Tres awful news: ive just been told tht the school's x-country will be nx week..and the whole prob is..im not able to train for one whole week cos of my eyes...it had to come at this time..i cant train tmr cos my eyes are still red. This is sheer nightmare..id waited for this x-country thingy but this unxpected thing happened..i cant afford to lose to any other CCA grps. Rauf will be so horribly upset and disappointed. Sacreud Bleu!

This is xtremely bad...very bad.

Yay!
was reli reli bored at home..and so decided to change my layout
and it worked out..
Hope u guyz like it.
that gothic grrl on the left hand side is by pinuptoons.com
im not that artistic to have drawn that..
but other than that..the rest is by me
the whole layout is made by me
and ive just received news that ive got 59/60 for amaths
55/60 for emaths
I hope there's no hmwk for today
and bad news ive gotta wear glasses for a week or two..
no contact lenses
Friggin glasses get on my friggin nerves
I hate it totally

i was abt to go shopping today with a pirate eye.
but was forced to rest at home
stayin at home is friggin borin
i was listening to the radio and just lyin around on my bed and sofa readin my book

okay..so i went to see the family clinic at night..even planned what i wanted to do in town after that..id thot it was just an ordinary eye sore that e doctor would just give me some eye drops and stufff..but no..he examined it..he kept examining my eyes without sayin anything..other than askin questions..like ,"uve got a white spot on ur eye..was it there before?"
i was startin to get a lil scared..but he wouldnt say anything..he just furrowed and looked worried..and when he finally said something.."U need to go to the hospital now..."
"Now?" i was starting to get a lil worried..the doctor asked if i carried enough money to see the emergency ward in the general hospital..or another option would be to see an eye specialist but it would be more expensive immediately for treatment cos e doctor said i was in an initial stage of a very dangerous eye problem, Cornea Ulcer. The doctor even called dad at home to tell him bout evrything and asked dad to fetch me either to the emergency ward in the hospital or get to the specialist . we chose to go to the specialist cos it was nearer and id be treated immediately cos the waiting list would be very long in the hospital.
so we went and dad kept scolding and yelling at me for insistin on getting contacts..he suspected that was the cause of the problem. the doctor called the specialist before we went there. so neway...the specialist told me i had cornea ulcer and the cause of it was that....My lashes were growin inwards..they irritated my cornea and thats how i got the infection. id been livin with the fact that my lashes grow rather unusually since i was lil. dad requested for the injection..even though the doctor suggested giving me medication..and putting eye drop hourly..but daddy wanted to be on the safe side. But the whole major problem was that...INjection on the eye is extremely painful...It is pokin a needle into ur eyes..i was sooo scared while the doctor prepared for all the instruments and stuff..i called wy to tell her how worried i was..she comforted me..and den i went in..there were three nurses in the operating room. and the doctor..i took a look at the needle..and den he poked..and it was pain beyond any pain..i heard myself choking.. and when all was over..the pain was still there..it was excruciating ..and i couldnt help it..but i started crying..probably cos all of this happened..my eye...the worries..the screamings from dad..evryone being worried..and the horrible hell-ish pain was the last straw.I called wy..and wy comforted me again..I wasnt allowed to do ne competition..not even any running for the whole week. and i went for another examining today..its starting to get better..and ill probably not be able to attend school on Monday to collect my results..Archana says she;ll collect my results for me and text em to me.. evryone iss being so awfully nice and supportive. Thank u pple :D

rite..ive just arrived home..i went to school for training with arabel and i told rauf i probably couldnt run for the comp tmr cos my left eye's suffering from some infection..id thot he would turn around to say 'no ur still able to run with an eye sore ull be fine'...but no..he looked at me and told me..."u have to go home now" Its that serious.. its gettin redder and much more painful..it keeps tearin evry minute. rauf wanted me to see a doctor immediately ...and he told me that i shd try to recover for tmr's competition. i doubt it'll cure that soon.
My left eye now feels like somethings pressing onto it..like some finger is pushin my eye hard into my socket...or orbit for e biological term...Ouch..it goes on and off..and i cant open it too much cos it feels like needles are pricking my eyes evrytime i blink..Its so painful...i hope it'll be over soon. im gona go see a doctor tonight..im gona ask muji to accompany me.
even in schl durin assembly...pple were thinkin ive been crying cos my eye was so red and there were tears wellin up..

I hope its nuffin serious cos one of my frens told me her fren had to go for a major op cos of an infection caused by her contacts... i hope nuffin like tht is happening to my poor left eye. evrybody!!Feel sad fer meh!!!!

ohk..i havent been updating for a week cos its the exam week..so i was rather busy..i didnt have much time for revision not to mention updatin my blog..alright so now im rather free and stuff...we had biology today..the last paper..and i spent hours studyin the eye and how it works and stuff and ironically..my eye hurts now...its tearing alot..and it reli reli hurts..i was studyin the veins on my eye..so i presumed the blood capillaries on my sclera were obvious..cos nourishment was needed for the cornea and the lens in the eye..it is reli reli red...i cant even close my eyes and sleep cos it hurts so much even after ive taken off my contacts.. Biology was a breeze...first paper on monday..english and Social studies were reli cool..Mother tongue was okay..the comprehension was difficult though..i hope i dont score too badly..neway im not takin it in my L1R5 so i guess its ok..and i bet loads would score 100% for emaths cos it was easy beyond easy..amaths was reli reli easy..i bet loads in my class would score full marks..geography was okay..i could write down all the points..chemistry was a breeze..
Okay so its got all goin for me this week...except for very lil hours of sleep cos there were loads to memorize..
My eye hurts evry minute...ah...i reli need to see a doctor but in a few minutes time...training is gona presume..one week of training-free cos there was the exam but rauf broke the rules and insisted we trained..if the Principle knows bout this..he'll get into serious trouble..and im pretty angry cos rauf cancelled my class's field trip to the parliament..just cos of one silly training. he's being too much
ne ive got a competition tmr..ahhh after a week of only few hours of sleep..ive gotta go for another stupid competition. Evryone feel pity for mEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rite..so there are too many bush fires..a total of 300 so far since january..the hot weather i spose.. dad just called to ask if there are ne bush fires here..cos his workin place stinks..too many bush fires..there are soo many plants and trees around the cities..in evry corner of the city ...oh and if this continues..s'pore will no longer have ne plants or forests...in fact we hardly have ne forests :

rite..my brain is full of 'social studies' ...the govt might react fast and do sumfin..ive been studying how govts work for the past 5 days ...and i did some run just now around my house..its full of flowers like a park..mm..i ran 4 rounds...so its equivalent to 3.2 km... or probably more..the round is pretty big. and there's loadsa wind with the demolishing of those buildings rite nx to my house... there's a 'steroscopic' view as well..rite..i got tht word from Biology.

so nx week..the exam week..SS is crazy..

assembly today was absolutely hilarious...there was this reli weird music..like tht sort in those games...when the map to show where the atlantis was was projected..and to make things even more hilarious..pple tried to be funny by pretending to enjoy the silly music..and evryone started clapping their hands to the music...even some of the disciplinary tchers were laffin...matilda must have laughed like a loon then.. i was laffin reli hard..neway after assembly..rauf spoke to sis and me..he was sayin my timing for our usual trainings proofed tht im supposed to hit 16 minutes..and to hit 16 minutes..its like top few in the nation..crystal and fanli and the others had hit it..but i still cant..rauf says i gotta let go of all my fears and just go all out..i cant do it though..dont think i can..my best was only 17. ok try harder..

-_-Im feelin so useless and sad rite now cos we had training earlier and my timin wasnt good at all at turf city...
rauf must be feelin rather disappointed as well..he silently told arabel im not sure what's wrong with the B girls. And he was so confident about us gettin top four nation wide...now its to the C girls..the C girls are running even better than us..i used to have a very strong mind..no matter how hard it got id just continue running and not give up durin training when i was a C girl...Now ive got a weaker mind..somehow..im feelin so sad rite now...like im so useless in track n field...i dont think we;ll eva get to four..probably not even top 10.. im gettin from bad to worse..i tried reli hard today but they were all so fast. :'(
ill graduate without achievin nething for track...okay mayb i achieved somethin in the nationals the other time..but thats different..i wana do well this time..I Needa train reli reli hard this time.
NVM..its so common this sorta thing..pple in track feeling sad and useless..i just hope ill pick myself up...sis was also feelin reli reli sad...she almost broke down when rauf said she's changed..so now she's talkin to one of our ex-track-seniors, Priscillia, ...yeh she needs tht sorta inspiration talk frm some professional like her. shes now a captain in her college..Innova..we competed with her the other time in the previous competition..but she's in A girls..
Im sooo sad i dont wana talk nemore. and sindhu..dont be too upset as well..u were injured so dont blame urself..u were reli reli good...trust me. i guess we;ll just have to train harder..thats the only thing.

rite..evryone's gettin pains and stuff..sis has got the 'vira fever'. Is it spelt that way? ..mm whateba..its some kind of weird sickness..that makes u feel very sick but ull neva get a fever..and ull feel mentally exhausted and stuff..that explains her temper :
she's so stressed out lately and she does feel very useless..and her joints are hurtin and stuff..this weird feverish thingy lasts for like 3-4 weeks..its a new sorta virus
we were running and this good-lookin guy walked in our direction..and he smiled at me..Im not sure wot for cos i dont think i noe him. Woteba.
Id betta get on with revision. too lil time. and next week there's another series of tests.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

pple become vegetarians for some reasons..
Arch's a vegetarian since she was young..family thing
James' a vegetarian cos he thinks eating animals is cruel
and i remembered being a vegetarian for a month..to test out..and i remembered tellin wy," i eat cheese and eggs for protein"
Yea..tht was my breakfast.
And i had to put egg white on my face evry nite for beautification (no such word) purpose..and i was readin my mails one day with the hard egg white mask on my face..and i read michael's mail and somehow it made it me lafff even though i knew he didnt meant it to be funy and tht mask was like pullign and stretchign..it was a lil painful but i couldnt stop laffin.

can anyone tell me if tht sms.ac thing is for real? or is it some kind of fake organisation cheating u of ur money?...if any of u out there are usin it..pls tell me if it is real.

Yesterday was a crazy day..today's a crazy day..evryday's a crazy day.
there're tons of hmwk..emaths is killing me.
i dont think ill be able to catch up with anything
and btw, i skipped my training on friday.. oops!
i hope i dont lose my stamina within 5 days..that sounds alot.
Yes im gona lose so much stamina. im gona have to start my training all ova again and the nationals is coming!!!
that reminds me ive got a chemistry test on tues!!! and ive not studied for it!!
and that reminds me ive got a gazillion ton of stuff i needa work for, study for, train for, do for.....
evryday's a crazy day for me..i desperately need a day when i can come home frm school and rest..but no..its almost evryday i get something cropping up for me to doooo
and i needa catch up with bio too. AHHHH!
OH no! Geography too! Double AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

i went to the movies to watch Constantine on tues..i didnt reli think it wld be nice..but jean and sindhu and whoeva was there wanted me to...cos they claim its reli reli nice..so i watched it with em..and omggg...it was soo coooolll. all the effects and evrything and keanu reeves is so hot and cool! evrything bout the movie was cool. u guyz shd reli go watch it.

went out e whole day yesterday..holidaysss..today is another holiday too...but tmr's not.

Right..so training was nasty and tough..evryone was seriously worn out..im not sure why cos our usual training was sometimes harder than this...Blame it on the oven-causing bonfire - the sun. it was soooo scorching! I had a tres terrible headache..amanda and sindhu too. its just the end of 5 sets and practically evryone was lying flat on the track at the finishing line groaning. I ran badly..rather disappointed. Perhaps i ate too much snacks b4 i went for training. Rauf knew we were sufferin..he admits tht training must be torturous..but he's got a kind heart..so for the last set..he allowed us to substitute it with 3 rounds.

durin add maths lesson..i borrowed Yk's wksht cos i needa refer to qns i didnt noe..after the lesson..i placed the wksht on his table but he was gone then..and the next thing i knew..he was askin where his wksht was..it probably flew away..and there were many stuff that he's done on tht paper..so it was indirectly my fault..and he was like askin 'may i kill u?' ..'u r toasted.' nah he was sayin it jokingly..he's a funy guy..so i told him ill redo it for him.

ANYWAY! after training..i got back with sindhu and joann..there were two guyz from another schl whom i dont know ..sayin bye to me after i said bye to joann when the bus came..so i said bye too..and they started giggling and said byeeee. neway in the bus..i was thinkin of what i was gona do when i got home..i got a lil carried away cos when i was snapped bac to reality..i realized i missed my stop..OH SUGAR! ..and it was so late and my legs were aching i ddint like walkin around too much. okay so i waited for the next stop b4 i got off..but the bus just went on ahead to some rather remote area with loadsa plants and greens evrywhereeeee..it was den tht i realized id took another busss...FINE! so i crossed e road and waited at another bus stop..It was so dumb
a) i was stranded in some place filled with greens and plants
b) id been waiting for an age for the bus to come rescue me
c) i wanted to goo homeeee it was gettin late and i could av been home 30 mins b4 this.

and finally i got home..and sis was telling me wenan and MJ came to swimmmmm! and wenan borrowed sis's goggles..and hasnt returned it : It would have been so fun..if only i wasnt training ..BUMMA!

AHH! i have suffered from itch mania for two whole days!!
and id thot itchy bites last for only an hour.
I must consult a doctor fast! I hope e doctor doesnt think im weird or nething..cos i visit him over trivial matters sometime..like when my leg had a blister..and when i had the coughs but could still run a mile.

i went for facial this morning..the lady was late. and she'd brought her kids along..two lil grrls..they're reli irritating cos they kept quarelling and making such a din..plus comin ova next to my bed durin the facial massages and askin a ton of questions.

well mat called me last nite..and we talked on e fone for like an hour..and yea we were tokin bout stinky plankton. I keep gettin to hear all this stuff tht he does..and den realizing he's been lyin or summat to us..and den confronting him bout it..and he has his ways to make u believe him thinkin his some down to earth guy..WHAT THE HELL does he want? its like he's some alien comin to earth to achieve this silly aim of makin the whole school of grrls like him! Yea..thts wat i reli wana noe..what does he get frm doin tht? and why isit like a big thing to him..i mean sooo many grrlz noe his some kind of cassanova..I am so believeing em now. he says he's changed but...A leopard neva changes his stinky spots! This is so weird. Its too drama rama.

Ive got a ton of assignments to do..plus chemistry tests. Sacreud bleu and ive only got a day to finish em. And ill not be free tmr cos ive gotta visit granny and have my reunion dinner with all my relatives! argh! tell me this is not happening.

the usual itch bites i get frm mosquitoes or whatevas lasts for probably less than an hour..but these bites have stayed on since yesterday..a new species of itch causers. It's like py's one when she'd camped and there were so many..they looked like dat..and its not just one but probably bout 50 of em round my body.

Yea and today..we went to the swarmi home where the old folks were...we performed (singing)and it was sheer madness when we were practising before we set off. Its like a volunteery work thingy. The music was blasting and evryone tried to sing..Luke was singing his throat out and for some reason he was gleefully smiling like some bozo the whole way through..den he goes conducting and standing in front of all of us when the singing goes on..while laughing to himself at the same time..I cldnt help feeling mortified. the practise was pretty fun..evryone was lafffin and havin a gr8 time..yea surprise surprise..my class has neva been reli spontaneous all the time..but there was a change today. Matilda's in the chinese orchestra team..she's fourth in the nation for her guzhen skills. guzhen's like a chinese harp..but it lies horizontally on some kind of stand compared to the english harp. She played the guzhen for me to hear when we got into the CO room..and it was awesome. She plays like a professional.
Neway in the old folks home..the CO members from our class..9 of em played their instruments..we thot they'd like it so we arranged this since we reli didnt noe wat to perform for em..and den we sang the song "i dream" and another song..ive forgotten what the title is..its reli long..and den we had an interaction time with the old folks..and there was this indian man who kept shouting somethin..somethin we dont know and luke just stood there not knowin what to do..Luke's funny. but we were mostly just standing around wonderin what to do..im not so sure of any dialect..so im not sure how i was gona talk to em even though i wanted to..so in the end..i spent my time chatting with matilda bout 'Plankton' (our name for this guy...) and we kept goin on and on chattin till we could go back home or school or whereva we like..mostly went back to school cos there's a Parents Tchers Meeting goin on later where evryone has to come...so evryone was like walkin in the same direction..but i went home cos there was like 40 mins more..and so now im here...and its just a few mins more b4 i have to go and ive realized mom and dad isnt home they're still at work. This is crazy..i cant contact my father..he's probably lecturing rite now forgetting tht he's got this. and mom..im not even sure where she is now.

AHHHH! Im suffering from itch mania. How in the world could such a barren grassy land house a million itch causing insects. Now there's lil tiny redish swells on my hands and legs..possibly my lower back too. The mosquitoes must av flew under my shirt and settled on my poor skin where it sucked blood from.

rite there was training today..and i had to miss my swarmi home practise with my class today..we're suppose to perform for some old folks in the old folks home..most of em have got dementia..ive done it last yr..its like they just stare at u blankly while u perform..sometimes start screaming all of a sudden with their hands clapping above their heads..yea i missed that cos rauf told us he'd screw anyone who interrupts his training plan. Freaky deaky. im such a busy person...HAH! Not. well its kinda true..i can hardly find time for my revision or hmwk cos of my excessive training..

and that barren grassy land i was tellin u guyz about was turf city..the x-country's gona be held there. Help. evryone was in a sleepy dippy mood..but still we had to train..and the intimidating bit was tht..we had to hit a proper timing or ill know rauf would be unhappy. this year..we're aiming to get TOP 4 in the country!! that's high aim..therefore we've gotta run reli reli well. At the starting line where rauf gave his command..we went off..den we started spreading out in the forest..Not a forest reli..just some place with many trees along concrete paths...by tht time..shikin was in front..as usual..sis was second..as usual..and i was third..but they were rather far away and the boyz were obscuring my view..by the time we got to the slope..Terrifying part...I could see sis..she was walkin..she couldnt take it..and shikin was still ahead as usual..soon zakya passed me and i was fourth but not too long later..i cut sis so i was e third grrl..we got out off the forest and there..the bit..exposed to the burning sun..ran ran ran..i wasnt sure how in the world i became second..i was probably focusing too much on my run..and den i saw shikin..she didnt turn in where she was supposed to so i called out to her when she was a few meters away frm the part where she was to turn...and somehow i became first..so i kept running and running..till we got near to the finishing point..about the last 400 meters...where its like a straight road to the finishing line..i heard some footsteps behind me..it was fanli..by the time we were 200 meters away..she went ahead of me..and there she strided all the way..and i tried catching up..but about 50 meters frm the finishing line..joann went in front..and den radiya..and we finished at the finishing line...where i slumped on the grass..and thats probably how i got all my itchiness..the grass probably houses some tiny biting insects. I was pretty glad with my results..17.50 minutes..a lil hardwork and sweat shd bring me to my 16 minute aim. this is probably the best timing ive eva got.

Got back..drank lotsa chilled glucose drink..mmmm...tres tempting..though we were not supposed to drink too much or we would not be able to run the SECOND time. Yea another second time..but we;re allowed to run at constant pace..all e grrls planned to run together..arabel had runner;s stomachache but she persevered on..i admire her for tht..she's got such a strong determination despite all her pain. this time round the run wasnt too strenuous since we're allowed to do a moderate one.. Drank the glucose again when we got back AHHHH... when the drink finished..i opened the lid and scooped some ice out with a cup which eugene helped to pry open..and WHATEVA! i forgot the rest of what happened after tht..i just knew i was feeling sore which rauf says its very normal..and amanda telling me she suspects she's got stomach cancer cos she feels a lil uncomfortable evrytime she runs. Good lord. I just hope she'll get a doctor who'll convince her its just a stitch. Evryone's So injured and sore these days..loadsa pple havin twisted ankles..injuries and stuff.

Its late and im sooo sleepy and ive got tons of hmwk to do..i just came home..track n field reli takes up alota time.

We had PE lessons today..and as usual ..Hockey..with team mates arch, cheryl, YC, Kenneth, wy, daphne. we were lolling around at first like evry other time...wonderin where to start..and den we negotiated with some opponent team before the ultimately daft hockey game friendly match began. But this time it was different cos we couldnt swing our sticks up high..that is above our waists level...therefore its tres hard for me since im always swinging my stick like im playing golf like a nummy. Not a good imitation of tiger woods. So my group got penalty for a few times cos i couldnt get adjusted to the fact that floorball belongs to anywhere lower than my waists..even though i hadnt hit any ball which i had accidentally swung my stick to the sky..and tried hitting it as if i was playing tennis. Its a surprise how despite our lazing about we havent been losing in any of the games...yet. With the ball charging towards u..u try jumping, seperating ur legs apart..and let the ball roll through between em...(Its a penalty if ur leg touches the ball). well thats the most comical scene of the century..i see many..with their eyes slowly expanding to humongous round balls..that shocked expression and next the quick movement of jumping and den the seperation of legs..as one's eyes stay fixed on the ball as it rolls nearer to u..and passes between ur legs..all the way still rolling, further away from u..by that time..ur head would be between ur knees. PUT that in slow motion.

Dont worry..nobody reli did that..That was my imagination

Neway..i managed to scrape by with a goal. I couldnt believe it. Esther, the opponents goal keeper, tried hitting the ball to the other end..and i was standing 5 feets away from her..swung my stick..and next..the very slow rolling of the ball all the way towards the goal as esther tries swinging her stick in vain as it misses the ball..and rollz into the goal. And we all looked at each other stunned. And i cheered to myself..arch was laughing.

howeva, the ball went missing cos nobody paid ne attention to it..it probably went rolling into some nearby hole leading to the drains. therefore, I have caused the lost of a ball..Now my class is gona pay for it... all cos of this goal of mine.

Woah..we're reachin e peak period of our training..so its gona be mucho-tough. alredi..rauf is starting to get mad at us cos we had to do 8 slopes..and accordin to him..we walked back to the starting line too slowly..but we honestly werent restin at the top of the hill (finishing line) ..we were just catchin our breaths for a few seconds..before walkin down to the startin line again. We were all honestly too tired and zonked to really hear his yellings. Evryone was just walkin like zombies..not much breath left..just preparing our minds for the next round as we walk down the hill. yea..well it is very true that ur mind controls ur performance and that is so extremely true..if u keep tellin urself tht u can't do it..u can't make it..then u honestly cant..but if u insists tht u can do it..U reli will make it. Its all gotta do with the mind..lotsa psychology involved..And durin the runs and training..even though my lungs are exploding and my legs are dying of fatigue..i keep telling myself i can do it..and ill make it. So uve gotta be reli reli strong not only physically but mentally as well..in fact e mental part outweighs the physical part.
Okay im honestly really tired now..my legs are aching..they are feeling reli strained. they're givin me that hey-hard-day-at-work-huh? sorta fatigued feeling. and im so sleepyyy..

training days changed to mons, tues and thurs.

Oh yeh and bout tht Civics and moral education thingy..the one with the reflecting my character thingy..I passed it up to our tcher today..and after reading it..he called my name and was smiling..creative english he said reli creative. And i was reli chuffed bout it. and he went on to ask which horoscope i belonged to..and i said Leo..and he was like Very Leooo ..smiling. So im reli glad..cos he liked it..im gona get a nice result for my CME this yr.