Today, i went to a Shelter that houses Aids patients.

It was a very emotional experience.

These people suffer frm social injustice and public stigmatism... they have no homes or family members or friends to turn to because everyone has turned them away. They've lost their jobs. They have no money to finance the expensive treatments.

These people... are beautiful people.. who deserve a chance to be accepted and to thrive in society... who deserve to have their dignity respected, who deserve to feed their children...

This past week of interaction with these patients has taught me loads. Im suddenly exposed... to a part of the world... that is so different from the world i live in.

This world.. is shunned from the public.... a place of suffering and sadness of beautiful people who dont deserve all that they are going through.

So what if they've made a mistake. Everyone does. We are imperfect beings. its so unfair to have society pressin upon these people on top of the disease process ... which is torturous enough.

Being a nurse.. is hard.. I concede tht ive contemplated giving up several times. You wanna help these people, but sometimes it just gets so difficult.

But this one week experience has greatly inspired me. Ive met amazing people and i know that i want to work hard... for them.. even if they may no longer be around should i graduate and succeed in my career in future.

To serve, you have to be competent. To be competent.. you need to take up challenges with the right attitude... and keep pushing on. I will keep persevering...

Hi i am so tired again.

my head has been throbbing all evening.

Work work work.

Wears my soul.

But im learning alot..

nothings easy... they key in every obstacle is to take on the challenge and turn it into a learning experience.

And you'll see the fruits of it all eventually.

Initially i wasnt takin it well.

Sometimes it gets so physically, mentally and emotionally tiring.

apart from stress from the high demands, I witnessed the struggles of people from all walks of life. Sometimes it brings tears to my eyes and i have to walk away because i dont want em to see me this way. They're such wonderful people.

My instructor challenged me to be a thinking nurse. Shes an inspiration.

You feel so helpless sometimes because u know u cant really help them.

and yet u have to witness the pain and suffering they go through... watch.. as life seeps out of them and loved ones tear.

I guess the best i can do for these people... is to be a good nurse. To aim for the best standard of care i can ever produce for future patients.
I'm still learning.

Man, do i need alot of time before that happens.

OKay seriously i am so sleepy. Good night.

the hospital.. is a very depressing place.
A place of tubes, latex gloves, and pain that is incomprehensible by the people who watch you suffer.

I dont know what to feel anymore.

Hello sleepyhead.

Im talkin to myself.

In fact.. i am so sleepy i can sleep right no...w...zzz

words cant express.

my hair has juz fluffed up again after a bath.

the curls are as tiny as taylor swift's.

Asian + Godillocks hair = Best combination in e world.

Not.

i shall yank my hair straight from now on. ull see me do the hairpull every now and den.

after exams

Hi okay time to fill this blog in with deets.

yesterday was e last day of my exams.

so i havent been sleepin much for e past few weeks as u already know.

On e last day of exams,

which was ytd at 5 am in e morning, I was studying... and in a v anxious mode.

when i felt a sharp pain in my abdomen followed by a sudden urge to vomit.

so i walked to e toilet in e kitchen.

next thign i knew, i woke up and found myself lying on e kitchen floor face up, with chairs toppled over beside me.

first thing tht raced to my mind was... how e hell am i going to e exam if my brain has failed me before e exam.

i checked my head for head injuries but thankfully no bruises nothing. which was really amazing.

in fact its so amazing i have no idea how id manage to lose consciousness while standin and fall to a neat supine position without sustaining any head injury, common complication and cause of death after fainting incidents in e hospitals. i think medical personnels will understand what i mean. Its a miracle and ive gotta thank God for it.

And just when i thought id die for this exam... i found out that id gotten the timing wrong.. it wasnt in e morning it was in e afternooon. which left me plenty more hours to study... and rest.

when He gave me a knowledge that Hed be with me during this exam, i didnt believe it. i think i do now.

I must also applaud myself for bein a joke again. *claps*. Who in e world gets their exam timing wrong.

Okay i managed to survive this exam! and if ur concerned. I am perfectly fine now.

In fact, im going to give myself an explosive break! I need it so bad!

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So i went to Malaysia today!! been years btw.

And guess what, i permed my hair.

You know honestly, i didn't think want this. THIS WAS E LAST kind of a perm that id want to have. I asserted to the hairdresser this.

Apparently there was some miscommunication.

so i look like a mad woman now.

i got the volume that i wanted though... eh which was taken a lil too far.

But you know what, its surprisingly pretty okay. as mad as i look.. it doesnt look horrid.

its okay to look mad.

in fact, the curls will straighten with time. By then itll be straighter and the madness of it all will subside.

YES! I'm as mad as i look now.

IM GOING TO MALAYSIA

to volumize my hair until it hits the ceiling.


I pray so hard that we'll come back safe.

AND details to be uploaded later!!!

oh yea my exams are juz over ytd.

thankfully!