Not all of e pressies are here cos i havent got em but I STILL LOVE EVRYTHING
No link but.. HAHAH !!!!! Ya its true i love evrthing! Even the treats.. and e wishes!

OMG!!!!!!!!

omg i loved all e pressies ok!

THANK U (not in order of preference)

T27!!!!!!!!! The hottest class on earth!!!

and JUDOKASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS XOXOXOOX -kiss kiss-

and jojo and chairman

and arabel darling

and wee, sz, celestine... dadada

and peipei babe

and Rui

and Arch darling

and algae

and yx, eelin, les, and algae

err i hope i havent missed anyone out.

YEAP!! and to all who wished me!!!!

Honestly.. thanks for rmbing my bday!!!

Bcos it reli means alottt ! Bcos im e sort whos like really bad at rmbin dates and im in awe at how good ur memories are!

or mayb im juz plain dumb.

HAHA my bday celebration was like national day... 3 days of holiday

on friday..

It was a combined outing...

my family + Arabel

lol it felt like she was our sister and we had so much fun eating at east coast! IM so glad we could celebrate our bdays together!!!!!!!! luv ya ys! XOXO

Sat.. went out with jojo and chairman!!
It was sooo hot!

and it was also e first time i stepped into a bar.

yea.. cos im so guai right??

but it was really borin cos i didnt even get high... i mean ive never really gotten high before and was rather curious...

so i drank "screaming orgasm" "sex on the beach" and "long island tea"

Plus screaming orgasm had hard liquor in it.

But its hot man! its like milky.. thts so sexy

On sunday... dadada.. i don really hav to go into detail do i?

yea so thank u to evryone of u who made this special!

Time to get on with Work. SIGH

Hello darlings

Pls do not get too excited juz yet...

cos excitement only brings disappoint

AND PLS THINK LOGICALLY!!!

how can sum1 like me pull a surprise on a whole grp of pple..

that is well.. reli surprising

WHen im alwayz the one gettin surprised or frightened by pple

bcos im so gullible

Read this for e ultimate experience of all time

well ive been rather bored of writing e way pple expect from blogs i might as well write like how i talk to myself and share 'me' to e world.

Bcos.. i reli do talk alot to myself.

Like to myself. AND sometimes i laugh at myself

for saying the most retarded things known to humanity to myself

Bcos my innermost is sooo retarded sometimes i hav to go like.. "HELLO?!!! OMGGGGG plsss juz stoppppp being funny! OMG u are seriously retarded!" juz to stop my innermost from spinning out of control

SO I SHD start talking to myself on my BLOG!!! Du think thats cool?!

well i think thats retarded but thats how i like it sooo FACE IT!! UR READIN A RETARDED BLOG!

well lets see...

FOR the life of me.. I still cant believe i slept-study once upon a 32 hours ago...
(if u tried workin ur math and came to a really awkward timing instead of e usual sleeping time of most human beings... Dont bother feeling puzzled... Id crapped up e number 32 cos i was too lazy to do my math calculation)

YEa i slept study.. if u reli wana noe.

Well u wouldnt cos yea...

I SLEPT STUDY!

well not really cos i wasnt only studying.. and sleeping.. i was singing too... in e wee hours of e morning at 4 am.

God help me.

So i was doin all three things at a go.

And hence i hav come to e greatest conclusion of all time

I am good at multi tasking... only when im sleeping.

Muji was scared stiff to death when she saw me getting out of bed... den turning on e lights, sittin on e chair, and picking up my chem wksht.

ONLY of course.. Light couldnt penetrate thru my closed eyelids so i guess...

i couldnt really study...

SO i ended up singing.

So yea...if one day u shd ever see ur wife humming to some tune while sitting up, facing a piece of chem worksheet... AND SLEEPING...

shes most prolly ME.

And u shd Thank God for being the luckiest person in e world.

And i dont mean it.

And i would JUZ LIKE TO ANNOUNCE TO THE WORLD AKA U PPLE OUT THERE WHO ARE PRYIN INTO MY INNERMOST RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT... RIGHT AT THIS VERY SECOND THAT...

Wispy urinates at 100dbs

random announcement.. but announcements are alwayz random dont u think??

Well if ur reading this.. uve juz spent 3 mins of ur life experiencing what it feels like reading my innermost...

God bless u

AND GOODNIGHT!

How the research section of woodlands civics library level 2, aka the place i study, turned into Mental Hospital number 2 remains a mystery to this day...something i may never solve to my dying day.

Juz last last week... a man was wanking in full view of evryone who was studying at the corner near e books.
Sis stoned and watched in intrigue for minutes before mumbling "is he doin what i think hes doin"
As if a switch had been installed within his being.. he suddenly turned into frantic mode and started arranging the tables and chairs before hopping away delightfully

Today.. a woman who looked alot like oprah winfrey in pyjamas stood in front of the section and exclaimed

"Ive got two hands
And i can hold two reference book
CAN U BELIEVE IT??!!"

what horrified me was how similar the way she said "CAN U BELIEVE IT??!!" to e way i say it.

Maybe that will be the future me... when i go berserk under all e stress... only ill look more like xu chun mei in pyjamas.

And a boy singing loudly away amidst the silence within the study corner... He had the hottest voice known to humaity...and i dont mean it. Unaware of how sexy his voice sounded.. he had to sing loudly away again just as we thot peace was finally ours to enjoy.

Well i guess i aint too sound myself cos i went into the toilet cubicle with two other hot girls, HX and SZ

To eat our KFC meals

yes in front of the toilet bowl if u may ask..

All thanks to the librarian who threatened to confiscate our stuff if we did not get back in 5 mins from our lunch break.

I guess my experience of studyin at level 2 of woodlands civics library has pretty much made me accustom to bein around mentally unsound individuals.
How sexy is that?!

not.

i think my new word now is sexy.

MY relationship with the word "HOT" has henceforth ended.

Oh my.. im juz bein cranky pls ignore me.

hello

Thank u darlings i feel.. much better now.. which is a good thing right!
even tho at certain intervals of the day it still gets to me.. but its alot less painful now

it is afterall... juz a game.. and i guess evryone makes mistakes...i juz wish i hadnt made it on e occasion when it mattered most.

whats more real and special are the times we've had... the outings..the times we've trained and encouraged one another.. the times we've cried, bled and sweat together..
I'll never forget u darling judoka, tough girls to my dying day! U guyz will alwayz remain close to my heart!

<3 <3 <3 <3

Today went off... at least less tormenting than ytd..
At least i could smile and forget about it at certain intervals of the day..

"Its over"
"Its not ur fault"
bla bla bla

Its easier said than done. when mates cry or go utterly depressed over losin in comps... id say the same thing and wondered why it hit em so hard... Now.. do i reli und how terrible it reli feels...

Id wake up and think about it.. sleep and dream about it.. i wana forget evrything... but it keeps haunting..

I wish i could forget what happened.. bcos its been tormenting me so much its terrible and i hate feeling this way
I dono if ill ever get over it.. I don think ive ever felt so horrid over a failure before...not even in track days.. not even in sec days as far as i can rmb.. apart from gettin my O results.

I wish it were juz a terrible nightmare... a nightmare im dyin to wake up from..

my heart feels so heavy its hard to even conc.. juz as i could finally get my mind onto something else as i was doin my hmwk in e lib...
a nanyang girl walked past...

Shit and it all came back... memories flooded back...

Its so exasperating to hav to pick myself up countless and countless of times after falling over and over again... juz as ive mustered enough strength to carry on walking... a stone comes hurdling in my direction.. again.. and again.. and again.

only this time.. its a reallly.. big.. heavy stone.

i guess... after all these... after all e probs.. after pickin myself up so many times... it wouldnt be too impossible to pick myself up again..it wont be hard.. ill b alright.

I will stay strong... im juz not too alright at e mo... but reli ill be fine.

Pls dont talk to me about this wen u see me alright?
e last thing i need is for someone to remind me abt what happened

ill reli be ok.. Ive reli got to pick myself up again...

I mean things have started to look up... surprisingly... mom didnt pick a quarrel with me after seein my terrible mid results... something ive been dreading..

it hurts soo much evrytime they accuse me of this and that when its not true.. and theres nothing i can do bcos they wont believe that i reli did study... I dread e family quarrels bcos it hurts so bad to be hav such a strained relationship with pple u love but wont trust u.

Ive alwayz wanted to do well... esp for mids... after what ms lim told my parents...ive been trying so hard... bcos im too emotionally drained and tired of my parents maligning me for bein e worst daughter in e world...

But yea... i guess mom could see tht.. ive been trying...trying to do well.. i wish she'd seen this earlier.. den i wouldnt hav felt so tortured all these while...

okay time to stop emo-ing

OKAY im gonna watch harry potter tmr!!
seein daniel radcliffe will perk me up!!!

Tmr's gona be a reli cool day!!!

AND IM reli tired anyway

SO IM GONNA go to bed and sleeep my ass off on my new found 10 day old PILLOWWWW

ITS been a gorgeous 10 night experience cos its reli fluffy and comfy

today.. is soo.. emotionally draining

i dono wad to say... juz cant bringmyself to face coach or anyone anymore.

i cant believe it.. i reli cant..

im so.. sorry.. i noe u guyz say its not my fault but if u were in my shoes.. ud prolly feel e same way too.

i juz cant believe it... the worst match tht id performed in had to be e most crucial one.

soo many failures... it feels like e day when i got my terrible O results.. it feels as tho ull nvr be able to smile again.. as if.. its all over...

juz like Os.. diz judo comp mattered so much to me.. and den..

i juz.. duno how to face coach or e seniors wen i go to trg anymore.. i reli dont.

i noe u guyz will think its not alright to talk this way... but if u were in my shoes.. ud feel e same way too.

I feel like shaving bald
maybe im juz becomin a lil too crazy
as crazy as psychotic britney spears who went to shave her head

thursday was roughly a last training.

And suddenly.. it juz hit me that.. once this is over..
ill hardly see my darling judokas or train with em again
i think im gonna miss that feeling of extreme exhaustion and fatigue.. and that feeling of pushing urself to the very limit...
im gonna miss throwing rachel
im gonna miss judo

and the best judoka team mates in the entire universe!!!!!!!!!

it was a pretty.. emotional day.. on thursday for me.. the day sir announced the team...i was walkin along with siti... and as we came to a sudden realization that we were not gona see e judokas as much once its over.. we both cried... and siti quickly changed the subject

i mean.. ive been longing for this day to come for a very long time.. for the day when ill step down.. so there;ll be no more grueling training and ill finally have more time for my studies... and yet.. now that the day has come.. im not exactly rejoicing.. its juz so.. saddening.

and i juz want u guyz to know that it was the greatest pleasure to hav been able to train with such a wonderful bunch of people.. I am soo greatly honoured to have trained with all of u.. u guyz are amazing beyond anything and i love u guyz so much xoxo i couldnt ask for more

Ill alwayz remember those memorable times ive had in judo.. so many ups and downs.. so many lessons ive learnt.. so much ive discovered about myself.. gg against the odds and that the impossible.. is reli well possible afterall... I love judo im gona miss it so much.

its our nats this wednesday! Finally..after torturing ourselves for 2 years for this day!
Jia you darlings!!! xoxo

I am a very sentimental person ..ahem..and hence this post

Tonight.. july 2nd, 2007, is a very special night..

as its the night i hav finally changed my pillow after 13 years.

cos it was too flat after 13 years of havin a heavy head rest upon it. Not that my heads that heavy cos its full of brain mass..

but still it is something worth commemorating.

Evryone! one minute of silence pls!