell of coffee, and the beautiful ambience...

I am glowing pink.. not with health but with sunburn. I am more burnt than tanned.

it was tiring... slept only a few hours last night at Sondy's. Mom miraculously allowed a stayover.

and of course.. clubbing for the first time... and for real. It was fun but Rebel was a bit scary.

I dont think ive been that high before... we were laughing alot. Sushi was eating sushi in e club.

We were constantly protecting each other... even in e midst of our drunken stupor.. that i find very heartening. I'm sorry girls =(

it was a night of fun with the girls I love... who made clubbing fun and 'safe'.

Not something id be lookin forward to doin evry other day though.... perhaps once in a blue moon and only with close friends like my judo babies =)

I dont ever wanna drink this much again.
My head was spinning like mad.

Rachy punched a guy. Luckily he didnt punch back cos he was drunk himself.

This morning we went to Sentosa to get our nice tans. I am freakin burnt by the way. i love the girls so much.

Pics uploaded on Facebook!

Im gonna watch harry potter twice! once next week with weiyu and a second time with dear tracgers on our birthday celebration.

School hols are ending soon. How i wish itll never end. Just thinking about exams and modules brings nightmares.

So sian of goin back to those days of not eating and sleeping properly. Sometimes it gets so stressful the migraine i get from it nauseates.

Sigh.. but i shall persevere. I'm thankful for the award but it has also left me feelin dreadful... i dont noe if i can keep this up... and im so afraid to disappoint all e time.



What i read was first met with defense and mockery. it wasn't as bad as it was pictured. But it was not long later did i reflect upon my life of late... did it appear to me that to some extent... you might be right. This is not what i find most meaningful... not what i want. I always thought that someday someone will snap me out of this... but i was too distracted to be bothered with doin tht myself. Might I say... thank u dear friend... to holler out for me to be myself. I'm glad ur a part of my life...

Goodbye dearies! Bon voyage!



Yesterday =) Awesome shit! love u girls! Happy birthday Peixi <3

If u can tell... my hair is dyed. this is e most obvious of e pics






Are u ready for what im about to say?

I highlighted my hair today...

and it turned out

Orange.

yes orange.

Expect to see a lion head prancing around the medicine building when you visit NUS in august.
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Zirca tonight! I hope they have good music.

I must not get drunk... i must not get drunk

Beach in e morning! Im gonna get my tan and the best part is... its FREEEEE

Nature's gift to me for bein an angel... jk

And a sight to see bikini babes running around. Dont all the men in e world envy me?

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Sat to hang out with Nick and Aaron and at night with Josh.

den ill send nick off to vietnam at e airport and he will make it in time for my bday.

woo!

what ive been up to lately

Not mine... its sis from Jed.. but i juz love flowers i have to take a pic of it.

U'll never guess where this is... Its the pit building! Broke into the F1 race track in tony's car after a trip around Lorong 18 at geylang. it was awesome shit by the way.

Dollin up.

Hot celestine!

Gorgeous girls =)

I took a nap in Ikea because my house collapsed one afternoon

Gorgeous Dress at Haji Lane



Yumzzz!

i love life!

I juz came back from a funeral.

Of someone's whos in fact.. of our age. She committed suicide.

I was really enlightened... i guess from the talk that i had with her aunt... i was opened up to a more realistic view of what life really is about.

Life isn't just about hedonistic pleasures of beauty, popularity or wealth. Life is more than just that... When we're too influenced by these superficialities, we tend to be unaware that the people who love us most, our family, are constantly trying to reach out to us.

When we close a chapter of our lives, and when we assume it to be everything, sometimes its only then do we realize that theres so much more that life has to offer... like people out there who need our help and our contribution. For those who choose to end their lives, they are sadly not given the chance to open themselves up to such wonders.

It is very sad... and i dont want to shake my head at her for what happened... for we have not experienced what she has. I believe it must have been really hard on her. It takes alot for someone to self-mutilate.

Im glad im a nurse. After talkin to her aunt yesterday at the wake, all i wana do is reach out to the depressed. And as a nurse, i have so many of such opportunities. I want to be a part of their lives and help em through.... not simply because its a job that i get paid for... but because i really want to.

I did quite a bit of crazy stuff today.

Woke up in e morning and headed to Swensens for Brunch.

I bought e fragrance oil from body shop! its apparently not Dream... its sweet comfort. I had to sniff out evry fragrance bottle in Body shop until i found it.

I bought Nutella so that i will eat my breakfast every morning.

I dyed my hair RED which managed to turn out BLACK.

I borrowed 8 boooks today knowing that i cant complete em all in e given time loan.

Ive chosen a LONG night gown to sleep with tonight.

OKay im gonna spend my evening reading. I've prepared the room to an ambience that resembles that Soon Lee shop i saw at Haji Lane yesterday.

Air con, Jazz music, candles, flowered fragrance...

I wanted to buy a bunch of beautiful colourful sunflowers in a vase but decided against it cos it will collect dust.

Okay time to spirit away in my wonderful lil room.

but oh dear sis is coming home tonight. the same ol' routine will repeat again. Me chasing her outta e room while she chats all night with her new found love who will so gladly fetch me home tomorrow after i club with wispy and lest.

Sashimi buffet tmr morning with darling sondy and ct! RAW RAW foodddd yumzzzzz.

Im going out with aaron and nick tonight and they are going to fetch me home in my pumpkin carriage with charming animals.

Clubbing this thursday at butter factory!

its sis's hip hop performance so i guess thts why mom allowed.

Followin week with e judo girls at Zirca... but i have no idea how im gonna lift e curfew.

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These days ive been busy with hanging out with close friends and its been pleasant i shall say.
Thanks for everything :)


I'm heartened by all e concerns... and I'm coping reasonably well.

Forever 21 is the bomb man! it was my favourite shop, still is, always will be. I cant wait for my foreveer 21 birthday voucher! Grass dont forget. mwahahhaa.

yesterday was a crazy day spent at Tampines Ikea and Haji Lane. The arab food is fantastic man. I wanted to drink with the peeps but it was gettin too late.

The SHOPS there are amazinggggg okay! I'm talkin abt the ambience. Soon lee, a beautiful shop, had a kind of fragrance that i was falling in love with so i asked e shop keeper for information. Apparently its from body shop, and its called Dream. I want to get it i must get it!

The East is beautiful... we had treasure hunt around the east and i think i noe the place pretty well by now. The parks and beaches are gorgeously serene.

Why does evryone visit town when theres the East?

I'll revisit those places tonight for some reflective moment.

结束

...Chinese literature is beautiful

The memories... ill cherish... And ill move on.

and for the last time...allow me to say...

Dear boy... Take care...

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I woke up early this mornin at 6 not because i wanted to but because i just did.

Brushed my teeth and washed the bowls for Muji cos shes sick.

OK i got a lil freaked out by my red fingernail colour against the white porcelain plate. Time i remove it.


If u havent already known, I've broken up. SO im single now. Wow.

I received a torrent of messages last night. And it doesn't help that ive lost all my contacts so its hard to reply cos i dono who the msgs are from.

All i wanna say is... I'm really fine. Its definitely not gonna be easy but I'll muster whatever strength i have and be strong to pull through this. 19 years of challenge has trained me so.

I'll allow myself a good cry for i am not superwoman but i will not allow myself to drown in depression.


Time to embrace a new lease of life! No more crying no more losing myself. I'e done my best. Sometimes... "winning isn't evrything... its the experience that counts". I'll cherish the memories and move on.

SMILEEEEEE =)

camp N.U.R.S.E was freakin awesome!

HAHAHA i loved that hilarious fright night when i became psych Woman. FREAKING hilarious.

we ran out of tasks for em to do and times wasnt up yet... so we said.. sing us a song... and they sang Twinkle twinkle little star

time still wasnt up yet and we fumbled... we ran outta things for em to do.

Melisssa was quick to react and wailed," IS THAT ALL YOU'VE GOT!"

the freshies freaked out once more and performed the mass dance.

I totally couldnt take it. That whole night i was juz laughing all e time.

Awesome night! but the ghosts were damn shagged at the end.But it was a freaking good job! the freshies gave me orgasms when they screamed

Last night was awesome shit! i dont think ive enjoyed that much in a camp before. We had "clubbin" night and evryone went wild and crazy.

Damn clubbing is soo fun! Can't wait for sis's dance performance at butter factory next week.

Terra is awesome! i totally love my OG. they are a fantastic bunch of people. it was rather emotional today durin debriefing when priscilla cried.

Im so proud of em! GOOOO TERRAA- LINGSSS


It was a great camp honestly. Kudos to evryone who contributed to it in one way or another.

Next up, Rag and flag.

Sigh... this h1n1 is really scary. i hope it doesnt mutate into something life-threatening. Dear darling Rachel and Boy... pls take care.