Weetzy

OMg!! training today was e best and e coolest. Evryone in track are like the coolest pple on earth.
well the day started off um..with the schl curriculum..pretty borin as usual..and durin geography..we had to be in a group of six...and i totally cant take it cuz pple were teasing abt luke liking me and stuff. That is sooo wayyyy uncool. I totally cant even stand the idea of me being thought to be with him in tht way..He's the most disgusting fella..sumtimes i cant stand what he's doin..even arch pities me..But honestly i have no idea why he wants to sit at simon's place..I make sure i get a good explanation from him tmr..I totally am so freaked out by their teasing..Eugh no way nonononono!!!! most of e time im not even talkin to him but to YC..and he replies as if im talkin to him when im totally not..I cant stand him. ergh! no one can.

Well..mandy came to my house b4 we left for training ..got on the bus in schl where all of us gathered..and i sat with arabel..the bus broke down. we silently cheered. And rauf came to sis and me and whispered,"i got a second letter" ..from mum he meant..mum'd told us she would write him a mail and there was this phrase i rmbed.."if u do not acede to my request, i will have to speak to the principle to make some adjustments." cuz she thinks rauf is gettin overboard by not allowing us to go for our lessons so tht we could train.
Newayz...Mr rauf was absolutely cool..he told the group of us about stuff..loads of em..his life's experience..he told us he would make arrangements so tht we could train on monday, friday and sunday..so tht we could have enuff time to study..and he told us about JC selections and how he used to study smart..He even told us bout the time when he was doin his degree and training for world championship competitions and stuff..and now he's shortlisted for south east asian games...he even gave us some tips about how to study smart..He's soo cool..he's the best coach in e world..all of us love him heaps. there was soo much to talk about cuz the bus broke down..waited so long in the middle of the road..and the second bus we took was stopped by a traffic police..and we were like reli curious what was goin on

When we got there..evryone was like in a mood for fun so rauf told us we could do a light run..i was runnign with sindhu and amanda..and we werent reli tired...the weather was gr8 it was drizzling and a lil chilly..so it isnt all desert-y. We hung out at shops and at macdonalds.. and chatted loads like there's no tmr...and in the bus we were totally totally absolutely noisy..and laughing like loons throughout the ride..and shouting 'chewing gum' like kookabaras... the whole way through and talkin about this grrl we call chewing gum..and telling the other grrlz about it
And we later went home with arabel and sindhu..sindhu was soo funny during the bus ride!!! we had soo much in it!!! And we walked home..chatting foreva again..and sis and I saw krystal and ying on the way so we ran after em and walked home with em.
Today's a reli reli kewl day!!

Kewl

training today was pretty kewl..cuz rauf wasnt there..i trained together with sindhu, zakiyah..shikin..amanda and sis..they were crackin loadsa jokes before we went to the slope to start our training..we did four real slopes..3 short tres steep slope..2 stairs..and one downslope..when we were supposed to do 10 real slopes. lol. my timing has shot up i must say..cuz running with em made me push myself..ive neva gotten tht timing b4..and we went on to do the steep slope..its a tiny long grassy hill and we've gotta run up..when we were at the tip we would just lay on the grass and start chatting while enjoying the nice scenery at the peak of the hill..the blue sky bla bla..training with all of em is so cool. and we laughed abt the leeches durin our camp in e jungle in another country, malaysia, the year before..And while gettin down the steep hill at one point i lost my balance and sprained my ankle..but its ok alredi..no biggie. den we walked back to schl once we'd completed evrything..by tht time it was abt 6 pm..krystal ying and the others was no where to be seen..and i just found out tht sindhu has this executive house which occupies the whole 5th level ..something like a penthouse and her dad drives a big family mercedez and there's a TV in the car as well!!!! OMG. she's so rich. tht mercedez must have caused a bomb...probably about 300,000 at least.
Newayz..training today was so fun and cool with zakiyah..shikin..sindhu and amanda around..But my legs were totally killin me
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
there's another earthquake..there's so many earthquakes lately ..even singapore felt a lil shake..the tsunami might come back again...this is so scary..2000 pple died in this earthquake..and experts say major earthquakes might soon hit again..like the tsunami one..omg so many pple have died..

A lot of naff ...and a touch of twee

the day started out with um..dragonflies dive-bombing around durin assembly..and tht's the thing i hate. cuz uve gotta stand at attention when singing the national anthem and wot if those nasty creepy wide-eyed tiny beast..lands happily on ur ears..or worse..ur nose.. Sacreud bleu. I dun even wana think about it. And some of my frenz behind were giggling at me.. while i tried to duck..It was so horribly nightmare-ish. with those dragonflies flying about..and ur not able to move..And wenan kept tryina scare me..i felt this wind blowin in my ear and was stunned and i saw him on his fours..he'd been crawling towards me b4 blowin into my ear. A lot of naff ...and a touch of twee.
then the lessons were horribly borin and the whole day evryone was at the border of snoozeland. den we had check up which we had to wait for two hours..and we ran here and about..enuf to fill our tummy for lunch..ran back again..for another english mock test..ran back again for the check up..ran home again... Bliss. i thought. At last..when the door swung open and there stood arabel and sis..they've not gone for training..so tht means i could still go for my training..i wasnt reli late. Which means ive gotta rush to get myself properly attired..run to the stadium..rush to do my warm-ups.. and start the tres vigorous leg workout..But i couldnt take it..i was soo awfully sleepy..so i asked arabel and sis to go without me..so thats how i skipped my training.

Groovy

i had soo much hmwk today..and a chemistry test tmr..im not botherin to memorise the colors of the different chemicals..my brain will go bust. and dad came back from his vacation finally..first id thot he was gona be there..to ummm..but he'd asked if we wanted to come with him..so there's nuffin sneaky goin on.. :
And he came home and bought Britney's latest album for meh!!!!! Fantabulosososo.
id prayed for him evryday when he wasnt around
newayz...Im goina change my hairstyle tmr..im not gona tie it in a ponytail no more..im so bored of my high ponytail..so um...ull see =)
and ive just realized tht the spiky earstud i bought recently came not in a pair but just one! just one!! and it was so xpensive..the saleslady wrapped it up immediately after id made my selection...i couldnt help feeling mortified..why would neone wana wear just one earstud on one ear. Geez. : Groovy..just groovvy.. Not.
okie its gettin so late now..and there's school tmr..therefore im goin off to snoozeland right now if u dun mind. Nitey nite.

okie..we had trainin today..den we..Oh! i hate it when they give it all away in a title. ull just have to read on :P

Hola! we had training today..the mile-age..its been months since we've ran there..and i was running with sindhu and sis..and sindhu was soo fast and she didnt seem to look tired at all. And i guess we're the only ones who completed the whole thing..the ones who ran all the way to the end of the park..cos we didnt see anybody else at the end of the park and we know some of our frenz were resting somewhere 9/10s away frm the point we're to turn back. I hate tht place its ur ideal natural oven..with unbearable sunlight shining like thousands of lasers.
And we rested in the gym for a while..sindhu was talkin among a group of boyz..and i heard krystal telling sis bout something..so i joined and we sorta joined sindhu's group as well..only for a lil while talkin bout this grrl who's crazily ,madly in love with hariff..and he's freakin out.
And went to eat with krystal, ying, joanne, and sis. we laffed at jokes and stuff..den evryone went their seperate ways..but i wasnt goin home i was meeting wy to shop at causeway...And when we were there..we waited for wy like forevaaaaaa...wy was takin ages so we went to shop ourselves..wy called and i went to the place to pick her up..den we walked so much my legs were getting numb..but i bought two ear studs today..one's sticking out like a big curvy spike...Groovy...and the other a reli big black ..um..sphere?..yup a sphere it is. But im so sad cos i just found out tht its too big to be wearing tht to school!! so ive gotta continue wearin this 'motocycle-shaped' ear stud until ive got enuff money to buy another one... Bumma
went home and crashed into bed and slept there foreva.

At da Pitz yet again

today was okay..we had our training and my timing was reli bad..id expected it to betta..but sindhu had ankle injury...and it got worse cos she persevered..she could have stopped but she didnt want..uve got such strong will sindhu!!! howeva pls pls take care..ur leg and health is very impt!!!Ying did well too!!! But i did reli bad..my timing was reli horrible..so i went home feelign rather bad..annd absolutely zonked..my eyes were half -closed i could even see my lashes

AND BTW!!! Luke is sitting beside me for some reason..i saw him sitting next to me this mornign where simon was supposed to be situated..argh! I sorta wished he hadnt cos for the past few days for a few hours when for some reason he came to sit beside me..he was emm..quite..irritating..its like im suddenly afraid to just say anything cos he'll suddenly come to my attention..and ask like yes?? duu need my help??..oh its like this bla blla lbla bla bla blabla ...
i mean its nice he's tryina help or nething but i just wana have some peace to myself!!! sometimes i just make a lil noise like thinking to myself bout something and stuff and he turns to me and asks yess??? bla bla bla bla...And i dared on open my mouth for the times he sat next to me..i reli reli wished he hadnt..cos sometimes i might be askin the other guy nx to me some question and he;ll think its for him and i wasnt even talkin to him for god's sake!!i reli reli wished he would stop being..emm..irritating..i reli reli wish he would just leave me alone for a day!!! i dun wana be mean or nething..i cant possibly tell him..hey pls go back to ur original place..cos it;ll be mean..!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELPPPPPPP somebody i need advice!!!! Britney asks me to just tell him to shut up cos she noes how irritating he is..in fact he;'s not reli popular..and perhaps im probably the only one who isnt mean to him..so he's doin this..But i guess its goin overboard!!!

from my window, the moon glows like a good dream. Gently glimmering behind the curtains..its hauntingly beautiful. the windows of e estates look like big glowing televison screens. the gold-ish orange street bulbs look blurrily beautfiful...
Heyy, that was pretty poetic...
or maybe it just sounds like the rantings of a nutter; i dont know.
Blame my sudden genius/nutter rantings on the fact that the speaker situated in front of me blasting the same jojo's song over and over again. Sis insisted.
And the fact that im in completely alerty-relaxed mode. writing whateva i see and whateva that comes to my mind.
well..i did my own mile-age training a while ago..just right before the sun faded..and all turned dark. there's this long stretch of un-obstructed pathway that hardly anyone walks..ull only see a wide-tarred road beside u..with cars whizzing pass u..
Im so afraid of turf city..its like there's this ball of curse which i cant step into lingering around turf city..esp the slope.. (0_0) ..I have to try to hit 16..but its soo difficult.

today was cool..but i kept thinkin bout it..i am totally clueless bout what i shd do next..Still reeling frm it. finalleh someone who could help..arabel..if the truth's spilled..evrything and i mean evrything..will turn topsy-turvy..like kaboom! and suddenly evrything u neva dreamed of happenin happens..nothing is real no more. its like a horrible nightmare tht u cant wake up from. well except, its no dream. I consulted arabel..she was reli supportive and told me abt what i shd do..cos she's quite close to us as in she noes my family background and stuff..well ive gotta admit..she's a very good comfort-er...its a blessing to have her as a friend.
today we had training..and evryone was slackin away..it was so funny..its like me breathless and worn out and at the brink of a collapse..walkin towards the playground they were chillin at n laffin away cos they started first and ended it fast..Deep down i felt like laffin cos it was such a contradictorial scene. but i only ran 6 real sloped..and 1 edited one...
Sis is sufferin from some kind of lung ache or sumfin..she cant train..and she's goin down..i noe how it feels..its like ur desperate to train but u cant..and den u watch urself go down. tht's freaky
Kewl day newayz...beautiful as alwayz..ill have to train harder to improve..i might wana do some mile-age tmr..

I hate chemistry practical. Im missin my lunch bcos of it..and now ive gotta rush of for training. L8erz

life will neva be the same again..not after this..not after id found out about this..i dont even noe how ill face it nemore..i cant live life like normal like nothing eva happened..and i cant say it..i cant eva say it..i can tell no one..only sis..i dont even noe what will happen when mum knows bout this..i dont even wana think about it..it'l be horrendous..my life's gona be shattered..I dont know what to do nemore..i cant pretend..i cant..not after what ive found out
Im not blaming dad..i cry the whole night..
I blame myself..for not showing enuf care for him..blame myself tht ive neva reli showed him tht i love him..tht he'd resort to tht..it was somehow me contributing to it..
our family's no longer the same...not as we were in the past..when i was young..and dad had to go to england for his scholarship for a long period..mum cried..dad sent her a lovely postcard with 'I love you's...and we missed dad ..and dad missed us..we were his lil angels..we drew our family..sis and me...with scrawny colorpencils...and he loved it and pasted it on his wall in england..
But that's all in the past..now evrything;s wrong..i feel different..this family..
when suparti was still around..life was amazing..i could tell her almost evrything when i was upset..now i need someone..to cry to..but she's gone. She's the only one who truly cared..she'll cry with me..console me..and ill give her a hug...
I have to stop crying or my tears will run out.

Yay! three cheers fer today. Its currently seven-ish on a monday evening. but i am totally pour-me-into-bed tired.
today was great..for me..cos durin training..id hit timings that ive neva hit before...1.2km..5.11sec was considered sumfin ill neva expect myself to hit. tht's the second set..i didnt clock my first. And durin 800m....i did 3. ...umm..cant remember..forget bout that..for the second set of 800..i did 3.11. another timing tht ive neva hit before..and third set was 3.18...yet another timing ive neva hit before in my previous trainings. But the 400m was pretty bad i think..i got like 78-80s which is not-so-good. Id hit 70s earlier last sat. ohyeh..but for the last set of 1.2..id completed only 800m (0_0)
Today;s Fab!!! I have the heating on..high as a kite. Good-ish day. I skipped home, I skipped home.

had to go for the SPH relay competition today..shikin, radhiyah, sis and I were a team for the 4 by 400m relay. i was the first runner..and my timing was 1.10 mins..okay..at least ive improved by a second compared to my race in the nationals last year. And guess wot..there was this girl..Claire whom i saw on tv in Channel Newsasia..there was a whole program about her..her life and stuff in school cos she was from UK and they were exploring into lives of foreigners livin in s'pore.. and I saw her on tv..she was from nanyang secondary..girl's school..Sarah's in it..And i saw sarah on that program too eating lunch with the claire..so tht's how i noe that claire noes sarah..And guess wot..i saw claire at the competition today..Durin the reporting thingy..claire sat beside sis and me..And we started talkin to her..and i asked her if she was on channel newsasia once..and she got a lil shy and smiled..So it reli was her...So i said,"u noe sarah teo rite?" and she said yea..she's very nice.sis was talkin to her..I guess claire's gona tell sarah tht she saw us..and sarah's gona be like..Yea!! they were my neighbours!!..and she's gona tell stephanie about it..and steph's gona gimme a call soon. And we had to run 4km after the race..and did 10 times of slope..I guess i liked today..at least im not disappointed today..Lovelytuloso.
Sophie was there again today..the sports school..as usual..the sports school did well..they got second out of the other schools..the schools that attended today were the reputable schools like Cedar..St.nicholas..no neighbourhood schools today...Like YTSS..okay..our school isnt any ordinary neighbourhood school rite?? we're the RI of the North..we're quite reputable :D

i went to watch spongebob squarepants the movie ytd..and it was soo groovy. Its soo hilarious and cute and unique! newayz..we went to eat den shop after the whole thing...went to try on cosmetics on ourselves lol..and i bought a brown eyeliner..britney doesnt noe how to put it on properly and made me look like racoon. k..gtg now..ive got loads of stuff to do. btw..im goin to a restaurant tonight. Perfecto.

training today was tiring..scorching sun again
had to rush for chem practical..and the chemicals were rather dangerous..
a lil blotch of chemical went onto wy's lil finger..and somehow it became raw flesh in no second.
ANd Funny MunYeng..spilled some acid onto her hand..and im not sure why she wana neutralize it..and added alkili onto her hand..And her hand hurt instantly....She could have just rinsed her hand under running water :
and matilda was sitting beside me durin the titration practical and she keeps laffin ova evry single lil detail and it makes me laff as well..Matilda is so funny..her actions and evrything when she cracks a joke is hilarious..she;s tryina be like Wy..but she ends up bein funnier..

aright..mm..the first day of the march holidays..and ive been busy as hell..earlier this mornin i had to rush off for training..and the weather was scorching hot..sis was sick and she had to only run 400m to get herself woozy for an hour at least...but rauf still wanted her to train..and she couldnt take it..for a change i was running alone..doin my own timings and stuff cos jean didnt reli wana train..too tiring she says..and i was left to run on the track myself..somehow i prefer it tht way..there isnt much pressure..but my timings were still icky
then i had to rush off for my biology lesson at 1am..bored myself for 3 hours..we had practical and stuff..miss emily tow totally cant resist screaming..its in her genes..she has to scream at evry single detail..it pisses pple off. Hell. Bio is borin beyond boring..
there's chemistry practical tmr..im gona miss out on so much cos i cant attend training..or ill just have to rush ova to training after tht..but it might be too late...I reli hope she got my practical bk tht day..eek..ill be dead meat if she didnt receive it..

Im feeling like some total failure..I can neva revert back to when i was in sec2...when sis neva beat me..and priscilla lost to me in x-country..what luck..i couldnt run durin the impt race though durin tht year..cos i got sick all of a sudden..it reli hit me cos i reli wanted to win..but eva since i entered B division..in sec 3..I lost to evrybody..i became like such a failure..if i could eva perform like how i performed in sec 2 itll be a great miracle..but i always thot if i trained harder..i could get back like last time..but training for 1 and a half years..and striving so hard and not givin up..Im still like this. And finalleh..i give up..i know i am destined to lose..destined to be like this..like this..Im always tryin so hard i faint alwayz..I totally give up..its just fated..im not destined to eva win anything neva achieving anything..when i had high hopes in sec 2 i got sick..thot i could get back in sec 3..but neva neva neva..neva could get back. I wana break down and cry..I totally give up on myself..
durin the competition today howeva..i told god tht i gave up..im alwayz ending up disappointed and upset after evry competition..but today..at least til i got to the upslope part..i was running together with shikin, radhiyah and zakiyah..and i thot i could do it finalleh..but no..after the end of the slope i lost them ..i was so tired..and at the last stretch..Amanda caught up with me..That was the last straw..amanda did lesser trainings than me but still was ahead..she was good. And e moment i stepped across the finishing line..I blacked out like i neva had before..I could feel the rocks beneath me slashing across my leg as i fell but i could feel no pain and couldnt see nething..i could only hear..and some pple came ova and carried me..but i kept falling like a dead person..so they had no choice but to carry me onto a stretcher..i could hear em talk..i heard amanda's voice beside me...beside the stretcher i was lyin on..and the medical pple askin repeatedly if i was ok..but i didnt have the strength to answer..i felt water being splashed on me..pple tryina revive me or probably cool me down..I kept tryina reach for amanda and she kept askin 'what' but i couldnt answer i just held onto her hand while she squatted next to my stretcher..and i heard Rauf's voice..askin if i was ok..but i couldnt see nething..finalleh..i could open my eyes..and saw pple's faces..i got up but got reli dizzy and almost fell again but amanda held onto me..Rauf urgin amanda to hold onto me..
And that was it..and i felt pain..for the first time..where id felt the rocks..there were slashes and Bleeding wounds..got hurt when i fainted and hit the ground..
And i was soo upset..i totally give up..i was so lousy..my timing was horrid..it was the timing when i usually run reli slow deliberately durin my trainings..it was soo horrible..evryone was happy..smiling..but i had no right to be happy..No right to feel alright..I wanted to be alone..I just kept staring at the ground not wanting to do anything..i just wanted to fall into a deep sleep.
durin the bus trip..i didnt wana talk i just stared out the window while evryone chatted happily bout the race..the C girls did reli well..they got 5th..quite near to the target

Oh Bog it. ive been soo horribly crammed up with schedules and assignments lately..plus trainings and stuff..bad news..training on thursday was horrible ..i just did 3 slopes..slow ones and i did e technicolor yawn (vommitted) three times in a row..i cant blieve how much id dropped..and tmr's competition is gona be pantz. Ok, ready to die.
holidays..nx week..not fer us though we're all packed with extra lessons
and id seen the eye doctor today..he says i dont need any surgery..that got me kind of miffed. Id wanted it..i didnt like how my lashes were curling i wanted it to curl normally downwards. The previous doctor id seen said i needed one. So now..dad's not gona pay for that surgery.
but its k..at least i get to wear my contacts again..or ill have to throw it away.
Im so tired..ive been out for half the day just walkin around..bought a pair of pink Nike sports shoes..went to eat Gold Rush (name of e ice-cream) at swensens. And i ate prata and curry noodles at suntec city. Thats alot : . Fortunately..im not the type tht gets fat easily so i dont have to bother bout gaining gravitational forces on myself. Im soo beat now i cant wait to crash into my pillow. Bonne nuit. Nighty-Night. Hope the bedbugs dont bite.

I luv track. Track rox my sox. And evrybody in track are the greatest pple there is on earth..even rauf. Esp the juniors, sindhu, joanne, krystal fanli, lihao..etc. ,eva since theyve joined track..track has become such a gr8 thing..evryone becomes so supportive of each other and bcos of em..evrybody worked hard together with em..evrybody grew stronger.
i received a letter from sindhu this morning and it was the sweetest thing in the whole wide world..i almost cried in public..It was the most touching thing eva. its like..evryone's been so supportive of one another its such a touching thing..
durin the x-country today..we had to wear our jerseyz..forced to..and we saw radhiyah shikin and others and we were so glad to see em and wished em well and good luck..they were reli sweet too. And b4 the race near the starting line...Mr. Rauf came to us to give us encouragement..he patted us on the back..which he has neva done b4..and through all that stress and stuff...i was reli touched he came to us and assured us and stuff...
when the race started..we ran and stuff..when radhiyah went past sis she patted her on the back like a kind of encouragement..its like evryone of us would do that to each other to encourage one another..that was so sweet
newayz..the sun was scorching hot..i was totally roasting..i didnt train for like a week so my stamina went down alot i guess cos i did the worst i eva did..if im not wrong..19 minutes..but i got a fourth neway..i was reli upset though..during the prize presentation..shikin and the otherz were cheering...they were so awfully sweet..and the usual first and second mostly went to the track members..so thts a good thing..And sindhu did reli well even though she had a serious ankle injury..she was hurtin so much after the whole thing..She's awesome. i totally admire ur spirit Sindhu!! it was such a gr8 thing that the top 5 in the lvl came from track..fanli, krystal, lihao, sindhu and joanne..they were soo great!!
And tmr..we're gona give rauf a surprise bday party..evryone will celebrate it its gona be a big thing..
Track's awesome!

today's such a gr8 day..arabel, sis and me had been workin hard on writing lil letters to all our track mates since friday..and we gave em out today..but b4 tht..arabel as usual was at our home..and she specially gave sis and me each one too..that was so sweet..but we had to read it at night..just like the others..we tied the letters with pink strings..gave it to evryone we loved..our mates...amanda somehow peeped when she was supposed to read it at night..cos she came to me and said she was reli touched by what each of us wrote to her. we even gave it to shikin zakiyah..those few..Sindhu and Krystal werent there so we couldnt give it to em..

and evryone gathered to sign the humongous card we made for rauf..evryone in track..so there was like a big crowd..i guess rauf suspected something cos evryone got reli crazy and chaotic when he came near the crowd..we kept running away from him..carried the card here and there..and finalleh he asked what was goin on..and we told him we were playin catching. LOl. What a cheezy xcuse

we had training today at the stadium and we did intervals..i did badly..again..and got my lower back hurt. I cant even bend a lil. then we went shopping to shop for rauf's pressie. his bday's near. and we spent like..2 and a half hours just walking and browsing round...my legs were soo horribly tired. they wanted to browse for more stuff so arabel suggested i go home cos i needa take a rest..cos my eyes werent too good. yea..and i badly needed it. My legs and lower back felt like they were gona break any moment. fortunately i went home or id have to walk for another hour or two.
To evryone in track: good luck for the X-country on monday :D

I went to do my own training durin ytd's evening..and this morning evryone was preparing for tuesday's x-country...its kinda intimidating actually..i totally can't lose to any other CCA groups..Rauf's gona be so mad..and ive gotta hit the timing..so today..arabel sis and i went to do our own personal training in the gym. Sweaty guyz of evry shape and size were in there..and the air-con was blasting..so u could pretty well imagine the stench.
I had my Chinese Oral today..i spoke awkwardly..but i guess i did okay..better than the other times : Luke was being absolutely weird..as always..He was before me and i was sitting behind him lookin at one of the passages and it was his turn..and The examiner gently asked him to sit at the one of the steps on the stairs to relax a lil..and he went there and buried his head in his hands..the examiner saw that look on my face and smiled..indicating tht she was thinking the same way as i was. She was so nice..but at the same time..she was probably laughing silently to herself as i torture her with my brokened mandarin.
okay so our english and combined humanities results have not yet been known..the other 6 subjects ...im pretty satisfied with em i guess...Its the best so far throughout my four years in secondary education. : so far..my average is 82.5714 % ..I hope ill get tht for GCE. Yea i wish. But i reli reli hope i dont do badly for that exam or my future could probably be ruined..i wana enter into a good JC so i can enter a university. I hope i can :

so the redness is not related to the previous cornea ulcer..its just some lashes pricking onto one of my capillaries..and it broke..and there was blood..thats why my eye seemed blood red. i guess the blood'll go away some days later.. the doctor advised me to go for an operation. cos ive got weird growing lashes..they grow skywards instead of downwards..and that has been the root of both eye problems..so ive gotta go for some cosmetic operation to cut some flesh below my eye..and pulling the lid down so the lashes will go the correct way..

my eyes turned red all of a sudden since yesterday..id thot it would be temporary since my eye was on its way to recovery..but i woke up with that redness again..the red patch is bigger now..and its a lil pale yellow in color ..its very scary. so im goin to see a doctor today. I hope it isnt nething too bad :S

we went to the parliament today..its a place where ministers make laws and amend laws of singapore..so most of the ministers are there...we had to go through many security checks and stuff..and when we went into the parliament..it was dead quiet..we had to bow to some minister sitting at the biggest red chair b4 entering the parliament..and there were many ministers there..most i didn't recognise..the speaker was talkin bout some business policy thingy..it was soo boring..those ministers have been sitting there the whole day..must have been torture..and when we left we had to bow again..and we went into another sound proof room where we wouldnt disturb the ministers..and the guy in charge of the visitors was saying who would usually sit at which row..(i.e. the prime ministers or impt ministors sit at the front row)..and it was den that arabel nudged me and told me that the prime minister was sitting just there..i couldnt believe tht we were sitting that close to him..it was reli him there...ive watched him on tv often and stuff but neva reli in real life. the ministers could walk in and out of the parliament as and when they want but they have to bow and stuff. And then there was this particular men that walked in..he was so tall and he bowed... id forgotten to bring my glasses then so couldnt see clearly..his figure was like the ex prime minister's..Mr. Goh..so i borrowed valerie's specs..and it reli was the ex prime minister..it was a reli cool xperience..xcept for the part when i almost fell..and i screamed by accident and it was kinda scary cos evryone had to remain so quiet..and we couldnt help but giggle reli hard softly..

okay..my tagboard is down at e moment..
im still thinkin bt the x-country..its so scary
im gona train on thursday...im gona do my own intervals
and the principle announced that we would be released early tmr at 10.10 am..
cos the GCE results were reli good..its a time of celebration ..and he even checked the eather forecast this morning and it was predicted there was gona be rain..so he cancelled the whole well being day and the school cheered like there's no tmr..even one of e PMLCs was clapping his hands merrily..
and Mr rau suggested we sing the school song together for like a kind of celebration..and evryone cheered and sang their hearts out..evryone was practically screaming the song
and matilda and I were laffin like there's no tmr..cos we think the school's gettin funny.