I just read the book, 7 Habits of Effective Living. And realized how important it was to have a vision and mission in life... a paradigm to live by.

I think it's important I set these out so that I dont waste my life away and live more effectively.

I thought about it, and I suppose the main impetus in my life at this point is to... serve. To enable and empower others, and to be there for the down, the ill and the needy.

I want to live life this way, and be a source of empowerment to my family, friends, patients, and even at church. I want to live to serve... for the glory of God.

I enjoyed researching. I know its important to embark on it because it is the only way to improve status quo... the only intellectual way to get things going and make nursing a better profession, for the betterment of patient care, to empower the nurses, and make their work safer and productive.

When i was doing my research, I was deeply touched by the accounts of the women, that motivated me to put forth concrete evidence as a justification that more needs to be done.

On a sidenote, nursing is a great profession that deserves to be enjoyed. Unfortunately, there are wider systemic limitations that make it a much dreaded one, one that is filled with sometimes unecessary, stressful and unsafe work, which may be the source of deviation from optimal patient care, and high turnover rate. 

I've been wasting alot of time engaging in self-absorped living. But I am well and full aware that the world is in need of so much of help and that there is no time left to waste to make the world a better place. I need to continually engage in self-improvement and in research. Something I've kept on hold for a long while.

I have a huge problem. I have moments of self centeredness that bring me back to the more unhealthy centers of my life like.. possessions, beauty, social acceptance and pleasure.

I have had enough pleasure. I've actually never felt more relaxed in years!

At least I get to relax on day offs when I used to work 24/7 during my study days, day off or not.

But it is through these pleasure and freedom of time, that i realize that true freedom can only be given by God.

I feel liberated and joyful when i live for Him.

When I know that I'm living in strong partnership with Him.

I love God more and more as I discover His plans for my life. I see Him moving, teaching me new lessons each day, encouraging me to be courageous, strong and humble. I never stay down for too long because He picks me up anyhow and encourages me to get back on my feet. Losses and failures could only make me a stronger woman for Him.

Everytime I talk to Tims about God... it opens my eyes to see more about my walk with Christ. I am not rotten, as I always see myself. I told Father on Christmas and New years that I was ashamed because I felt that I haven't lived life enough for Him. But something that Tims said made me realize that serving God didn't have to be bound within Church boundaries...

I am serving Him as I learn to love and care for my patients. He guides me as I learn to manage my stress, prioritise my time to provide better care for the ill and needy. I am more thankful than ever that Lord called me to this profession so that I can serve Him in my daily life... through my work.

Loving and providing better care for my patients, is an act of God's love.

He has given me hope in a faithless world. He stimulates me in ways unimaginable. Take my life for it is surrendered to You, Father.