Someone is singing some old mandarin opera amidst the stillness and peace in Civics center library in Woodlands

and id really love to shush her but unfortunately i cant trace where e voice is from

and evryones juz sniggering away wonderin who e hell it is..

oh my god

It kills.. it ruins
at that point in time when i was on e brink of falling over.. I realized for a startling moment.. how dangerous it could really be.. and ive been livin with it for 18 years.
how it could ruin a perfectly normal human being so subtlely with such insidious force...
Its e mechanism that drives ones world.. without it.. your world fades away into nothingness.. empty darkness..
it doesnt change reality but it affects it.
And I dont wana lose control again..
but im afraid that im about to.. again...

i cant study at civics lib anymore cos there are too many distractions such as this cute, sexy, hot, tanned, and buff guy with an irresistible dimply smile
to make u soo distracted ud lose conc on evrything else

while waiting for e library gates to open...

With all that talk about plastic surgery.. ive decided to have one and hence ive travelled to korea immediately after e prelims and came back like this.

I think we've all learnt a lesson from here children.

sis and me (before e surgery)



Meet my husband, Keita


14 year old keita


the now keita (im clueless abt his age cos im such a failed wife u see)


ALL u bitches stop stealing him from me! hes mine im sorry to say

PRELIMS ARE OVERRRRRRR

but As hasnt

its pretty unfortunate cos... most of my darlings are still having their exams.. plus mom has graciously allowed only a one days grace of rest.

plus i still needa spend time with em hence i ended up spendin my weekends in e lib

i ended up sleeping there

i love e library... to the point that.. the library isnt juz a place to provide me with a place to study... its also an avenue to relieve stress...a place where u spend time with all ur mates.. who'll stick by u till death.. pple ill nvr forget for life... even if some of u babes dont go to e library as often like ys, siti, wisp, arch, and more (even if i don mention ur name here it doesnt mean tt i love u any less.. i do love u guyz alot neway..each and evryone of u) ...the lib still reminds me of u guyz somehow

Take away all my sadness
Fill my life with gladness
Ease my troubles
Thats what u do

be touched! haha ok la i didnt compose that poem myself.. im listening to this reli gorgeous song "have i told you lately"

i juz wana say.. i reli do appreciate evry single one of u... its juz some things have been happening and i don wana burden any of u with my troubles... and its in all e lil things that u do.. even if u felt like u didnt do much.. but it still means so much to me u noe..all those times u guyz have been there for me when i was down.. the genuine care that i felt.. even if it were juz a mere sms or encouragement.. a decorated letter or postcard...its touched me alot..

id love to stay strong and work really hard...
for ppl who have genuinely cared for me and hope to see me do well.. for God..and for the ones that i love..

Im so thankful <3

Bein narcisstic in e lib with jo.. i shd put some of e face-warped pix up nx time they're hilarious

it was a mad dash to the end.

evryone was geared up at 10am.. ready in gergarisan positions

I recognized that little boy who was licking the closed gate, literally, as he alwayz does.
Its a form of destress i suppose?

the gate opened.

Pple crawled under the gates before it was fully opened

and den evrything happened in a whirl... pple were sprinting to their favourite hot spots

A lady had dropped one of a pair of her slippers and her bag while running but she left it there and pressed on.

Woah the library sure is an interesting place

OKay i think ill never run for my seat again

its too barbaric.

Latest happenings:

u juz cant believe it
i spilled coffeeeeeee in macs
it was e most embarassing thing the world will ever know
I juz wanted toooooo dieeeeeeeeeeeeeee righttttttttt there and then
but a cute guy got me a new cup of coffee and helped me dry my notes and stuff
so it wasnt such a bad thign afterall

I needa drink i needa drink


drink under the starsss... juz to destress

im still dying to get into psychology

i am still studying

i plucked my eyebrows and it felt like it took a century

i ate nasi lemak yesterday!!!!!

AN old man was staring with mouth gaping wide at sis and me for fulll 10 minutes in e bus bcos he thot he'd seen ghosts when we're very much alive... and if he doesnt know twins exist on planet earth

Maccccc juz smiled at meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I broke my clip

I ate in e library
in fact i do it evrytime im there. SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
(but i nv get caught)

MY FILES ARE GONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I heard my NAME ON 98.70 FM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY NAILS ARE SOOOO LONGGGGG.. IVE LEARNT THE LIKES OF YEANG MING SHENG

LEE BOON PING has admitted that im smarter than him and that he is a piggy

Dad was aspiring to get the biggest monitor screen in the world.. hes got it now
I had difficulty finding the cursor


Dad also bought a new keyboard and the first thing i saw when i entered e house was him typing away merrily on an un-connected keyboard (he thot it was fun)

he cut his own hair and he was so proud of it cos he thinks its hip. (it looks like bart simpson's)

byE BYE

Oh man this is really really stressful

tons of stuff have happened... but.. ill tell u in my own time..

juz don feel too comfortable exposing things like that in public.

OMIGAWDD im starting to distance myself from this blog! QUELLE HORREUR

but ya.. i guess.. i hope itll never come back

YAY YAY im gonna pull through this year!! juz.. a lil bit more..

BYE BYE

okay im back to normal

I finally have a goal in life!!!!!!
Im so tired...So very tired..
im gona take up psychology and do social work.
i dun noe if i can pull thru this year
is tt cool?!
if only i hadnt been born..
bye i needa sleep
bcos i don deserve to be on planet earth
had a terribly long day
i needa be strong.. give me strength to move on
so v tired

Not all of e pressies are here cos i havent got em but I STILL LOVE EVRYTHING
No link but.. HAHAH !!!!! Ya its true i love evrthing! Even the treats.. and e wishes!

OMG!!!!!!!!

omg i loved all e pressies ok!

THANK U (not in order of preference)

T27!!!!!!!!! The hottest class on earth!!!

and JUDOKASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS XOXOXOOX -kiss kiss-

and jojo and chairman

and arabel darling

and wee, sz, celestine... dadada

and peipei babe

and Rui

and Arch darling

and algae

and yx, eelin, les, and algae

err i hope i havent missed anyone out.

YEAP!! and to all who wished me!!!!

Honestly.. thanks for rmbing my bday!!!

Bcos it reli means alottt ! Bcos im e sort whos like really bad at rmbin dates and im in awe at how good ur memories are!

or mayb im juz plain dumb.

HAHA my bday celebration was like national day... 3 days of holiday

on friday..

It was a combined outing...

my family + Arabel

lol it felt like she was our sister and we had so much fun eating at east coast! IM so glad we could celebrate our bdays together!!!!!!!! luv ya ys! XOXO

Sat.. went out with jojo and chairman!!
It was sooo hot!

and it was also e first time i stepped into a bar.

yea.. cos im so guai right??

but it was really borin cos i didnt even get high... i mean ive never really gotten high before and was rather curious...

so i drank "screaming orgasm" "sex on the beach" and "long island tea"

Plus screaming orgasm had hard liquor in it.

But its hot man! its like milky.. thts so sexy

On sunday... dadada.. i don really hav to go into detail do i?

yea so thank u to evryone of u who made this special!

Time to get on with Work. SIGH

Hello darlings

Pls do not get too excited juz yet...

cos excitement only brings disappoint

AND PLS THINK LOGICALLY!!!

how can sum1 like me pull a surprise on a whole grp of pple..

that is well.. reli surprising

WHen im alwayz the one gettin surprised or frightened by pple

bcos im so gullible

Read this for e ultimate experience of all time

well ive been rather bored of writing e way pple expect from blogs i might as well write like how i talk to myself and share 'me' to e world.

Bcos.. i reli do talk alot to myself.

Like to myself. AND sometimes i laugh at myself

for saying the most retarded things known to humanity to myself

Bcos my innermost is sooo retarded sometimes i hav to go like.. "HELLO?!!! OMGGGGG plsss juz stoppppp being funny! OMG u are seriously retarded!" juz to stop my innermost from spinning out of control

SO I SHD start talking to myself on my BLOG!!! Du think thats cool?!

well i think thats retarded but thats how i like it sooo FACE IT!! UR READIN A RETARDED BLOG!

well lets see...

FOR the life of me.. I still cant believe i slept-study once upon a 32 hours ago...
(if u tried workin ur math and came to a really awkward timing instead of e usual sleeping time of most human beings... Dont bother feeling puzzled... Id crapped up e number 32 cos i was too lazy to do my math calculation)

YEa i slept study.. if u reli wana noe.

Well u wouldnt cos yea...

I SLEPT STUDY!

well not really cos i wasnt only studying.. and sleeping.. i was singing too... in e wee hours of e morning at 4 am.

God help me.

So i was doin all three things at a go.

And hence i hav come to e greatest conclusion of all time

I am good at multi tasking... only when im sleeping.

Muji was scared stiff to death when she saw me getting out of bed... den turning on e lights, sittin on e chair, and picking up my chem wksht.

ONLY of course.. Light couldnt penetrate thru my closed eyelids so i guess...

i couldnt really study...

SO i ended up singing.

So yea...if one day u shd ever see ur wife humming to some tune while sitting up, facing a piece of chem worksheet... AND SLEEPING...

shes most prolly ME.

And u shd Thank God for being the luckiest person in e world.

And i dont mean it.

And i would JUZ LIKE TO ANNOUNCE TO THE WORLD AKA U PPLE OUT THERE WHO ARE PRYIN INTO MY INNERMOST RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT... RIGHT AT THIS VERY SECOND THAT...

Wispy urinates at 100dbs

random announcement.. but announcements are alwayz random dont u think??

Well if ur reading this.. uve juz spent 3 mins of ur life experiencing what it feels like reading my innermost...

God bless u

AND GOODNIGHT!

How the research section of woodlands civics library level 2, aka the place i study, turned into Mental Hospital number 2 remains a mystery to this day...something i may never solve to my dying day.

Juz last last week... a man was wanking in full view of evryone who was studying at the corner near e books.
Sis stoned and watched in intrigue for minutes before mumbling "is he doin what i think hes doin"
As if a switch had been installed within his being.. he suddenly turned into frantic mode and started arranging the tables and chairs before hopping away delightfully

Today.. a woman who looked alot like oprah winfrey in pyjamas stood in front of the section and exclaimed

"Ive got two hands
And i can hold two reference book
CAN U BELIEVE IT??!!"

what horrified me was how similar the way she said "CAN U BELIEVE IT??!!" to e way i say it.

Maybe that will be the future me... when i go berserk under all e stress... only ill look more like xu chun mei in pyjamas.

And a boy singing loudly away amidst the silence within the study corner... He had the hottest voice known to humaity...and i dont mean it. Unaware of how sexy his voice sounded.. he had to sing loudly away again just as we thot peace was finally ours to enjoy.

Well i guess i aint too sound myself cos i went into the toilet cubicle with two other hot girls, HX and SZ

To eat our KFC meals

yes in front of the toilet bowl if u may ask..

All thanks to the librarian who threatened to confiscate our stuff if we did not get back in 5 mins from our lunch break.

I guess my experience of studyin at level 2 of woodlands civics library has pretty much made me accustom to bein around mentally unsound individuals.
How sexy is that?!

not.

i think my new word now is sexy.

MY relationship with the word "HOT" has henceforth ended.

Oh my.. im juz bein cranky pls ignore me.

hello

Thank u darlings i feel.. much better now.. which is a good thing right!
even tho at certain intervals of the day it still gets to me.. but its alot less painful now

it is afterall... juz a game.. and i guess evryone makes mistakes...i juz wish i hadnt made it on e occasion when it mattered most.

whats more real and special are the times we've had... the outings..the times we've trained and encouraged one another.. the times we've cried, bled and sweat together..
I'll never forget u darling judoka, tough girls to my dying day! U guyz will alwayz remain close to my heart!

<3 <3 <3 <3

Today went off... at least less tormenting than ytd..
At least i could smile and forget about it at certain intervals of the day..

"Its over"
"Its not ur fault"
bla bla bla

Its easier said than done. when mates cry or go utterly depressed over losin in comps... id say the same thing and wondered why it hit em so hard... Now.. do i reli und how terrible it reli feels...

Id wake up and think about it.. sleep and dream about it.. i wana forget evrything... but it keeps haunting..

I wish i could forget what happened.. bcos its been tormenting me so much its terrible and i hate feeling this way
I dono if ill ever get over it.. I don think ive ever felt so horrid over a failure before...not even in track days.. not even in sec days as far as i can rmb.. apart from gettin my O results.

I wish it were juz a terrible nightmare... a nightmare im dyin to wake up from..

my heart feels so heavy its hard to even conc.. juz as i could finally get my mind onto something else as i was doin my hmwk in e lib...
a nanyang girl walked past...

Shit and it all came back... memories flooded back...

Its so exasperating to hav to pick myself up countless and countless of times after falling over and over again... juz as ive mustered enough strength to carry on walking... a stone comes hurdling in my direction.. again.. and again.. and again.

only this time.. its a reallly.. big.. heavy stone.

i guess... after all these... after all e probs.. after pickin myself up so many times... it wouldnt be too impossible to pick myself up again..it wont be hard.. ill b alright.

I will stay strong... im juz not too alright at e mo... but reli ill be fine.

Pls dont talk to me about this wen u see me alright?
e last thing i need is for someone to remind me abt what happened

ill reli be ok.. Ive reli got to pick myself up again...

I mean things have started to look up... surprisingly... mom didnt pick a quarrel with me after seein my terrible mid results... something ive been dreading..

it hurts soo much evrytime they accuse me of this and that when its not true.. and theres nothing i can do bcos they wont believe that i reli did study... I dread e family quarrels bcos it hurts so bad to be hav such a strained relationship with pple u love but wont trust u.

Ive alwayz wanted to do well... esp for mids... after what ms lim told my parents...ive been trying so hard... bcos im too emotionally drained and tired of my parents maligning me for bein e worst daughter in e world...

But yea... i guess mom could see tht.. ive been trying...trying to do well.. i wish she'd seen this earlier.. den i wouldnt hav felt so tortured all these while...

okay time to stop emo-ing

OKAY im gonna watch harry potter tmr!!
seein daniel radcliffe will perk me up!!!

Tmr's gona be a reli cool day!!!

AND IM reli tired anyway

SO IM GONNA go to bed and sleeep my ass off on my new found 10 day old PILLOWWWW

ITS been a gorgeous 10 night experience cos its reli fluffy and comfy

today.. is soo.. emotionally draining

i dono wad to say... juz cant bringmyself to face coach or anyone anymore.

i cant believe it.. i reli cant..

im so.. sorry.. i noe u guyz say its not my fault but if u were in my shoes.. ud prolly feel e same way too.

i juz cant believe it... the worst match tht id performed in had to be e most crucial one.

soo many failures... it feels like e day when i got my terrible O results.. it feels as tho ull nvr be able to smile again.. as if.. its all over...

juz like Os.. diz judo comp mattered so much to me.. and den..

i juz.. duno how to face coach or e seniors wen i go to trg anymore.. i reli dont.

i noe u guyz will think its not alright to talk this way... but if u were in my shoes.. ud feel e same way too.

I feel like shaving bald
maybe im juz becomin a lil too crazy
as crazy as psychotic britney spears who went to shave her head

thursday was roughly a last training.

And suddenly.. it juz hit me that.. once this is over..
ill hardly see my darling judokas or train with em again
i think im gonna miss that feeling of extreme exhaustion and fatigue.. and that feeling of pushing urself to the very limit...
im gonna miss throwing rachel
im gonna miss judo

and the best judoka team mates in the entire universe!!!!!!!!!

it was a pretty.. emotional day.. on thursday for me.. the day sir announced the team...i was walkin along with siti... and as we came to a sudden realization that we were not gona see e judokas as much once its over.. we both cried... and siti quickly changed the subject

i mean.. ive been longing for this day to come for a very long time.. for the day when ill step down.. so there;ll be no more grueling training and ill finally have more time for my studies... and yet.. now that the day has come.. im not exactly rejoicing.. its juz so.. saddening.

and i juz want u guyz to know that it was the greatest pleasure to hav been able to train with such a wonderful bunch of people.. I am soo greatly honoured to have trained with all of u.. u guyz are amazing beyond anything and i love u guyz so much xoxo i couldnt ask for more

Ill alwayz remember those memorable times ive had in judo.. so many ups and downs.. so many lessons ive learnt.. so much ive discovered about myself.. gg against the odds and that the impossible.. is reli well possible afterall... I love judo im gona miss it so much.

its our nats this wednesday! Finally..after torturing ourselves for 2 years for this day!
Jia you darlings!!! xoxo

I am a very sentimental person ..ahem..and hence this post

Tonight.. july 2nd, 2007, is a very special night..

as its the night i hav finally changed my pillow after 13 years.

cos it was too flat after 13 years of havin a heavy head rest upon it. Not that my heads that heavy cos its full of brain mass..

but still it is something worth commemorating.

Evryone! one minute of silence pls!

litterbugs are here to stay

its hard.. but uve gotta pick urself up and move along thru life anwyay.. i mean what choice do u have?

stay strong wont u

OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

JOJO bought us a red adidas track suit!!!

oh my god i wana die!

weird

Weird things happen at civics center and allow me to reinforce this.. WEIRD things reli do happen at civics center.
Unfortunately it has to be the place i mug day and night at

And here i am.. alive and breathing. *checks pulses* Yes indeed my heart is still beating

Thank GOD ID MANAGED TO GET OUT ALIVE!! I never thot id see sunlight ever again

The stupid lock in the toilet wouldnt OPEN so i was stuck in there for 30 minutes wen peeing requires compromising only 30 seconds or maybe 29s of our lives.

I swear i thot the toilet bowl was gona be my death bed.

I was imagining sis's frantic menace and evryone else running helter skelter like lil mice all over civics to look for the lost lost missing ongshufen

I imagined posters of myself stuck on MRT stations' call-outs for missing people

my fingers are now bruised from trying to turn that lock open though

but no worries evryone cos i wont disappear from your lives just yet.. cos right now im shivering in the library once again

One day i shall strut into the library in winter apparels as a protest against turning the library into the 'north pole' of Singapore.

And to stand up for the poor polar bears in the arctic suffering from the effects of global warming as they tire themselves out swimming cos theres no more ice for them to rest on thanks to more CFC emission coming out from civics center's woodland's regional library

My time spent mugging has endowed me with the knowledge that there are indeed many interesting individuals out there manifesting planet Earth.

Yesterday there were three man who arent exactly in their right minds in the library at the SAME section where i was studying. I mean i can even recognise them cos the library is now like my second home. U can tell that they aint exactly sound cos they keep talking in the library to themselves.

Like this man who keeps cursing and swearing in cantonese

Or this old man who walked up to me and asked "do you want wisdowm"

Or this regular visitor i see evryday walkin arnd and shakin his head and laughin to himself

or screaming kids that screech at evrything and i mean evrything

Or some kids who are standing at attention, singing majulah singapura while facing me right now as im typing. Im at macs. I guess its cos im wearing a red and white shirt. I guess they mistook me for a singapore flag

HAHA im so lazy i juz copied e whole chunk of picture url from christy's blog.

"sssehhhh"

my new moan.. to let out my fustration during training. Like when u needa summon soo much energy its seriously killing ur lungs... A good loud moan will help. Ive learnt that through judo.
the most unique of which belongs to jenny in which both rachel and I love to crack at.. it goes like "WASSUP"

IM serious it helps!

let me give u a brief summary on e effects of judo training camp

1) We couldnt sleep at night cos our body was too accustomed to the strenuous and active training of training from MORNING TILL NIGHT only stoping to rest durin meal times. We ended up having spasms while dreaming of a judo rip or throw.
2) OUr hands and feets were wrapped in rolls of plasters and tapes
3) we developed polka dotted (blue blacks) skins
4) it was a chore to sit;
5) it was a chore to get up from sitting position;
6) it was a chore to laugh.. yea so i ended up screaming instead of laughing when a joke comes along... due to horrendous muscle aches. basically.. it was a chore to move.
7) it was a chore to sit on e hard floor cos our backs were filled with bruises
8) the bathroom was filled with cries of pain and screams due to the wetting of painful abrasions
9) my dear partner, rachel, trained so hard till she had hyperventilation
10) Ive created a new moan to burst out more energy and it came naturally!
11) Bleeding fingers
12) swollen knee and hips
13) pain at every part of the body
14) Much Adrenaline wasted while we worry about what we'd hav to go thru in e next upcoming trainings during breaks.
15) Tears of fustration and fatigue shedded while we trained our asses off cos the feeling of extreme fatigue was terrible
16) Urge to pluck Jason's head off and stuffing it in the oven grew stronger

ALL IN ALL
It was e worst camp ive ever gone to. Judo camp=torture camp
The other terrible one was the June judo camp but i think this is slightly worse than that.

BUT GUESS WHAT?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WE've SURVIVED JUDO CAMP AND THATS ALL THAT MATTERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

all that torture.. was worth it. =)


To bleeding, sweating, fainting, pain, breaking bones, bruising, exhaustion, dadada
JUDO ROCKS!!!

To my dearest darling judokas.. it was a pleasure to be able to go through this hardship with u darlings as a team. We've made it!!!! to saturday night!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!
JOY TO THE WORLD

u should see evryone's glowing face wen e last trainin ended.

I love JUDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

Okay im gonna die! 3 days of work to catch up on IM seriously dying! and more trainings comin up. Gosh i don think i can sleep at night anymore.

I seriously think im gonna fail Mid years.

say ur last goodbyes to me cos im off to judo aka torture camp

gosh cant wait for e exams to be over.. seriously screwing my life!

i hate school i reli do

BYE BYE

hello hello hello

im gettin a lil cranky but its ok since im alwayz cranky all e time

Gosh.. i reli cant bring myself to concentrate Oh gosh!

i seriously need some inspirational figure to study with me!!! SUPER INSPIRATIONAL LIKE PROLLY E SMARTEST PERSON IN SINGAPORE WHOS TAKIN HIS/HER AS too.

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

these few days has been awesome... at least im gettin a wee bit of my life back apart from all that mugging.
and ive got myself to walk on the right path.

There was e CJ drama play night.. and it was hot. I SWEar Evryone was not themselves it was CHAOS!
MADNESS!
more CHAOS
and MORE madness... im sorry but i hav a v limited space in e vocab section of my brain.

Siti was awesome cos she Miaoed.
Sondra was awesome too cos she zaogenged
Martina was awesome too cos she had lightings draped over her.

haha nahh juz kiddin.. U guyz were aweome cos u guys were hot seriously.
i mean it was e first time i saw em act and i was sooo totally impressed.

went to meet e usual NUTZY NS guyz again... at like 11pm!
they are as cranky as ever! but i had to leave immediately cos i didnt wana walk 50 km home in 6 inch high wedges when all e bus services decide to abandon me.

BUT clement was sooo ncie!!!!!! insisted that i shd take a cab home and paid for it!!! I almost died from gratefulness! SO nice pls!

Sherman being as retarded as ever. HAHAHHAA

ANd omg u wouldnt believe what happened durin judo training

Punishments!!!!!!!!! cos some guys decided to act cute and posed as F4s. aka flower 4s. as rachel and i put it by not wanting to spar... causing the whole team to suffer !

gosh im dreadin judo camp. Its gonna be more like torture camp!
Pls dont miss me too much shd anything untowards happen.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

My shoulders are officially... WEIRD

both of em.. so much so tht its becomin a chore unhookin ahem.. when ive gotta reach behind my back.

MY thighs are as hard as my marble floor... tho not as shiny cos they're not as smooth.

IM like aching ALLL OVERRRR thanks to sat's trg.

AND if u havent heard.. Ive CUT MY HAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ripley's believe it or not.

To all tht ive moaned like moaning myrtle to... its alright.. I think i love it now!!!!

MWAHAHA

BTW!!!!! Diva's 50% off SALE IS A TO DIE FOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I bot this reli cute black clip with a bow and a pair of hot dangling earrings. They are soooooooooooooo cooL!!!!!!!! as cool as the ice in my refrigerator. Ive fallen head over heels in love with SALES! LIKE Deeply!!!!

I reli love diva i reli reli reli do! Its e hottest shop thts ever known to humanity!!! Like omg! i mean it!!!!!!!!! but why are their necklaces soooo expensive :(:(:(

IF U WANA GET ME ANY PRESSIE!!!!!!!!!!! GET IT FROM DIVA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok tht was soo subtle

Jojo's stayin over tonight! WOots (new word ive learnt from MS)!!!

Shit id better study now!
I need muggers to inspire me to study man!

IM gettin lazier to blog day by day cos this blog doesnt alwayz represent what i reli feel about things.. keep havin to put on a farcade about how im so cheery about evrything cos i don reli fancy pple worryin for me.

Well.. cheers to fainting and bleeding on the dojo.

I did 10 3 min bouts... first time im doin it.. and it had to be on e day i was sick.

And well i fainted. When i got a hold of myself or when i was more sobre after evrything.. all the pain started to surface...
NEW bruises, injuries, painful bleeding abrasions.. stupid ol' shoulder injury.

Thanks to judo.. My legs and hands are gettin interesting patterns.. Polka dots!

JUdo ROCKS!

Econs exam tmr and im reli not lookin forward to it.

if i screw this exam up... itll most prolly be reli e end of me... even tho it may juz be a mid year.. but theres juz so many things u dont know..

SO many things im extremely tired of.. and i dono if ill hav e strength to deal with all these inevitable upcoming obstacles...

if i screw evrything and my life this year... which i will... ill be reli done for. reli.. its gona be e end of me.

I dread all of these.. I cant contemplate these thoughts.. juz the thought scares me. Plus all thts happening is really draining off my already limited supply of energy.. i dono if i can live through this.. its too terrifying.

Evrything will be gone.. all my aspirations.. my dreams.. my parents will hate me to e core.. My future.. e things ive been workin towards all my life... they're diminishing.. fading.

It was so terrible.. horrifying.. the last time it happened.. i cant imagine what will happen if it does again.. i cant even contemplate these thoughts.. all the quarrels.. the sadness.. te pain.. the tears.. the nights.. the breakdowns.. the exasperation.

I was tryina be like you.. trying to stay strong like u wanted me to.. Im so sorry... its juz too hard...

Thanks to Eco challenge and Macs ytd... I am now sick once again. And my throat hurts like a million shit.

HAHAHAHA guess what we got 6th position out of like 30 other groups ok! it was like amazing race and it was reli tiring.. BUT it was DAMNNNN FUN!

yea.. like finding a specific tree in e middle of e rainforest is fun.

Thank god we have geniuses like chris and victor who solved e puzzles in instants. All i did was run, run and run.

Oh and there was this uber helpful guy who was tellin us all e answers as he ran past us.. even tho we didnt even like seek help from him. DAmn nice can!
NEw guy for victor to faint and swoon over.

CT darling got second for her race!!!!!!!! IM SO HAPPY FOR U DARLING!!!! love u so much. u were amazing!!!

Felt like shit afterwards..big headache, nauseating feeling.. painful throat...and had to cancel all outings. What a day.

Gosh i think im gettin reli sick. I HATE GETTIN SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if only id wake up and realize my life were juz a dream..

inter class Handball competition today!

ok i think i shd avoid takin part or watchin another ball competition again.

cos in e midst of all e excitement... I realized id made a folly of myself by screaming too much! which.. i alwayz do durin ball games. AND I ALWAYZ DO IT SUBCONSCIOUSLY .. i guess thts how i get my sore throats.

But all in all... I loved today.. i guess we've bonded well as a class through this game. I love T27!!!!!!! we hardly hav time to bond and stuff and frankly speaking i guess ive segregated alot from e class by stickin to my clique for e past few months.

But i sooo loved today! cos we've finally gone for a hot class outing! after like afihalksjdfiuasdnflasfh centuries. yay T27 ROCKS!

Right now I shd drink more honey water to soothe my throat.