Friday, December 31, 2004

if the group of us hadnt come...there would only be three pple arriving for training. okay..when i say 'we' in my posts...im usually referring to the same grp of grrlfriends..amanda, arabel, jean, Sindhu, Fanli, LH, another LH, Tracy sometimes.. okay so in this way..u wouldnt be confused. I should have done this earlier. NVm.
we had to run fer 45 minutes at anywhere we like so we chose to run round the school where tchers were walking about since there was gona be a meeting. No students since its e hols..only the band members blowing away. we jumped down steps..did stupid stuff like we always do..laughing and giggling away as always. we bumped into the guyz and they started joking..their so silly i neva used to laugh at their jokes..but that joke sure got me giggling at least. there's this crazy boy who's always flirting. Cheezy. Bah. Ergh. they think their being funny but they end up sounding cheezy.
In the gym, we discussed about some surprise pizza fest we're holding for two of our friends who's bdays are near. im not saying who..dont wana spoil the surprise ;) ..we drew Spongebob Squarepants on the board..i drew elmo, the one from sesame street. And we were laughing our heads off and havin so much fun..Britney kept erasing the stuff cos she says the drawings look stupid. Rauf saw it and requested that we erase em off b4 he left..didnt want the board to turn to bikini bottom, Spongebob Squarepants' island.
so on the road on my way home..there was this puddle of water and a bus went over..causing this big water splash all ova me. I was soaking wet from head to toe. Got a bath immediately when i went home!!
i was supposed to dine with mum in a japanese restaurant today..i wanted to try the japanese curry..its said to be sweet and un-spicy. sounds unique. But i wanted to enjoy my last holiday at home...so i cancelled it. Fortunately mum didnt blow her top. I actually prayed b4 sis called to tell her.
so cool..i hope i get to spend the rest of the hours nicely..perhaps some nice relaxation 'exercise' on the sofa in front of the tv.

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

okay..training today was rather okay..i wont be blabbing on bout what happened or ull fall asleep. so today's amanda's bday. We wanted to surprise her and and throw her a party at seoul Gardens, That restaurant where u cook ur own meals. we blind-folded her in the shopping centre and she was so embarrassed she was afraid pple might stare. she took of her blind-fold and we sang her a bday song. neway..we went to grab the raw meat and whateva we wanted to cook. The oil was splattering evrywhere. i think im gona have a stomachache tonight since im not a very good cook and i mite have chewed down some half-cooked meat. Arabel kept laughing followed by the others. even when i was at the other end of the restaurant getting food, i could hear em guffawing. We were the nosiest table in the place. We cracked loadsa joke...ur hand is raw. Then we played games...a number game and whoeva got the unlucky number had to eat some disgusting food some of us cooked. arabel and amanda fried some watermelon together with chocolate ice-cream. I lost that round and had to eat it..it didnt taste so bad actually..the watermelon was hard, crispy..and had a lil creamy taste. another was coconut milk with syrup and ice with chilli and loadsa other ingredients. Arabel fried jellies taken from the dessert corner..and i had to eat it..not too bad either. She, who was preparing all the disgusting dishes, was the one who was most afraid to try em. Then we boiled syrup, ice, jellies, coconut milk, chocolate ice-cream, tom yam stock, chilli, cracker, bla bla..(anything that was on the table at that time) into a soup. Amanda lost that round and had to drink a spoonful of it. i was afraid to try it but curiousity got the better of me and took a lil sip..it tasted like burnt food. Not that ive eaten ne burnt food but it sure had that sorta taste. Not nice at all. after 3 hours, we finally got tired of it and went on to shop since we were in the mall. but i left earlier than em cos i was coming back there again on friday where ill be buying as much stuff as i want. i wished amanda well then left. I had an amazingly fun time today esp in the restaurant.

And as uve noticed, ive changed the skin since i got a lil bored with the previous one. Hope u like it...(i don fink u do :P)
Disclaimer: some of the images are not originally by me..but those building u see are drawn by me. The red carpet with pink polka dots too. That road's drawn by me too.

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Okay i havent done ne revision at all and the hols gona end. i was at Arch's house the whole day today. Her family's a vegetarian indian and her mom was so awfully sweet. Her mom makes really lovely potato curries and thosai(Indian fried crispy pancakes) ..Arch is so lucky she's got such an amazing mum. My mom doesnt even know how to cook! we rollerbladed. Its been three years since the last time id rollerbladed so i started off a lil shaky at first but got the hang of it soon after. The key to it is confidence. once i had it, i could skate rather well. then we walked back to her home all tired, we watched the tv then went into her room to play with make-up sets. Eye-liners does make ur eyes look bigger. we played with gloss, mascara, eye shadow bla bla. Arch had a glow-in-the-dark nail polish with glitters and thats mega-cool. when i got home and tried to wipe the stuff off my eyes, they smeared on the corners and below. I looked like a satanist bitch with all that dark eye shadows smearing below my eyes. :
okay so i had loadsa fun and came home quite late at night. b4 10pm though. and i watched the news earlier and it is said that the death toll's gona reach to 60000. Its the saddest thing on earth. Serena called me earlier this morning and told me that her Sri Lankan ex-Maid had called em from italy whilst working there in a rather devastated tone. She had recently bought a beach house in Sri lanka by the beach obviously..with all her hard-earned money for all her daughters to live in. they're very poor. And currently serena's ex-maid doesnt know what to do cos she doesnt even noe what happened to her daughters, there was no way of contacting em since all the infrastructures were destroyed by the tsunami. She doesnt even know whether they're alive. But since they live by the beach and thats where almost everybody who were there died, im not so sure. I would have died crying losing my love ones and posssessions. I guess the only thing i could do is pray for those pple. Too much misery. If i were there watching all these sufferings, i would have fainted from depression. Its much too saddening. This just tells us how lucky we all are to still have our homes and families watching all these on our televisions. How can anyone be so self-obsessed and over-worrying over minor issues caring only for themselves when there are pple out there suffering from poverty and losing everything they have in the world. I think we should all be feeling lucky and happy and helpin others who need our help instead of drowning over self-related unimportant issues. Mayb someday id like to be a social worker and help as much pple as possible. If only there's a magical crystal ball to show the pple where to look for others who need serious help.

Monday, December 27, 2004

i just watched the news..and it was so terrible. It was one of the worst quakes in a hundred years. 21000 death tolls in total and it is still increasing. Loads of pple are still missing. and millions homeless. it affected loads of countries in asia..phuket, maldives, Myanmar, sri lanka, bangladesh, thailand, indonesia, even in africa bla bla are tourist attractions. its like almost the whole of South east asia are being affected and there are at least a hundred death tolls in each country, mostly comin in thousands. even malaysia is affected..fortunately singapore doesnt suffer from any natural disasters. im not sure why but every neighbouring country got affected..
this is sheer utter terror. millions are left homeless..like the poorer ones. there were some video shots on tv when the big tsunami came in..pple were running and screaming as the humongous tidewater crashed down on the roads and cities, mostly beaches. and they shot a video on the corpses they collected..its unbelievable. there was a group of em that looked like they're petrified (yea like the hermione pose when she was petrified in harry potter) the hardened corpses were frozen in their positions..some had their arms all raised, their mouths gaping.
the news went by country to country..mostly tourists were affected in phuket..Sri lanka was the worst of all. A whole area of dead corpses. it is said that 10 over thousands died and it is still increasing as they slowly gather the corpses as they float. Pple were injured and there was this american kid affected at phuket and currently in singapore who got stabbed by a knife while he was tryina run away cos things were flinging. there was a family with broken legs cos apparently they had ran and hid in a dark room where stuff were flinging around. When i see pple crying and screaming whilst carrying the corpses..tears were welling up in my eyes. And i silently prayed for them. It is the saddest thing on earth. i do feel like crying now. esp the poorer pple in sri lanka and thailand. their family members died and now they're left homeless. It was so sudden. Nobody expected it. even in indonesia...i dont think they're affected by the tsunami but more rather by the quake itself. (the quake caused the tsunami) It is so terrible its like a major big crisis
okay so training today was not all that bad since rauf miraculously allowed us to cut down on the training. the girls(us, particularly arabel, amanda, amy, sindhu, krystal, sis, me, galore bla bla..) were the only ones training. not many came. probably its cos of the festive season. we only did three intervals and were kinda exhuasted. we asked if we could run for 40 minutes to make up for the other three intervals. And somehow we managed to convince him. we got sick running on the track cos it was scorching hot. And the track was pretty boring so we ran on the metal seats. Boing boing boing. it was terribly noisy even the pple across the stadium could hear the metal making low clings and clangs. i dont think neone has eva sat foot on those seats and platforms before. But we went back to the starting line shelter to grab our water bottles and so we stopped running right in front of rauf's eyes. and he was like : 'hey!' But we didnt really bother..he's very understanding. after this, he asked evryone on the track to just take a rest since we were all 'punctured' as what he terms. Its cos of the weather. its like a desert.

I got home and got ready for another outing. i was going to wisma atria to eat at a Mongolian restaurant called Genghis Kang. Its definitely not spelt this way but im totally unsure what the correct spelling is. anyway..according to arabel, there's this waiter working in there who's totally hot. No point checking it out so i agreed to dine there for once. there's LOADS of food. But mostly seafood. Lobsters, crabs, mussels, clams, sushi, imperial mushrooms....enough with the details theres too many to mention! there's food evrywhere, all around you. EVERYWHERE. But im not a big fan of seafood. i took dishes that i didnt even know what its all about. I ended up suffering tryina finish all that stuff up. the raw salmon's fishy like it always is. they didnt name the dishes. Doh. Not the best restaurant. I didnt enjoy myself as i did last friday at a japanese-westerny restarant. Im getting sick at dining at restaurants. too many. neway..we saw loadsa beautiful earrings and chains. Sparkling and glistening under the lights. Diamonds. Gorgeous. i almost wanted to buy this really cute japanese pair of earrings. But decided i could buy em at Metro since ive got the voucher. Today was cool. And tomorow im going to Arch's house. Now im seriously wishing for a moment of peace at home.

Sunday, December 26, 2004

so i went out with dad yesterday on xmas. Not much..we just went to Mr. He's house. The one with the big doggy. and i ate alot. then i just sat on the big sofa in their house and watched tv while dad and mum chatted with Mrs. He. Sounds fun? Err i don fink sho. there was cookie and milo..the big doggies..who kept barking at us. they couldnt recognise us anymore i don think. cookie's grown up..he's like a big wolf now. The last time milo pounced on mum, she'd screamed her head off. fortunately i was at another corner while they were set loose. then they'd invited another neighbour's dog into the house. Dog Mania. all the dogs went nuts and started sprinting round the house. three big wolfs pouncing and charging. That was so fun and exciting. Im being sarcastic. okay now i miss Xiaohei, another black dog who looks just like milo. Uncle He said i could visit xiaohei today at his factory. I wish. But his factory is at the other end of singapore. dad has to fetch me there but he's busy today. :( k..ive started on my chemistry revision and id betta get going now. ciao.

Saturday, December 25, 2004

okay so it wasnt all that horrible. in fact it was pretty okay. i got to cycle for the first time in 3 years. and my little cousins yanked sis and me to the playground. then we played this silly game and they wanted to be the catchers and they had to catch me. the houses there were bustling with life as well..most of the houses were celebrating xmas as well and there were loadsa lil kids. Then i went to roast the stuff at the bbq pit in the porch with my lil cousins fighting to oil the food. And there were some pple quarelling at another house and my aunt rushed to close the door afraid that they might fight their way into our house or possibly take one of us with em whilst fighting when those pple were just pushing and shouting across the street. so i had turkeys, spaghetti, roasted chicken, sausage, roasted prawns, cocktail drinks, blah blah. Yeah i guess thats bout it..oh yeah and for desert we had green bean soup. the whole house was so noisy i had to go upstairs to watch some tv peacefully. even with that, my lil cousins were bugging me to play tag with em up at the rooftop. i had fun chatting with another cousin of mine whose more rather mature. evryone was all over the place doing stuff. and i heard that my uncle had invited some teens to sing christmas carols in their house. i could av made some nice friends but those teenagers had came the day before. so i guess thats bout it..and for xmas today, dad wants to go out and bask in the xmas season. lalalallalallalalalala

Friday, December 24, 2004

okay so today's christmas eve. And tonight ill be celebrating christmas in my uncle's house together with the other relatives. its gona be a huge crowd. there's gona be a bbq pit in his house so i guess we'll be roasting turkeys there. I hope i dont make any mistakes today. A lil bit of misbehaviour and they'll go talkin. i have to be totally perfect. And then there's my cousins..really young..one 5 and the other 8. They'll bug me to play with em and their toys. and the last time i had to play pokemon cards with em, they said i was driving em bananas, cos i took a reli long time to understand what the whole monster game's about. Yes, im totally not kidding. They really said that. I hope they dont jump or pounce on me today. Having two lil nutty monsters hovering around u is so very pleasant -- NOT!!
im gona bring my mp3 player and book there to read cos i know id wish i would just be alone somewhere quiet in the rooftop garden. But then they would go talkin like the last time i listened to my mp3 player and they were all shaking their heads cos they think listening with the headfones are bad fer ur ears. ARgh!!!! They are a total nut bunch. at least if im goin to my maternal relative's house..id still have all my cousins to talk to..they're either a year older or a year younger than me.
okay now thinking about it..im rather reluctant to go there now. WHY me?! anyway..i gotta get ready now cos im going shopping in the morning and im going to have a feast for lunch in a restaurant today b4 goin to grab some ice-cream over at Andersons. Yes, ive got evrything worked out. lala. -winks- Therefore Au revoire sweeties and merry xmas evrybody!

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

okay so today..we had to do that same old mileage training..u know the one to the really remote scorching park with the sun beating down on u.
okay so after training..arabel came home with me and sis..she'd wanted to use the computer. when i noticed, there on my table was my ocean bath set from france id received for xmas. The soap smelt lovely..it was a classic. there was a soap that says Bath fizzer. The directions say put one in ur bath tub and itll fizz up. i was really curious. so i decided to soak in the bath tub today for once and enjoy a nice bath. i wonder how itll fizz up. Does it go like a jacuzzi where the water looks as if its boiling. I havent been using the bath tub at all since i shifted here. Id wanted to put some lavender oil, and some rose petals, or possibly sunflower oil, maybe some peach essence...i read bout those ingredients from a spa book. but i was not reli sure if they were for a bath cos i could have possibly got em mixed up. The lavender oil cld av been used in some kind of witch craft that i read. the rose petals i was sure was for a bath but i havent got ne roses in the house. I got all the stuff ready. the mood was so right..with the sun pouring in, the love marbled walls and the wood. id thot of sipping green tea and eating cookies while soakin in the tub. I rinsed the bath tub since its rather dusty even though muji washes it evryday. but then i realized id to wash the tub 4 times and it still wasnt clean. Id fill the tub for 4 times..then draining the water all ova again. Argh! I got fed up. I simply filled it again..still dirty..oh whateva..threw in the bath fizzer and watch from outside the tub. OKay the water wasnt even fizzing, no boiling wotsoeva, it was the soap itself that was fizzing like it was thrown into coke or sumfin. and i watched as the soap dissipated itself and the water turning all blue. And the whole irony to it was that i neva got to soak in it at all. I just stood there and watch. Vell, at least i got to see how zee thing fizzes.

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

I was watching this really cheezy show on tv bout love..a total cheeze fest bout love. when the guy got to know that this really uncultured lady loves him..he becomes totally nice to her but at the same time..he loves this princess and this princess loves him but they work under different pple..sumfin like romeo and juliet. R & J is totally daft, extremely. okay so they put this really cheezy romantic music. yerghh!
Okay so i read the summary of the Bachelor 5...its gona be premiered on thursday night. But i couldnt wait..this time there's a spy. Oh goody! ok and there;s lotsa bitch fighting. there's this gold-digging, man stealing whore who admits sleeping around with married man. Im not gona say who..it'll spoil the surprise. Now i know the whole thing and how it ends. Its up to u to go watch it. Apparently she loves insulting the entire female race with "All girls are mean" and shes always oh-i-betta-put-my-tiara-on-im-the-lovely-innocent-princess sorta snapping that she loves to do. She snaps at evry girl and no-one likes her. unfortunately, there's a spy among em. Im not saying who either. :P. she's telling jesse a different thing but then she goes admitting to the other girls bout wots reli inside her witchy self. ok the spy is here. Ouch. Durin the women tell all, Chris announces her as “the.most.despised.woman.in.bachelor.history”
Okay..u go see it fer urself. it really is interesting.
I noticed there's some stupid problem with the tag-board which makes my blog load reli slowly. it happens sometimes but it'll always come back again at least a day later. So pls dont worry or fret ova it!!! and ive changed the song to Lala by ashlee simpson. The tag-board will be back when the company is settled with its problem like it always does.

Monday, December 20, 2004

durin our training..we had to do the interval..and the slope. We only had to sprint a good 8 time slope..but rauf told us we had to do 20.. id thought he was jokin cos he knew we'd always cut down on his training..which means..the actual distance we were supposed to run was much lesser than what he sometimes instructed. But the thing is..he was not joking..20 continuous slope. Unreal. fortunately i left at 10.30am cos mum wanted to bring me on a shopping spree.
i wore my new pink high heels a pink sleeveless blouse and a white skirt. I look like Miss-pink. Fortunately i had black and white star earrings. Bad styling day. argh! therefore i made it a pact that for a change i buy some other colors today. and woah id been shopping from morning till night. My heels totally hurt from those heels. I LOVE my new clothes!!!!
I bought a beautiful black sleeveless blouse and another lovely blue sleeveless blouse..then i went on to another mall and bought lovely velvet-feel jeans..one redish-brown and another dark green. They were really comfortable cos its velvet. and there was another jeans mini skirt id bought..it had a belt. and there was this totally, absolutely gorgeous red blouse. It was quite revealing though..sis whose rather conservative thought it was totally lovely. Unfortunately..mum didnt allow me to buy it cos it was a bare-shoulder thingy and it was too low. But it was soooo gorgeousisisisimo. I was totally broken hearted. but i bought another pink blouse...quite similar to the red one but less revealing. It was really cool. and i bought this blue blouse..mum thinks its too low..and i guess i kinda agree..but it was what sis wanted. Then i went on to buy a nice pair of sandals. U cld call this ultra-shopping
I got home at night. My heels were totally killing me..id neva thot the interchange was this beautiful with all the cozy lights and there were some teenagers singing christmas carols. Really Lovely. there was all the lights shimmering. when i finally got home..i took out all my clothings to try and i was so satisfied with em..i love all of em..they look so lovely. i took a walk around the house with my clothes and evryone says its lovely. Muji(my maid) had bought a tube-top. Id neva tried a tube top b4..so she asked me to wear it and try it on..the tube-top was totally vintage...sis says it suits me. Mum and Muji too. But i have to agree..it was much too revealing. Now im in love with tubes. They look so lovely with jeans. Id better spend more of my time wearing crazy stuff now that im still slim..cos evryone turns fatter when we grow older.
Totally cool day this is.
PS: To wy..i wanted to call u to tell u all about it..but u were too lazy to pick up ur phone unless i contact u by ur mobile. Pls pick up ur phone in future!!!!

Sunday, December 19, 2004

sis was blabbing on the phone,"and when they opened the first layer, there was a dead body!" im not reli sure what she was on about..but if that had been a reality thing..it must have been reli big. i would most definitely have known about a dead body and woteva first layer there is. well id been talkin about really weird stuff to my sis as well earlier during lunch. Mediators. i was telling sis about this Totally hot and gorgeous blonde cowboy ghost, Jesse, who'd died 2 centuries ago..apparently living in susannah's, a girl who has the ability to talk to ghosts, room in california. The thing is he's just so irresistable and hot that she neva thot she'd be falling in love with him when he saved her life. so she was being mean to him all the time so as not to fall in love with him. Well apparently..id been talkin about some stuff i read from the story book by meg cabot. That ghost character sure is witty and cool. i think id very much like to be in that girl's shoe. But of course this is all but just a fiction thingy. If anyone had overheard my conversation with sis bout some love story of a cowboy ghost and a human teen, they'd hav thot i was totally outta my mind.
Oh how i love meg cabot's books! i can;t wait to get the next of it. Its like a series thing.

Saturday, December 18, 2004

im totally zonked. My feet is currently enjoying its blissful moment. My whole body is weared out. Limp as a lettuce. im finally at home. Bliss.
Id just returned from the beach at sentosa. And its not just the sparkling blue ocean, the velvety soft white sand, the swaying coconut tree, the relaxing music in the background, the nice shops and huts selling chillos and tres delicieux ice-cream, a sky so blue, so vast. Pple were playin volleyballs, swimming and basking in the impact of the soft waves, bulding sandcastles.
Despite all of that, Yes despite alll of that temptation!...there's the cruel part of it all...the sand! Yes the sand i hear u ask. Its the horrible soft white sand! They're so soft they wear u out totally when ur running! Evrytime u take a step, u needa take extra effort to pull ur feet up for yet another step. And i guess u'd have understood something by now..i was there for yet another training. And guess what? Rauf wanted us to run on the sand for 40 minutes! U wish! ok so it wasnt as horrible as id expect. in fact..id been imagining stuff. Yes imagining again, bout pleasant stuff. Thank goodness. therefore i dont think i was really tired.. we were allowed to run wherever we wanted round sentosa..but specifically the sand. Unfortunately..evryone stopped running at 15 minutes. we were touring round the area instead catching a nice view..then there was this train like car...fetching pple around..u just call out to the driver and he'll stop and let u board. Arabel claimed she had a gr8 idea and decided we shd all run behind the car just for fun. She'd thot it would be fun. then we started running behind it and we were all laughing real madly..and there was this tourist guy in the car who wanted to film a video of us which made us laughed even harder and ran onto the proper pathways. and we even found out that even the usual hardworking ones were wondering round the area touring the place and having fun - instead of training. in fact, anyone who is anyone was enjoying themselves. i bet rauf wasnt blind to that fact. In fact half way through after 35 minutes..he asked evryone to stop and just play. We ate our lunch at Burger King..went back to the beach where we found the others totally wet and pushing others into the sea. I didnt wana get myself wet so we basked in the richness of the sun, sitting on the sand, tanning ourselves and building sandcastles. i soaked my feet a lil and let the tide bury my feet, got myself a teen fashion magazine and sat there. But i kept wishing i was home. I wanted to just get a bath! time passed and it was time to go..we didnt wana take the monorail to the entrance of sentosa so we walked all the way there...it was raining and my feet was killing me. walk, walk, walk. finally in the bus at last. i wasnt very comfortable sitting on the seat cos the fabric was rough plus i was wearing and extremely short pair of shorts so i took a piece of cloth from my bag and sat on it. Slept throughout the journey. And now im home. Happy after my bath. And i couldnt be more glad.

Friday, December 17, 2004

today was another mileage - im not sure if its spelt this way - trainin..we ran all the way into the reli remote park..the one with the 2.8km route. But of course we ran more than just that since we made detours and all. Well despite the really awful sun..i still..tried going on. Priscilla was with us..so it was a really different matter..cos she'd kill us if we got too tired to run. under all that intense pressure ringing in my head..(um well its of course an exaggeration since its not any competition)....i kept talking to myself just to amuse myself. well im not an expert at amusing pple..at least i could amuse myself i was thinking.
This was what i was amusin myself at during the run:
during the run..i swallowed something..im not sure what it was but i thot it was......sweat. Mayb there was a sweat gland in my throat. I had neva heard of that in my biology lessons. So therefore..i was someone..well u could say special since no-one eva has a sweat gland stickin up their throat. Then theres the extraordinary pple in the show called "guiness book of records" where pple have extraordinary talents..and u could say bodies. but those pple get to proof their unique-ness..like a guy who could pull out his nose..he did it in front of the audience mind u! But i was seriously not sure how i was eva gona show the audience that there was a sweat gland in my throat - unless they did a major operation in the studio...cut my throat open and show the audience the extraordinary sweat gland. Yergh!!! No-No My imagination was goin all wrong. i wasnt suppose to imagine this.
I was snapped back to reality by arabel's heavy panting. She probably has asthma again. Anyway..i did manage to finish the run..without the imaginations at the later part of the run..i dont think id eva imagine again. um..No id thought i said, "i would neva wana imagine my whole life eva" yesterday night. Id imagine something really horrible yesterday..it even got to me. When i wanted to stop imagining..i couldnt..But i kept telling myself," its alright none of that happened. ur rite back to reality" but i was too traumatised by my imaginations. I really was. Who ever in the world said imaginations could take u far.
This was what i had imagined last nite:
I was studying the night before the GCEs exam..then i got so stressed i ran to the kitchen to grab a knife and wanted to stab myself in the middle of the night. (id wanted to do that durin my final year exams this year actually...um i must be mad) i kept crying..then mum and dad came to me and tried comforting me..but none of their words would help me through my exams would it..i just asked them to keep quiet..then i must have gone mad and flinged the knife around and accidentally stabbed my whole family. then when i realized what id done...i was Mortified..i was in a total state of shock. My mind was whirling. i dropped the knife. then i saw my hands..stained with blood. Not only was i wasting time to study for the exams..I was gona die in jail and my name was gona be flashed all ova the world for being a horrible murderer..wot would my frens think? then i could get the support i needed from my parents but....Their gone! and id killed em. I loved em so much. I ran to my room..i screamed! to myself of course..like a mad person. Id lost everything..my whole life..my family. then i thot i could talk to god..God couldnt forgive me for wot id done could he? Nothing in the world can save me now! I just wana kill myself..but im afraid of the pain. I was a total nothing..no life no future..i am in a total state of mental..I SCREAM!!!!
Right there and there on my bed..i was panting reli hard imagining all these..i couldnt get over it that i was just imagining..my heart was still racing. I just wanted to cry. My imaginations were so horrible. I was not gona be able to sleep tonight, i thot to myself..I was neva gona imagine again! eva! then i totally sympathized murderers out there. i had only imagined all that but those murderers...They'd committed it. im surprised that not all murderers have gone crazy.Killing another is the worst thing in the world to happen. Whoo! scary imaginations.

Thursday, December 16, 2004

today's my very own spring cleaning day and im ready for it. Upsy Diasy ere we go.
9.30am: i started off with cleaning my room. mom doesnt want me to be a gullible gaga freak who hasnt got the slightest idea bout the basics of household chores. It was reli easy to clean since it was alredi clean thanks to Muji. (my maid) I am now officially the master of cleaning-the-room. i was chuffed to see my beautiful work of 'art'. When i walked out of my room, i slowly started realizing something i have neva realised b4..i could hear Squeaks as i walk! The marble floor must av been superbly cleaned. that was muji's work. Wait! wot bout mine?! so i walked into my room. No squeaks. why does my life have to go all the way up then drop like an atomic bomb. i started twirling around to produce friction. Yes. Squeaks. I'd just flown and rested on cloud 9. perhaps ill stay up there..how wrong was i to be thinking that id dropped like an atomic bomb.
12.05pm: I decided to pack my books. The piles were as tall as skyscrapers. that is of course an exaggeration since the roof of my house is not taller than two stories. why hadnt i realized how 'tall' my books have grown before? i piled the books accordin to their usefulness. The least useful pile would be sent to another home of mine in the north. the 2nd ranked useful pile would be sent up to my cupboard to join the other ol books and the dust. while packin..i couldnt stand the mess..so i put the 2nd ranked books up to their shelves first. Tough job that was. Then i carried on my misssion. Ah! a whole pile of 2nd ranked books. Ive gotta climb up to the shelves again.
Oh no! too many second ranked booked...too lil space..the shelve was gona collapse. No where to keep em.
Id figure a way out some what after some thinking.
12.30pm: i do wish i had an attic
12.45pm: Yay! finalleh. im done with packing. argh no! Ive not dealt with the new books yet
12.50pm: I just found out that there are mistakes with the book orders. The last thing i needed to add on to my alredi hectic day.
1.00pm: Yay! ive dealt with those bks..time to display em on my lower shelf.
1.05pm: Argh! too many bks on the lower shelf..time for another packing episode.
1.10pm: Im done! i am still staying up on cloud 9 and am ere to stay. Time for a celebration. its time to chill out on my dough nuts.
1.10pm and 1 second later: what?! another stack of books that are touching the clouds had been silently waiting at the corner of my room. i think i was reli wrong about the atomic bomb.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

well hello. yes hello. another peek into a preview of my life. yes its here.
well rauf wasnt at the slope to see us train today..so u pretty much could av guessed the amount of hard work we've put in on training today. i wanted to vomit again. Yes. could u believe that? and wot u would definitely be in too much of disbelief to believe is that..well..the place when i last vommited was ere, when i last vomitted..i ate EXACTLY the same breakfast meal b4 i left for training..and worst of all..it was only after 9 rounds that id vommited. But at THAT time! id only completed 2 rounds! U most definitely dont get what i mean. im gettin delusional from all that swimming. speaking of swimming, my girl-friends came to my house again to swim - again. we played loadsa stuff and - invented games. first we played ice and water round the pool and giggling and laughing over nuffin for every few seconds. i seriously dont have the remotest idea what we are reli laughing at. we played our very own invented game of pool-heart-attack. Very interesting u might find it. Not till u start playin. most of us just couldnt get the whole game and ended up messing it up in confusion - in the pool. Then sis suggested we play a game of..Baywatch - or so she names it. U might be reli intrigued by how it goes. well as sis explained..there will be two 'victims' who would pretend they are drowning. Then the 'lifeguards' would try to save them in the least possible time..bringing them back safely ashore and shouting 'bee boh bee boh'. I was mortified to have come to know of such a game. What kind of world is the world getting to? Then i found out that 'baywatch' was a game invented by sis. God knows what she'll come up with next.
We later played a game of 'wrestling' where we'd hav to push the other party into the other side of the pool. id won when i thrust kim and Lihao into the pool..but not arabel. she's strong but i scratched her by accident with my mega-long nails. This calls for some emergency filing of nails. we had fun at home watchin school of rock and the movie just makes me got to know rock better. id hated rock. what a great influence that movie.

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

One thing I av neva wrote about was the bad side of facial. True, theres the massage, the perfume, and -the mud ..But STILL!...
- Ur head hurts as if a big fat needle got stuck on the back of ur head while ur lyin on the bed.
- Theres mud dripping down ur neck into ur hair. Erlack!
- Theres the painful season of needles being stabbed into ur face.
- Worse of all,the journey home.
Well u see, after a good ol facial, ur face would always be red. Itll go off within a day or two. It happens. But apparently, the public doesnt noe that. So what would they think of when they see someone whod just got her facial done? A walkin weird tomato-head. Thats what makes journey home difficult. I wouldnt want anyone in the world to see me in my red-state. Its like in blotches. So after the mud was off my face, I went to the toilet to survey. So long as I didnt bend towards the mirror while standing behind the basin, it wouldnt be obvious...that is if anyone was a basin away, no one would see those red blotch. But any closer, those redness would be seen. As I walked towards the train station, I kept my head down all the way. Lookout! Come closer to me than a basin away and ill do my karate chop. Still, there were loads of pple who were walkin definitely closer than a basin away! I was silently cursing. When I got into the train, worse luck! Loads of pple were in the train which means they would be standing far from a basin away. Oh NO! I was starting to feel nauseous from all that bending my head down, which made the nausea worse. Look in my direction and ill throw a dart! Well I admit I can be very nasty esp in the state I was in. By the end of the train ride, I was reli gona do a Technicolor yawn. When we got to the interchange, I thot I saw two boys of my age eyeing me and sis…Worst luck! They were holding some coupons! Sales Teenagers. The last thing I needed! Surely theyd stand reli close, and lookin directly into u when givin u a sales talk. Oh NO! I went into a sprint mode. I need to get away! Argh! That guy caught up with sis. Id better run or ill bump into another of his sales mates. Too late!! There was another boy who was lookin at me HOLDIN COUPONS! I started running! AND he chased AFTER!!! omigod. OMIGOD! We were running in tiny circles. I cant believe this! "pls miss gime a min" the boi called. But I continued running in that tiny circle around my sis and his mate. I was not gona let him stand closer than a basin away. Not eva in this world! But he caught up with me! I was gona die! He was standing so close. The moment he started talking..i said, soz but ive got no money.Liar liar pants on fire. Sis bought the coupons though. Just to shake him off. I just stood there waiting while the guyz started to get a lil informal. One of em asked, whered u get ur hair cut? Is there a hairdresser in Northpoint? I pulled a face. Honestly, I could be reli nice and would av said nice stuff instead of running from him..but most definitely not in my red-faced complex. If I eva had to do a sales thing like dat, id definitely not choose someone whos gone bac frm a facial.

Monday, December 13, 2004

ohk i noe..i cant help writing more than one entry today!!! i mean what is wrong with me today?! Have i lost my daft brain on Planet Xenon?! That planet apparently doesnt exist so the person typing here now is someone with no brains. Eek. Freaky. Saw my head open and u'll find flies flying out.
ok so here goes..i had totally nuffin betta to do today and so went to read my journals..the real me. The real private me. Daft moi with daft brains. Make that no brains. I can't believe how stupid id been earlier this year. i messed myself up. Like im a livin virtual reality. I was reli living in my own world. Now i truly realized that meaning! how did i get hung up with a dick-head like Dave. I know there was sumfin special btwn us..but him?! Omg. Tut tut. No brained. mayb id lost my brains then. Uh-oh! ok..so that was wayyy in the past. wayyyy over! Silly Beanie. Me. Doh~
Haircut from Fresh hell. Ah! ol' days...now im free to do woteba i like with my hair now. My Hair. Its Gem to me. i remembered when i was younger. i was forced to have my hair cut and i would cry my heart out each time i had to go to the salon. I hated evrything..i was livin in hell.. cos of my hair. I had very low self esteem with my stupid awful hair cut. The only time when i was truly happy with myself was when my hair grew bac to my shoulders..My mood only to be dampened all ova again when my hair was chopped off. Mum always thinks it lovely. Urgh! Bah! Mums, they've got no sense of fashion. Well not all mums livin on the planet at least..just mine and my other aunts. Yeah. They force their daughters to av their hair cut too. I remembered when i was younger..Dad, who has neva touched a pair of scissors once, wanted to try cutting my hair. It was alredi short then. So u cld av imagined..How terribulososososos it turned out. Evrywhere i went..girls had long flowing beautiful hair..i didnt wana watch my fav MTV videos cos the singers all had beautiful long hair. i dread goin to school. I just wanted to hide under my duvet for a thousand years. My cousins told me that combin my hair a thousand times would make it longer faster. Dafty Young Moi spent hrs combin my hair a thousand and six hundred times. AH~ that was all in the past. Now..mum gives me the freedom to do woteba i want with my hair. My hair. My rules. And i couldnt be happier :D Life is good and life is mine.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Nuts over illustrations.

Saturday, December 11, 2004

serena came over today cos she needed help with her blog..we had a brilliant day..she loves kim possible..we saved loads of kim possible's pictures and evrything bout today was kim possible-and the kiminator..i tried loads of stuff and got my brain cells into full-blown blubbathon. Creativity. I need it so bad. Inspiration comes and goes. Phfff. She gave me an account of the prom night. Then we talked bout hair, styles, clothes and evrything under the sun. we took a lil break and went to the pool to see how brenda and belinda were doin. Serena's sister was reli sweet and she gave us loads of snacks. we got back up to my house and chatted for ages and chillin out at the snacks b4 workin on her blog again..few hrs later we went ova to the living to watch the Simpsons. There Mum and Serena started chattin mostly bout school and stuff---and Mdm. Jo-marie the bomb-house. Talk about explosions. She explodes. Like how cars explode in Too Fast too Furious. She roars and we, the students, are hit by the mighty impact. Serena doesnt like Mdm Jo-marie at all..mum and her went on chattin bout her and the politics at school. Gee. i dont share that much with mum. while they were out chattin on end..i worked on serena's blog..she came into the room to meet me a century later.
Serena: Woah i didnt realize you were here!
Me:

All in all workin with serena was reli cool. She's a lovely person. She's gona call me first thing in the mornin tomorow and we're goin to Orchard to get some Haagan Dazz ice-cream--or so. Then we're gona go to the library and chill out.

Friday, December 10, 2004

came back frm training in one piece but a broken ass.. :P..Literally.Too much of running perhaps..the sun wasnt as heartless as the last time..in fact it was pretty cool..the weather was cold.. Brr. but i guess we ran harder then the last time cos the juniors were running reli fast..so all of us persevered to the end even though we were horribly tired..arabel got some asthma attack but she was fine a few seconds later..the gurls werent very happy with the captain who's always talkin to himself..well..not that sorta insane kinda sane who blabs to himself like a retard..he's just always givin us big lectures while we would smile and nod even though we hadnt the remotest idea wat he was talkin about and dont intend to listen to..he wanted us to run faster than the previous round but we were all as limp as lettuces.. Limp lettuces..sounds kinda cool actually Eugene was as wacky as eva..he was tryina do some weird stuff and it shocked me when he did a fallin action on purpose..and i screamed ..well i didnt want to! That was indeed a very nice move which shocked the hell outta me..Thank you very much Eugene!
okay so we went moochin around in the mall..and ate at KFC..then i went to the interchange accompanied by LH and sis..when we came across some other track members..---and the Powerpuff girls some kinda cartoon network performance goin on..then i went to buy some hair accessories with the other girls. and we were waiting for Crystal, Joann and Sindhu's call lol!
Im goin to watch some telly now and get a nice popsicle. Au revoir sweeties

Thursday, December 09, 2004

okay so ive broken any record eva known on this planet by takin a reli long afternoon nap..i dont even noe how long it was but somehow i knew id taken a reli long one..ive been hearin lindsay Lohan's CD and i still love rumors most..the beat just makes u groovin~ earlier this mornin i went for a doctor's appointment in Novena and spent a hundred..i wore that same old pink high heels i just bought and it was killin my leg..well yesterday as u guys noe..i went for the community thingy..something bout charity and stuff..well its bout goin to pple's houses and collectin used books for the other poorer children. Tres cool aint it. Indside i was groanin when we were waitin in the room b4 we set off cos i could av been havin a nice lovely relaxin day at home instead of bein in a reli boring stuffy room and walkin round the neighbourhood knockin at pple's door..then this guy came out to thank all of us for bein a part of this bla bla and it was then that i remembered that this was all for charity...its bout helpin the poorer pple..ive always been wantin to help pple who are less fortunate so i thot this was a reli good chance..so i stopped groanin and felt reli touched by the guy's speech even though it was short..perhaps i was the only one in the room who was havin alota emotions churnin durin his speech cos the speech was just meant to be a short 'thank you'...again Me, miss evrything-is-a-big-deal. ah~
loads of pple didnt wana answer...and the most shockin thing was..loads of houses didnt have doorbells..isnt that the most essential bit of what makes a house? Mayb someday a book on houses - with doorbells will have to be written. Most bks on houses dont av that. Mayb i shall be the author and ill definitely remember to write in a hundred list of beautiful doorbells.
anyway it was such a cool day! Lovely experience! some pple were bein reli nice. and shannon was the one who carried all the books..there was this lil Boy called Shane and he's extremely cute!
ok so tmr..another trainin day..im goin to go off and eat a lil food now and watch Man Vs Beast. Yes. therefore, adios!

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

surprisingly..trainin wasnt tough at all..thank goodness we didnt run our skulls out like the last time phew~...we only had to run for 30 minutes plus some jym work..then i knew why..Mr. rauf has made a pact to train with us..its no wonder that he'd cut down on ours too.. :D we ran among the big houses with barkin mad doggies..the nightmare of the century..while we were joggin i kept prayin that i wouldnt be eaten by the doggies..mad they are. Reli. Tres horrible. arabel and mandy were laughin at me fer bein so paranoid..wait til a dog comes chargin.
Me: but there are dogs there that comes chargin at u and i dont want that
Arabel: Yes! thats the exciting part! mwahahhaa
I could see the evil in her eyes as she sniggers..Mates
we had a load of fun laughin our heads off..it wasnt very scary though id made a total big fuss out of nuffin..when we got back to the jym..Britney was argh-ing while tryina lift up the weights..probably too heavy..she's neva made a sound b4 when doin zee weights..i tried lifting it up when she'd left..it didnt even budge. I give up!
Rauf was sweating frm head to toe..he was too busy doin his own trainin that he'd forgotten to check on us. Kewl day..that captain was pretty weird though..he keeps talkin to himself.

Monday, December 06, 2004

durin trainin today..we had to do the interval..thank goodness..we werent reli worned out as we were b4 even though we did more..but erm..i peeed in my pants while runnin esp the last bit ... it was rainin..beautiful weather though..the scenery was beautiful esp the green field..Tres lovely..after trainin..shieh Fang (Britney), Mandy, hidayah, Lulu(sis), lihua, and I went on to Mac to dine..we spent loads of our time there crackin jokes..the boyz were in mac as well..and they would imitate us..we laughed alooot and i mean alot..like how wy and i always laugh when we're in the canteen..i tried to keep our voices down but as usual..i neva succeed..when we laugh..its almost like a roar when we're doin it together..Hakim as usual was singing to himself while walkin down to order his food.Honestly~... at the end of it all..the boyz came to our table..Hariz presented a nice cup of coke..it was full! aww..how generous of them (which is not a bit of em at all)..the word 'generous' and 'those boyz'..will always be fighting..neva gettin along..Trouble! I sense in their lil sniggers..but I, Miss Not-Stupid, will not fall into their fatal trap..i shall not be tricked by evil...so i took the straw out and smell it..Eugh! the smell of somethin weird and definitely un-cokely...i opened the cover and saw some white stuff floatin on the coke..the boyz were roarin with laughter even though we'd out-cooled em..They are sooo funny!---Not! we went to northpoint to shop and on the way there i realized i left my umbrella at Mac.. i was totally upset and i mean reli upset..it was the best umbrella eva..i loved it and how stupid of me to just lose it..i thot of the memorable times when i was happily using it..which is just today since its new...they were all laughin at me at how silly i was soundin and moanin..fortunately there werent much pple in the bus or id have died...recallin how tres silly id sounded but a lil kid kept starin at me..hullo im frm planet Xenon and ive come to eat u, I shd av said..but i found out they were playin..as usual..keepin my umbrella they did..i gave my umbrella a big hug i missed it so very much. at northpoint we bought Mua ji from this old lady on the road side she was so poor thing and she's so nice..so i prayed to god and hoped that more pple will buy frm her so she doesnt have to sit there cold and shivery..if u guys do see her..pls buy frm her she's at the yishun interchange..her Muaji is pretty nice actually the best Muaji in the world..we even bought wy's pressie..a silly one..Britney says its just like her..as stupid and crazy as her..and i bought two pairs of earrings..Tres cool.
Therefore i had a cool day.

Sunday, December 05, 2004

what a long, borin day. Pratty sundays, they are deliberately invented by pple who have no life and no friends to torture the rest of the universe.

10.15am: starts gobblin down my breakfast and plannin wot i wanted to do to kill the long day
10.35 am: a nice stroll from the dining to mum's room
10.36am: another nice stroll from mum's room to sis's room
10.37am: a borin stroll to my room and sees sis lollin on my bed hopin to enter slumberland again to munch down the most boring the day
10.38am: strolls to the kitchen to get a cube of ice and gets a book to read as there is nuffin to eat
11.15am: gets a break and goes to get another cube of ice. they sure taste icy.

so as u see..ive managed to get through an hour. u could take these as tips to pass ur days as well.

Saturday, December 04, 2004

Bor-ring weekends. It seems that i havent been studyin much durin the hols and i know ive got loads to catch up on. Blub blub, im dead. Eek. Im reli stressed up here but i reli havent been studyin at all. How cool does that sound? Eek. Double eek. I havent got a clue bout what i reli want. what i want to be and blahs. im not even sure . Speakin of what i want to be, im not even settled on my studies. Eek. Double eek. Triple eek. Ive been moochin around, lazin around, playin around. This is bad. Very bad. Eek, eek, eek, eek. The fantabuloso foursome eeks. Not.

Friday, December 03, 2004

my hair is tied into 6 ponytails and i dont think it enjoys it cos it'll have to curl itself accordin to the pattern of the tail..boohoo..im cryin for my poor lil hair..make that thick hair. earlier this mornin we went to train at the Turf city..first we ran a good 3.5km..and the sun was scorchin hot. A total desert with wild lil yellow tiny flowers growin among wild untamed grass with rockily sandy dry area for our only paths. A run in a scorchin desert aint that cool?! I was at the mercy of that stupid sun. oh pls Sun, the mighty one, dont shine on me. im so at your mercy. Stupoid sun. we rested and i drank the very special, highly-fomulated, and specially attained from some powder frm the supermarket mixed with precious water...a glucose drink. it tasted like some stuff i drank when i was a lil baby..woah! trust me to remember sumfin so long ago, ive got a super-duper powerful memory :D ... Brilliant! Not. the drink is suppose to be good for our run..so that we'll have enuf glucose for our muscles to burn into oxygen..a lil science lesson for u here. It tasted pretty much okay..in fact it was nice. there was zee orange and grape flavor. Sindhu!! ull av to remember to come next fri cos then ull get to try the nice drink!!!

~THE END~

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Potato is the word. i made potatoes for breakfast. first i started peelin the skin..which was the biggest obstacle known to humanity...Muji didnt wana peel it fer me..says ive gotta learn to do things myself..so i spent an hour by the sink peelin an ugly potato till it got a lil brown..Muji wanted me to try peelin a whole basketful of potatoes.. Rite. im gona av to take a century to do that. She laughed at the rate i was going. Very funny. Not. I got a lil agitated. Finally after what seemed like a decade...Hail to the Naked Potato!!! I was neva gona peel another potato. Not eva, not after this pratty experience..I cut it up and fried it..added cheese at the wrong time...the potatoes got stuck to the pan..the cheese got tortured black..and the potato was hard and raw when i took it out. Cook It Raw, my favourite phrase.

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

i vomitted today durin training. Cool aint it. Yeah! im gona keep my entry short and simple afterall loads of my frenz are busy and are not at home and wont be able to read thiz..im gona add a new feature and im workin on it..its a cool blinkie. Vintage! i once tried doin that feature but it totally couldnt work..but i still prayed bout it anyway even though i knew clearly it wouldnt come true..but God made me feel sumfin..he always made me feel this when i pray to ensure me that it'd happen and it always does no matter what..so it must be somethin..but i told God 'no it can't be done..the blogger's system says it can't..so it reli can't be done? why did u tell me it can?' but then i just found out i could change its html instead of the name on blogger by itself a month l8er...so God reli meant it when he sorta told me it could..cool! i once prayed to god while i was in bed to call my sis over to my room to help me off the light..i just prayed but didnt reli expect nethin..till he gave me the feelin and i knew he'd help..and immediately i heard my sis callin me and comin to my room to ask bout some stuff..i laughed..Alot! totally gobsmacked at this..then i told sis bout it and we both laughed out loud real happily i was chuffed. neway..on to the trainin. today was reli tough and we usually could only do 6 slopes but we had to do 9 today..Mr.tan was runnin with us today...we ran and my first few rounds were 2.35 somefin bla bla..then subsequently it was 2.28, 2.29...it was reli cool cos all the girls were 2.40 sumfin.. rauf asked all the girls fer their timing except fer meh...in fact he wanted me to lend my watch to the other two girls cos he wanted to check their time..but im not upset or nethin cos im so used to this..bein the corner person..nvm ill try my best this friday..the time-takin thingy...we were supposed to run 9 slopes..and on to the last one, i stopped! and vommited ) ... Mr tan was reli nice bout it and he kept tellin me its ok and kept patting me on the back..perhaps he thot i was cryin but i was reli just pantin reli reli hard that it perhaps made me sound as if i was gaspin..and that stupid bitter-ish taste in my mouth just made it worse..just makes me feel sicker and made me vomit all of it out..evryone was reli sweet bout it and there was this ex-captain who was reli nice bout it. okay im makin my blinkie now and tell me if u like it later...um..even though i know no-one is out there..im speakin to the wall..no the black screen.