Hi u guyz xox

So well im havin ths big migrain or whateva u spell it as if a thousand norty goblins in hobnailed boots are prancing around my big head.

well guess what?! IM staying in CJ!!!! what a surprise!!
aha. not.

well i reli wanted to go IJ...but then again i couldnt resist T19. But i was dyin to be with weiyu and sis and peiyu and all the others.

but well..God spoke to me. Bcos i asked him where i should go. And he's very good at riddles. It took me 24 hours to figure out what he meant just in time before the registration thingy closed at 4

This is the first time he's talking to me!!! Here's how it went

i was lying on my bed and was reli fed up with my choices..when i tried praying.
So i imagined a scenario. That God was sitting beside me. I do that most of the time so tht i can concentrate better in my prayers.
But somehow after i asked whether i shd go to IJ or CJ, my imagination took on a life of its own. with God turnin to me and I clearly heard the words, " Look at your life"

Thats when i got startled. and i was like huh?! Was that you God? Did u just say that? And thats when i felt that peaceful thingy...that feeling like ur flying...and god usually givs me tht feeling as a form of a nudge.

So that reli was him. But how the hell does 'look at ur life' have anything to do with my JC choices.

But i got sleepy and decided to figure it out by the nx day. Well in school...i was clearly confused and fed up with my choices. i reli didnt noe which to take and the time was gona be up at 4. I was clearly depressed and stuff..but my classmates were sooo awesome. Eelin was so supportive she prayed for me and stuff.

id forgotten abt tht whole look-at-your-life thingy. but it wasnt until durin chem tut that i rmbed abt tht. And i was cracking my brains.

And thats when i figured it out.

Before i entered CJ, i asked god to be with me and stuff...and true enough i was lookin at the wonders of my Cj life. It was awesome. God worked miracles in my CJ life. He meant to look at my life.. as in currently. Esp how much i love my frenz in CJ.
And i firgured tht it wasnt like i wasnt gona see weiyu or sis anymore.

SO i made my choice den and stayed in CJ. And i felt so much better.
if it hadnt been for god, i would not have known what to do den. Thank God :D

Hey this is my class pic.

Hi

Hey u guyz

thank u so much for those tags. No it wasnt draggy at all..i treasured all ur msgs so much xox.
I am so lucky to have so many wonderful frenz like all of u. U guyz are the best in the world. whateva it is...the smses, letters or woteba. I treasured evry single one of them thnk u so much xxx

im feeling a lil better now. Ive not been talking to God for a reli long time so it feels weird. I guess ive looked at things with an open-mind. I hope to speak to him agen.

But ytd...Nothing turned out so well...in fact it was the same as the day i found out my results.

My parents were dissing me...they were accusing me all sorts...how Hateful i am and telling me how much they hate me and how terrible i reli am... They've been doin it for quite some time.

Infact...they've been doin this since my prelim results were out. At first...i thot it was gona be temporary....this horrible treatment from my family. whateva they said hurt me alot..i wished theyd stop. Bcos i was starting to believe what they said. I kept telling myself i was the worst person in the whole planet bcos evryone thinks so. I hated myself bcos my parents told me they hate me. I could neva look at my life with a positive attitude bcos i knew i was the worst girl to eva walked this planet...i am nothing good. But i thot this was gona be temporary....I kept holdin on to this day.....When i thot God would help me with my Os....since he was the one who was with me the whole of the exam....

And den i realized...it was gona be permanent. All the dissing..all the curses..all the scoldings. Bcos it turned out my Os wasnt as good as id expected.

it came agen...all the stuff poured out from their mouths. I just stood there...and allow em to accuse me for evrything....Dad even said if i dont stop havin all the bad habits...Ill be out of the family. But i went out and shop only after I completed my Os....They didnt see the side when i was burning the midnight oil evry single night for those past few months. They didnt mention how hard i worked. They knew i worked hard. Bcos b4 the results were out....They were the one who told me i had done my best. Whateva i get...just be happy about it.

But instead of comforting me....They scolded me...cursed me. They werent like tht before. All they care about is results. They didnt care how hard i worked.

I was sufferin so much these past few months...How squashed i was bcos they kept squashing my pride...my evrything....tht i cry evry night in my bed...and wonder why do they do this to me? why torture me this way? I suffer from so much bcos i hate myself for what they wanted me to believe i am. That im a good for nothing....Im not good enough for the family...that im the worst grandaughter their family has eva got.

Until ytd, i could take it no longer....For the first time, instead of running to my room to do the crying....I broke down in front of them. Evrything i felt flooded out. I yelled and screamed. WHy do u hate me so much. WHy torture me this way. Evrytime i stand up from a fall...u guyz push me to the ground again and make it all worse. Why do this to me?


and thats when i ran to my room. And i cried in bad hiccups. I spoke to weiyu on the fone...bcos i could not take it any longer...she was crying too.

But i guess eva since that yelling....Mom suddenly stopped the scoldings...i guess she suddenly realized what they were doin to me. They were clueless all along...how bad they were treating me. Until the yellings. She felt hurt i could tell. Hah!

All they eva did since i fell durin prelims was cursing and dissing at me...and only praises for Sis. Whateva sis has done wrong....they push the blame to me. They say im the one...when i knew all along it was sis doin it...Sis tried to say it was her too...but all they do is...'No its shufen, i know it.'

But what could i do. I just walked back to my room and ponder upon what they say. Ive been doin this for so long.

But i guess since ytd, my parents have lightened up. Which is a good thing.

I was sufferin from so much depression ytd that I had a terrible migrain and I vomitted for no apparent reason at all.

I even told sis that i was not gona talk to them anymore. They;ve inflicted too much hurt on me. But a talk with Arch made me lighten up as well.

Which is good. So im feeling better now. NO more terrible depression. Though a lil sadness. But its better than a total depression hopeless case.

im juz destined to be stupid arent I?

I studied so hard when pple like esther didnt study at all..and get scholarships.

I had so much hope..i held on to this moment bcos id thot this moment would change evrything...i kept holdin onto faith.

Im juz so wrong. Life is so meaningless...ill nvr do anything right.

im destined to be a failure..i noe it its in my bones ..im born to do this..to fail.

i took a nap to forget evrything but when i woke up...i lay in bed and peeked in between my bolsters to watch the trees sway towards the evening breeze and im back to reality. No it was not a nightmare its real. for an hour..i lay on my bed..like a dead corpse gazin into space and at the sky. Its horrible

And its like its sinking into u. like nothing will eva be right agen. Bcos if i worked so hard and get such results...it makes me wonder what i can do right in life. My As will be much worse. Suddenly..life seems so bleak. Its so void of hope.

Previously after the Os...i had so much hope and faith. The only thing that kept me going was that. i thot i was gona do well..i thot god would help..thought he could see my efforts

But no. if i worked so hard and got such terrible results...how am i ever gona cope with any challenges in life agen. Nothing will ever be right again. it made no difference from prelim. Im sick of guessing

Suddenly..evrything seems to be in a horrible whirl..like uve just got urself caught in a twister and u cant get out of it. Im never gona be a doctor like how i wanted to since i was young. Id longed to have the ability to save pple's lives...esp in the third world countries and to provide free treatment. i cant im too stupid to do anything like dat anymore.

And ive not prayed abt anything at all cos i dont know if God's gona be here with me ever agen.

in the hall..i broke down and cried..i couldnt believe it...at all. I reli couldnt believe what i was seeing. I guess ms ng could tell from my expression and she said she;ll speak to me afterwards. She's so nice.

I felt bad for the pple comforting me..so i tried to stop crying bcos i don wana trouble em. Mdm Jo was so awesome. She made me cry more cos i was so touched.
Mr fong too. I was so touched by what he said...he was sharing his life's experience...he said he was goin to see me holding a university cert five years down the row. He was so awesome. Yea he made me cry more too.
And mr sim and all...And mr rauf he was so awesome he offered help and stuff..all the teachers in AI are awesome...im so touched.

And im so touched by arabel and what she said about joining track with me to appeal into AJ. She's an awesome fren. And simying, sindu and amanda. and evryone else. I love u guyz. Im crying now.

evrything was in a whirl in the hall...pple were crying..cheering...And i jst wanted to be alone. and i kept asking why. Why this? where have i gone wrong. I dont even noe where im going from here. I reli dont. Ive forgotten how to walk on. i dont even noe what im supposed to do now. why this

Hey u guyz

this is soo it.

Ive been waiting for this day since i started breathing properly on 18th nov 2005

indeed, What brother Paul said was true...this is gona be like one of the most impt day of our lives

And im so touched when brother paul told us he'd pray for us and stuff..what he said reli was soo what i needed.

I love brother paul.

He's like this big ol' kind big hearted Bear for u to hug and cry to when u need help.

OH NO..i dono what will happen if i get bad results. i wana get at least 10!!

if i dont..ill cry soo much. And not bcos i cant get into the jc of my choice either. But bcos i reli worked sooo hard...i knew i tried my best. and if i dont get the result of my choice....ill nvr try hard agen bcos it just proofs that no matter how hard i study..ill nvr get there. And i will feel like such a total failure ill nvr wana step out of my room for a hundred days.

I don even wana think about it. i just dono what will happen. This is soo crazy.

I mean im so tired..i just went out with t19 agen. I love this class....I reli do. Its like the best clas of my life.

And oopz..bio tcher treated me as if i owed him a living today.

Bye bye u guyz. Good luck to evryone out there!!!!!!!!!!!!

gym mania

Just a minute ago,
i was in the condo's gym. So well..nuffin much right?.

I mean..yea id set my mind to do the chemistry thingy..but u noe how the mind wanders off sometimes that id actually went to the extent of doin something id given up on since that very fateful (or just another one of my exaggerations) day.

well yea..i dont exactly keep my words...not especially to e words that i made to myself. Like yea..that time when i told myself i was neva running anymore.

Sumhow..Chemistry forced me to. pretty impressive huh?

well yea i ran..but boy was i slow. under the scorching sun and all. But yea..i couldnt take that lying down. The slow-ness of my pace i mean. So id actually went into the GYM.

but yea..and guess what? i mean the nx thing i knew when i went across that glass door was well...me sitting on one of the equipements doin my exercises in the gym with my primary school teacher and her husband.

so well...it was pretty bizzare. I mean workin out with your primary school teacher and her husband. She's awfully nice though.

but when i got to the running machine?...i thot i heard a snortle comin from her husband. like tht sorta laugh ur tryina surpress. and thats when i knew why he was laughing..id been all too unfamiliar with the machine tht i kept pressing that speed up button tht i suddenly found myself sprinting..and i was tryina stop. So i was sprinting. On a jogging machine.

I mean yea i was embarrassed and all. But i got on to other stuff...so i was workin out alot. so well..i guess i shd be back to chemistry. *yawns*

meh, the result's comin out. its like 'The Day after Tomorrow'. Funny how tht particular phrase has the name of that End of the World Movie.

This is so nerve wrecking for me. :S
PLs God...help me do well.

Right. Im having egg white stuck to my face now so my face is now as stiff as plastic...and not like plastic bag either. I cant laugh or ill get wrinkles...i mean i soo do not want wrinkles on all ova my face at like the age of 17? so presently..im tryin not to think about hilarious stuff which is difficult bcos the more u dont wana do it..the more it comes to u. Which is freaky dont u think? like when u don wana salivate to affect the medication on ur ulcer but it just keeps doin it.

Funny how naughty my body is. It doesnt wana obey my wants.

Eat my brain with a spoon.

People are alwayz so fascinated with twins. Like ytd?..i had like an avalanche of questions about my life as a twin.
I get questions like, 'how does it feel like to have someone in this world looking exactly like u?'

erm normal. Bcos im born like tht.

And i alwayz get those sorta twin dramas. IN schools especially...im alwayz lookin forward to those. Like when this teacher teaches both my sis's and my class, something funny's bound to happen. id get like...I swear id just saw u in the nx class a second ago. and i would wana try keeping shut about about it so that the teacher'll think something's wrong with his eyeballs he needs an eye transplant so he'll have to take MC and the class will get free periods.

Unfortunately...people just cant click with ur noble intentions...so even before i could say anything...evryone in the class would go..SHE"S GOT A TWIN. SO they'll alwayz spill the beans and ruin my devious plans and ill trip over nasty beans tht act like rollers.

And its fun watching teachers arguing about whose class i belong to. I mean it happened before..until i had to break it to em...that i have a twin and my twin is in the other teacher's class.

And of course there are embarrassing moments...like when sis and I was new to this church?...and this lady announced our name...and realized we looked the same...and realized we're twins...And evryone got curious and requested for us to stand cos evryone wanted to study us...And how embarrassing it was cos i had a wardrobe malfunction then. And pple were cheerin like 'ohh yea we have our first pair of twins!!! '
perhaps also cheerin at how big my butt looked than it actually is in that pair of khakis.

I mean evryone has their wardrobe-malfunction days...so why me.

And when i was young...it was awfully irritating when lil ignorant kids would stare at us as if we were from planet Z. Or crying to their mamas in fright and pointing their lil fingers at us bawling 'those two girls look the same booohoo'

SO life as a twin isnt exactly all a bed of roses. Though i must agree that u are soo right to be envious of me bcos bein a twin is sooo coool.

Hey i just found out that the O lvl results will be released on friday and there will be a 6 day holiday!!!! IN CASE U DONT KNOW.

So we'll only have to go back to school on thursday. Which is trule awesome. COS guess what? The econs test on the first set of notes falls next monday!!!

anyway..alot of our classmates got ill today..whether its flu or headache or sore throat or woteba. take care u guyz xoxo

and gd luck this friday ;) (gd luck to myself too)

I honestly..do not know what ill do if i do not get the desired grade i want. I sooo cant score badly.

This post is like so redundant. anyway...their planning to go out agen tmr...but im not too sureee.

Pool is the most boring game in the entire universe!!! or so i fink.

so perhaps during out 6 day holiday...we'll have time to hang out!! which is gona be soo fun!!

so well..hey ive been eating yusheng for the THIRD time.

and my fair share of sharks fin soup..for the ..not-sure th (it just means for the infiniteth) time.

and all of that happened yesterday cos i was at this big family feats in this big restaurant where they have all the lobsters, crayfish, abalone, sharksfin, scallop, mussels, chocolate fountain, steaks, dorey fillet...bla bla bla bla bla bla u name it..the list goes on.

its no wonder why my tummy bloated to a good ol' balloon size. but since my skin is very much non-elastic, i felt like my skin was goin to tear and explode.

and if it reli does explodes...ill fly around the shopping center just like how an inflating balloon would when its air is released.

Oh no..den itll be complete mayhem in the shopping center and the next day ill have my fair share of the front page. Human Teen girl flies and bounces around shopping center.

unfortunately..u didnt see tht in the newspapers in the morning..
so none of that happened.

So much for fame and stardom.

That reminds me..ive got tons of homework yet again. and its a surprise why im not getting nervous. Mayb im still in tht chingay mood.

AAND OH WHAT THE HELL!!! i have just realized that im supposed to keep my essay in the 350 word limit. WHEN Ive only just written the other side of the story and i have not yet state my stand and its alredi 355 words!!!

Im starting to wonder how i survived writing a 350 word limit essay cos its wayyyy tooo short!!! perhaps im too used to the 500-600 word GP essay tht suddenly writing a 350 worded essay becomes a total painful experience.

wait a min..i wrote a 1000 words for my previous essay. when im supposed to keep it within 600 words!!! im so dead i dono when the hell is the stoopid econs test.

Hey u guyz xox

1t19 rocks to the very core of the center of planet earth!!!!

Its gona be such a totally sad experience on the day when we have to split

the night scene is totally gorgeous.

we went to watch Fun with Dick and Jane and it was sooo funny!!! den we went to the park outside istana...it was getting dark den and we had fun taking fotographs and stuff!!! And the chingay procession was goin on. Geez..the goodie bags are gorgeous i want one too :(

And guess what we actually did??!! we took off our shoes and actually stepped into the water thts for like decoration..like for the fountain thingy and those. and took funny fotos with them!!!

i mean we did all the wacky stuff

and well some other group across the big statue was yelling like for fun and the jeff, how, and yx were like playing alot of fool talking about how small their balls are thts impossible to play water polo with em like how the girls requested. (ouch)

And there's this mental guy who walked past us and stared at us..like he wanted to pick on us.

Geez..the guyz were tempted to do something funny with him..but oh well.

Unfortunately..i cant turn up for pool tmr :( IM SO TOTALLY SAD!!!! Ive gotta make it to tmr's family buffet

im sooo tired but i loved today.

the pics are with celeste so i cant post em up until she gets em loaded in the cd.

xoxo

Haha okay im so fine now.

bla bla bla im so tired but there's bio test tmr. Kill me now

btw, check out our class blog the pics are up. :DDDD

thanks to celeste for bein such a wonderful photographer :D

here!!

shuckz

Im so depressed and i dono wazzit all about.

it was nuffin big. it was just some silly run

but it made me feel horrible. and i cant help recalling all my horrid failures.

i feel like the biggest failure on earth..like the world hates me when deep down i noe its not true but something at the back of ur head huants u.

even my mom was sayin how useless i am and how wonderful sis was cos i didnt greet her when i came home..but i was just upset.

And how ever since i lost my hp and my wallet..my dad's been biased against me. Why am i such a failure. How did i lost such impt stuff.

why cant i eva be good for once. why cant i eva be good at all.

Bcos i lost two important things and im still sufferin now..i have no ez link card and IC i have to save up on food to pay for them.

and u think evryone hates u when uve got so many wonderful friends. and its all ur sad imagination. I dont even noe what im sad at. But i just lie on bed and bury my face in the pillows.

why is this happening. I wana get out of this. Its just me and my depression..i brought this upon myself its nobody's fault...Becos its all my big imagination..nothing is happening at all but u still feel like the worst person in the world.
im such a big brained

nothing is happening at all so why do i feel like this!

when pple are grieving over dead relatives and pple who die in natural disasters.

im so depressed I feel so nausea evryttime i think abt it. all the bad stuff keeps flashing into my mind. my tummy suddenly hurts from over excitement and it aint the happy sort either. peristalsis i guess.

Ill get out of this soon. It happens sometimes its temporary. but e feelin is horrid.

heyz

So i tried ODAC out today and the people were awesome

but im going to have to say that im never ever ever EVA eberrr running ever again.

I couldnt complete that 10km thingy when so many others could. And their not track pple as well.

Im soo disappointed in myself i am an embarrassment to the running society. I neva eva wana run eva again.

This is my last time. I dont feel like running the competitive race durin x-country but ive alredi signed up so i cant back out. I am soo ashamed of myself and im such a sad dweeb.

But i saw sis today at macritchie. so that is perhaps the only good thing that happened. Celeste was wonderful.

And i saw wonderful nina!!! I MISS U SO MUCH NINA!!! and WEIYU TOO!! and Yuan shan too!!! Ill neva eva forget tht wonderful letter i had when YS and sis tried to comfort me. i didnt wana let u guyz down so i studied real hard for the Os. I reli hope i can get into AJ and see u guyz once agen. I totally miss u guyz xox

and i hurt myself today during PE so much so there's a tiny hole on my lil finger.

And my chem prac sucked so much today. I was reaching the end point when the burette spoilt and leaked so much my whole experiment failed so badly

So i walked home feeling like the worst person in the world and my stomach hurt.

Perhaps all my sandwich calories were burnt and since i have no fats..my body ate my proteins away..so much so i was sufferin like a walking stick.

do not read that load of rubbish or ull fail ur biology badly.

And i was hungry, sad, hurt, pain-ed.

BYE BYE

HUlo

Chinese new year for me this year is well..a pretty cute one!!! BCOS evrything about this year's chinese new year is sooo cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee

i think ive just spouted alot of nonsense again. well thats just me. I guess im so spouty and alwayz such a drama rama but im very sure u do not want to hear anything more about me so ill just go ahead with what's reli cute this year.

Hey btw, there's this new neighbour living above me who's a replica of aaron carter. I guess ill melt into a liquid puddle..(euks i hope i wont be a sticky puddle)when i c that aaron carter clone and den he'll slip and fall over me bcos i got too slippery once ive melted.

Honestly!! im side tracking too much. HAHA this is just to get u all fustrated and u so want me to get straight to the point but i aint!!


Cute hongbao!!!!!!!! my granny gave this to me :D

well i guess ull be wonderin where's e opening to get the money out. First, u pull the bell and out comes a lil red packet.

den u just open the thing!! and pop comes the money. the nice part mwaha

sweets galore!!!

Its a lil drum of a sweet!!!!!!!! sexy aint it?

whats sexiest is this lil can of a sweet!! its sooo cuteee *all girls screaming*

Thsi is well also a sweet. wrapped in such a cute manner!! *girls fainting*

all the real cool goodies my aunt gave me :D. CHOCO sweets biskies and evrything ncie

hey my aunt wrote my name wrongly!! my aunt who's known me for 17 years has just got my name wrong!!! MY NAME WRONG!!!

I dont care if nobody misses this blog but i reli doo!!! (miss this blog i mean)

I made our class blog by the way. Its here!

lemme count..its been like..1,2,3 of blog-free days!!! Bcos im like a reli busy person and not bcos im enjoying stardom or fame or anything like dat either sadly. Homework and BlahS!! How blah can my life reli get!

Friday was awesome im telling u!! Im starting to love my class sooo much xoxo i think T19 rox my sox sooo much xoxox


Mr glascow..looking rather shocked..its a pose by the way..a very unique pose. Perhaps he thinks he looks hot when he's shocked

Our very own custom made Yu sheng. Celeste and her bright ideas again.

Gayyy moves!!! eek

Im still clueless to who this dustbin-head is. reli i am.

so while the music was blasting..we were posing our asses off!!!

LMAO

i hate dady long legs.

its a spider btw, dad has normal legs

this mini cockroach is walking round my table but its 0.5 cm

Celeste has named it 'polymer' and even waved and said hulo to it.

it can be timmy's fren now...tht lil bug howard crushed.

Hello

HI! NOTICE!!!

Id just lost my wallet!!!! OMG!!! my wallet!! my precious wallet and soo many impt documents are inside!!! PLS i beg of u..if any of u saw any white Myuk wallet anywhere...PLSSSSS Return it back to meeee...i lost it in the bus.

I was soooo upset YTD. PLSSS

Well of course..the person taking it might not even know tht this blog exists..so he or she wouldnt even come here

I prayed so hard about it..Hopefully ill get it back

I have to learn my lesson i just lost my hp not too long ago and now this. Ive not been losing things since i last lost my wallet when i was 11.

Why does evrything have to start getting lost around my 16-17 years of age

I am just too careless!!

and oh I received an email from tht raintree director to sign up for something to act around the world tht needs money And i Saw Kim wakerman's HOTMAIL add!

no big deal though. Its not like she;s a star or something.

anyway...the whole class is gona PON on friday...and go to each other's school!!! but im scared abt it..I might get expelled if i do it.

haha

Yo lets play the yoyo.
i think im tryina be funy and im not succeeding

guess what? i was shopping with arch and py and sis ytd when we saw YANQI!!!!!!!!!!! in heren!!! totally missed her soooooo much xoxox

i totally missed the times we had and stuff. Its so nice to see her agen. though my legs stinged to the ends of the earth. cos i was walking from afternoon till night.

And since im a lazy bum as much as u can tell...ive decided to do away with the pics i took ytd cos yet agen..ive got tons of hmwk and time allows me no more than 5 mins on the net if i want to complete my hmwk.

sis and py decided to go home first cos they were reli tired while yq and i continued our mall raid...for my hat and for her shoes.

the fantabulososo-ic hat..sigh...its too expensive though i loved it. but it isnt very worth it dont u think?? 19.90 for a hat alone when i could have bought 2 gorgeous blouse from this fashion.

But we saw Yanshuang!!!!!!!!!!!! and frenz at the bus interchange!!! it was awesome and we chatted there where ys complained about not seeing yq for a 100 years which i noe must have been an exageration since only stamford raffles and some oldies existed around that time.

it was awesome.

Perhaps the church has considered about environmental factors like global warming cos today's service wasnt as cold as eva. Which is a good thing.

but mom has to make a big hulabaloo about church cos she;s anti-christ. and i just dont understand why.

so i got alot of scolding when i came home which is unreasonable cos i did nothing wrong except attending church.

there's reunion dinner tonight which is gona be awesome! so cya xox while i take time to complete my maths graph thingy and not to miss my date with my new 172 dollars calculater.

Cj has such a cool culture!

anyhooz.. its like such great topic now.. the end of the world season.

Its been botherin me alot for quite some time..i think its freaky-ish.

Today was cool indeed but i have a mountainful of homework thus ive presented to u the world's shortest blog entry.

And since i want this entry to be in the guiness book of records for being reli short..i shall spout no more nonsence any further

And now prsenting u with the big two words!!! THE END

Fun fun fun!

Our very own class calligraphy done by our very own malaysian scholar, jiayi!!

strolling outside Tangs. A sea of blue =S

haha

Yummy

The guyz unfortunately..have to chuck these down their throats to proof that they indeed own bazookas. (although that brown thing isnt what u think it is..its just an out of the world wasabe thts reli brown)

evryone chatting away merrily

celeste, eelin and I went to far east later where celeste saw her boyf, Isaiah and her husband, yilang. tsk tsk tsk. fickle celeste.

and where celeste bought hair dye which doesnt seem to have any effect at all.

an Earring shaped in the head of a celebrity!! How unique!!

And not just any celebrity to walk this planet either...i think it struts. Mickey Mouse struts!! in this quirky and smartass manner!!! (very cute!)

Hence, the great one, thats me, have plucked its head out of its puny body and dipped it into strawberry diamond syrup while Mickey Mouse exclaims, " Hey i look much better!! thank u for beautifying me!! I shall stick with u foreva and eva!!"

After much persuasion from mickey...I have decided to allow it to be stuck onto a part of me..and thats my ear lobe.

So there it will be tmr morning!! Though im pretty sure ill break my promise and take it out soon enuff instead of leaving it there 'foreva and eva'.

Bcos im fickle.

And it was bought for me by sis and arabel wen arabel came to my hse ytd! they have it too. though the heads were of different colors. SO we have three heads in all :D Thank u u guyz for not forgetting me :P

I know im contradicting myself by telling entirely different stories but its entirely up to u to choose ur own story cos as patriotic as i am...just as im living in a free country..im owning a free blog!

journal

For GP, we have to write a journal on the reflections we face in our daily lives.

And bcos im the sort who always look at stuff at weird angles..I wrote this:

Sunday 15/1/06

I was attending church today and the place was freezing cold because they had blasted the air-conditioner. I was shivering and it felt like i was attending an igloo church.

This made me realize something about human nature.

For the sake of our comfort, we are endangering the lives of other fellow earthlings. Im referring to the polar bears leaving in the artic region in this case.

As we are well aware of, air-conditioners contain CFCs. These substances contribute to global warming. And because of global warming, it has been known that the polar bears are swimming more often as there are lesser ice for them to rest on. How horrid would it have been if we were forced to walk on forever without stopping. Imagine dying from exhaustion. would'nt that be dreadful?

Humans never bothered about how much the polar bears are suffering. The only thing we have cared about whenever we turn on the air-conditioner is our comfort.

Another example would be the case of the chicken flu. If i was a chicken and slaughtered painfully because i was ill, i would have been so sad because i hadn't committed a crime. I had only caught a virus and getting ill was not what i had wanted either. The least the humans could do was to kill me with a less painful death for e.g, giving me a jab instead of burning me alive.

Put your shoes in those poor chickens' and think about all the injustice men have inflicted upon them.

Human is indeed the most dangerous and cruel species on the planet.

________________The end_________________

I think My GP teacher is gona get soooooooo mortified. =S

metrosexual or summat. Woteba.

I am aching aching and aching and hurting so much. My legs are murdering me!!! im sore sore and sore.

Bcos of fencing ytd and the lunges and all.

Mandy says im suitable (and i got happy) for fencing..cos i have long hair so wheneva i take off the mask i can swing my hair around like the herbal essences models. (and i faltered)

I think she meant evryone who has long hair is suitable for fencing.

Yesterday's BBQ party was extremely awesome!!!

I mean priscilla has the afro hairstyle when evryone was dreading it. I bet that'll be the kewlest hairstyle of the next half of the year nx.

First it was rebondings..now its permings...and god knows what will happen next?? Botak heads so evryone's heads will be as shiny as gold. They dont catch u in school when ur having a shiny head day.

Yesterday was arabel and her silly moves and again like walking on the pathways in a toot toot train manner. Or singing the school song at the top of our voices at 11pm

i totally love u guyz oxoxo

Radhiyah was omggggg!! She gave sis and I a letter and it was omggg touching!! i was close to tears reading it. Thank u soo much xoxox!!

And our graduation present from the track members would be the track T-Shirt..which we've custom-made it :D

Ive trimmed my eyebrows again!!! and i think its awesome. Though i couldnt see any difference when i looked into the mirror and laughed to myself in the empty cemented toilet.

'zonked.

Im pretty much a walking dead slab of meat now cos ive got tons of maths hmwk even though i had attended only the first lesson. All that knife.

Bio is OMG horrible..i hate to imagine the gazillion tons of stuff i have to memorise for the rest of the year.

And i have just come to a horrible realization that...I CANT STAY OVERNIGHT WITH U GUYZ TMR COS IVE GOT FACIAL THE FOLLOWING DAY!!!

AND tmr will be my first fencing exposure.

And there's two periods of GP!!

Ill be soo zonked ill be rushhing here and there tmr i am but a big ball of confusion

And i ran for 5 km today!! great achievement..considering ive not been torturing my legs for half a year since i stepped down.

But i had major headache like some big screw was twirling its way into my brain

Presenting this week...

Helo to the future me who's gona turn 60 with all the wrinkles and realizing what a bozo my younger self was after reading thus far.

I want to record evry single thing down here and i mean evrything...even the new stuff ive bought or has been given or anything like that for my future self to realize how mad i reli was. And for my the future old and wrinked me to shake my head.


My o-so-sexy ribena Baby!!

This is one of the bags ive been carrying to school these days

Bag 2

Bag-pack 3. Yea lookz a lil too familiar..the same one ive been carrying to sec school

Bag 4!! Vintage Minnie!!! Its been a long time since ive spent some quality time with it.

Well last but not least...New speakers!!! for my mp3 player cos listening to the radio with my ear plugs is much too irritating with the wires dangling out from my ears that make me look like a much-too-screwed elf.

MY GP tcher Mr. Glascow looks like hitler, the fella responsible for alot of bad things,..but a funnier and nicer version.

Ms Lim looks like one of us and she behaves and thinks like us too so we're not talking greek here

Brother Paul, my principal, and judging from his accent he must be an australian, looking like a more tyrannical version of a pope with all his white robes galore.

Mr tan, the vice principal whom ill alwayz rmb for tryina spice up the atmosphere by exclaiming.."i can see the light, I can feel the spirit!!"

Hello evrybody!! This is evrybody! from 1T19 except for the guy who had chicken pox

erm..i Love CJ!!! Cj rocks!

If im eva gona leave CJ!!! ill totally leave it sadly!!! and ill miss all the times spent with my awesome classmates!!

Yesterday totally rocked my sock!!!

So it was Orientation night yesterday and it was sooo piping hot!!!

and i realized how nice the pple in CJ can be...like the time when this cat high boy sitting in front of us realized we didnt have a cheer sheet so he gave up his and passed it to me. That was soooo sweet!

The audi was soooooooooooooo vibrant...colors splattered evrywhere!!!! and banners flying high in the ceiling...and drums and whateba u name it ...balloons..And all the performances rocked to the core of the planet!!!!

It was sooooooooo noisy it was so hard to hear the MC speaking...

OUr class performed a skit. It was awesome. Candice was screamignn and messing her hair like she needed psychiatric help so i followed her..since we were supposed to do the same thing

I love IT19! I think we rock so much!!!

We were out for dragon boating in the morning...

And it wasnt just any ordinary dragon boating...we had viking!!! like we had to sit on the edge and rock the boat!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so much so that our butts touched the water!!! the boat is like so flimsyyy and the water is horribly dirty and disgusting!

and the boat almost capsized while playing viking and i almost fell into the river and evryone was screaming

But i jumped in anyway since candice wanted me to. AND I SUNK ALL THE WAY INNNNN!!!!!!!!! EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

And a seaweed got stuck to my shoulders!!!!!! YUCK!

And we had to play amazing race under the big ugly rain!!! and i was shivering sooo much that my stomach muscle cramped bcos i was shiverign most there!! and my leg totally turned dirty as if its not dirty enuf bcos we had to run in the mud...it was sooo dirty!

and alycia lent me her sports shoes bcos my slippers were flabbing too much. She's so cool!

And we had to plan for our skit...i think it rocked so much.

And the whole orientation night rocked so much. It was sooo cool

And the vice principle chanting, " I can see the light!"
and i turned to look at the ceiling lamps.

hehe i shd just lighten up like a lil light bulb.

off and on evry second of the day in intervals of 5 minutes or less

i forgot to inform u guyz that i had a party!!!!!!!

erm..well it isnt mine..its daddy's..for his friends.

Food galore..we prepared it. Its marvelous! such a wide spread.

Somehow..the pictures i took of the food disappeared without a trace.

Sherlock Holmes cant find em..Not to mention me a newly colleged student

But i found one...mysteriously. Maybe the other pictures had legs to run out from the camera so i cant post it up ere on my blog cos their shy abt being exposed to the public

And this is the only brave lil picture standing before out eyes, or rather ur monitor screen.



We even had sakae sushis!!

so that was hot.

and since im psychic. I do know what's gona be happening tmr. Im gona be at school..agen. Aint that the greatest prediction? arent u awed? Not.

But be very awed at this. Im gona be dragon-boating tmr!! with my classmates!! And another amazing race!!! I wana steal the Linzes' brains and bodies so our group shall complete the race victoriously!!! Aint that just hot?!

And a skid..which we're gona be performing and i have to talk like an ah lian. Unfortunately..i think im gona talk as if im sitting on a vibrating machine instead..which wont be so hot.

ANd ill be back home at like 10pm..but i cant miss project runway.

BTW!!!!!! I just made another layout!! new layout on blogskins, new layout on pple's skins, new layout on bla bla bla..
i think we're getting a lil too familiar

Pls help me rate pple!!! Luv yall!! xoxox

It seems hardly anyone is on blogskins to rate my skin. Coincidentally its raining..perhaps many are in snoozeland. SNap back to earth to rate my skin!!!!!

here!!!

It isnt one of my best skins i suppose. Very ditzy so daisy

Hi

Thank u guyz for alwayz being there for me..im foreva thankful for u guyz

i do miss all of u too. how i wish it was one of those innocent days when we would all be at recess together..or just going to track and be with all my juniors who are the best juniors to eva walk this planet

I guess some of my closest friends would even forget me too as u go on making new friends but its alright

i feel like im sinking right now..into the basin..twirling and twirling out of sight

its sad to come to a horrible realization that ill neva get those wonderful days back..i have to face the present and its pretty much saddening..But who am i kidding. Im well alive and kicking. (no i did not join karate) when pple in sudan are suffering from hunger and poverty and death

kk i gotta eat now and ive been sleeping from morning till night.
I guess i can lol around on bed again

hi

I miss ai i reli do

I miss my friends..i miss matilda, yanqi, nina, cheryl, weiyu, and all my other e1 mates

The people are reli nice here..i like the girls in my ig..their awesome..mel, michelle, alison, rachel, emily and some others whom i dont know what their name is even though we've been talking for a very long time.

Natasha was acting like such a dweeb. she's tryina act like the princess of CJ when she's so not..she's acting like such an idiot on stage thinking she's better than evryone else...prancing around all princessy happily like a crappo

Nobody likes her...and i thot i was the only one..until many of the girls were like..'hate natasha'

i forgot her name..but i guess its joycelyn..she's awesome and she hates natasha too and screamy girls goin all OooH AhhH. its crappy and irritating i wish they'd stop. She probably hates natasha too cos nat was flirting with ryan and joyce has got the hots for him

Jana misses AI too.

once again im tired. Its a superbly boring entry i must agree but im reli too tired to perform any entertainment of any sort so bye

wooot

OMG!! i think im starting to be in love with CJC!! i think its so ultra cool!! and fun!!

I love the pple in my IG and all the frenz i made there were awesome..alison, melissa, rachel...and the mass dance was like... so much contact..and it must be with a guy partner..its sooo....u know..

there were some great looking guyz too in my IG hahahahahhahaha

And CJ is so fun..its like evryone's not shy but just having a load of time!! the mass dance was sooo fun!!!

And omg!! i saw emily!!! my primary school mate!!! and i actually had a feeling emily might be in this JC..and i told u..im psychic

plus she's in my IG!!!

it was so much fun today..i loved the games..even though they were lame. And that game which ur not supposed to laugh..and its like u do reli funy actions and u canot laugh...I was like soooooooo canot take it...the moment it started i couldnt take it..i was controlling soooo badly tht my face turned red

If arabel or weiyu was playing this game..i bet they'd be eliminated even before it starts

tmr's gona be kewl too! sighz..the last day with my IG.

whateva..im so sleepy im gona take a nap now

i went to church today and relive the past experience in 2005.

Maybe im too used to talking to god solo-ly at home in my room on my bed that im just not used to listenining in church with other pple..i noe what they say is true and stuff..but i dont click with whats going on. Its like when evryone's singing and closing their eyes and touched and stuff..i mumble..
'right' in my brain.

when i noe ill do the same thing at home.

Looks like i cant find a church to fit into..bcos ive gone to like 5 and i cant get any msg except for my uncle's church which is too far away and the youths there are not as frenly as the other churches

And evrytime i come home from church..i feel reli sad and lost and i neva wana go to church again bcos of myself..i cant click with anything thats going on id rather spend time with god in my own free time at home

Church makes me distant myself from god...it alwayz does..and i feel horrible evrytime i get back it makes me think alot. I feel like such a failure evrytime i get home from a church.

I saw my primary two best fren there and thats pretty kewl!

im not sure if ill go back there again even though ive told lh i would..and even if i go back..it will be more like im dragging myself there


But i guess this means i shd stop going to church anymore. No more churches anymore. Id rather read christian books at home instead.