gosh how did tht come up!

i don even rmb posting that!

luckily not many read my blog. Gosh how did it even get up there :S was i sleeptyping or something??!

i don think ive even been that depressed anway :S

anyway

MErry xmas!!!

i had a lovely and meaningful one! and i noe juz how to walk now!

whatever it is.

results arent evrything

and my feet reli stinks

and arhg it hurts. tht stupid blister.

and woah im so happy to be me!

HAHAHAHA

ok juz jk. im not that zi lian.

there is warmth... don let the lil flame on the candle die. It is worth saving.

There's too much suffering in this world... to bother about personal angst.

Soemtimes you wish to help and go the extra mile... but they'd assume the worse in you. And then ur sandwiched between different groups of people and u take the blame for alot of things that perhaps aint your fault most of the time.

But there are moments when u see the smiles on your patients faces and know you've done something right for them... Knowing that you've comforted brings great satisfaction, whether it be recognised or not.

I cant help but be in a good mood today to see my patients happily chatting with one another. Everyone was in a good mood... joking about their conditions.. and talking about their younger days. I was too busy to engage in the conversations because i had to spend more time with those who couldnt engage in any.. so that they might not feel left out.

What an amazing profession i am in. :)

No matter how stressful it is... no matter the hardship, it is a great honour and priviledge to have been given the opportunity to provide care to these people... Even if they may feel that the world has turned their back on em, there are people who are reaching their hands out to em.

What is Nursing

if its very essence, that is to Care, has been eroded by too much work and stress.

What is Nursing

if its primary goal at the end of the day is to not get yourself into trouble, complete whatever tasks u need to in the required time, and Care is compromised.

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Nursing... is not just any ordinary job...

A nurse has got to put her heart and soul into caring for her patients.

We're dealing with life... and people.. who experience very real emotions, suffering and pain.

Unfortunately, i feel i might have had too idealistic a view of this profession.

Care ends up taking up less room in this line of work...what with all the stress that comes out of it...and constrains by the lack of communication, time, legal obligations and demanding workload.
Alot of times you find yourself horribly fustrated, and stressed up. You find yourself getting into trouble... whether you're trying to do the right thing.. or not...

I wish i could have done more for my patients... but alot of times... i find my hands tied.

Sometimes i feel really sorry... for not having done some things... for the patients.. but i just didnt have the means to... its not that im not trying hard enough i just cant do it... and i feel horrible about it because deep down i wish i could have done something to make him/her feel better...

its heart breaking.

my feet is too stinky for words.

work is horrible, extremely tiring even after sleeps, i am sore all over, im gettin a chronic headache becos im so beat from everything.

this is worse than studying.

sooo exhaustinggggg and i don have time to do anything else. i have no life.

cant wait for this to be over.

tired tired.

I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO WORKKKKKKKK

its sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo dreadfullllllllllllllllllllllll

i cant stand two days of it!!!!!!!!!!!!! how am i gonna tolerate 2 weeks?!?!?!?!

ARGHHHHHHH

ill be dragging my feet tmr. Its depressinggggg

To satisfy your voyeuristic natures

Updates:

1) Exams for Yr 2 Sem 1 is officially over!
2) my dress wardrobe rack broke because it had too much load on it... and thats just the dresses.
3) so i officially cant shop for anything
4) not even on post christmas sales
5) because Mom is so pissed off

6) i screwed up my assignment
7) screwed it up
8) screwed up

9) a million dates to catch up on!
10) I need money!