My life is diminishin to a point where theres none at all. NO life they call it.

EVRYDAY im Studyin and stressin myself up.

is that sucky or is that juz sucky?

woo chg of words.. id usually go like "isnt that juz hot"
Im a Live example of how school and exams can change a person

See? im using sucky instead of hot now. Behold. Not.

Im reli tired.. reli reli tired. I think the only time when i feel like im back to being me... is the time when im on e fone or catchin time with old time besties like Arabel.. Chloe.. Jojo..dadada... which unfortunately can only take place for a super short while... cos ya.. studies again.

Im juz draggin myself evryday ..praying hard to make it through each day. its that sucky. IM juz so tired i hate school.

as i was walkin home along the lonely, remote pathway... i finally felt peace.. something i havent felt in a long while as i reminisced about the meaning of life as i usually would whenever i stone ever since it happened...cos i guess it traumatised me alot..

The only reason that was ever remotely....bright or worth living for..some months or even weeks ago... was i guess... my CCA...I guess it was e only thing that made me feel alive was like after trg... or juz after spending time with old time mates. I guess it gave me life..and hope.. at a point when i felt despondent about evrything else... I wanted to prove to e world... tht i was not juz wat they think i am... brainless.. bimbotic superficial nothingness. Or mayb its cos of e fact tht id been ponderin too much about my life... and harped too much on e imperfections... I prayed to God..and told him how imperfect i was... i hated myself... hated my life... until God changed it all.. a few weeks ago by making something happen... something id never dream of gettin... Juz so i could finally feel useful and special again. Id never forget that... could never forget tht moment

Id better get back to studying. Haha dont worry about me im ok... :)

Im tryina prepare myself for that thought... cos i noe itll happen eventually...inevitably...
juz so when it happens... it wouldnt be so painful.