Friday, December 25, 2009

gosh how did tht come up!

i don even rmb posting that!

luckily not many read my blog. Gosh how did it even get up there :S was i sleeptyping or something??!

i don think ive even been that depressed anway :S

anyway

MErry xmas!!!

i had a lovely and meaningful one! and i noe juz how to walk now!

whatever it is.

results arent evrything

and my feet reli stinks

and arhg it hurts. tht stupid blister.

and woah im so happy to be me!

HAHAHAHA

ok juz jk. im not that zi lian.

Friday, December 18, 2009

there is warmth... don let the lil flame on the candle die. It is worth saving.
There's too much suffering in this world... to bother about personal angst.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Soemtimes you wish to help and go the extra mile... but they'd assume the worse in you. And then ur sandwiched between different groups of people and u take the blame for alot of things that perhaps aint your fault most of the time.

But there are moments when u see the smiles on your patients faces and know you've done something right for them... Knowing that you've comforted brings great satisfaction, whether it be recognised or not.

I cant help but be in a good mood today to see my patients happily chatting with one another. Everyone was in a good mood... joking about their conditions.. and talking about their younger days. I was too busy to engage in the conversations because i had to spend more time with those who couldnt engage in any.. so that they might not feel left out.

What an amazing profession i am in. :)

No matter how stressful it is... no matter the hardship, it is a great honour and priviledge to have been given the opportunity to provide care to these people... Even if they may feel that the world has turned their back on em, there are people who are reaching their hands out to em.

Friday, December 11, 2009

What is Nursing

if its very essence, that is to Care, has been eroded by too much work and stress.

What is Nursing

if its primary goal at the end of the day is to not get yourself into trouble, complete whatever tasks u need to in the required time, and Care is compromised.

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Nursing... is not just any ordinary job...

A nurse has got to put her heart and soul into caring for her patients.

We're dealing with life... and people.. who experience very real emotions, suffering and pain.

Unfortunately, i feel i might have had too idealistic a view of this profession.

Care ends up taking up less room in this line of work...what with all the stress that comes out of it...and constrains by the lack of communication, time, legal obligations and demanding workload.
Alot of times you find yourself horribly fustrated, and stressed up. You find yourself getting into trouble... whether you're trying to do the right thing.. or not...

I wish i could have done more for my patients... but alot of times... i find my hands tied.

Sometimes i feel really sorry... for not having done some things... for the patients.. but i just didnt have the means to... its not that im not trying hard enough i just cant do it... and i feel horrible about it because deep down i wish i could have done something to make him/her feel better...

its heart breaking.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

my feet is too stinky for words.
work is horrible, extremely tiring even after sleeps, i am sore all over, im gettin a chronic headache becos im so beat from everything.

this is worse than studying.

sooo exhaustinggggg and i don have time to do anything else. i have no life.

cant wait for this to be over.

tired tired.

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

I DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO WORKKKKKKKK

its sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo dreadfullllllllllllllllllllllll

i cant stand two days of it!!!!!!!!!!!!! how am i gonna tolerate 2 weeks?!?!?!?!

ARGHHHHHHH

ill be dragging my feet tmr. Its depressinggggg

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

To satisfy your voyeuristic natures

Updates:

1) Exams for Yr 2 Sem 1 is officially over!
2) my dress wardrobe rack broke because it had too much load on it... and thats just the dresses.
3) so i officially cant shop for anything
4) not even on post christmas sales
5) because Mom is so pissed off

6) i screwed up my assignment
7) screwed it up
8) screwed up

9) a million dates to catch up on!
10) I need money!

Saturday, November 28, 2009

what could i have done... if i couldn't have done anything at all?

Thursday, November 26, 2009

I have a testimony to make!

I havent been sleeping much for the past two days. or at least.. for only 2 hours a day consecutively.

On the day prior to the two days, my alarm clock didnt wake me up on Immuno day... which caused me to have to take the exam without studying some of the chapters... but i had alot of rest. Now do i realise its for the better. When i'd set my alarm clock before the exam day to allow 2 hours grace of sleep, i remembered mouthing a small word of prayer, "sorry Father but i have to do this"
It was a knowledge in my heart that told me that torturing myself this way was not God's plans for me.

Den, my phone was mysteriously turned off. I couldnt have turned it off on my own subconsciously because my phone was placed far away from my bed... and i never had the habit of turning it off because it is rather cumbersome to. it couldnt have gone outta batt because i was charging it. i couldnt have turned it off before going to bed because i used it before dozing off.

i was pissed off!

Then, i came home to chiong for pharmaco. and i dont think ive ever chiong this much in my life before. It was a horrible nightmare, not being able to sleep nor rest when the brain is screaming for a break... for the next two days, i slept for 1-2 hours a day... spending only 10 mins of break for my 2 meals (i skipped breakfast). I was studying for the rest of every waking moment.

By last night, my brain was failing me. i was blanking out and i could not recall a single information. I could feel my brain screaming but i had to keep moving on.
it was a horrible torture... id inflicted upon myself. And i was sorry i did, because i knew that God didnt approve of it.

i slept at 11pm and woke up at 1am. continued pressing on... but every bit of information was reflected from my brain cells... like a miror (quoting celestine).

there was no way anything was getting in.

i took a bus to school... i was starting to feel it... that totally worn out feeling, and the state of confusion i was going into due to acidic build up in the brain. (like that time on sports day)

I was feeling nauseated from reading in the bus but i still forced-studied.

every now and then, my hand and body would fall limp as it held the notes as i was readin it. and my eyes would close shut while i forced it open.

everything that was happening around me in the bus seemed to be spinning. As i stood up to alight, i had to hold onto the pillars for fear of falling because i wasnt walking straight.

i was afraid id never make it to the exam theatres.

Mobility wise, i couldnt function properly, let alone outrightly utilising my brain for the exam. I could not recall anything. Everything that i was reading seemed foreign even thought id read it over and over again.

I cried and prayed so hard for God to help me because i couldnt do this alone. My brain was too exhausted and i was blanking out. I needed a miracle. I promised that id never ever do this again... ever. I wished id listened from the start and got proper rest and sleep. I listened to worship songs, finally stopping, 15 mins before the exam.

Eventually, i managed to do it. I didnt blank out thankfully.

If i had slept for 2 hours on Immuno day as id planned which was foiled, i dont think id have survived pharmaco exam. Immuno was only worth 2 MCs.

So thank God for everything who'd assured that all is well and that all He'd planned was for the better! i didnt believe it at first but now i do!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

I shall not run away nor shut it out. I shall face it bravely and take God's hands as He walks with me.


Exams are coming and i am very dead.

I hope i can at least pass my singapore films to S/u it. Gosh cant wait for it to be over!!

Lately, there have been problems happening to many i care about.

I used to shut it out, or pretend like it never happened because i didnt know how to solve it... and it pains me so that i had to watch it happening.

But im not gonna run away from it now. Im gonna try to help... in the best way that i can. Not shun from or ignore it. Face it.

But first, ive gotta take the repression, which is burdening me, away. All i have to do is surrender it.

...before i can finally focus on being a better person to those around me.


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IM HUNGRY OMG! Minestrone soup tonight O DEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR how can i resist how can i wait!

Saturday, November 07, 2009

i wouldnt have done it without You. I wouldn't have. I didnt do this. You did. This honour is not mine to take. Its Yours.

And i will continue running race with You.

However hard it may be.


- Verily verily, i say unto you. Except a corn of wheat fall into the ground and die, it abideth alone: but if it die, it bringeth forth much fruit

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Boo.

this is e first time in my NUS life that ive failed skills assessment

and for both.

i dunno what to think im juz feeling numbness.

lecturer was askin with a v concerned tone.. "what happened?"

...

i got the dosage wrong for the first one cos i didnt see properly.. too rash.. and de next there was jzu too many bubbles although i did expel it all in e end. Still failed.

ill b ok.

this failure will be a good impetus to spring back up with 5 times e hardwork ive put in.

Enough of resting now its hardcore mugging.

HARDCOREEEEEEEEEEEEE

MY FUKEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

soz allow me to just scream for once.
*(^*%*@)W*Q_W(*

EFFEDDDDDDDDDDDD UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i think ive lost the drive to study

Dont bother comforting me about it.

IM JUZ ANGSTY and i need time.

ill get over it.

...

I feel like screaming

*screams*

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

HEYZ

i am guilty of spending a full day doing nothing. out with Tony all afternoon and with les and eelin at night which is absolutely delightful! i miss e girls!

MY pressure sore thts on my back's bony prominences wont go away.

AND MY FILM IS FINALLY DONE!!!!!!!!!!! although it was extremely exhausting to do.

and u noe what?! Linton thinks our video is awesome!!! he actually understood what the film is aboutttttttttttttttt

OMG

Cheer up fellow noobilicious (Singapore film module group mates)!!

Friday, October 16, 2009

Why am i so worried?

WHy!

its makin me paranoid.

when nothing is actually happening

its almost like an intuition without any form of basis.

Just an inkling... that apparently starkly contrasts what i'm seeing.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Oh hi!

been sometime...

Lifes cool and im learning something new everyday.. spiritually.. philosophi-cally.

But ive been having fun nonetheless... despite the huge mountain of work.

i visited siti on the night she turned 20 at 0000. (wouldnt have been possible if my parents had been home) it was really cool and i really miss her so! Shes my darling.. always will be. :)

Did i also mention that i was supposed to go to Thailand to train. Thats where national Muay thai players go to refine their skills.

but i cant unfortunately.. parents too paranoid. :(

Life has been so cool because God is walking with me!

okay back to work!

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

I cant believe this but i took e wrong medication for my headache.

SO now im as drowsy as hell becos i took a sedative flu medicine instead.

ARGHJHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

and i was supposed to stay up to do work!

the residual effect even after my nap is shitsss

Dead drowsy. What a terrible drug.
Sigh im juz so extremely busy that i dont have time for alot of things...

Sometimes i wake up early in e morning.. sit down on my table and wonder what to do next... cos theres jsut too many things at hand to settle. Im drowning.

and the work keeps piling up each day.

i feel so bad for pang sehing sometimes but sigh im reli damn stressed.

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Its over.

Its ended.

I cant continue this way any longer.

Im so glad.

=)

Thursday, October 01, 2009

God works his wonders in funny ways =)

Wow.

never did i expect this to happen!

Help me to love others more each day.

Amen.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

NIGHTMARE

last night, i glanced through my deadline submission dates.

I got the biggest horror of my life and an instant migraine.

Im gonna have at least one MAJOR project/assignment/test/presentation to complete EVERY SINGLE week starting from NEXT week.

my jaw plummeted 12 storeys down.

And i fainted to sleep.

And dreamt about all the terribly loud MSN display names ill be putting.

"Talk to me about anything other than work and prepare to die!"
"I am SEVERELY busy. Approach me and be murdered"

Thursday, September 24, 2009

What you see, is what you get.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Life has been good lately!

because u noe why? its recess week. Although it isn't exactly a "recess" so to speak.

just last friday before the start of the long "break" there was quint fac bash... Which we'd made an objective to not be late but we still were... though not as bad as last year. Used our voucher at Chapter 2 to do our hair... it was kidna cheap.. and i got my hair blown to loose waves... haha! I love those loose waves

it was awesome bein with e girls... I love em so. :)

and wow its a surprise that practically evryone was clubbing on that friday night? Guess its because it marks the start of recess week.

Saturday was training day. Rach and I trained for 5 hours... and we stepped into the RING!!!! how honoured we were.

And we did light sparring with this Greek lady whos a professional fighter. Her techniques are awesome man. She also happens to be a psychology lecturer in NUS. She might be my lecturer someday when i go up to year 3. Thereafter, it was our Coach's punching-us session... where we stood still for our coach to punch our heads.

We got a bruise on our foreheads the followign day.

On sunday, it was clement's 21st birthday party. Never knew he was such a family guy! "Good job dude uve grown up".. so repeats rachel like a spoilt tape.
he is one awesome dude man.

A pity that francis and Sherman have left... otherwise we'd hav seen em ytd... it was so awesome to see e judo seniors again.

Today... there was muay thai fight trials and it was boring being the judge. Still it was eye opener... less injuries sustained by the fighters compared to last year... No nose bleeds! WOW!

That John waye Parr guy is damn good.

AND NOW... enough of playing! ive played long enough.

Time to study! DO NOT DISTURB!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

This is e first time im saying this but...

I give up on Pharmaco.

...

Friday, September 11, 2009

headache

When i read the latest few posts... i laughed. Eh.. i think i was overly paranoid.

All i had to do was clarify...although this one was particularly harder. But its all cool now.

My head hurts like shit... and pharmaco test is jsut on Mon... im reli reli dead. my first round of revision isnt over yet.

The Library is freezing cold.

A whole torrent of exams after the reading week shall rip my being apart.

I've only juz looked through the schedule and realize that.

the promising presence of stress.

And my headache is gettin worse by the minute as i force information into my brain.

What horror!

Saturday, September 05, 2009

For Everything

I don't want this moment to ever end.
I am perpetually hungry

i have to eat strawberries all e time

i have to smell like flowers all e time

Muji and mom has found a new found amusement and that is to trick me with sour strawberries to laugh over my reaction after ive munched it.

I must pon muay thai from now... MY WORK load is piling like crazy madness.

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Beauty


I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life will just be kind
To such a gentle mind
And if you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
As long as you believe
You just believe

- Jordan Hill
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I cant do arts for nuts.

I discovered this fact today at 12 noon. While the professor was teasing out questions to wreck our brains, Angie and Loraine who were beside me telepathed a "zzz"

As 0_0 as i felt, I was pondering through his words. Its kinda interesting... the topics he discussed.

But i repeat and emphasize this... i can't do Arts for nuts.

I'm prepared to S/U this Theatre Studies module.

Next week lies my first test for this semester... Oh how unprepared i am for it.

I have been staying back in school for Muay thai almost everyday so i think i should be less "ON" from now.

I'd underestimated my workload.

I realised how id neglected some ol' friends last semester as i busied with work... Hence I have devised an ingenius plan to keep in touch with em... EMAILING!

EMAILING is the best invention thats ever happened to earth.


Might i add that life has been wonderfully beautiful these days. I love everything about it.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Fighter

Life is like a match

Sometimes… Winning isn’t everything... It is the experience that counts.

Even the best fighter isn’t spared from losing in a match.

Winning isn’t a measure of ones capabilities and worth.

What’s most respectable and valuable is the strength one uses to pick oneself up after a failure, move on from it, learn from the mistake, and push on to be a stronger fighter.

Treasure failures. It is in them that we grow to be stronger individuals...
which can only happen if we move on and learn from it.

I will face my greatest fears and look em in e eye.

Monday, August 24, 2009

HAHAHA

there is supposedly no 3 hr lecture tomorrow but unfortunately... they made it 2 hours from 5-7.

SIAN we were supposed to go for a JAPanese buffet!!!!!! I was sooooo excited about the SASHIMI!! Why does such a tragedy have to happen!!!

Im depressed... really. I need to take tricyclic Anti-depressants.

My poor stomach. it was soo excited to receive SALMON SASHIMIS okay!

Ive been eating like a glutton these days. I HAVE to simply munch on something in EVERY BREAK that i have.

I eat 5 meals a day!

at least 2 times of lunch and some small titbits in e evening before dinner.

I cannot resist the urge to eat all e time. i think its e cause of the cheap prices. Either that or i simply miss school food too much.

WOW and i juz realised that ill be havin MUAY THAI sessions 4 times this week.

Attended one today in which id to settle admin stuff.... the freshies are sooo cool seriously!!!

Cant wait for tomorrow lol

WOW i love my life!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

CMAD

HULLO.

CMAD juz ended tonight. Thank God for the end of rehearsals.

we were perhaps the only cca which made a fool outta the display.

What with Garrick's spastic idea to roar at the start of our display.

AND all e cui screw ups...

rachel and I realised that our pair of gloves were on e same side... ON Stage.

SO we threw our gloves across to each other which landed awkwardly in the middle of the stage where the guys were sparring and where the spotlight was on.

The whole world was laughing.

And as we did synchronized sparring... Rach went a lil too hard and fast... and ended up punching me for real.

We stoned... before rach mumbled "sorry" which was incidentally picked up by the ceiling mikes for the world to hear.

In one of e last scenes, which i was in, i forgot that i was supposed to do two knees... i did just one... my opponent stayed sturdy and waited for my nx kick which wasnt coming.

He fell back on his own, after realizin the mistake, makin it look like hed been hit by some invisible force.

ALl in all... it was a freakin unforgettable performance. Think it was better than last year's.

And last but not least... thanks to u guys who came down specially to support man..... i know how disinterested u guys are in this martial arts stuff but u came down anyway... i cant emphasize this further but i am v v v v v v touched!!!! E freshies... pple like minting, pris, and mich... who rallied evryone else to come! Jade, Angie, Ting ann, faiz, jez, weiqin.. and many more... and the smses.. WOW i seriously didnt expect this much support man.

Totally unforgettable night.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

TODAY is an exciting but long day.



School has started! but i guess there has been more play than studies... at least for me. I havent revisedd any pharm stuff.



Been so busy with mUay thai stuff almost evryday of last week... going home at 11 pm evryday.



We're desperately tryina sell tix otherwise we'll hav to fork out the cost of the tix ourselves with our fund. Not v cool. Try to buy leh.



for today, there'll first be welcome tea, den sign up session, meeting to discuss alot of stuff.. and my stupid CMAD display isn't settled yet when the production is due to happen this thurs.

So screwed.

its awesome to watch the formation of the new NUS muay thai team... we must keep e cup. Already we've spot some potential fighters from the camp held last weekend. And we're gonna do a revamp. Its cool shit.

Im thankful for the girls.... for bein supportive and for takin e time out to offer their help... Thanks for takin time out to travel to SPH with me to carry 350 mags back.. id have been alone otherwise.. Thanks for stayin back in school juz to support the muay thai display at science. What would i have done without u! =)

Okay yay i got my Tut slots!!!

I love NUS. hahaha.
really.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

School starts today. A fresh new beginning... a fresh new Year.

I am finally a senior! how cool is that?

I dont feel prepared at all... honestly.. i havent read up on anything nuffin!

For the next 6 months, i shall expect lack of adequate sleep, and nutrtion. I shall expect my brain to burst... i shall expect plentiful headaches. I shall expect feeling faint and havin giddy spells from over exertion... i shall expect my hands to ache from carrying heavy books.. I shall lose myself... somethin i dread e most... et cetera et cetera.

Basically, going to Uni is like going to torture camp. Not really... for there will be friends around and we will egg each other on.

Tough as it may be, i shall embrace this new year, muster whatever energy i have and work towards my goal once again.

Dear Lord,
please be with me... and help me to remember this prayer.
Amen.

Sunday, August 09, 2009

Yesterday was a crazy day!

Rag in e morning... medicine dance was good.. way to go pris and kerin! Had fun with the nurses at the side stand.

den there was cmad meeting where i choreographed a muaay thai combo. its a hilarious skit. Please buy tickets for e production!!! its gonna be held at UCC on the 20th of August.

den i went back to science to help celestine do her make up and met up with the rest again where we left for vivo to shop.

Sheares hall was crying like mad over their defeat. such a sad scene. I witnessed bear bear crying. WOAH

Fox is the best. Please go there and eat ur heart out.

there was a 50% off! and omg... there were a thousand of my sizes... somethin thts rare durin mad sales.

I bought this extremelty cute daisy the duck tank which is in green. its the loveliest thing ive ever bought. and a simple pink and white top which is also v awesome. im gonna have to think of a way to smuggle the clothes into my home.

I cant wait to wear it! its soooo lovely. and hahahaha my wisma atria voucher is still not used. I cant wait.

and at night.. i spent a lovely evening at the American club with Nick where there was free dinner and wine. Finally i drank screaming orgasm again... i love the milky concoction altho its abit strong... and i got sleepy. Visited this inaccessible area where we had to hide from authorised personnels and spent the night in a lonely garden at a rooftop and marvelled at the architecture.
Played with cats and did chin ups at my house after that.

Today is national day. The sales will be crazy. I am so gonna shop today and spend a crazy evening with shanny shan!!!

A pity gerthy leaves today. Who will come back soon to have fun with us again.

i cant wait to shop i cant wait to shop!

perhaps no one else... could ever make me fall the way i had for him.... but time will heal... time will heal...

Thursday, August 06, 2009

... theres so much that i wanna say... yet I'm lost for words...


...ull always have a place in my heart... but we will move on...

Saturday, August 01, 2009

Happenings of my 20th Birthday

Its been sometime since my 20th birthday... but i thought i might like to keep a record of evrything. Afterall we only turn 20 once!


The events first unrolled when we decided to conduct a surprise visit to ys's house on the night of 25th of July 2009, the day before her 20th. I know its not a celebration of my birthday... but it still feels like it cos we usually celebrate our birthdays together. HAHAHA


She was takin forever to get home so we camped at the level below hers for a century where we gossiped and danced to Michael Jackson's Beat it. A pity though... most of e girls couldnt make it cos of curfew and school



frantically lighting the candles





Surprise!




love

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On 26th July 2009, I had a celebration with my family and my relatives in e afternoon where we had Japanese Buffet. And at night, it was a mini celebration at Granny's house. I love Granny very much =)







My bakerzin new york cheesecake



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On the 27th! it was a combined birthday celebration for YS, sis and me. We were made to wear awkward head gears. Evryone in the bus was laughing. EVRYONE! it was so embarassing. I walked with my head bowed down.









I am a depressed old ahmak.



Spot the man sniggering at the back.



I love you gorgeouses =) Thanks for making evrything memorable!


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On the 28th, my real birthday, I went to school and saw no one at the matric fair booth. I was alone all mornin and had to entertain myself with MSN. Matric fair was awesome... saw some familiar faces.. who wished me while my muay thai guys stoned and watched on. Apparently they were supposed to pretend like they'd forgotten.


Den came the surprise with donuts and my baby rachel. I punched the flames on my candles out. HAHAHA thanks muay thai!!!!!




Surprise vid is on facebook.


ehh hahahaha. The cutest and most beautiful card on earth...simple as it may be. I love you Rachel!!!

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In the evening, it was down to Arch's house. A gorgeous evening with the people i love. Peipei, Arch, wee, and sis. We danced. and took vids.

Vying to be in e picture... evryone is. grass is pushing my head. tsk.


grassy and yoga


Our wonderful chocolate cake!


Makin a wish while weiyu poses.

Our birthday cake cut =)


Savouring a wonderful spread of delightful indian dishes!!! Thanks to Arch's wonderful and hospitable family. I love her gorgeous mum !



OH MY GAWD! believe it or not its forever 21 voucher. MY DREAM!!!!!! THANK U HONEyS <3>

Bein overly dramatic as usual.




Arch and her talent with manicuring. Why are u so beautiful archy babe.


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On the 29th, it was with some of e nursin babies. I love u girls so much xoxo. Thank u my honeys! Loraine Jade angie celestine!! it was a beautiful night because it was spent with u girls =)







Our 5 sauces! YUM



My chocolate cake!!!


Who is this extra sittin beside my cake?






My bimbotic pressies. I cant believe evryone thot this was suitable.





Walkin down the streets of london

Evryone loves shufen's treated ice-cream.


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I have yet to celebrate with mat and wisp whcih will be held in my house and gerthy and Jo... next week. WOOHOO



More vouchers! XD



I am deeply touched. Honestly Shan. i know how much u wanted this for urself but u wouldnt bear to becos it was too expensive. You bought it for us instead.


THIS IS SOOO CUTE LA!!!
And more clothes but i wont take pix of em cos they're TOOOOOOOO SURPRISING FOR WORDS!!!!!!!!!!!!! THESE CLOTHES ARE SOOOOOOOOOOO NOT MY STYLEEEEEE
I'd love to surprise u guys when i wear it out. Its damn cool can!!!! BUT ITS SOOOO NOT MY STYLEEEEEE and i LOVE IT!
Not forgettin e birthday wishes, the calls, and the cards!!! THANK U! My phone bill is freakin explosive this month but its worth it hahaha =)
Thank u so much! Words cant express how thankful i am for evrything you've done for me. Yes, evryone of my close friends =) You may think it isn't much but evry wonderful action to encourage and egg me on .. means alot.

For all e subtle things that u've done... Thank u. =)

Thursday, July 23, 2009

These days have been blissful to say the least.

My time for peace and tranquility.

and quite some muay thai workload to do. I'll have to be down at NUS mending e booth tmr and next tues for e whole day. How sad.

I've not drafted the shirt design but ill do it on saturday cos ill be mighty busy for e next two days.

Hung out with my "brudda- in- law" these past two days for supper cos he was accompanying sis home. And he leaves in e East... i think im quite familiar with makin sure he catches his last train. Hes like a bigger brother to me cos hes so freakin nice.

Wispy spoilt my surprise. Thanks chen thanks. I love my dears =)

and im finally gonna see gerthy and jo tonight.

My CAP will be damn cui for the next two sems. I can predict already. We're gonna be damn busy organising the next inter-tertiary muay thai fight.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

This season shall be spent with close friends and family members.

And alot of Muay thai... and finally after two years.... Joanne chan and gerthy =)

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I chanted to myself when a voice from within interrupted.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Today i woke up and had my head spinning like crazy.

My computer just cant get over e fact that id accidentally downloaded virus. Please get a life, commy.

Im going out again tonight. i just wanna stay at home :(

Enough is really enough enough enough enough enough X infinity.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

I'm sitting in starbucks at novena.. my favourite hangout to get lost with myself. Sher likes to make fun of that.

the jazz music, fragrant smell of coffee, and the beautiful ambience...

I am glowing pink.. not with health but with sunburn. I am more burnt than tanned.

it was tiring... slept only a few hours last night at Sondy's. Mom miraculously allowed a stayover.

and of course.. clubbing for the first time... and for real. It was fun but Rebel was a bit scary.

I dont think ive been that high before... we were laughing alot. Sushi was eating sushi in e club.

We were constantly protecting each other... even in e midst of our drunken stupor.. that i find very heartening. I'm sorry girls =(

it was a night of fun with the girls I love... who made clubbing fun and 'safe'.

Not something id be lookin forward to doin evry other day though.... perhaps once in a blue moon and only with close friends like my judo babies =)

I dont ever wanna drink this much again.
My head was spinning like mad.

Rachy punched a guy. Luckily he didnt punch back cos he was drunk himself.

This morning we went to Sentosa to get our nice tans. I am freakin burnt by the way. i love the girls so much.

Pics uploaded on Facebook!

Im gonna watch harry potter twice! once next week with weiyu and a second time with dear tracgers on our birthday celebration.

School hols are ending soon. How i wish itll never end. Just thinking about exams and modules brings nightmares.

So sian of goin back to those days of not eating and sleeping properly. Sometimes it gets so stressful the migraine i get from it nauseates.

Sigh.. but i shall persevere. I'm thankful for the award but it has also left me feelin dreadful... i dont noe if i can keep this up... and im so afraid to disappoint all e time.



What i read was first met with defense and mockery. it wasn't as bad as it was pictured. But it was not long later did i reflect upon my life of late... did it appear to me that to some extent... you might be right. This is not what i find most meaningful... not what i want. I always thought that someday someone will snap me out of this... but i was too distracted to be bothered with doin tht myself. Might I say... thank u dear friend... to holler out for me to be myself. I'm glad ur a part of my life...

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Goodbye dearies! Bon voyage!



Yesterday =) Awesome shit! love u girls! Happy birthday Peixi <3

If u can tell... my hair is dyed. this is e most obvious of e pics






Are u ready for what im about to say?

I highlighted my hair today...

and it turned out

Orange.

yes orange.

Expect to see a lion head prancing around the medicine building when you visit NUS in august.
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Zirca tonight! I hope they have good music.

I must not get drunk... i must not get drunk

Beach in e morning! Im gonna get my tan and the best part is... its FREEEEE

Nature's gift to me for bein an angel... jk

And a sight to see bikini babes running around. Dont all the men in e world envy me?

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Sat to hang out with Nick and Aaron and at night with Josh.

den ill send nick off to vietnam at e airport and he will make it in time for my bday.

woo!

Monday, July 13, 2009

what ive been up to lately


Not mine... its sis from Jed.. but i juz love flowers i have to take a pic of it.



U'll never guess where this is... Its the pit building! Broke into the F1 race track in tony's car after a trip around Lorong 18 at geylang. it was awesome shit by the way.



Dollin up.

Hot celestine!








Gorgeous girls =)


I took a nap in Ikea because my house collapsed one afternoon

Gorgeous Dress at Haji Lane



Yumzzz!
i love life!