CHINESE NEW YEAR

HI Earth.


It was a pretty packed Lunar New Year for me this year!


It was pretty wonderful cos i got to take some time out to spend some quality time with my family and relatives!



We went to resort world sentosa so i thought id juz show u some pics

OKay i gotta get to IMH!

BYE

hairdresser and camera

I must say... I LOVE MY HAIRDRESSER!

He's gay, He's hot, Hes funny... what can I ask for?

AND he knows just exactly what i want!

He simply envies the style that i love and he'd make it happen for me!

He thinks Singaporean guys arent hot.

He teased me about my date.

And we HUGGED! I just love him so much!

Anyway... I GOT A LOMOGRAPHY CAMERA!!!!!!!

Nick just came back from Australia and surprised me with a phone call last night.

So we met up today AND I CANT believe it but he got me a lomo CAMERA!!!!

MY first lomo camera!

Im so gonna play around with it!

I love photography!

We are but curious little children, exploring the mysteries of the world.

Love

I gave my testimonial in front of approximately 80 over people on new year's day!

I did this sharing.. with my family in mind as well.

Invited my whole family to hear me speak.

I know... how brave right? I never would have done this a week ago.

But no matter how nervous i was i knew i had to do it.

By the way, the speech had to be done --- IN CHINESE

Before u loll yourself over and fall out of your chair... people actually understood everything ok!

That night, strangers walked up to tell me that the testimonial touched their hearts... which is really great! i hope i got my message across.

One of the things I talked about was the importance of cherishing our families and the people around us before it is too late.

that bit was aimed at reaching out to some of the youths/adults who have made the mistake i did.

... and i did it for my family. my family's broken. And i had hoped that the sharing would touch their hearts... so that we'll all work together to bring fire into this home again.

And im glad i did because that night we had one of the sweetest memories of our lives.

It was Muji's birthday, and we worked together to make this birthday really special for her.

In case u dont know who muji is, she's my maid of 8 years and she's like a sister to me.

Here are some pictures:














I hope my family members are not scaring you with their seeming lack of cheerfulness.

Mom and muji like to stone into the camera because they think smiling makes their faces look stretched and fat, like play doughs.

Dad... well, hes just being himself.

just joking, my dad's a very fun-loving man.

I just wanna thank God for giving me the courage to speak, to share my walk in life with Him.

I love because God loved me first.

Goodnight!

I don't know about tomorrow

I don’t know about tomorrow,
I don’t have a guarantee
That it will be filled with sunshine
Or that these clouds will always be.

I don’t know about tomorrow,
I don’t have a guarantee,
That it will bring any riches
Or greater poverty.

I don’t know about tomorrow,
I don’t have a guarantee,
That the air will be filled with music
Or if there will be no melody.

I don’t know about tomorrow,
I don’t have a guarantee.
The events of the future
Aren’t for me to see.

I don’t need to know the details,
Or what might happen when.
I just need to know what Trust is
And how to hold His hand.

I might be afraid of failure,
I might be afraid of pain.
But every life has sunshine
Just as surely as it has rain.

So I don’t know about tomorrow.
I don’t need a guarantee
I can still choose to make it
As happy as it can be.

I can choose to smell the roses,
And be thankful for the thorns
And to focus on the blessings
Hidden even in the storms.

I don’t know about tomorrow.
I don’t have a guarantee.
But Lord make my heart always thankful
For every blessing you let me see.

Let me trust you with tomorrow,
And with the problems and the pain
And gather up the simple beauties of the good times
And the blessings of storm and rain.

- By Chantel Brankshire, from ylcf.org

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Im sorry i didnt bring my cam around for the past few days!

I really should have.

I would have taken a gorgeous shot and post it up to wish everyone a very Merry new year. A beautiful shot speaks a thousand words.

These past few days have been one of the most beautiful times of my life.

I was at St. John's island for church camp. It ended on the last day of 2010. And i went out with some of my bestest friends who grew up with me... who weathered the storms of life with me... on the night of new year's eve.

When i came back home, all i can think of is... my family. And how lucky I am to be where I'm at.

I feel lucky, to have been given the gift to listen, look, feel, speak, ... for others.

I have a mouth to speak... to rally others to change their lives and those around them.

I have eyes to see... and be aware of the suffering of the needy.

i have ears to listen... to the cries of the poor.

i have hands .. that is able to lend support to the fallen.

I have a heart, that is touched by God, to help and touch the lives of people.


Life will never be the same again.

St John's island is such a beautiful place.

I was given the opportunity to bask in the night winds at the beach... with my best friend, grass... just the two of us... looking out to the opposite shore where we can see the ferris wheel and marina bay sands.

We were alone, sitting on a bench, beneath two trees... And singing our favourite songs.

There was nobody. And it was dark because there were hardly any lights.

It was 1 am.

I would never forget this beautiful moment...

after experiencing God's miracles for 3 days, it was serene to be sitting there and pondering over all that He has done in our lives.

I realized for a startling moment that.... God has been with me.. every step of the way through my life... Only i couldnt see it.. and couldnt understand it... until that very day.

I left Him for months.

But He has never left me.

Just like how he had promised me on the day i accepted Him into my heart, many years ago.

He spoke to my heart several times... and told me that nothing is impossible.

I never dared to speak in public... much less share about my very personal life with strangers... But i did. Because He gave me the strength to.

I told him i could never pray for others because im horrible with my expression and i dont know how to do it.

But He told me He was gonna make me pray for the entire group during the service.. and oh gosh Pastor really called me out to pray.

These little inadequacies and imperfections that i have placed at the foot of the cross, He gently held it and made my inadequacies adequate, my imperfections... perfect.

God loves His children... very much. He loves even those who dont yet know Him, or who criticize him.

He loves all of us the same... regardless of our race, background, personality, or imperfections.

I know this because He loves and never despises me... the one person who has sinned against Him time and time again.

Still, like a loving Father, he welcomes me with open arms each time after I've strayed away.

He never gave up on me.. not once.. not ever.

Thank You Dad... for everything.

Happy New Year!!!

Merry Christmas

I gotta do this post quickly before my Dad finishes shitting in the toilet and snatches the computer from me.

I know its boxing day already but.. Merry christmas everybody!

I spent eve with my family.. which was real sweet. It was the first time i actually got christmas presents for my family.

OKay i know you might think it is a little too late since i was born 21 years ago..and i had 20 times of opportunity to do that.. but my family never really celebrated christmas. I decided to take the initiative.

This year i really wanted it to be special.. by spending it with my family. I wanted to share the joy i have on christmas... because its really special to me. It is afterall my heavenly Dad's birthday.

Then at 12 midnight i sent out some ecards to old friends that i havent had time to spend with this holiday. I've been very busy and ive neglected some of them. I really miss them all and would love to catch up.. but sometimes its just pretty hard cos im practically Busy All The Time.

i was so distracted by wondering what to do with my hectic schedule that i forgot to S/U my module. SO my CAP is pretty low now.

I cant forgive myself.. Im sorry, Self. I cant forgive you. I just can't. *bangs head on wall*

So here's what i did on Christmas day.

Spent some intimate time with my childhood buddies :D



Kaela (who is none other than Shan, and has recently changed her name of late.. again. haha) is back from Korea!

With some nice goodies, might I add.
Check out what she's holding... You probably can't read it unless you understand Korean.

Cheese Ramen
In other words, the most orgasmic thing in the world.


We cooked our christmas lunch. With alot of joy. Dont underestimate us. We're amazing cooks.


Hmm... pro huh?

... fine, it was instant campbell soup.


In fact most of us were just standing around to watch while one person cooks.

Amused look on amanda's face... she's never seen anyone cook her whole life :O


Happy to prepare christmas lunch!

We watched a great movie over christmas lunch.

It is called --- SEXDRIVE.

Look at all their excited faces.

Fang astonished by what she sees on the screen.

Haha its not porn, really. In fact, its a really funny movie.
From the time the movie starts, you'll start laughing all through it until it ends.




Here's our Korean Cheese Ramen. Very Asian. I like the chinese newspaper for a background prop. I am obsessed with being asian.. you can tell that cos i dyed my hair -- Jet Black.



Happy people.



So this was our intimate little christmas!


Merry Christmas! :D

Yes?

Merry Christmas everybody!

Its Christmas eve and I'm gonna do the thangg with my family.

We gotta do e thang Cmon.

Cos family's one in a million.

HAHAHA


Im sure none of u got the joke.

But its okay as long as i do.

Nothing's gonna change my world

Nothing's gonna change my world.

It is perfect as it is.

Morning

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HEYLO!

One fine day, i made a resolution to capture images with my new cannon 60D as an appreciation of beautiful mornings, before all the buzz as i head off to school/work.

I AM the photographer and i had to emphasize this in that last picture. Aren't I proud! *smugs*

So i was at Sephora, the big make up shop.

I was just browsing when one of the sales lady hopped right in front of me and started drawing on my face.

What an enthusiastic artist! I think she mistook my face for a sketch pad!

You know i think she decided that... she wanted to draw a Wayang show actress.

Because my very Long and extremely Black Hair inspired her to create such an image.

And so she did.

With a lil dab of red lipstick, I'd be fit for Halloween.

It was really lovely I must say.

I am going to walk out of my house everyday looking like that. Thanks to this very talented artist.

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Hi lovely night!

thanks to attachment... i've got a sore back now.

And my eyelids are weight lifting as i struggle to keep them open.

I am so gonna create a nice beautiful photo album on 'mornings' with my amazing DSLR camera when im free. That is.. when this attachment ends.

I cant really talk about attachment on a public blog.. but if you'd allow me to just say something...

Infants are really pink.

I'm back!

Hey crickets! I just got back from malaysia!

After each grueling semester (which is every semester), I'll find a time to get myself a drastic change. Its soemthing i must reward myself with.

Last semester... I PERMED my hair HAHA

Bobo, my hairdresser, told me it was gonna straighten out in 3 months time.

Unfortunately, i got goldilock's curls.

An Asian Goldilock... sounds... just weird.

Thankgoodness it did straighten out with time. Its been 8 months now. Though the curls are still there, they're so much looser and bouncier now.

Guess what major change i did this time?


Dont bother guessing cos id blogged about this in my last two posts.

I dyed my hair -- Jet black.

I know I know.. it isnt much of a change, u might say, since i already have naturally black hair.

Every guy has been discouraging me from doing this... my girl friends too.. except for my sister and Celestine.

BUT its MY DREAM HAIR!!! I'd argue time and time again.

NOoo... trust me! Highlight your hair.. everyone does that and it looks good on them!

SO i resisted and resisssted and resisssssteddddd the powerful and mighty force of peer pressure...

AND YES!!! I succeeded!

I came out a winner.. no trophies though.

I got the 'dream hair'

I look like a woman from the century of the cavemen.

Back to pursuing my native roots. I'm proud to look like an Ancient Chinese.

And dont OH NO!!!! WHY SHUFEN!!

The work is complete. The change has been done.

Best part is:

FINALY after 21 years... Sis and I look have vastly different looks now.

She's got blonde highlights... although definitely not her intention. It was a mistake on the hairdresser's part. Dont freak out though! she kinda likes it.. hm not reli.

So shes blonde with straght hair..

I have ehh.... jet black with wavy hair.

Hopefully you guys will like e new change!

Dont forget to comment on how beautiful it is.

Its very unfortunate but I'm deaf to criticisms.

Haheha (Like a horse)
Why horse? i dont know it just came to me.

I just realised how boring my life really is.

Everytime someone asks, "How's life?"

"I've been studying"

Its almost like a standard answer.

My life is full of books and papers and laptops and keyboards and mouse and libraries and ...

It is so bad... that I have now been greeted with "How's life apart from work?"

So im tryina do a major revamp here.

after the exams im gonna be a huge party goer, im gnna be cranky everyday im gonna live the life of e rich and famous.. im gonna live like paris hilton.. im gonna twitter like paris hilton..

Just joking.

Im still gonna be who i am.

BYE!

Thank You

Truly, for all that He has done for me, Thank You Jesus.

When i woke up this morning and decided to thank God for the lil things in my life... i realize i have alot to be grateful for.

in Him, I found strength, I found peace of mind, I found wisdom, and I found love to move through the arduous journey of life.

Life's really worth living because of You!

Happy Thanksgiving Everybody!

Im pretty sure someone peed in the bus i was on this morning.

And the bus was travelling at turtle speed. The driver was probablly tryina smell some flowers along the way.

Its been long since i last stepped out of e house and onto e field early in e morning. After cooping myself at home for the last century to study for the exams, it felt refreshing! And it reminded me of how beautiful God's creations are!

So I had my first final exam today. 3 more to go. EXCITING! Not.

For one, I'm blogging because my eyelids have this insatiable urge to close every millisecond.
And ive got so much work to do!

And i just spent my whole evening watching youtube videos again :S

This is... I must admit.. a true disaster. I just spent precious hours away like that.

maybe its just this semester... I'm burnt out. Don't worry I'm not charred. Yet.

Speaking of being charred. Ive already got some plans coming up for my 3 day holiday! Whoopeee

I've already booked a spa session on the day of my final exam.

I'm a lil bored of fairness so I'm gonna find a day to get myself REAL TANNED! AND I MEAN IT! WHITE SKIN, YOU're finished! You're gonna be so CHARRED!

I'm going over-the-sea for a full day.. trip planned with Grass, Shuffz jr. and Leswee. We've planned this for months now. And i cant wait.
Basically, each of us will be doing a makeover there.

MY MAkeover will be EPIC! it will be a huge change! You wont even be able to recognise me!

So if u should see a stranger calling out to you... it might just be your lil friend, me.

Im gonna DYE MY HAIR! --- Jet Black. What a revamp it's gonna be.

Cant wait to TAKE MORE SHOTS WITH MY DSLR CAMERA!!!!

All these and more... in just three days. :S

Gotta pack my schedule real tight... like how muji packs sandwiches.

Then its off to the hospitals.
I'll be delivering babies!!! Cant wait to see crying bloody babies.
Just joking.. i think itll be an experience. Its always a joy to see God's creation. Im gonna welcome babies to planet Earth! How cool is that?!

Hello Lil thing

I was studying late into the night.

When an ant decided to prance around my textbook which irritated me.

So i flicked it. And flicked it, and flicked it, and FLICKED it!

And carried on with my reading.

When i turned my head towards it again, the ant was on its back. and struggling to stand on its six feet, but to no avail. Death was looming as i watched and considered ending its pain... it was the only humane option left. It was suffering.

It was a terribly pitiful sight... I couldnt bear to watch... I turned my head away.. and sobbed.. no, I moaned for this little sign of life.
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Not exactly.

Anyway, I was really inspired by this little ant. Despite the fact that it was crippled, pretty badly, it was making huge efforts to get back on its feet. Poor thing, didnt look like it was gonna make it. SO i prayed for it, and decided not to kill it... since it wanted so much to stay alive.

Next thing i know.. it was right in front of me.. crawling on my book... of course crippled, like an old man... and struggling to walk. And it made it!

I watched as it disappeared underneath the table and gave it an applause and standing ovation.

So i decided to dedicate a blog post to this little living thing.

Right now as im stressed and burnt out with work and exams... Im on a serious verge of giving up everything i once worked so hard for. Countless of times, ive strewn my books aside and told myself.. You're not gonna make it. I've lost the drive.. ive lost my motivation.. to be a good nurse. When i think about my patients i dont seem to care so much about their well-being anymore. Just as long as i can get by, anything goes. Why bother providing optimal care. I dont wanna be a nurse no more.

SO i guess this little ant has made me come to a startling realization. It splashed some cold water into my face and yelled at me! WAke up! You once told yourself that your greatest fear in all of these was to give up on this dream.

Okay im more awake to continue with revision now!

Not really Zzzzzz

Crap! Another ant! theres some kind of ant infestation in this study room.

Words from a typical Asian - the nerdy beast

I am sick of studying and studying and studying and studying and studyign and studying and studying...

Ive had 2 naps. Shame on me.

Yes i am your beast - the nerdy beast.

iphones FTW

Mom is thinking of getting us an iphone. But, i think it's unneccessary.

I wouldnt wanna get one.. imagine being connected to the social networks 24/7. When will i have my time of solace and peace from the very socially-connected internet world.

Its a huge distraction. iphone comes with a really cool camera and with fun photo editting features. When i carry my huge DSLR camera with me, i am so bent on taking beautiful and artistic pictures that I get disconnected from the social gatherings or wherever I'm at and its hard to enjoy the moment. Yes, it is tough being the camera man.
What happens if i get an iphone and become a camera man 24/7? Life is gonna be so tough and cruel.

i think iphones are really cool!...though. There are tons of fun applications. And the best part.. u can twitter right away.. wherever ur at.

You can tell e world ur drunk.. right at that very moment when ur drunk.

You can take pictures and upload it immediately via twitter and tell e world how much fun ur havin so that everyone will get so jealous of u.

iphone has got what it takes to satisfy the humanly desire to be cool.

Those who think they dont need an iphone, silently they desire it, but they hide this.. so they'll appear even cooler.. cos i mean you cant get any cooler than appearing like ur not trying to be cool.

Maybe thats why i wrote this post to tell the world that i dont need an iphone.

Just joking.

I've been watching kevjumba for the past hour and a half.

SHIT!

life sux ttm.

its okay, i always score badly anyway. i shd have expected this.

I ALMOST forgot that i HAVE A BLOG!!!

Sorry but twitter is the in thing now.. so if ur still reading this... you must be outta ur mind!

Theres spider web all over blogger.



Now i am so tempted to shop.

And i look monstrous now thanks to many days of lack of sleep

these past weeks have been torturous to say the least! Assignment after assignment... tests after tests...

Tomorrow theres another exam...

Pardon me and my drones...

OH CRAP I NEED TO SHOP!

but my wardrobe is soo full a quarter of my clothes cant fit into it anymore! so they are just left to hang outside.

I keep buying more clothes but it never seems enough..

I think ive been afflicted with shopaholic syndrome.

They should medicalize it.


Oh and Cris called me all e way from US yesterday! but i thot it was an insane salesperson so i didnt pick it up.

Okay im gonna sleep night.