I feel like shaving bald
maybe im juz becomin a lil too crazy
as crazy as psychotic britney spears who went to shave her head

thursday was roughly a last training.

And suddenly.. it juz hit me that.. once this is over..
ill hardly see my darling judokas or train with em again
i think im gonna miss that feeling of extreme exhaustion and fatigue.. and that feeling of pushing urself to the very limit...
im gonna miss throwing rachel
im gonna miss judo

and the best judoka team mates in the entire universe!!!!!!!!!

it was a pretty.. emotional day.. on thursday for me.. the day sir announced the team...i was walkin along with siti... and as we came to a sudden realization that we were not gona see e judokas as much once its over.. we both cried... and siti quickly changed the subject

i mean.. ive been longing for this day to come for a very long time.. for the day when ill step down.. so there;ll be no more grueling training and ill finally have more time for my studies... and yet.. now that the day has come.. im not exactly rejoicing.. its juz so.. saddening.

and i juz want u guyz to know that it was the greatest pleasure to hav been able to train with such a wonderful bunch of people.. I am soo greatly honoured to have trained with all of u.. u guyz are amazing beyond anything and i love u guyz so much xoxo i couldnt ask for more

Ill alwayz remember those memorable times ive had in judo.. so many ups and downs.. so many lessons ive learnt.. so much ive discovered about myself.. gg against the odds and that the impossible.. is reli well possible afterall... I love judo im gona miss it so much.

its our nats this wednesday! Finally..after torturing ourselves for 2 years for this day!
Jia you darlings!!! xoxo