shucks. Id jus made the biggest mistake by makin a pact with mom that in exchange for my right to wear contacts again...i can't have my allowance deducted for two MONTHS.

id meant two weeks. But somehow...I must have bumped my head and the words came out wrong. id only realized what id done...jus ytd. How can i be so blur. No wonder mom agreed to it so readily.

so well u see....every wekk i get my allowance deducted...for my blurness. 2 dollars deducted each week for every mistake i make. (ie. clothes left in e room, messy room, eating in e room, dishes not dumped into the sink after eating, wrappers or rubbish left around, electrical items not turned off after leavin the room, contacts left in e toilet, hangers strewn over the bed, and much much much much much more. )

OH my God. i don think ill be able to make it! 2 months!! its such a great feat.

ARGH!

how great. ull be seein me on stage on thurs while i freeze...right in front of thousands of pple. How hot is tht. Not.

Lians

OMG i cant believe im takin neoprints again after such a long time! back to bein a lian with sis and arabel

btw, i juz cut my hair. U cant tell right?

and btw, im not allowed to wear contacts nemore cos my parents dont trust me. Im gona look like some walking toothead from now on.

And im extremely depressed abt tht.

Lin..u can stop complaining abt having competitions from now on.

very soon..ill be conferred the title "Tootiest toothead of CJ"

pls clap for me.

Todays open house was juz totally hot!!!

omg i saw mandy darling and shalini...AND SINDHu and jiamin...nina baby and jassy!!

Luv u guyz to the depths of the earth!!!!

And omg i love all u judokas!!! Muackziessss xoxoxox
today was juz totally hot

he was so sweet...

came to my block at 12 midnight and called me up to peek out of e window...to cheer me up. n im reli grateful to u for doin e things that ur tryina do for me now...e walk in e park with u last night cheered me up so much...honestly...ur jus...awfully sweet but..i don think id like to giv anyone anymore chances from now on...I juz need..an awfully long time...to be alone. ..truly sorry...

ya and im sorry if ill b reli stoned for e nx few days to come :S

juz erm..need time.

ive just realized a million stuff...like itd just hit me like a ton of bricks.

todays such an extremely long day. honestly.

right i shd stop bein emo.

My results are alright...tho i was reli upset..cos pple arnd me were gettin likeAAAABBBBCCCCs

while im gettin B B C D E ...pple in my class were doin fairly well..so id made a generalization tht the whole level did reli well for promos.

till i got out of my class for judo...pple were crying and tellin me how badly they'd done..how many Fs they'd gotten...tht many are gona be retained..did i realize how lucky i was...to hav my grades i mean. Im not sayin tht they're good...but im lucky tht my grades are good enough for promotion..cos many others r dyin to be in my shoes.

so i shd count my blessings...though i shall never be complacent.

WORK HARD !!! I MUST!!!

honestly...its jus so depressing...dat some pple i noe are leaving...juz the thought of not bein able to see em ever again is juz..scary. Id miss e times we'd spent and stuff..honestly...what a depressing day. the whole school was in this sullen mode.

alright im reli tired. best of luck in whateva u do...

PS: MANDY DARLING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U MUZ COME TO SEE ME DURIN OPEN HOUSE OR ELSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE Go to judo booth okay?!!!!!!!!

im e president

Damn muji wont cook for me

SO im gg to starve for today

ive juz been conferred e title "President" of Rotter's association. What joy...what honour...

i totally deserve it. :D

so evryone be happy for me and from now on...address me as "madam" pls

implications tht we do not noe of.

Hey! omggggg im suddenly sooo excited abt e openhouseeeeeee

Cos i can see nina babe!!! and prolly sis!!! or prolly some Juniors of mine!!! but....hardly ne ai peeps like CJ. :(((((

ARGH but im dyin to seee u guyz!!!!!!!!!

haha actually...i don even noe what ill do durin e openhouse...i think its jus some break fall and...err...randori..or i prolly wont do any of tht at all..or mostly..ill be interacting! i shd join the interactive club someday

i hope to see u guyz reli!!! esp my track juniors. i miss u guyz heaps and heaps!!!

Hey GUYZ!!!!

today is e best day of my life...BCOS!!!!!!!!!!

I saw wispy!!!!!! we were havin so much fun in e house with sis bein e mad cow she is.okay fine all of us are mad. we ate too much beef!!!

den we went to eat at kfc at chong pang and it was sooo hot!!!
cossss Arabel happened to be there too!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG i miss all of em sooo much!!! i wana see mat too!!! we muzzzzzzz go shopping some day okay?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope e openhouse will be a success!!!!!!!!

HEY Gawwjuzzezzz

sorry im typing in e dark soooo i have no idea wat im typing at all!

ANYWay im so hungry and arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh how i wish i can study at home evryday

this is just soo shity!

i miss e library :(

HUllo im rotting like hell

I thank u guyz...who were with me through this...thank u so much it reli meant so much tht u guyz were concerned and stuff...thank u. I wouldnt noe what id have done without u guyz...thank u so much. It is a trauma...thts now..sorta over..i hope..it troubled me so hmuch i didnt even sleep a wink the whole night...I love u guyz omg..im reli reli touched...thank u guyz but things are goin fine now...i didnt let him in..

once again thank u..im reli touched by all e concerned calls..e smses..and yea..ill stay strong :)

erm...im in serious deep shit now..as in..im reli in danger. Im serious. as in seriously..im reli reli serious. i don think i can go out with any of u guyz for these nx few days...its too dangerous for me. omg. ive never been in this much trouble in my entire life. ive just offended someone by accident...and now..im reli dead. oh God..dont let him have his way. Be with me..pls..

Hey peepzies!

the exams are like finally over!! how many times am i repeatin this alredi?!

Therefore ive made this skin cos i was sooooo freakin bored today!

How hot is that?!

hahaha is it nice?! say its nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Say yessss

today is just a totally mentally tiring day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but it was sooo worthwhile cos maths was like....reli kewlllllll

id thot ill flunk maths!!!!!!!!! BUT IT WAS SOOO HAWT!
oopz thts sondra's 'hot'

yayyyy exams finally over...id thot there'll be a catch to today's ending of promos..like a killer maths paper...cos i mean i was slackin e whole night ytd....and u noe like karma? hahahhaha u noe u shd sing Alicia Keys Karma...den ull noe what it means!

as if u dint noe what it was before. stupid meh.

ouch i just felt a bruise. pain.

how did i get it?!
i duno..okay i must have knocked somewhere while i was sleeping like how an authentic piggy shd,

YES YES YES YES YES YE SYE S

HULLo Luviessss

Leo is like e cutest lil thing in e world!! he hugs and kisses anyone!!!!!! argh he makes my heart melt! oopz sorry yoyo

well anyway...LAST PAPER IS TMR!!!!!!!! freedom after maths paper tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant waitttt

finally...i can go out in peace! and ill stop lookin so haggard which i alwayz do durin e exam periods.

Ytd, after chem paper...went out with les, lin, algae and yoyo...it was reli fun but yoyo claimed i was stoned...i didnt even realzie that myself...mayb i was just reli tired...but it was so hot nonetheless...les and lin could finally get to noe yoyo better.

Hello les! ur turn to intro sam to us pls.

"MATHS PAPER KILLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS E DAYLIGHT OUTTA MEH!!!!!!!" - shufen

does that sound literaturic enough?! oh my evryone;s been gettin so literaturic in their blog posts these days i shall go with e flow. My MY what a lovely literaturic sentence made by meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

NOTTTTT

haha well...expect bulls like that from me...when it comes to literature. Thank God im not a lit student...or the world will shrivel into the wrinkled pea in mendel's experiment.

OMg now im tryina be biological. what e hell is wrong with me?!

An excerpt from Les's blog about e conversations durin ytd's dinner:

"Shufen: I love all my maid's boyfriends! (cos they kept givin me toys!) She keeps changing boyfriends even though she's married and has kids already. Like omg! When we lived in Yishun, it was a bangladesh and later when we moved, she found a painter boyfriend...

Yoshi: *starts thumping his chest -- like wow, heartache -- and putting on a feigned puppy dog expression of hurt*
Later on...Yoshi: Bangladesh somemore... Maybe I'll go tan and become darker.
Les: Yeah, and get a degree in painting too.

Shushisocute."

the comment from les is like e funniest comment in e world.

okay back to maths.

random me

My biological clock has gone topsy turvy. woo

currently...all i do is study study and study. im reli screwed for maths..thank god for yoyo whos forcin me to study

lets see...my only break periods are..
1) traveling in e bus to e lib and back
2) lunch
3) nap, sleep
4) walkin around e house aimlessly
5) chattin with yoyo

omg see how random i can get? hur hur

oh my godddd im reli talkin alot of nonsense...whats happening to me?!!!!!!!! AHHHHHH

okay mugging session

im reli gona die for maths. IM reli reli gonna die for maths.

im serious

i think im gona be retained!!!

arghhh

but so many thigns have happened. hopefully i wont have to deal with anymore weird issues after this...now tht i have u. yay.

<3 everything about u =)

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAA

jdlfasjfal;jf;wjfw

im soooooooooo random
jahahahahaahhaahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahaha

im sooooooo boreddddddd studyin Bio!!!!!! SO ERE I AM BLOGGIN

AND BEEPEE WE DIDNT LIE TO U! WOOOOOOOO U HAVE A STALKER

hahahhahahahahhahaahhhahahhahahhahahahahhahahahaaaaaa

thts joey laughin too

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

okay what a stupid post

yay! ur awesome...lovely even =)

OH my new monitor!!!! its like sooo biggg and niceeee and thin and evrythingggggg

muggin days are like back. argh how i hate muggin

My biological clock has gone like..all topsy turvy. i sleep in e morning and wake up at night to study

i am becomin a vampire..who sucks information from notes at night. Im sooo creepy. Not.

well on monday...studied in tp lib...pretty noisy place to study at..and we had to sit on e floor. how hot is that? not. we ended up talkin alot of crap too lol

Something funny happened today though. when i got out of e changing room in some shoppin center cos i desperately needed to get a bottom...this lady who was facin me..gave a reli shocked expression when she saw me..
she den turned to my sis who was beside her den looked back at me.

OKay..i don think we look tht alike. i don even noe why she had to giv tht face like she'd just seen a ghost.

Honestly..im such a busy person evryday. mugging mugging and mugging.

haha sorry for not studyin with u guyz..whoever u guyz are ..those tht asked me to study with em..i study better alone!!! HAHA cos im easily distracted and stuff!!! its for e better or id talk and talk and talk and u wont be able to study anyway.

HULLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay im just tryina spice up e mood aft bein away for sooo long.

I loveeeeeeee wispy and mat Muackzy muackzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

okay back to revision.

random. i noe. what a stupid post.

i bet this post is e shortest post the world will ever noe and have seen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BYE

this is just a small portion of our fruits of labour

wow! (im wow-ing bcos i dono what to type)

Me and eelin. Bleahx im so fat

les at e top of mount old-clothes

eelin readin magazines

les acting cool

puffer fish

acting innocent! shd have done tht ytd

Losers!!!!!!!!

Monster pushin wall

our poster!! woo i designed it! hot eh! say yesss

YAY!

okay i think ive just like announced to the world abt my roof dismantling job. Turned out...Michael tan was just joking.

And celeste had gotten home just to get a camera...to take pictures while we were on e roof. Unfortunately...we had to clean windows instead.

less dangerous and thrilling. but...erm enriching? cos im officially now the world's best Window cleaner!!! In fact...les and i were so good we decided we shd open a les-and-shufen-window-cleaning business someday and we'd be billionaires!!!

okay okay but id regretted leaving school without permission...mmichael tan explained to us e complications...didnt think it was tht bad when we did it :/

Okay shit i have to go...argh stupid

Just my luck

Today is the worst day of my life i swear

SHALL i emphasize on how dead i reli am?! I AM DEAD as in seriously DEAD as in dead beyond anything as in D for detention E for Expulsion A for Argh and D for yet another Detention

im dying im dying im dying
im dying
im dying
im dying im dying im dying im dying im dying im dying im dying im dying im dying im dying im dying im dying im dying im dying im dying im dying im dying

Guess what the hell happened!

our PE lesson was like e last period ...and incidentally...it was a free period for this particular PE lesson. So i went home after reporting.
I mean...lots of em did tht last week...and we stayed on like dumbs dumbs until 5 before we left.
Plus i had a headache ...so i figured...no harm leavin at 4!

But guess what?! today...of all free PE days....was e day chosen for spot check!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! coincidentally...the only day tht id chosen to leave.

so after id left...mr new came to check if evryone was still there...and yea...id left.

SO im like honestly dying now.

Detention will definitely be in place for me...

and hooray. this will be the FIRST detention ill have in my whole entire life. Ive never had a detention for 17 years in my life. How hot is that?! NOOOOOTTTTTTTT

OKay i shd like calm down or something.

Linh says detention is fun! Her last detention was spent on havin a nice chat about Vietnam's road system with Michael Tan

Yea...I shd calm down!

I Swear ILL never break another school rule again!!!!!!! FROM now on i shall be MS goody two shoes ....long skirts with fully tucked in blouses.

EVryone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BE sad for me!!!!!!!!!!!!

:((((((((((

the power of nothingness...feelin of dread..
suddenly its hit me that theres nothing to look forward to in my life..evrything's suddenly so grey and dark. i cant take all of these anymore..i don wana put on this brave front anymore..im reli tired. just stop. i miss those times when i could love myself...those days are gone..im a nothing...when i could talk to my wonderful mates evrytime im sad...i cant now. theres just too many things in my life thts pressin down on me...i cant even put a finger to why im alwayz feeling this way. theres just too many things in my life.. things tht im ashamed of..and i don wana trouble em with my problems...evryones alwayz smiling these days. evryones so happy these days. i smile for em...but deep down i feel so dreadful...im alwayz here today and gone tmr.
i look forward to being alone...in the refuge of my room...evryday. its the only place where i can truly feel content...and depressed.
i hate crowded places...they make me feel so lonely...evryone with happy faces..and i smile along...and yet its all a great big farcade. the more i smile..the more i want to be alone...the worse i feel..
im only e true me when im alone. the me whos an empty shell...the person whos a nothing...someones whos reli nothing. absolutely nothing.
i long for the days when i can be truly happy again. those innocent days.
those days...they're alwayz bright...the birds were alwayz singing. im so crushed now...evrything abt me..my being..my self-esteem..and theres nothing i can do abt it but cry in my bed evry night. evrythings going down for me...nothings going up..evryday it just keeps piling up on me..the toll...the dreadful feeling.
the power of nothingness

ill be fine. dont talk to me abt this. just let me be. ill be fine..

hulo << wispy's typical form of greeting

ytd was like sooo scary. there was this guy who was lyin in his own pool of blood cos he'd hit his head when he fell...and the impact had caused his nose to bleed...it was reli scary...ive neva seen tht much blood eva
i mean he laid there for quite some time...before anyone actually noticed him. he was in a state of shock by the time aly and meixia e suave first-aiders had attended to him..and his eyes were rolled up and stuff

poor guy.

hope hes fine now

anyway...last training on tuesday. so sad. argh. its just like what yu don had said...u cant live a week without throwin somebody once ur addicted to judo. eek. nowadays wheneva i stone....i imagine myself throwing pple. thts like soooo...weird.

oh new bruises too. and id twisted my thumb. thts reli hot! Not.

sigh im gona miss all e judokas and kato randoris. I love randoris!!!

and omg....sir was talkin to us abt blogs!!! like omg....Beware cos bro paul is here to read!!!

haha ...poor beepee. but it isnt ur fault!! so dont be too sad!

ahhhh exams. they're sooo intimidating. so ive gotta study now

Hey!
guess what! my parents are so totally restricting my computer use now...its soo amazingly saddening!

:(

well wanted to update abt judo on sat but didnt hav e time cos i came home reli shacked and plopped in bed the first thing i got home

sigh...training was reli erm...stoney...cos like there were only a few people left in the dojo when in the past, there'd be a horde of people which would make evrything so fun. sigh...i miss e j2s. now tht their gone...we feel sooo....unprotected. or so ...we all think. its quite scary to have found out certain stuff....so yea.

but it was hot anyway cos at least i managed to throw strong people like truddy and rachel. they gave way or something

anyway...it was sooo hot on sunday cos we had to do garung guni CIP...and like we had to go door to door to pass our flyers...and eventually letterboxes to letterboxes.

I mean...u could totally die just doin one block...we were totally dripping wet wen we came back. and i could see les's blue sports bra

racin and racin and racin.....or at least...thts whats les' idea of fun.
26 stories and more....throwin flyers into evry door.

HAHA

and guess what...we did from morning tll night.
but it was hot...les is such a wonderful companion...we were talkin abt evrything under the sun while stuffin flyers into mail boxes...it was sooo hot. i mean im sooo happy for her ...and her jackpot.

Honestly...it was nicer hearin her blabberin on abt her jackpot than talkin abt my cases.


like great what e hell. i have to study now. there are too many tests.

Hey u guyz!

It was sooo crazily hectic ytd!!!! Truddy was the main organiser for today's judo outing since she was the one who initiated it. Unfortunately...none of the details were settled so i had to call her and ask and stuff....And den she backed out!! So in the end...beepee and me became e organisers. I was racking my brains sooo much ytd tht much of my poor brain cells have died without proper burial and funeral.

HAHA!!!!!! evrything was nicely settled it was sooo nice :D i could finally do my maths assignment...until 2 am. how hot.

this mornin was e most embarassing day of my life cos id set my ring tone for receiving messages to be like a reli loud song...so tht id hear it when an urgent sms regardin e outing is received. UNfortunately..early in e mornin right when we were standing to attention....my fone had that Spongebob Squarepants Campfire Song ringtone on....and yea...u can like guess what happened after tht.

Evryone turned to look at my direction...giggling.

OMg the walk was soooo ....erm...short. but it was hot!.

And id never step into macritchie or sit on those stupid patches of grass again!!! Too many insects its like...for tht particular moment..i was living in so much fear.

anyway after tht whole thing....we ran to the bus stop cos we obviously knew we were running outta time. unfortunately...the bus took a million centuries to arrive...only to drive off as we gaped helplessly at it.
yea so tht explains our latenesss!!!!!

And den it was all hectic !!! deciding where to eat..bla bla and at 12.55!!!!!!!!when the movie was like alr showing... we were still stoning outside munching our food gleefully away. and when the tickets came...we walked into the theatre...only to realize we'd forgotten what our seat numbers were. so while the movie was showing....people were still walkin around frantically looking for empty seats.

OMg the movie was soo damn hot okay! i cried a few times. it was soooo touching!!!!!!!

the best movie ever!

we went to the eat at the village later...where the sji boys decided tht sniffing pepper was amusing enough to become a dare game.

Hullo!!!!!!

why is evryone trickin me these days?! i must never believe anything tht anyone say anymore! particularly...norty pple..like.....erm..too many to state. HAH but guess what! i pretended to fall for all ur trickeries...to trick u guyz into believing tht id actually fell for ur tricks! HAHA and u guyz fell for it!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAH the tables are turned :))))

ytd was soo hot! but i saw sooo many unfamiliar faces! like e guy sittin nx to me in seoul garden. it was like e first time i was seein him when he'd protested tht he'd came to almost evry training. Plus evryone looked so diff and hot!

the vid was soooo hot! it was like totally funny. and the fireworks were hot! i guess the most emotional part was durin e cap'ns speech! Roy and Francis looked like they were almost crying! i was like holding my breath! cuma was bein as idiotic as ever. HAHA!

its reli saddening tht the j2s and sec 4s had to go. Trainings will never be the same without em. :(( IM gona miss evryone so much :(

i love all judokas!!!!!!!! u guyz rock my sock!

Yo! yo! yo!!!!

ooo im becomin a yoyo player.
okay lame i noe.

omg tht sounds so siti.

omg today's totally enriching so its hot!!!

i loved today!! i love all judokas!!!! their the hottest people on the planet!!!

siti came over to my house to grab some clothes!! omg im so excited abt the farewell thingy. and like i had 3 ppl buggin me abt it....extremely impatient people!

and beepee bein v smart tried to trick me with his v bimbotic tricks which of course didnt work on me cos im too smart

argh!!! i havent been studying but omg! the GP exam was like quite okay..but i think im gona fail anyway so it doesnt make a diff

Ooooo that guy nx door is hot! blonde hair blue eyes...makes ur heart melt. Awwwww