Heyall!

friday's BBQ was so hot!!!

I totally love my class. Its the best class of the century.

though i went home at midnight and mom and dad werent exactly too happy abt..and well its alot u noe..walkin on the dark remote path home...except for the fact that Muji waited at the bustop for me to walk me home.

Ive loved my class more than ever. Alycia was so kind to have allowed us to use her house her parents are so nice and so is her maid..well apart from the fact that nette and her kept amusin themselves by my panicks or gullible-ity.
I mean they can trick real well..world's famous tricksters in the making.
Even lauren got tricked herself.

and they are so funy tht i peed in my FBT shorts. I enjoyed spending time with em lol cos they are so funy

geez the guyz even prepared this sotong thats sorta blackish..and they claim that its reli nice and its specially for me. HAH! nasty lil tricksters. But i Oh smarty one was not tricked this time. So i offered it to jeff since he'd claimed tht it was awesome. He happily took it...but walked over to the dustbin..tilted the plate near his mouth. So well..the thing dropped into the dustbin instead of his mouth and he went 'yum yum'-ing happily. How very extraordinary.

Eelin was so cool!! she offered to lend me her fone that day and it was alot of help..and her comforts and stuff :D

geez and we climbed the monkey bars and they were omg high. i had to squeeze myself through those tiny holes. Argh.

OoOOOOOOOOOOOOOO yay!!! im in the water bucket(shui tong) gang!!! and my number is five.

its an all girls gang haha. UNlike the Aneh gang with aly and nette and jeff and yx.
Mwaha

But i left withot tellin anyone of em cos i knew i had to be pushed into the pool b4 i leave. And that would mean like throwing me into volcano soup since i was in enuff trouble alrdi from my parents. I totally regretted that..to just leave without sayin goodbye.

But it went well..my mom understood the situation. haha so i was not scolded thank god.

Okay shucks someone called me and i missed the call. That is so saddening cos i was happily typing away here. Argh!!

right if i had some kind of time turner..id go back in time and tell my nervous self to stop wasting adrenaline. Cos well...it isnt all comfy..as in..sofa comfy sorta comfy...to have adrenaline pumped into u evry now and den.

So i got 12th position!!! I totally thought i was gona get last or something. But its reli kewl. Im so happy. I neva thot id get into top 20. Cos i am as weak as a corpse ever since ive stepped down from track. Since im not the natural runner sort...Im only run-able when I train like there's no tomorow almost evry single day.

And now that track's pretty much gone..Ive gotta train myself..which turned out pretty okay.

Yay my trophy!!

Trophy shelf is full as u can tell..I have to put my new trophy on the study table which will so disrupt my studies. Okay this is the truth im not braggin or mayb i am.

I mean how in the world do teachers operate their minds.

A test the day after x-country?! wow thats totally awesome.
SOOOO NOT!

Im so zonked out here..i dont think my brain can crack anymore. Not like an eggshell of course.

I love 1t19. Its the kewlest class of the century

But cya xox ive gotta study.

geez its jeeper creepers. as in..its reli scary..as in reli creepy..well not in that hair-raising sorta creepy..but yea..u get it dont u

Bcos tmr..there's a x-country and its super intimidating for me. Like there's tons im worried abt..whether ill stop..or ill giv up...or whateva..all i wana do is my best.

I mean how can i get so troubled over this issue when orangutans out there in indonesia are sufferin from lack of homes...

When there are mudslides and pple are suffocating to deaths..or bears bein skinned alive in china..or dogs bein tortured.

How can I? Call me selfish. Blargh!

I should be more concerned about the world and stop worryin abt trivial issues concerning myself. Right thats so it.

okay so like that x-country tmr? AH piece of cake. What the hell am i nervous for..i should pray for the people who are sufferin instead of praying for myself (this is me tryina convince myself)

erm..well..i cant exactly say im not nervous at all bcos i reli am. woteba..i hope i dont get last or faint and collapse at the finish line in front of a thousand people just like how i alwayz do after a x-country run...Cos itll be super embarassing...cos evryone will make a big hooha over my fainting bcos many of em are not in track and they do not noe thats common.

Like the prev school x-country? yea i collapsed...Like evry other time..and pple were talkin abt it. How i was fainting bla bla

I think i reli will collapse like evry other time. I so will. And den ill be the most embarassing figure to eva roam this planet.

so there.

blahs

ACJC funo rama was..well..'erm'-y

As in..if someone were to ask me how it was...id say..'erm'. SO it was erm-y

and apart from that..it got me a major headache all day. Cos' of the hordes of pple..and all that thinkin abt what to eat for lunch cos the stuff were like tres tres tres tres superbly superbly superbly expensive.

A tiny bowl of baked rice cost 3 dollars..this lil bear cost 100 dollars..this tiny bowl of curry cost 5 dollars. this plate of tasteless plain rice cost 2 dollars. this lil cup of ergh-y oreo pulp was 3 dollars

All we wanted to do was spend evrything as fast as we could and leave that place. I almost died of a head and sweat pore explosion. Oh yea and did i mention?..it was darn stuffy and hot too.

Tests all ova again. There's alwayz a test evry week. The tchers unfortunately are cruel and u can just imagine their lil snickers and evil cackles.

Unfortunately..there's also a x-country event on tues. Which is kinda fustratting for me. and yea why's that?!

Bcos if im not gona get top 20 or if i stop half way..im gona go like..arghy-hell-im-sad sorta upset thingy
and mr issac lim will be all..i told u to train. And itll juz make me sadder.

though i worked out and all..im not exactly hardworkin. But im glad. Im starting to see some muscles there on my calf like those track days

Its been sad these days. People around me are gettin depressed and sufferin more often.

wy was sufferin from severe depression like id neva seen her before...i mean..she even cried and fainted at home twice.
and another of my fren..who's isolating herself bcos she doesnt wana face the world anymore..and im afraid to remind her of her Os when i call her to comfort her.
Celeste was crying the other days too.
I was upset quite lately too..
and all of that started from since we got our O lvl results

Some of us have lightened up..some of us havent

i have actually. But i was mad at my family. Nobody bothered abt how i felt. Until Muji spoke to em in private and threatened that if they were to scream at me or beat me cos of my O results...she'd not continue to work. Its nt just only tht.

When she told me tht. I was pretty upset. Even an outsider..someone who'ss only been with me for 2 years could understand how i was feeling. Yet my parents who's been with me for 17 years could not. SO their sudden okay-ness to me was caused by an outsider and not becos of their sudden realization that they were hurtin me so much.

If they'd actually did wat they wanted to do that night b4 muji stopped them...i would have left home. I really would. I would run out of home. I totally would have. Id make em regret what they did. Id hate em for life. For not realizing what i was goin thru and pushin me to the brink of woteba-ness

till now..they still do not understand how much they've hurt me. They've hurt me more than anyone else in the world and they still do not know. I wish i could yell at em now. Make them regret what they did. but i guess evrything's fine now. Thanks to Muji. And i shd learn to be forgiving

Hi u guyz xox

So well im havin ths big migrain or whateva u spell it as if a thousand norty goblins in hobnailed boots are prancing around my big head.

well guess what?! IM staying in CJ!!!! what a surprise!!
aha. not.

well i reli wanted to go IJ...but then again i couldnt resist T19. But i was dyin to be with weiyu and sis and peiyu and all the others.

but well..God spoke to me. Bcos i asked him where i should go. And he's very good at riddles. It took me 24 hours to figure out what he meant just in time before the registration thingy closed at 4

This is the first time he's talking to me!!! Here's how it went

i was lying on my bed and was reli fed up with my choices..when i tried praying.
So i imagined a scenario. That God was sitting beside me. I do that most of the time so tht i can concentrate better in my prayers.
But somehow after i asked whether i shd go to IJ or CJ, my imagination took on a life of its own. with God turnin to me and I clearly heard the words, " Look at your life"

Thats when i got startled. and i was like huh?! Was that you God? Did u just say that? And thats when i felt that peaceful thingy...that feeling like ur flying...and god usually givs me tht feeling as a form of a nudge.

So that reli was him. But how the hell does 'look at ur life' have anything to do with my JC choices.

But i got sleepy and decided to figure it out by the nx day. Well in school...i was clearly confused and fed up with my choices. i reli didnt noe which to take and the time was gona be up at 4. I was clearly depressed and stuff..but my classmates were sooo awesome. Eelin was so supportive she prayed for me and stuff.

id forgotten abt tht whole look-at-your-life thingy. but it wasnt until durin chem tut that i rmbed abt tht. And i was cracking my brains.

And thats when i figured it out.

Before i entered CJ, i asked god to be with me and stuff...and true enough i was lookin at the wonders of my Cj life. It was awesome. God worked miracles in my CJ life. He meant to look at my life.. as in currently. Esp how much i love my frenz in CJ.
And i firgured tht it wasnt like i wasnt gona see weiyu or sis anymore.

SO i made my choice den and stayed in CJ. And i felt so much better.
if it hadnt been for god, i would not have known what to do den. Thank God :D

Hey this is my class pic.

Hi

Hey u guyz

thank u so much for those tags. No it wasnt draggy at all..i treasured all ur msgs so much xox.
I am so lucky to have so many wonderful frenz like all of u. U guyz are the best in the world. whateva it is...the smses, letters or woteba. I treasured evry single one of them thnk u so much xxx

im feeling a lil better now. Ive not been talking to God for a reli long time so it feels weird. I guess ive looked at things with an open-mind. I hope to speak to him agen.

But ytd...Nothing turned out so well...in fact it was the same as the day i found out my results.

My parents were dissing me...they were accusing me all sorts...how Hateful i am and telling me how much they hate me and how terrible i reli am... They've been doin it for quite some time.

Infact...they've been doin this since my prelim results were out. At first...i thot it was gona be temporary....this horrible treatment from my family. whateva they said hurt me alot..i wished theyd stop. Bcos i was starting to believe what they said. I kept telling myself i was the worst person in the whole planet bcos evryone thinks so. I hated myself bcos my parents told me they hate me. I could neva look at my life with a positive attitude bcos i knew i was the worst girl to eva walked this planet...i am nothing good. But i thot this was gona be temporary....I kept holdin on to this day.....When i thot God would help me with my Os....since he was the one who was with me the whole of the exam....

And den i realized...it was gona be permanent. All the dissing..all the curses..all the scoldings. Bcos it turned out my Os wasnt as good as id expected.

it came agen...all the stuff poured out from their mouths. I just stood there...and allow em to accuse me for evrything....Dad even said if i dont stop havin all the bad habits...Ill be out of the family. But i went out and shop only after I completed my Os....They didnt see the side when i was burning the midnight oil evry single night for those past few months. They didnt mention how hard i worked. They knew i worked hard. Bcos b4 the results were out....They were the one who told me i had done my best. Whateva i get...just be happy about it.

But instead of comforting me....They scolded me...cursed me. They werent like tht before. All they care about is results. They didnt care how hard i worked.

I was sufferin so much these past few months...How squashed i was bcos they kept squashing my pride...my evrything....tht i cry evry night in my bed...and wonder why do they do this to me? why torture me this way? I suffer from so much bcos i hate myself for what they wanted me to believe i am. That im a good for nothing....Im not good enough for the family...that im the worst grandaughter their family has eva got.

Until ytd, i could take it no longer....For the first time, instead of running to my room to do the crying....I broke down in front of them. Evrything i felt flooded out. I yelled and screamed. WHy do u hate me so much. WHy torture me this way. Evrytime i stand up from a fall...u guyz push me to the ground again and make it all worse. Why do this to me?


and thats when i ran to my room. And i cried in bad hiccups. I spoke to weiyu on the fone...bcos i could not take it any longer...she was crying too.

But i guess eva since that yelling....Mom suddenly stopped the scoldings...i guess she suddenly realized what they were doin to me. They were clueless all along...how bad they were treating me. Until the yellings. She felt hurt i could tell. Hah!

All they eva did since i fell durin prelims was cursing and dissing at me...and only praises for Sis. Whateva sis has done wrong....they push the blame to me. They say im the one...when i knew all along it was sis doin it...Sis tried to say it was her too...but all they do is...'No its shufen, i know it.'

But what could i do. I just walked back to my room and ponder upon what they say. Ive been doin this for so long.

But i guess since ytd, my parents have lightened up. Which is a good thing.

I was sufferin from so much depression ytd that I had a terrible migrain and I vomitted for no apparent reason at all.

I even told sis that i was not gona talk to them anymore. They;ve inflicted too much hurt on me. But a talk with Arch made me lighten up as well.

Which is good. So im feeling better now. NO more terrible depression. Though a lil sadness. But its better than a total depression hopeless case.

im juz destined to be stupid arent I?

I studied so hard when pple like esther didnt study at all..and get scholarships.

I had so much hope..i held on to this moment bcos id thot this moment would change evrything...i kept holdin onto faith.

Im juz so wrong. Life is so meaningless...ill nvr do anything right.

im destined to be a failure..i noe it its in my bones ..im born to do this..to fail.

i took a nap to forget evrything but when i woke up...i lay in bed and peeked in between my bolsters to watch the trees sway towards the evening breeze and im back to reality. No it was not a nightmare its real. for an hour..i lay on my bed..like a dead corpse gazin into space and at the sky. Its horrible

And its like its sinking into u. like nothing will eva be right agen. Bcos if i worked so hard and get such results...it makes me wonder what i can do right in life. My As will be much worse. Suddenly..life seems so bleak. Its so void of hope.

Previously after the Os...i had so much hope and faith. The only thing that kept me going was that. i thot i was gona do well..i thot god would help..thought he could see my efforts

But no. if i worked so hard and got such terrible results...how am i ever gona cope with any challenges in life agen. Nothing will ever be right again. it made no difference from prelim. Im sick of guessing

Suddenly..evrything seems to be in a horrible whirl..like uve just got urself caught in a twister and u cant get out of it. Im never gona be a doctor like how i wanted to since i was young. Id longed to have the ability to save pple's lives...esp in the third world countries and to provide free treatment. i cant im too stupid to do anything like dat anymore.

And ive not prayed abt anything at all cos i dont know if God's gona be here with me ever agen.

in the hall..i broke down and cried..i couldnt believe it...at all. I reli couldnt believe what i was seeing. I guess ms ng could tell from my expression and she said she;ll speak to me afterwards. She's so nice.

I felt bad for the pple comforting me..so i tried to stop crying bcos i don wana trouble em. Mdm Jo was so awesome. She made me cry more cos i was so touched.
Mr fong too. I was so touched by what he said...he was sharing his life's experience...he said he was goin to see me holding a university cert five years down the row. He was so awesome. Yea he made me cry more too.
And mr sim and all...And mr rauf he was so awesome he offered help and stuff..all the teachers in AI are awesome...im so touched.

And im so touched by arabel and what she said about joining track with me to appeal into AJ. She's an awesome fren. And simying, sindu and amanda. and evryone else. I love u guyz. Im crying now.

evrything was in a whirl in the hall...pple were crying..cheering...And i jst wanted to be alone. and i kept asking why. Why this? where have i gone wrong. I dont even noe where im going from here. I reli dont. Ive forgotten how to walk on. i dont even noe what im supposed to do now. why this

Hey u guyz

this is soo it.

Ive been waiting for this day since i started breathing properly on 18th nov 2005

indeed, What brother Paul said was true...this is gona be like one of the most impt day of our lives

And im so touched when brother paul told us he'd pray for us and stuff..what he said reli was soo what i needed.

I love brother paul.

He's like this big ol' kind big hearted Bear for u to hug and cry to when u need help.

OH NO..i dono what will happen if i get bad results. i wana get at least 10!!

if i dont..ill cry soo much. And not bcos i cant get into the jc of my choice either. But bcos i reli worked sooo hard...i knew i tried my best. and if i dont get the result of my choice....ill nvr try hard agen bcos it just proofs that no matter how hard i study..ill nvr get there. And i will feel like such a total failure ill nvr wana step out of my room for a hundred days.

I don even wana think about it. i just dono what will happen. This is soo crazy.

I mean im so tired..i just went out with t19 agen. I love this class....I reli do. Its like the best clas of my life.

And oopz..bio tcher treated me as if i owed him a living today.

Bye bye u guyz. Good luck to evryone out there!!!!!!!!!!!!

gym mania

Just a minute ago,
i was in the condo's gym. So well..nuffin much right?.

I mean..yea id set my mind to do the chemistry thingy..but u noe how the mind wanders off sometimes that id actually went to the extent of doin something id given up on since that very fateful (or just another one of my exaggerations) day.

well yea..i dont exactly keep my words...not especially to e words that i made to myself. Like yea..that time when i told myself i was neva running anymore.

Sumhow..Chemistry forced me to. pretty impressive huh?

well yea i ran..but boy was i slow. under the scorching sun and all. But yea..i couldnt take that lying down. The slow-ness of my pace i mean. So id actually went into the GYM.

but yea..and guess what? i mean the nx thing i knew when i went across that glass door was well...me sitting on one of the equipements doin my exercises in the gym with my primary school teacher and her husband.

so well...it was pretty bizzare. I mean workin out with your primary school teacher and her husband. She's awfully nice though.

but when i got to the running machine?...i thot i heard a snortle comin from her husband. like tht sorta laugh ur tryina surpress. and thats when i knew why he was laughing..id been all too unfamiliar with the machine tht i kept pressing that speed up button tht i suddenly found myself sprinting..and i was tryina stop. So i was sprinting. On a jogging machine.

I mean yea i was embarrassed and all. But i got on to other stuff...so i was workin out alot. so well..i guess i shd be back to chemistry. *yawns*

meh, the result's comin out. its like 'The Day after Tomorrow'. Funny how tht particular phrase has the name of that End of the World Movie.

This is so nerve wrecking for me. :S
PLs God...help me do well.

Right. Im having egg white stuck to my face now so my face is now as stiff as plastic...and not like plastic bag either. I cant laugh or ill get wrinkles...i mean i soo do not want wrinkles on all ova my face at like the age of 17? so presently..im tryin not to think about hilarious stuff which is difficult bcos the more u dont wana do it..the more it comes to u. Which is freaky dont u think? like when u don wana salivate to affect the medication on ur ulcer but it just keeps doin it.

Funny how naughty my body is. It doesnt wana obey my wants.

Eat my brain with a spoon.

People are alwayz so fascinated with twins. Like ytd?..i had like an avalanche of questions about my life as a twin.
I get questions like, 'how does it feel like to have someone in this world looking exactly like u?'

erm normal. Bcos im born like tht.

And i alwayz get those sorta twin dramas. IN schools especially...im alwayz lookin forward to those. Like when this teacher teaches both my sis's and my class, something funny's bound to happen. id get like...I swear id just saw u in the nx class a second ago. and i would wana try keeping shut about about it so that the teacher'll think something's wrong with his eyeballs he needs an eye transplant so he'll have to take MC and the class will get free periods.

Unfortunately...people just cant click with ur noble intentions...so even before i could say anything...evryone in the class would go..SHE"S GOT A TWIN. SO they'll alwayz spill the beans and ruin my devious plans and ill trip over nasty beans tht act like rollers.

And its fun watching teachers arguing about whose class i belong to. I mean it happened before..until i had to break it to em...that i have a twin and my twin is in the other teacher's class.

And of course there are embarrassing moments...like when sis and I was new to this church?...and this lady announced our name...and realized we looked the same...and realized we're twins...And evryone got curious and requested for us to stand cos evryone wanted to study us...And how embarrassing it was cos i had a wardrobe malfunction then. And pple were cheerin like 'ohh yea we have our first pair of twins!!! '
perhaps also cheerin at how big my butt looked than it actually is in that pair of khakis.

I mean evryone has their wardrobe-malfunction days...so why me.

And when i was young...it was awfully irritating when lil ignorant kids would stare at us as if we were from planet Z. Or crying to their mamas in fright and pointing their lil fingers at us bawling 'those two girls look the same booohoo'

SO life as a twin isnt exactly all a bed of roses. Though i must agree that u are soo right to be envious of me bcos bein a twin is sooo coool.

Hey i just found out that the O lvl results will be released on friday and there will be a 6 day holiday!!!! IN CASE U DONT KNOW.

So we'll only have to go back to school on thursday. Which is trule awesome. COS guess what? The econs test on the first set of notes falls next monday!!!

anyway..alot of our classmates got ill today..whether its flu or headache or sore throat or woteba. take care u guyz xoxo

and gd luck this friday ;) (gd luck to myself too)

I honestly..do not know what ill do if i do not get the desired grade i want. I sooo cant score badly.

This post is like so redundant. anyway...their planning to go out agen tmr...but im not too sureee.

Pool is the most boring game in the entire universe!!! or so i fink.

so perhaps during out 6 day holiday...we'll have time to hang out!! which is gona be soo fun!!

so well..hey ive been eating yusheng for the THIRD time.

and my fair share of sharks fin soup..for the ..not-sure th (it just means for the infiniteth) time.

and all of that happened yesterday cos i was at this big family feats in this big restaurant where they have all the lobsters, crayfish, abalone, sharksfin, scallop, mussels, chocolate fountain, steaks, dorey fillet...bla bla bla bla bla bla u name it..the list goes on.

its no wonder why my tummy bloated to a good ol' balloon size. but since my skin is very much non-elastic, i felt like my skin was goin to tear and explode.

and if it reli does explodes...ill fly around the shopping center just like how an inflating balloon would when its air is released.

Oh no..den itll be complete mayhem in the shopping center and the next day ill have my fair share of the front page. Human Teen girl flies and bounces around shopping center.

unfortunately..u didnt see tht in the newspapers in the morning..
so none of that happened.

So much for fame and stardom.

That reminds me..ive got tons of homework yet again. and its a surprise why im not getting nervous. Mayb im still in tht chingay mood.

AAND OH WHAT THE HELL!!! i have just realized that im supposed to keep my essay in the 350 word limit. WHEN Ive only just written the other side of the story and i have not yet state my stand and its alredi 355 words!!!

Im starting to wonder how i survived writing a 350 word limit essay cos its wayyyy tooo short!!! perhaps im too used to the 500-600 word GP essay tht suddenly writing a 350 worded essay becomes a total painful experience.

wait a min..i wrote a 1000 words for my previous essay. when im supposed to keep it within 600 words!!! im so dead i dono when the hell is the stoopid econs test.

Hey u guyz xox

1t19 rocks to the very core of the center of planet earth!!!!

Its gona be such a totally sad experience on the day when we have to split

the night scene is totally gorgeous.

we went to watch Fun with Dick and Jane and it was sooo funny!!! den we went to the park outside istana...it was getting dark den and we had fun taking fotographs and stuff!!! And the chingay procession was goin on. Geez..the goodie bags are gorgeous i want one too :(

And guess what we actually did??!! we took off our shoes and actually stepped into the water thts for like decoration..like for the fountain thingy and those. and took funny fotos with them!!!

i mean we did all the wacky stuff

and well some other group across the big statue was yelling like for fun and the jeff, how, and yx were like playing alot of fool talking about how small their balls are thts impossible to play water polo with em like how the girls requested. (ouch)

And there's this mental guy who walked past us and stared at us..like he wanted to pick on us.

Geez..the guyz were tempted to do something funny with him..but oh well.

Unfortunately..i cant turn up for pool tmr :( IM SO TOTALLY SAD!!!! Ive gotta make it to tmr's family buffet

im sooo tired but i loved today.

the pics are with celeste so i cant post em up until she gets em loaded in the cd.

xoxo

Haha okay im so fine now.

bla bla bla im so tired but there's bio test tmr. Kill me now

btw, check out our class blog the pics are up. :DDDD

thanks to celeste for bein such a wonderful photographer :D

here!!

shuckz

Im so depressed and i dono wazzit all about.

it was nuffin big. it was just some silly run

but it made me feel horrible. and i cant help recalling all my horrid failures.

i feel like the biggest failure on earth..like the world hates me when deep down i noe its not true but something at the back of ur head huants u.

even my mom was sayin how useless i am and how wonderful sis was cos i didnt greet her when i came home..but i was just upset.

And how ever since i lost my hp and my wallet..my dad's been biased against me. Why am i such a failure. How did i lost such impt stuff.

why cant i eva be good for once. why cant i eva be good at all.

Bcos i lost two important things and im still sufferin now..i have no ez link card and IC i have to save up on food to pay for them.

and u think evryone hates u when uve got so many wonderful friends. and its all ur sad imagination. I dont even noe what im sad at. But i just lie on bed and bury my face in the pillows.

why is this happening. I wana get out of this. Its just me and my depression..i brought this upon myself its nobody's fault...Becos its all my big imagination..nothing is happening at all but u still feel like the worst person in the world.
im such a big brained

nothing is happening at all so why do i feel like this!

when pple are grieving over dead relatives and pple who die in natural disasters.

im so depressed I feel so nausea evryttime i think abt it. all the bad stuff keeps flashing into my mind. my tummy suddenly hurts from over excitement and it aint the happy sort either. peristalsis i guess.

Ill get out of this soon. It happens sometimes its temporary. but e feelin is horrid.

heyz

So i tried ODAC out today and the people were awesome

but im going to have to say that im never ever ever EVA eberrr running ever again.

I couldnt complete that 10km thingy when so many others could. And their not track pple as well.

Im soo disappointed in myself i am an embarrassment to the running society. I neva eva wana run eva again.

This is my last time. I dont feel like running the competitive race durin x-country but ive alredi signed up so i cant back out. I am soo ashamed of myself and im such a sad dweeb.

But i saw sis today at macritchie. so that is perhaps the only good thing that happened. Celeste was wonderful.

And i saw wonderful nina!!! I MISS U SO MUCH NINA!!! and WEIYU TOO!! and Yuan shan too!!! Ill neva eva forget tht wonderful letter i had when YS and sis tried to comfort me. i didnt wana let u guyz down so i studied real hard for the Os. I reli hope i can get into AJ and see u guyz once agen. I totally miss u guyz xox

and i hurt myself today during PE so much so there's a tiny hole on my lil finger.

And my chem prac sucked so much today. I was reaching the end point when the burette spoilt and leaked so much my whole experiment failed so badly

So i walked home feeling like the worst person in the world and my stomach hurt.

Perhaps all my sandwich calories were burnt and since i have no fats..my body ate my proteins away..so much so i was sufferin like a walking stick.

do not read that load of rubbish or ull fail ur biology badly.

And i was hungry, sad, hurt, pain-ed.

BYE BYE