Samantha's Groovy Haven

Sunset

2012-01-30T10:22:00.002+08:00

We were standing at the horizon, and we watched a beautiful sunset.

You turned to me, and asked, "Isn't it beautiful?"

Just as a gorgeous day is ending, so i proceed into darkness.

Time to chiong.

2012-01-26T00:34:00.003+08:00

I seriously wonder why one would ever think of stalking me, because I am the most uninteresting person to walk this planet.

Courage

2012-01-26T00:08:00.003+08:00

A few days before bible study, I had a vision of You walking to my bedside as I was praying. You handed me a sword with a kind gentle smile on your face.

I heard and knew, what You meant.

Courage.

I was praying because I was scared. I didn't know how to control the situation. I couldn't help myself.

Pastor talked about one part of the Chronicles of Narnia during Bible study.

The part where Lucy and the Lion stood aside and watched while Peter fought against the evil forces. Wolves were howling.

Lucy begged the Lion to help her brother. But the Lion said, "He has a sword" and continued watching as Peter fought to victory.

Pastor beckoned us to stand up and fight. Be prince and princesses.

Sometimes God doesn't step in, because it is through the fights and struggles in our lives, that we become prince and princesses for God.

The Lord equips me with a sword. He will not allow the flames to consume my being. He gives me all I need to fight. I know that I can draw strength from Him.

Perhaps I do not understand what this victory is, but i know i will eventually.

Someday.

2012-01-25T18:36:00.001+08:00

Hi.

Sorry to appear out of nowhere. It's just suddenly, I remember that I have a blog.

Be right back I need to pee.

2012-01-19T01:23:00.000+08:00

Shit. Why are we so popular?

Nude Matte Lipstick

2012-01-18T19:23:00.003+08:00

I bought this Matte lipstick by NYC today

- from school, at only $10.

Its amazing what gorgeous deals a step away from my lecture halls has to offer.

There were tons of Elf makeup, bronzing powder in particular, which caught my eye. And then i remembered that I have a M.A.C. mineralize skinfinish bronzer that I haven't touched, so i restrained my shopaholic self.

I bought the NUDE color.

It was so successfully nude-ish that when i tried it on, I looked like I had a hemoglobin level of 3.

It is about 5 times lighter than my natural lip color, although after awhile, it blended a little better.

Still I looked a little ghostly, especially since I hadn't thoroughly cleansed off the smudged eyeliner around the rims of my eye.

Okay, what a superficial post.

I just thought i could make Weiyu a little bit jealous about my buy. Matte lipsticks are her favorite.

2012-01-11T23:46:00.000+08:00

Now, don't cry. Don't.

Photography

2012-01-11T14:27:00.002+08:00

My hands itched for the camera when this gorgeous Minnie Mouse illustration caught my eye.

Its a gorgeous chocolate tin box and a gift from a really wonderful friend of mine! I can't wait to eat its contents.

I found this image in my memory card and would like to commend the photographer responsible for it.

I'm in love with it. Only because I think the purple thing is adorable, whatever it is.

My literature review assignment grades came out today, and Thank God I didn't fail.

Life is quite as amazing as my hair. It doesn't look too bad now.

Itacho Sushi. YEA

2012-01-09T22:54:00.009+08:00

Hi World!

Lately, I've had a surge of hormones, thus experienced feelings of slight emo-ness, which i felt suffocated from.

Actually I have nothing to share except for how awesome I am feeling today.

2 more participants recruited today, and I had Awesome Jap food at Itacho Sushi Restaurant in Ion Orchard, carefully selected to be priced at only $1o++. We chose wisely.

I'm quite surprised at the bill, because I'd eaten top notch Japanese food. Sashimi that's fresh to the bone... and awesome tasting sushis that thoroughly satisfied my palette.

And of course, we were trying to look our best while savoring our sumptuous dinner.

This is grilled salmon sushi, at $0.40 each. It tastes awesome, actually every dish does. We had this for appertizers while we were choosing our food because there is a daily limit for this dish. 4 is allowed per person only.

Time to drool! Fresh to the bone!

They have the best Tamago eggs I have ever eaten. That's also probably because I've only had the cheap ones from Cold storage.

Sushi with cheese. and shrimp. Love the cheese, hate the smell of dried shrimp.

Salmon roll and lobster. Yum.

Spicy salmon handroll. Hey, its better than i thought!

I know you can't see the salmon because of the photo effect but, live with it.

Then we decided to go to walk around to look at more street food.

But our mouths itched for more, and we got Yoghurt.

We asked the dude to take a picture for us, but he presented us with this.

We then corrected him, and asked him to take a picture for us, pointing to ourselves.

And he did.

Its a lovely start to a new school term.

I'm just super worried that I cannot hit the required number before the month ends.

Hmm.

2012-01-06T23:52:00.001+08:00

You're in this fantasy world of your own, and then suddenly you realize that you're dreaming.

This isn't real.

And you know that at some point, you have to wake up and come back to reality.

To reality.

Lighten Up, it's New Year's Day.

2012-01-01T22:10:00.002+08:00

It's New Year's Day but I'm feeling blue, thanks to the hormones.

And I haven't made my New Year's resolution because I was just lazy and tired, and I procrastinate too much.

I have another interview tomorrow and I'm nervous as usual.

Life just isn't the greatest these days.

Tracgers' Christmas Gathering

2011-12-28T12:32:00.004+08:00

Had fun with my homies while reliving our childhood memories.

I miss life when we were young and naive.

Or maybe it was just me, still am.

"Friends Forever!" we used to say that so often to every person we knew as we penned our autographs in our friends' books. It was a trendy thing to do in those days.

I'm glad that we did remain close friends years down the road, hopefully, this shall last forever. :)

Nothing is impossible, the word itself says "I'm Possible"!

2011-12-26T19:02:00.000+08:00

- Audrey Hepburn

You are the Reason I Live

2011-12-26T00:29:00.002+08:00

Because this Christmas is all about You!

Merry Birthday, Father! <3

xox

My Horrible Hair

2011-12-24T18:12:00.003+08:00

I look like tweety bird in this horrible hairdo.

This is the last time I'm ever doing a string cut, or cutting my fringe at Diana's again.

The thought that I'd paid for a rather irreversible damage is quite annoying.

I'm so embarassed I'm gonna clip my hair up for the rest of my life.

Merry Christmas

2011-12-23T16:46:00.003+08:00

It's a lazy, rainy afternoon and I'm getting all ready for church, and doing last minute preparation for the gift distribution later.

Loads of people to distribute Christmas presents to. 'Cos I have too many friends.

And because it's such a lazy afternoon, I desperately needed something to perk myself up. What better way than to savor some nice floral tea. Recently, I'd received a series of floral tea as a Christmas gift from a really nice friend and I can't be happier!

Chose peppermint tea for the dopey Me this afternoon, hoping the mint would blow my brain. Unfortunately, it didn't cos my brain is still intact.

Hmm I can't wait to try this. Maybe for tomorrow morning.

Some sweet treats to go with the tea.

Okay wake up, Dopey.

There's a Christmas celebration waiting for me!

Hi I bought a new bag

2011-12-23T16:00:00.000+08:00

My Japenese-floral patterned bag.

For you to envy.

My best friend's birthday

2011-12-22T17:17:00.003+08:00

Hi, Happy Birthday!

We went to La Nonna at Holland Village to celebrate this personnel's birthday.

I must say, it is a great place for a gathering. Great food, great ambience, and great service! Plus, there is 1 for 1 main course from 12-2.30pm every weekday, if I did not remember wrongly.

To kickstart the sumptuous Italian lunch, they serve nice breaad and plain thin-crust pizza. You can tell that its quite appetizing from the way I munch on mine unglamorously.

Behold, my first try at squid ink pasta. Eelin was talking about it on end so i thought I should be adventurous for one day.

Its great. Really. The taste that is. The look kinda scared me abit. I closed my eyes while savoring it.

The sauce is so black that you can use it to refill your pen.

Wispy's 'curry puff' pizza. Or so, the waiter, with a sense of humor, called it. There's cheeze, ham, and mushroom in this giant pizza.

If you unfold this pizza, it can easily become a face towel.

Its delicious, I must say.

Then they gave us a cute fushcia knife to cut our tiny tiramisu cake that the waiters so kindly treat us to.

TGIF= Thank God I'm female ;)

These dudes tried to be funny. Oh well, they brightened our day.

Then we headed over to The Daily Scoop! If you haven't been to this awesome ice-cream parlour, you must have come from planet Mars.

Lots of awesome flavors for you to choose from. And the junior scoop, which i think is satisfying enough, is only $2.00. The cone inclusive.

Help me to love my life as you love it

2011-12-11T10:05:00.001+08:00

All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
- Psalm 139:16 NIV

Robot

2011-12-08T21:19:00.003+08:00

I'm working. The only life I have these days, is revolved around work.

Work, and my research, and numerous clinical reports.

And networking to garner support from the management for my research.

I feel like a robot.

I need life, I need God.

Celest's birthday

2011-12-01T11:48:00.005+08:00

It's always nice to hang out with my dear graduates again! Yesterday we had a belated birthday celebration for celestine at a rather cool place in vivocity, King Louis, or something like that.

They have a live band and a gorgeous ambience with scenic view of the sea. It's a great place to hangout at an affordable price. Plus for every 2 meals ordered, the third is free.

Sorry i just have to show off my lovely purse I got from Thailand

Our pretty birthday girl and her Crispy Cheezy Chicken Leg.

Angie, with her chicken pullet, and Me with my beer-battered fish and chips.
By the way, Angie's hair has grown quite abit if you've noticed.

Close-up version of my dinner for you to envy.

Jade's ribs. *coughs* i mean her pork ribs for dinner.

Angie's Chicken pullet.

Crispy Cheezy chicken Leg.

And the lovely brownies we got for our birthday girl from P.Osh!

Lovely celebration, lovely dinner, lovely day!

Good morning

2011-11-30T10:51:00.002+08:00

My exams are over and lately, I've been spending alot of money on... I'm not sure what.. cos i can't keep track of it.

This morning i decided to try the caffeine-free tea that I bought from Marks & Spencer.

An infusion of Camomile limeflower & Lavender. As the packing suggests, it has calming effects. It is a big mistake that i drank this in the morning but i was desperate for some floral scent early in the day.

I do love flowers. Very much. And this tea has pretty much satisfied my craving. Sigh.. if only I can have roses to greet me every morning as I enjoy breakfast.

Triple chocolate cereal also from Marks & Spencer. It's a tad bit too sweet for my palette but I enjoyed it anyway.

I'd love to have beef steak and some wine for lunch. But I don't have wine, and my maid has decided on fish from leftovers of Monday's dinner instead.

I'm trying to enjoy life to the best of my ability this week before all hell breaks lose when my research application is approved and my attachment commences.

Now, I'm feeling sleepy thanks to the tea. I'll promise to get the rejuvenating version to accompany my morning breakfast in future.

Chiong ahh

2011-11-16T09:12:00.002+08:00

I just walked out of the battlefield.

Gonna walk back in again after my prof gives me a feedback for my literature review.

And this time, it'll be more deadly.

Behold

2011-11-07T15:51:00.003+08:00

After 2 years of searching, I have finally found my most expensive bag.

Lately

2011-11-03T18:16:00.002+08:00

I would say, its time to go sleepless again.

Shopping

2011-10-16T16:02:00.003+08:00

The shopaholic side of me is back with a vengeance!

This is rather unfortunate because I am out of scholarship, and hence should content myself with living like a pauper.

I have alot of shoes I realize. I always thought I have only a pair of slippers, and another pair of nice versatile wedge for important events to choose from.

But a discovery of a couple of other 6 inch heels in the shoe cupboard proved me wrong.

Oops, ive bought two new pairs of pumps.

And i cannot wait for the next Cotton-On sale because the newest collection is gorgeous, but oh-so-expensive.

Either that, or i should travel down to Australia for the cheap alternative.

Of course, Mum would recommend that I content myself with what I have in my already bursting wardrobe. Not that I am not trying.

Unfortunately, gorgeous Forever21, the new H&M, and my best friend's, weiyu, amazing new wardrobe, fresh from her trip to America has got me wanting more.

More, more, more. As if I can never be satisfied.

Its time to meditate.

2011-10-02T17:59:00.000+08:00

Please.

Don't ever speak to me again.

2011-10-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

I feel sorry, that i single-handedly destroyed myself.

2011-10-01T23:50:00.001+08:00

It's so painful... I can't even cry.

Chew on it

2011-09-09T09:30:00.002+08:00

You are a daughter of Christ
No one can take that title away from you.
-- Not even yourself.

Vietnam food and big hair

2011-06-25T14:40:00.003+08:00

This is weiyu.

And she had her hair permed.

This is me.

As you can see from this picture, I have highlighted my hair.

Oh no u cant, its in black and white.

We went to a vietnam restaurant. And this is drip coffee. It literally drips into the cup. For some reason, that makes the coffee taste amazing.

Sis looks better after using my My beauty diary mask. Lately, I'm into this series of mask. Look out for a radiant me these months until i get sick of it.

Us in the vietnam restaurant, Sharing our devotions and our testimonys of God's miracles in our lives.

Sis is gonna give another testimony tonight at church and i can't wait!

Dim sum buffet

2011-06-23T13:58:00.002+08:00

HI.

I had dim sum buffet at Zhou's kitchen for only 13.80+

I could have taken more pictures... but i was too lazy.

I forgot what this is but this is very good!

This is prawn paste chicken. Ive been eating this since i was a kid.

Wasabi mayo dumpling!

Of course, its the company that matters most. I organised this for my dear nursing peeps.

Its a great place for a gathering at such a cheap price.

At night, we went to receive sis from her Mission trip in Indonesia. She looks tired.

But she had alot of fun.

... as you can tell.

I am dead meat. SOMEONE HELP ME

2011-06-17T15:44:00.002+08:00

MY BLOOD PRESSURE HAS SOARED SKY HIGH! I AM SO STRESSED ABOUT THIS RESEARCH PROJECT!

I JUST got myself into boiling soup and i dont know how to solve it.

SO IM TURNIN TO MAGNUM ICE CREAM. HUR HUR

Strictly Pancakes

2011-06-13T17:12:00.005+08:00

At Strictly Pancakes cafe, we came... supposedly for a weekend breakfast which ended up being a weekend Brunch because we did not make any reservations and it was just too popular, even at that time of the day for pancakes. It was noon time, at about 1pm.

Thus, we had to wait for one hour. And where else better than Rochor Road Tau Huay Stall which was just down the road. We delighted ourselves meanwhile with some very refreshing treats and had this:

Cold Tau Huay.

And we had surprisingly amazing butterfly fritters. Sweet, crispy, and chunky. Hmm. I never used to like this when i was younger because i had eaten bad, lau feng ones. But this was really good.

Weiyu eating heartily.

Finally we got our long awaited table at Strictly Pancakes. Please learn from this very tough lesson and make reservations before visiting popular cafes.

Nutella Milkshake. Drink it and get yourself an orgasm.

Every pancake comes with a piece of butter of a flavor of your choice and maple syrup. My favorite two flavors are garlic-herb butter, and Rum and raisin butter (good for dessert pancakes).

We shared smoked salmon with pancakes. Looks abit dry here but they have a bowl of mayonnaise with herb to accompany this. It is very good, according to everyone else. Me, the biggest salmon fan, unfortunately did not think it was that fantastic.

THIS IS THE BEST! I will visit the place again for this amazing Garlic-Herb Butter prawns with pancakes. The prawns are fresh, crispy, and (relatively) big. It goes surprisingly well with the pancakes. You get an explosion of crisps, sweetness, buttery and salty taste in your mouth with this dish. Suddenly I think I sound like I am writing a food blog here.

For dessert pancakes, THIS IS pretty WONDERFUL. Its very chocolatey. Its named The Drug for a reason. I will come back for this for high tea!

Then we had fun playing at the lounge area where there were comfy sofas.

Best friends forever :D

Check out my hot new buy

2011-06-13T17:09:00.001+08:00

A hot Guess wallet.

Be very jealous. I know you are.

Alternate links

2011-06-11T13:30:00.003+08:00

I actually thrive better here

http://shuffz-farts.tumblr.com/
To satisfy your artistic palate... because i am actually very artistic.
Not.

http://www.twitter.com/shuffz89
If you have nothing else to do in your life.

Holidays

2011-06-03T20:13:00.006+08:00

MY attachment has ended!

That long-awaited end to the arduous journey is finally here!!!

Holidays has only just started this week and already I had some of the best moments in my life.

PROM on Monday!

its my first prom btw. A lil too old for prom so we called it dinner and dance.

Next up:

My batam trip with the nursing girls!!!

Im feelin all nostalgic already!

The best part about the trip was honestly the girl's company and the hotel stay. We behaved like 3 year old kids.

It was cheap, and amazingly grand and beautiful. PLUS, we seem to be the only ones in the hotel so we had everythingggg to ourselves. including the amazing buffet breakfast.

We drank ice wine and hung out at the rooftop poolside to star gaze... and played in the gym with our pyjamas.

Im feeling nostalgic already!!!

And i bought this beautiful blueee dressss... from the hotel for only 13 sing dollars.

okay things there are not as cheap as ud expect.

I MISS the girls! WHAT a wonderful start to my holiday!!!

2011-05-21T15:58:00.002+08:00

Perhaps i was made to live, for moments like these.

gahh

2011-05-14T11:59:00.003+08:00

My body has physical limitations when it comes to night shift.

At 4 am, i had an insatiable urge to vomit. And had gastric pains, and i was feeling sleepy and zoning out. It was dangerous giving medications at that time.

I am effin tired now but i cant sleep because its morning.

I will survive the next two days!

I am not a failure

2011-05-13T01:58:00.000+08:00

I will not let their demoralizing judgments get me down.

This is not a nightmare. It is a learning journey.

I have a choice to create my desired reality.

Where this is a will, there will be a way.

Study Time

2011-04-23T01:48:00.001+08:00

It's break from work and time for studies.

Never thought I'll be happier.

Work blues

2011-04-08T22:39:00.004+08:00

After work today, i finally got the time to breathe. At least there is no work tomorrow.

These days, I worked as if I have no soul, as if I had lost all personality and sense of self. I come home to do my reports and memorised hospital protocols in fear.... But still it is in vain, I am scolded like a dog everyday. I live in fear everyday. There is so much to know and so much to get adjusted to. And then I find myself going back to square one because the other nurses shake their heads at me for being inefficient, given that I do not have much clinical experience as compared to the ITE or Poly students.

I memorise and memorise, i grow weary, and she never fails to remind me how lousy I am. She'd repeat it everyday, and she wont let me do anything, because, I am too lousy. My fear and lack of confidence has caused me a brain block. I know my stuff, i just find it hard to apply it in practise. I worked without a break today, I stood and ran around for hours on end, from 6 am to 4 pm, with no breakfast or lunch, and a terrible headache. I got scolded again... I never got the chance to remove drains i told her, but i wanted to try. I was scolded again for not having done it. Everything was blamed on the individual. I did not learn these stuff, i learnt theoretical stuff that were seemingly irrelevant to the line of work, I memorise and ace in those stuff, but cannot apply it in practise. I just don't know why. They blame me for being lazy. But I've been trying hard to learn everyday. I study like a dog in school, I am not a lazy student. But I am such a doomed failure and an embrassment.

Someone asked me a question this morning, which has been posed to me for the upteenth time, "Why?... Why nursing?" She says... I have no choice but to be in nursing because i cannot apply for other courses in my diploma. But you had the choice, so why? I looked at her and didnt reply. I didnt know what to answer. I wanted to say passion. But i realized that passion cannot get you far, I may have been too idealistic. Why? Why did i choose this and work like a dog. All my theoretical work, all my hardwork at studying, where have they gone? I find myself not applying most of what I worked so hard for. Why am I doing this, be scolded everyday, and looked down upon ...

when all i ever wanted from this profession was an opportunity to care for others...

Amidst a busy afternooon today, I saw one of my NUS lecturers from a distance, she'd come to visit us. She came to me to talk, and asked if I was doing okay... we took a walk.. I've kept quiet and have been living in a world of discouragement, fear and hard work for this past week. Only to feel worse each day. I work with another NUS student in this place, and we experience the same problems. So when finally someone expressed concern, I broke down. Suddenly I am reminded of my all-too-idealistic hopes of providing care to the ill and needy. I am not lazy and I genuinely care for my patients. I never meant harm when I came into this profession, but I feel horrible... by all the judgment, scoldings and sometimes second class treatment.

When work finally ended this afternoon, i took some time to acknowledge my feelings and reflect upon the past week. A flashback reminded me of what I had said during my interview into the NUS nursing course where it all started. Prof Watson asked a very odd question,

"What is your greatest fear about the future?"

I thought hard... before giving an honest reply, "It is...to give up on a dream...".

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And I realize that I cannot give up. No matter what. I have to brave this storm. My God will be with me. When I study for my exams, I will tear down whatever obstacle that come my way. This period of clinical attachment will not be an exception. Afterall, being a nurse is God's gift and blessing to me.

I will continue to work hard and stay strong.. wherever that takes me.

Dry your tears and walk on.

2011-04-06T23:34:00.000+08:00

When I graduate, I will have absolutely no life.

2011-04-06T01:22:00.002+08:00

My focus should be on saving lives, not my ass.

my troubles

2011-03-31T00:24:00.002+08:00

I really hate giving injections. Cos im afraid to inflict pain. And it makes me very upset. But i have to be less sensitive to this.. because sometimes, pain is necessary for a better outcome.

GRR

2011-03-29T11:02:00.003+08:00

I've gotta work, do my report for my attachments, study about work-related stuff, STUDY for my exams, work on my assignment, and what not. SO NO MORE outings or appointments please. It can wait till after everything is over. Grr.rrr. rrr. rr. r.. i dont foresee a very good time workin here. Bye, im off to work and im gonna be drowning in the red sea again.

Rainbows after the rain

2011-03-24T22:47:00.003+08:00

COLOURS! XIAO LONG BAO!
its good that i get rainbow xiao long baos after a very long time of being deprived of good food. Be jealous! you know you should.

And i had 4 longs of it. No wonder an ol' guy friend i met up with last night told me im alot fatter these days. He wasn't joking. I stared hard to observe his non-verbal cues, hoping to spot a hint of cheekyness, but no. He was serious.

Fats hidden behind a wall of XIAO LONG BAOs.

Us savouring.

This guy is damn cool.

Some day, i want to grow up to be just like him.

ya lor, very nice.

I gobbled my food down fiercely.

OKay i really have to get to work now. Im working and studying. Sian.

tired.

My Groceries

2011-03-20T14:05:00.003+08:00

I bought a beautiful basket, and a bunch of pink roses to accompany it.

And a colorful top, which grass thinks is the ugliest top in the world. Sis thinks otherwise.

I think I have great taste.

Don't you think so too?

Loraine's Birthday & Last day of School

2011-03-20T01:20:00.004+08:00

The nursing girls had a brithday celebration for Beloved Loraine.

It was really intimate :)
I'll cherish the memories we've had studying in NUS. These girls are one of the nicest, most caring, loveliest girls ive ever studied with. <3>

It was our batch's last day of school just last week, after our major practical exam, OSCE.

Being in NUS nursing has changed me in so many ways. Even though some of us will be staying on for Honours years while others graduate as nurses (finally)... i dont think we'll ever forget the company we've had and the support we've given each other through the past 3 years.

My new room

2011-03-19T23:10:00.002+08:00

HEY! i just revamped my new room in Bishan.

From my window, I can view the sea.

I love the pink.

And yes, my new mirror. Isn't it hot.

Sorry about the black bag i was about to leave the house.

I bet you're really envious now aren't you?

Don't you wish this were ur room too?

hehe.

Because I Just Felt Like Blahgging.

2011-03-16T20:14:00.002+08:00

For a moment back there, i really thot my computer had crashed.

The nightmare stories of my peers have really got to me. Now im paranoid.

When i turned on my computer at the Korean restaurant while waiting for my food (because of my insatiable attachment to my computer) it was blank screen. not really. i couldnt even turn it on.

so nervously, i took out its battery and put it back on. The light shone. I heaved a huge sigh of relief. My laptop loves to give me scares like these.

Im finally done with my teaching assignment. But lets not get complacent here.

It is hugely distracting... this series of fart im letting out every second of the night. Im surprised I haven't flown to Mars.

Argh i cant waiitttt to get my Android and 3G data card back. Then i can take pictures and just upload em when i want to.

Currently im studying(supposedly) at Starbucks, with English Breakfast Tea.. that tastes exactly like Teh... Only costlier.

My Hair is getting Huger and Huger (if there is even such a word).
Apparently, from a poodle, id turned into Tina Turner now that my hair has grown an inch longer.

Okay im just blogging, because im actually supposed to be studying right now for my exam on Friday but im trying to find an excuse to dodge work.

I really have to go back now.

BYE

2011-03-12T00:18:00.002+08:00

It really breaks one's heart to witness so much suffering in this world.

Pray for Japan.

Pray for God's people... for we were all made in His image.

There will come a day,
when there's nothing left in this world,
but only faith, hope, and love.

My Dad, and his Toy

2011-03-10T23:55:00.003+08:00

Dad bought a new phone after losing his old one and was proud of his buy.

He was especially fascinated by the bright torchlight that came with it.

He showed off to me by shining it into the dark room while i was studying, which i was apathetic to.

So he walked to mommy's bedroom and shined it into her face while she was sleeping.

which was responded to with alot of angry and hysterical shrills.

He then walked off to the living room to broadcast his new buy to Muji.

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HAHA Dad is like a little boy. everytime he buys something new, he'd get so fascinated with it he'd fiddle with it ALL night without sleeping. This fascination will carry on for a few days until he gets bored of it.

Its like that with the camera. Hes bought tons of gadgets to complement his huge camera. everytime a parcel comes, you can expect him to play with it all night.

Sometimes i feel more matured than my Dad.

I love him still =)

Might Like You Better, If We Slept Together

2011-03-05T09:37:00.001+08:00

This song is stuck in my head.

Maybe i should sleep with my assignments.

I've been procrastinating alot.

Everytime its time to get down to work, I start bumming around and doing everything but my assignment.

And why is that so?

because i dont know where I'm headed I dont know if I'm even doing it right. The instructions are so vague and i don't even know what is expected.

So i think I'm really doing a screwed-up paper.

It is very unfortunate that that is what is on my mind as I attempt to write my paper.
Because I am doing the opposite of Positive imagery, the psychological tactic athletes use to boost their confidence and do well.

I think i might need a miracle to save me this semester.

Ouch

2011-03-02T20:03:00.002+08:00

It seems my voice is gone

in just a matter of a few hours.

I have lost my feminine voice box... because i sound like Tarzan, who had screamed too much into the wilderness.

I am coughing like a mad dog.

I've not last through school for a full day since the start of this week.

Even panadol can't help me now.

Its time i surrender and see a doc.

Swiss Exchange

2011-03-01T12:13:00.002+08:00

The headache and malaise is killing me!

Everytime im in a lecture i wish i can get out fast to rest.

I need panadol.

Which reminds me. I have to save up because I might beeeee

going to Switzerland for Exchange!

Its just two weeks so you won't have to miss me for too long.

Sis will be sleeping in my maid's room while I'm gone because she's afraid to sleep alone.

Unfortunately there are only 4 places and everyone wants to be a part of it. So i doubt I'll get it unless I impress Professor Sunil with some punches... he loves kickboxing.

I really need to save up. So im not gettin panadol for now until I'm home.

zzz

Sick, Swollen Eye, Poodles and Tarzan

2011-02-28T20:29:00.003+08:00

Life can;t get any worse for me.

Im going to have extremely bad hair day everyday for months until my hair grows out because i spent 100 dollars cutting an atrociously short hair.

I WILL NEVER ALLOW ANYONE OTHER THAN ERI TO CUT HAIR EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I am feeling so sick right now i cant do work cos i am drowsy.

I have to change my assignment topic after working on it for the longest time.

Ive got an eye infection and its making my right eye puffy.

Im sniffing away every second of the day and ive got a bad headache.

Back to the hair:
I look like a poodle. My waves are out of control because the hair is short.
basically, i look like Tarzan, the jungle boy who refused to cut his hair.

How many years will it take before my hair will grow back to its original lush.

the thought of it makes me faint.

Im in such a terrible mood right now.

2011-02-23T21:29:00.002+08:00

I needa get a nursing watch!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its been two years of procrastination.

Hoot Hoot

2011-02-23T05:56:00.005+08:00

Hi recess week!

I took the time out to cut my hair yesterday. I can see how much of a mane it is... Dan thinks it makes me look like a ghost.

SO yes, its slightly shorter now.

Sis went to dye her hair the hoot hoot style.

and shan cut her fringe.

my hairdresser thinks i was totally out of my mind for dying my hair jet black.

A few of the other hairdressers shook their heads in agreement.

Sis and shan!

Lousy service we got by the way.

the instagram effect

Its always great to spend intimate time with Sis and Shan!

we cam whored at carl's junior. thanks, the food is giving me sore throat now.

Might i just add that instagram is so cool!

Which reminds me I have not developed my first roll of film yet. :S

i bet its full of over/under exposed images.

In the Garden

2011-02-21T00:28:00.000+08:00

A lovely song!

I come to the garden alone
While the dew is still on the roses
And the voice I hear falling on my ear
The son of God discloses

And He walks with me
And He talks with me
And He tells me I am His own
And the joy we share as we tarry there
None other has ever known

He speaks and the sound of His voice
Is so sweet that the birds hush their singing
And the melody that He gave to me
Within my heart is ringing

And He walks with me
And He talks with me
And He tells me I am His own
And the joy we share as we tarry there
None other has ever known

And the joy we share as we tarry there
None other has ever known

Happy Valentine's Day

2011-02-15T19:35:00.003+08:00

Its valentines.

Everywhere, there are people carrying bouquets of flowers and couples walkin hand in hand.

I was with my dear rachel... spendin our most intimate time together at training. With terence, our beloved coach. He didnt eat his dinner just to hold pads for us.

The gym was scattered with only a few people because everyone was busy with valentines.

When i walked home.. i seemed to be the only single person around... tired shagged.. sweaty and carrying two big lumpy bagful of things. And very contented.

I feel lucky to be where im at.

In the train.. i studied and read about my patients' diagnosis .. i listened to wonderful oldies and watched the world go by.
I feel great being single. There is so much to look forward to in life now that i have a whole load of time to spend on things that matter most to me.

When working, I feel fortunate to be blessed with the opportunity to care for the weak and vulnerable. They are very lovable, but unfortunately struck with disease and very sadly, stigmatised by society and even their families. No doubt it takes alot of patience, but providing care to these people is so therapeutic it takes whatever troubles one has away.

I thank God for everything. And for the beautiful friends and family I've been blessed with!

And to all the couples! May you all be lovely on this day.

Happy Valentine's Day!

2011-02-13T00:46:00.000+08:00

He taught me that even the darkest clouds have glimmers in them.

CHINESE NEW YEAR

2011-02-08T09:49:00.003+08:00

HI Earth.

It was a pretty packed Lunar New Year for me this year!

It was pretty wonderful cos i got to take some time out to spend some quality time with my family and relatives!

We went to resort world sentosa so i thought id juz show u some pics

OKay i gotta get to IMH!

BYE

hairdresser and camera

2011-01-24T23:22:00.002+08:00

I must say... I LOVE MY HAIRDRESSER!

He's gay, He's hot, Hes funny... what can I ask for?

AND he knows just exactly what i want!

He simply envies the style that i love and he'd make it happen for me!

He thinks Singaporean guys arent hot.

He teased me about my date.

And we HUGGED! I just love him so much!

Anyway... I GOT A LOMOGRAPHY CAMERA!!!!!!!

Nick just came back from Australia and surprised me with a phone call last night.

So we met up today AND I CANT believe it but he got me a lomo CAMERA!!!!

MY first lomo camera!

Im so gonna play around with it!

I love photography!

2011-01-10T13:18:00.007+08:00

We are but curious little children, exploring the mysteries of the world.

Love

2011-01-04T00:23:00.004+08:00

I gave my testimonial in front of approximately 80 over people on new year's day!

I did this sharing.. with my family in mind as well.

Invited my whole family to hear me speak.

I know... how brave right? I never would have done this a week ago.

But no matter how nervous i was i knew i had to do it.

By the way, the speech had to be done --- IN CHINESE

Before u loll yourself over and fall out of your chair... people actually understood everything ok!

That night, strangers walked up to tell me that the testimonial touched their hearts... which is really great! i hope i got my message across.

One of the things I talked about was the importance of cherishing our families and the people around us before it is too late.

that bit was aimed at reaching out to some of the youths/adults who have made the mistake i did.

... and i did it for my family. my family's broken. And i had hoped that the sharing would touch their hearts... so that we'll all work together to bring fire into this home again.

And im glad i did because that night we had one of the sweetest memories of our lives.

It was Muji's birthday, and we worked together to make this birthday really special for her.

In case u dont know who muji is, she's my maid of 8 years and she's like a sister to me.

Here are some pictures:

I hope my family members are not scaring you with their seeming lack of cheerfulness.

Mom and muji like to stone into the camera because they think smiling makes their faces look stretched and fat, like play doughs.

Dad... well, hes just being himself.

just joking, my dad's a very fun-loving man.

I just wanna thank God for giving me the courage to speak, to share my walk in life with Him.

I love because God loved me first.

Goodnight!

I don't know about tomorrow

2011-01-01T14:39:00.005+08:00

I don’t know about tomorrow,
I don’t have a guarantee
That it will be filled with sunshine
Or that these clouds will always be.

I don’t know about tomorrow,
I don’t have a guarantee,
That it will bring any riches
Or greater poverty.

I don’t know about tomorrow,
I don’t have a guarantee,
That the air will be filled with music
Or if there will be no melody.

I don’t know about tomorrow,
I don’t have a guarantee.
The events of the future
Aren’t for me to see.

I don’t need to know the details,
Or what might happen when.
I just need to know what Trust is
And how to hold His hand.

I might be afraid of failure,
I might be afraid of pain.
But every life has sunshine
Just as surely as it has rain.

So I don’t know about tomorrow.
I don’t need a guarantee
I can still choose to make it
As happy as it can be.

I can choose to smell the roses,
And be thankful for the thorns
And to focus on the blessings
Hidden even in the storms.

I don’t know about tomorrow.
I don’t have a guarantee.
But Lord make my heart always thankful
For every blessing you let me see.

Let me trust you with tomorrow,
And with the problems and the pain
And gather up the simple beauties of the good times
And the blessings of storm and rain.

- By Chantel Brankshire, from ylcf.org

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Im sorry i didnt bring my cam around for the past few days!

I really should have.

I would have taken a gorgeous shot and post it up to wish everyone a very Merry new year. A beautiful shot speaks a thousand words.

These past few days have been one of the most beautiful times of my life.

I was at St. John's island for church camp. It ended on the last day of 2010. And i went out with some of my bestest friends who grew up with me... who weathered the storms of life with me... on the night of new year's eve.

When i came back home, all i can think of is... my family. And how lucky I am to be where I'm at.

I feel lucky, to have been given the gift to listen, look, feel, speak, ... for others.

I have a mouth to speak... to rally others to change their lives and those around them.

I have eyes to see... and be aware of the suffering of the needy.

i have ears to listen... to the cries of the poor.

i have hands .. that is able to lend support to the fallen.

I have a heart, that is touched by God, to help and touch the lives of people.

Life will never be the same again.

St John's island is such a beautiful place.

I was given the opportunity to bask in the night winds at the beach... with my best friend, grass... just the two of us... looking out to the opposite shore where we can see the ferris wheel and marina bay sands.

We were alone, sitting on a bench, beneath two trees... And singing our favourite songs.

There was nobody. And it was dark because there were hardly any lights.

It was 1 am.

I would never forget this beautiful moment...

after experiencing God's miracles for 3 days, it was serene to be sitting there and pondering over all that He has done in our lives.

I realized for a startling moment that.... God has been with me.. every step of the way through my life... Only i couldnt see it.. and couldnt understand it... until that very day.

I left Him for months.

But He has never left me.

Just like how he had promised me on the day i accepted Him into my heart, many years ago.

He spoke to my heart several times... and told me that nothing is impossible.

I never dared to speak in public... much less share about my very personal life with strangers... But i did. Because He gave me the strength to.

I told him i could never pray for others because im horrible with my expression and i dont know how to do it.

But He told me He was gonna make me pray for the entire group during the service.. and oh gosh Pastor really called me out to pray.

These little inadequacies and imperfections that i have placed at the foot of the cross, He gently held it and made my inadequacies adequate, my imperfections... perfect.

God loves His children... very much. He loves even those who dont yet know Him, or who criticize him.

He loves all of us the same... regardless of our race, background, personality, or imperfections.

I know this because He loves and never despises me... the one person who has sinned against Him time and time again.

Still, like a loving Father, he welcomes me with open arms each time after I've strayed away.

He never gave up on me.. not once.. not ever.

Thank You Dad... for everything.

Happy New Year!!!

Merry Christmas

2010-12-26T18:07:00.009+08:00

I gotta do this post quickly before my Dad finishes shitting in the toilet and snatches the computer from me.

I know its boxing day already but.. Merry christmas everybody!

I spent eve with my family.. which was real sweet. It was the first time i actually got christmas presents for my family.

OKay i know you might think it is a little too late since i was born 21 years ago..and i had 20 times of opportunity to do that.. but my family never really celebrated christmas. I decided to take the initiative.

This year i really wanted it to be special.. by spending it with my family. I wanted to share the joy i have on christmas... because its really special to me. It is afterall my heavenly Dad's birthday.

Then at 12 midnight i sent out some ecards to old friends that i havent had time to spend with this holiday. I've been very busy and ive neglected some of them. I really miss them all and would love to catch up.. but sometimes its just pretty hard cos im practically Busy All The Time.

i was so distracted by wondering what to do with my hectic schedule that i forgot to S/U my module. SO my CAP is pretty low now.

I cant forgive myself.. Im sorry, Self. I cant forgive you. I just can't. *bangs head on wall*

So here's what i did on Christmas day.

Spent some intimate time with my childhood buddies :D

Kaela (who is none other than Shan, and has recently changed her name of late.. again. haha) is back from Korea!

With some nice goodies, might I add.
Check out what she's holding... You probably can't read it unless you understand Korean.

Cheese Ramen
In other words, the most orgasmic thing in the world.

We cooked our christmas lunch. With alot of joy. Dont underestimate us. We're amazing cooks.

Hmm... pro huh?

... fine, it was instant campbell soup.

In fact most of us were just standing around to watch while one person cooks.

Amused look on amanda's face... she's never seen anyone cook her whole life :O

Happy to prepare christmas lunch!

We watched a great movie over christmas lunch.

It is called --- SEXDRIVE.

Look at all their excited faces.

Fang astonished by what she sees on the screen.

Haha its not porn, really. In fact, its a really funny movie.
From the time the movie starts, you'll start laughing all through it until it ends.

Here's our Korean Cheese Ramen. Very Asian. I like the chinese newspaper for a background prop. I am obsessed with being asian.. you can tell that cos i dyed my hair -- Jet Black.

Happy people.

So this was our intimate little christmas!

Merry Christmas! :D

Yes?

2010-12-24T18:49:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas everybody!

Its Christmas eve and I'm gonna do the thangg with my family.

We gotta do e thang Cmon.

Cos family's one in a million.

HAHAHA

Im sure none of u got the joke.

But its okay as long as i do.

Nothing's gonna change my world

2010-12-23T02:37:00.008+08:00

Nothing's gonna change my world.

It is perfect as it is.

Morning

2010-12-11T14:19:00.007+08:00

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HEYLO!

One fine day, i made a resolution to capture images with my new cannon 60D as an appreciation of beautiful mornings, before all the buzz as i head off to school/work.

I AM the photographer and i had to emphasize this in that last picture. Aren't I proud! *smugs*

2010-12-06T22:49:00.004+08:00

So i was at Sephora, the big make up shop.

I was just browsing when one of the sales lady hopped right in front of me and started drawing on my face.

What an enthusiastic artist! I think she mistook my face for a sketch pad!

You know i think she decided that... she wanted to draw a Wayang show actress.

Because my very Long and extremely Black Hair inspired her to create such an image.

And so she did.

With a lil dab of red lipstick, I'd be fit for Halloween.

It was really lovely I must say.

I am going to walk out of my house everyday looking like that. Thanks to this very talented artist.

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Hi lovely night!

thanks to attachment... i've got a sore back now.

And my eyelids are weight lifting as i struggle to keep them open.

I am so gonna create a nice beautiful photo album on 'mornings' with my amazing DSLR camera when im free. That is.. when this attachment ends.

I cant really talk about attachment on a public blog.. but if you'd allow me to just say something...

Infants are really pink.

I'm back!

2010-12-04T00:30:00.008+08:00

Hey crickets! I just got back from malaysia!

After each grueling semester (which is every semester), I'll find a time to get myself a drastic change. Its soemthing i must reward myself with.

Last semester... I PERMED my hair HAHA

Bobo, my hairdresser, told me it was gonna straighten out in 3 months time.

Unfortunately, i got goldilock's curls.

An Asian Goldilock... sounds... just weird.

Thankgoodness it did straighten out with time. Its been 8 months now. Though the curls are still there, they're so much looser and bouncier now.

Guess what major change i did this time?

Dont bother guessing cos id blogged about this in my last two posts.

I dyed my hair -- Jet black.

I know I know.. it isnt much of a change, u might say, since i already have naturally black hair.

Every guy has been discouraging me from doing this... my girl friends too.. except for my sister and Celestine.

BUT its MY DREAM HAIR!!! I'd argue time and time again.

NOoo... trust me! Highlight your hair.. everyone does that and it looks good on them!

SO i resisted and resisssted and resisssssteddddd the powerful and mighty force of peer pressure...

AND YES!!! I succeeded!

I came out a winner.. no trophies though.

I got the 'dream hair'

I look like a woman from the century of the cavemen.

Back to pursuing my native roots. I'm proud to look like an Ancient Chinese.

And dont OH NO!!!! WHY SHUFEN!!

The work is complete. The change has been done.

Best part is:

FINALY after 21 years... Sis and I look have vastly different looks now.

She's got blonde highlights... although definitely not her intention. It was a mistake on the hairdresser's part. Dont freak out though! she kinda likes it.. hm not reli.

So shes blonde with straght hair..

I have ehh.... jet black with wavy hair.

Hopefully you guys will like e new change!

Dont forget to comment on how beautiful it is.

Its very unfortunate but I'm deaf to criticisms.

Haheha (Like a horse)
Why horse? i dont know it just came to me.

2010-11-30T10:35:00.002+08:00

I just realised how boring my life really is.

Everytime someone asks, "How's life?"

"I've been studying"

Its almost like a standard answer.

My life is full of books and papers and laptops and keyboards and mouse and libraries and ...

It is so bad... that I have now been greeted with "How's life apart from work?"

So im tryina do a major revamp here.

after the exams im gonna be a huge party goer, im gnna be cranky everyday im gonna live the life of e rich and famous.. im gonna live like paris hilton.. im gonna twitter like paris hilton..

Just joking.

Im still gonna be who i am.

BYE!

Thank You

2010-11-26T10:25:00.002+08:00

Truly, for all that He has done for me, Thank You Jesus.

When i woke up this morning and decided to thank God for the lil things in my life... i realize i have alot to be grateful for.

in Him, I found strength, I found peace of mind, I found wisdom, and I found love to move through the arduous journey of life.

Life's really worth living because of You!

Happy Thanksgiving Everybody!

2010-11-25T22:00:00.003+08:00

Im pretty sure someone peed in the bus i was on this morning.

And the bus was travelling at turtle speed. The driver was probablly tryina smell some flowers along the way.

Its been long since i last stepped out of e house and onto e field early in e morning. After cooping myself at home for the last century to study for the exams, it felt refreshing! And it reminded me of how beautiful God's creations are!

So I had my first final exam today. 3 more to go. EXCITING! Not.

For one, I'm blogging because my eyelids have this insatiable urge to close every millisecond.
And ive got so much work to do!

And i just spent my whole evening watching youtube videos again :S

This is... I must admit.. a true disaster. I just spent precious hours away like that.

maybe its just this semester... I'm burnt out. Don't worry I'm not charred. Yet.

Speaking of being charred. Ive already got some plans coming up for my 3 day holiday! Whoopeee

I've already booked a spa session on the day of my final exam.

I'm a lil bored of fairness so I'm gonna find a day to get myself REAL TANNED! AND I MEAN IT! WHITE SKIN, YOU're finished! You're gonna be so CHARRED!

I'm going over-the-sea for a full day.. trip planned with Grass, Shuffz jr. and Leswee. We've planned this for months now. And i cant wait.
Basically, each of us will be doing a makeover there.

MY MAkeover will be EPIC! it will be a huge change! You wont even be able to recognise me!

So if u should see a stranger calling out to you... it might just be your lil friend, me.

Im gonna DYE MY HAIR! --- Jet Black. What a revamp it's gonna be.

Cant wait to TAKE MORE SHOTS WITH MY DSLR CAMERA!!!!

All these and more... in just three days. :S

Gotta pack my schedule real tight... like how muji packs sandwiches.

Then its off to the hospitals.
I'll be delivering babies!!! Cant wait to see crying bloody babies.
Just joking.. i think itll be an experience. Its always a joy to see God's creation. Im gonna welcome babies to planet Earth! How cool is that?!

Hello Lil thing

2010-11-23T02:55:00.001+08:00

I was studying late into the night.

When an ant decided to prance around my textbook which irritated me.

So i flicked it. And flicked it, and flicked it, and FLICKED it!

And carried on with my reading.

When i turned my head towards it again, the ant was on its back. and struggling to stand on its six feet, but to no avail. Death was looming as i watched and considered ending its pain... it was the only humane option left. It was suffering.

It was a terribly pitiful sight... I couldnt bear to watch... I turned my head away.. and sobbed.. no, I moaned for this little sign of life.
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Not exactly.

Anyway, I was really inspired by this little ant. Despite the fact that it was crippled, pretty badly, it was making huge efforts to get back on its feet. Poor thing, didnt look like it was gonna make it. SO i prayed for it, and decided not to kill it... since it wanted so much to stay alive.

Next thing i know.. it was right in front of me.. crawling on my book... of course crippled, like an old man... and struggling to walk. And it made it!

I watched as it disappeared underneath the table and gave it an applause and standing ovation.

So i decided to dedicate a blog post to this little living thing.

Right now as im stressed and burnt out with work and exams... Im on a serious verge of giving up everything i once worked so hard for. Countless of times, ive strewn my books aside and told myself.. You're not gonna make it. I've lost the drive.. ive lost my motivation.. to be a good nurse. When i think about my patients i dont seem to care so much about their well-being anymore. Just as long as i can get by, anything goes. Why bother providing optimal care. I dont wanna be a nurse no more.

SO i guess this little ant has made me come to a startling realization. It splashed some cold water into my face and yelled at me! WAke up! You once told yourself that your greatest fear in all of these was to give up on this dream.

Okay im more awake to continue with revision now!

Not really Zzzzzz

Crap! Another ant! theres some kind of ant infestation in this study room.

Words from a typical Asian - the nerdy beast

2010-11-21T20:06:00.004+08:00

I am sick of studying and studying and studying and studying and studyign and studying and studying...

Ive had 2 naps. Shame on me.

Yes i am your beast - the nerdy beast.

iphones FTW

2010-11-20T10:12:00.002+08:00

Mom is thinking of getting us an iphone. But, i think it's unneccessary.

I wouldnt wanna get one.. imagine being connected to the social networks 24/7. When will i have my time of solace and peace from the very socially-connected internet world.

Its a huge distraction. iphone comes with a really cool camera and with fun photo editting features. When i carry my huge DSLR camera with me, i am so bent on taking beautiful and artistic pictures that I get disconnected from the social gatherings or wherever I'm at and its hard to enjoy the moment. Yes, it is tough being the camera man.
What happens if i get an iphone and become a camera man 24/7? Life is gonna be so tough and cruel.

i think iphones are really cool!...though. There are tons of fun applications. And the best part.. u can twitter right away.. wherever ur at.

You can tell e world ur drunk.. right at that very moment when ur drunk.

You can take pictures and upload it immediately via twitter and tell e world how much fun ur havin so that everyone will get so jealous of u.

iphone has got what it takes to satisfy the humanly desire to be cool.

Those who think they dont need an iphone, silently they desire it, but they hide this.. so they'll appear even cooler.. cos i mean you cant get any cooler than appearing like ur not trying to be cool.

Maybe thats why i wrote this post to tell the world that i dont need an iphone.

Just joking.

2010-11-16T22:03:00.001+08:00

I've been watching kevjumba for the past hour and a half.

SHIT!

2010-11-11T19:50:00.001+08:00

life sux ttm.

its okay, i always score badly anyway. i shd have expected this.

2010-11-08T21:22:00.003+08:00

I ALMOST forgot that i HAVE A BLOG!!!

Sorry but twitter is the in thing now.. so if ur still reading this... you must be outta ur mind!

Theres spider web all over blogger.

Now i am so tempted to shop.

And i look monstrous now thanks to many days of lack of sleep

these past weeks have been torturous to say the least! Assignment after assignment... tests after tests...

Tomorrow theres another exam...

Pardon me and my drones...

OH CRAP I NEED TO SHOP!

but my wardrobe is soo full a quarter of my clothes cant fit into it anymore! so they are just left to hang outside.

I keep buying more clothes but it never seems enough..

I think ive been afflicted with shopaholic syndrome.

They should medicalize it.

Oh and Cris called me all e way from US yesterday! but i thot it was an insane salesperson so i didnt pick it up.

Okay im gonna sleep night.

The Korean trip that wasn't meant to be

2010-08-29T11:51:00.003+08:00

SOOOO SADDDDD IM not going to Korea for christmassss!!!!!!!

Thats it ill find some place else. I havent left singapore for 11 years I cant take it anymore!!!

I NEED A GOOD VACATION AT SOME PLACE THATS AMAZINGLY EXOTIC!!!

Now America doesnt sound so bad anymore.

I WILL LEAVE SINGAPORE THIS HOLIDAY!!! I WILL!!!

I WILL SIT IN AN SQ PLANE THIS HOLIDAY! I WILL!!

2010-08-25T00:32:00.000+08:00

What am i doing when it is already Week 3.

I've been youtubing, watching movies, going out with friends.

Im so gonna score this semester.

2010-08-15T23:48:00.003+08:00

The event is over!

There was alot of drama during the tournament.

We made some really cool friends from the other institutions when we were helping each other out with the setting up of e ring and stuff.

But in all honesty, I screwed up.

I am deeply embarassed about my performance and i deserved that draw.

That being said, its a real setback.. but i will not give this sport up because of this. There have been times in my life when i encounter huge failures and went into depression for weeks on end.. and im too ashamed to ever go back..

i dont think i have e face to go back to trainings.. But i have to. To give up, is to err further.

I commend my opponent for her wonderful fighting spirit that she put up that i did not have.

I'm sorry to have let ppl who had faith in me down. :(

But i wil keep trying harder.

2010-08-10T01:04:00.002+08:00

Hey guys!

ive been horribly busy with everything... apart from bein stressed over my own trg there is e team to think about... and the organising of the event.

Its gonna be seriously huge this time cos.. geez the ambassador is gracing the event. SO NOTHING MUST GO WRONG I WILL NOT TOLERATE LATE COMING FIGHTERS OR USHERS OR I WILL SLAUGHTER HIM ALIVE.

I dont know how dan and i are gona cope this sat. Dan is more stressed cos hes got a bigger responsibility on his shoulders.

Im reli thaknful for real wonderful freidns who have been offerin help for the event bcos it means sooo much tht pple actually offer help when we're really realy stretched and stressed til our heads are swelling.

That aside. I am horribly tired everyday. Time for trg again tmr.

AND OH NO SCHOOL HAS STARTED! WHAT HORROR ive not had a proper holiday!

2010-08-09T23:36:00.001+08:00

Tired. Tired. Tired..... Tired.

2010-08-06T23:48:00.001+08:00

I'm really like.. effin stressssed.

A big thank you to all of you lovelies

2010-08-05T00:25:00.006+08:00

Hi Guys!!!

I know this is late but ive been humongously busy lately!

As you all dont know, i turned into an adult quite recently. Isnt this a wonderful gift to planet Earth? No longer shall the inhabitants of this planet suffer from Shuffy's immaturity.

Jus kidding. I am still immature.

ok im jokin on tht one. I turned into a full fledged 'matured' adult a few days ago

Jokes aside, Id really love to thank all of you for making this birthday such a special one! I really didnt expect any of these.

Stuff has been happening lately but life goes on. I will not give up and i will continue doin my best to help as much as i can.

I want to live my life out for God's glory!

Ive been stressed out over everything lately and ive been busy over everything. That is despite the holidays.

Definitely not arranged in order of importance:

On the day before my birthday... someone really amazing gave me this Mikimoto necklace... i was so touchd i had to tear... dont get me wrong im not that into material wealth but... it was the thought behind it that made it such a beautiful gift tht's close to my heart :) Thanks i really love it! I've been wearing it for all my birthday celebrations thereafter. :)

Also not forgetting my dearest track girls... who took the time out to make this really beautiful and funny vid of good ol' times tht is now on facebook. And thats not all because the girls surprised us with this DIY-ed wonderful piece of art! Thank you sooo much girls. <3>

And of course.. Arch, wee, and pei pei.. for the other video u girls made for us... the wonderful dinner.. the cards, the vouchers... the failed 12 midnight surprise (haha).. and the great and amazing times ;)

A simple but beautiful celebration with my Judo dearies at fish and co.

Muay thai Khakis. Thank you so much for tht wonderful gathering Baangsss

This wonderful hair stick from Kokun Tozai from Les and Ee. Thank you thank you so much girls... for tht wonderful meet up with Josh and terence.. the meal.. the efforts.. and the wonderful catch ups. <3

The wonderful and amazing time spent with my beautiful Nursing girls! Thank you for the home-baked Cake!!!! and the beautifully written card from all of u! Thank you so much for the planning and the efforts im deeply touched! You girls make me such a happy person :)

ANd many many many moreee!!!

I genuinely treasure each one of these gifts and the birthday treats.. every single one of them... although without any special mention they really mean as much to me as every other gift.. all gifts big or small have really touched my heart. I am so thankful for all of the times, the effort, the thought behind these.. the preparations... basically EVERYTHING! Your efforts meant the world to me :) and im dead serious abt tht. *sterns face*

I cannot thank you guys enough for everything.

I seriously wasnt expecting any of these becos i really wouldnt want u guys to go through all tht trouble for me.. but u did anyway... which is really overwhelming for me.

Thank you.

I know ive been such a busy person with training and what not... but i really want u every one of u in my life to know how indispensable a role each one of you play in my life and to make me the person i am today.

Last but not least, id love to thank God, my dearest Father and Saviour... for loving me.. and for blessing me with the presence of wonderful people in my life.

For everything You've done for me... Thank You, Heavenly Father.

2010-08-02T10:30:00.001+08:00

I just had a dream. That spurred me on to do whatever i wanted to do before i slept.

2010-08-01T18:03:00.000+08:00

If you don't believe in yourself, then no one else will.

2010-07-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

Guys.

Alot of trouble.

Why.

:

trouble yourself not

2010-07-09T01:20:00.005+08:00

To tell u e truth... i do not take my birthday seriously.

Its just another date... like any other date.

There are people that you can use e money, effort and time to help that you would have otherwise unwisely spent it for my birthday.

So please do not rack your brains over what to do or get me for my birthday because really... its just another date.

Im serious i dont want you to trouble yourselves over this. And i mean it! for real.

2010-06-28T01:10:00.001+08:00

HELLO world!

I smelll beautiful flowers!

and im so happy bcos everything seems to have life in this world!

2010-06-19T17:07:00.002+08:00

Hi

I am still a v busy person

I am still havin attachments

and i love my work.

I am busy with tons of work.

I am seriously busy.

Im going to church tonight.

I am so sleepy.

Oh life is great

u forget about ur troubles when ur serving others.

2010-05-28T00:04:00.003+08:00

Today, i went to a Shelter that houses Aids patients.

It was a very emotional experience.

These people suffer frm social injustice and public stigmatism... they have no homes or family members or friends to turn to because everyone has turned them away. They've lost their jobs. They have no money to finance the expensive treatments.

These people... are beautiful people.. who deserve a chance to be accepted and to thrive in society... who deserve to have their dignity respected, who deserve to feed their children...

This past week of interaction with these patients has taught me loads. Im suddenly exposed... to a part of the world... that is so different from the world i live in.

This world.. is shunned from the public.... a place of suffering and sadness of beautiful people who dont deserve all that they are going through.

So what if they've made a mistake. Everyone does. We are imperfect beings. its so unfair to have society pressin upon these people on top of the disease process ... which is torturous enough.

Being a nurse.. is hard.. I concede tht ive contemplated giving up several times. You wanna help these people, but sometimes it just gets so difficult.

But this one week experience has greatly inspired me. Ive met amazing people and i know that i want to work hard... for them.. even if they may no longer be around should i graduate and succeed in my career in future.

To serve, you have to be competent. To be competent.. you need to take up challenges with the right attitude... and keep pushing on. I will keep persevering...

2010-05-19T22:51:00.003+08:00

Hi i am so tired again.

my head has been throbbing all evening.

Work work work.

Wears my soul.

But im learning alot..

nothings easy... they key in every obstacle is to take on the challenge and turn it into a learning experience.

And you'll see the fruits of it all eventually.

Initially i wasnt takin it well.

Sometimes it gets so physically, mentally and emotionally tiring.

apart from stress from the high demands, I witnessed the struggles of people from all walks of life. Sometimes it brings tears to my eyes and i have to walk away because i dont want em to see me this way. They're such wonderful people.

My instructor challenged me to be a thinking nurse. Shes an inspiration.

You feel so helpless sometimes because u know u cant really help them.

and yet u have to witness the pain and suffering they go through... watch.. as life seeps out of them and loved ones tear.

I guess the best i can do for these people... is to be a good nurse. To aim for the best standard of care i can ever produce for future patients.
I'm still learning.

Man, do i need alot of time before that happens.

OKay seriously i am so sleepy. Good night.

2010-05-17T19:26:00.003+08:00

the hospital.. is a very depressing place.
A place of tubes, latex gloves, and pain that is incomprehensible by the people who watch you suffer.

I dont know what to feel anymore.

2010-05-13T21:15:00.003+08:00

Hello sleepyhead.

Im talkin to myself.

In fact.. i am so sleepy i can sleep right no...w...zzz

2010-05-08T10:45:00.001+08:00

words cant express.