The Korean trip that wasn't meant to be

SOOOO SADDDDD IM not going to Korea for christmassss!!!!!!!

Thats it ill find some place else. I havent left singapore for 11 years I cant take it anymore!!!

I NEED A GOOD VACATION AT SOME PLACE THATS AMAZINGLY EXOTIC!!!

Now America doesnt sound so bad anymore.

I WILL LEAVE SINGAPORE THIS HOLIDAY!!! I WILL!!!

I WILL SIT IN AN SQ PLANE THIS HOLIDAY! I WILL!!

What am i doing when it is already Week 3.

I've been youtubing, watching movies, going out with friends.

Im so gonna score this semester.

The event is over!

There was alot of drama during the tournament.

We made some really cool friends from the other institutions when we were helping each other out with the setting up of e ring and stuff.

But in all honesty, I screwed up.

I am deeply embarassed about my performance and i deserved that draw.

That being said, its a real setback.. but i will not give this sport up because of this. There have been times in my life when i encounter huge failures and went into depression for weeks on end.. and im too ashamed to ever go back..

i dont think i have e face to go back to trainings.. But i have to. To give up, is to err further.

I commend my opponent for her wonderful fighting spirit that she put up that i did not have.

I'm sorry to have let ppl who had faith in me down. :(

But i wil keep trying harder.

Hey guys!

ive been horribly busy with everything... apart from bein stressed over my own trg there is e team to think about... and the organising of the event.

Its gonna be seriously huge this time cos.. geez the ambassador is gracing the event. SO NOTHING MUST GO WRONG I WILL NOT TOLERATE LATE COMING FIGHTERS OR USHERS OR I WILL SLAUGHTER HIM ALIVE.

I dont know how dan and i are gona cope this sat. Dan is more stressed cos hes got a bigger responsibility on his shoulders.

Im reli thaknful for real wonderful freidns who have been offerin help for the event bcos it means sooo much tht pple actually offer help when we're really realy stretched and stressed til our heads are swelling.

That aside. I am horribly tired everyday. Time for trg again tmr.

AND OH NO SCHOOL HAS STARTED! WHAT HORROR ive not had a proper holiday!

Tired. Tired. Tired..... Tired.

I'm really like.. effin stressssed.

A big thank you to all of you lovelies

Hi Guys!!!

I know this is late but ive been humongously busy lately!


As you all dont know, i turned into an adult quite recently. Isnt this a wonderful gift to planet Earth? No longer shall the inhabitants of this planet suffer from Shuffy's immaturity.

Jus kidding. I am still immature.

ok im jokin on tht one. I turned into a full fledged 'matured' adult a few days ago

Jokes aside, Id really love to thank all of you for making this birthday such a special one! I really didnt expect any of these.

Stuff has been happening lately but life goes on. I will not give up and i will continue doin my best to help as much as i can.

I want to live my life out for God's glory!

Ive been stressed out over everything lately and ive been busy over everything. That is despite the holidays.

Definitely not arranged in order of importance:

On the day before my birthday... someone really amazing gave me this Mikimoto necklace... i was so touchd i had to tear... dont get me wrong im not that into material wealth but... it was the thought behind it that made it such a beautiful gift tht's close to my heart :) Thanks i really love it! I've been wearing it for all my birthday celebrations thereafter. :)



Also not forgetting my dearest track girls... who took the time out to make this really beautiful and funny vid of good ol' times tht is now on facebook. And thats not all because the girls surprised us with this DIY-ed wonderful piece of art! Thank you sooo much girls. <3>





And of course.. Arch, wee, and pei pei.. for the other video u girls made for us... the wonderful dinner.. the cards, the vouchers... the failed 12 midnight surprise (haha).. and the great and amazing times ;)

A simple but beautiful celebration with my Judo dearies at fish and co.


Muay thai Khakis. Thank you so much for tht wonderful gathering Baangsss


This wonderful hair stick from Kokun Tozai from Les and Ee. Thank you thank you so much girls... for tht wonderful meet up with Josh and terence.. the meal.. the efforts.. and the wonderful catch ups. <3

The wonderful and amazing time spent with my beautiful Nursing girls! Thank you for the home-baked Cake!!!! and the beautifully written card from all of u! Thank you so much for the planning and the efforts im deeply touched! You girls make me such a happy person :)



ANd many many many moreee!!!

I genuinely treasure each one of these gifts and the birthday treats.. every single one of them... although without any special mention they really mean as much to me as every other gift.. all gifts big or small have really touched my heart. I am so thankful for all of the times, the effort, the thought behind these.. the preparations... basically EVERYTHING! Your efforts meant the world to me :) and im dead serious abt tht. *sterns face*

I cannot thank you guys enough for everything.

I seriously wasnt expecting any of these becos i really wouldnt want u guys to go through all tht trouble for me.. but u did anyway... which is really overwhelming for me.

Thank you.

I know ive been such a busy person with training and what not... but i really want u every one of u in my life to know how indispensable a role each one of you play in my life and to make me the person i am today.

Last but not least, id love to thank God, my dearest Father and Saviour... for loving me.. and for blessing me with the presence of wonderful people in my life.

For everything You've done for me... Thank You, Heavenly Father.

I just had a dream. That spurred me on to do whatever i wanted to do before i slept.

If you don't believe in yourself, then no one else will.

Guys.

Alot of trouble.

Why.

:

trouble yourself not

To tell u e truth... i do not take my birthday seriously.

Its just another date... like any other date.

There are people that you can use e money, effort and time to help that you would have otherwise unwisely spent it for my birthday.

So please do not rack your brains over what to do or get me for my birthday because really... its just another date.

Im serious i dont want you to trouble yourselves over this. And i mean it! for real.

HELLO world!

I smelll beautiful flowers!

and im so happy bcos everything seems to have life in this world!

Hi

I am still a v busy person

I am still havin attachments

and i love my work.

I am busy with tons of work.

I am seriously busy.

Im going to church tonight.


I am so sleepy.

Oh life is great

u forget about ur troubles when ur serving others.

Today, i went to a Shelter that houses Aids patients.

It was a very emotional experience.

These people suffer frm social injustice and public stigmatism... they have no homes or family members or friends to turn to because everyone has turned them away. They've lost their jobs. They have no money to finance the expensive treatments.

These people... are beautiful people.. who deserve a chance to be accepted and to thrive in society... who deserve to have their dignity respected, who deserve to feed their children...

This past week of interaction with these patients has taught me loads. Im suddenly exposed... to a part of the world... that is so different from the world i live in.

This world.. is shunned from the public.... a place of suffering and sadness of beautiful people who dont deserve all that they are going through.

So what if they've made a mistake. Everyone does. We are imperfect beings. its so unfair to have society pressin upon these people on top of the disease process ... which is torturous enough.

Being a nurse.. is hard.. I concede tht ive contemplated giving up several times. You wanna help these people, but sometimes it just gets so difficult.

But this one week experience has greatly inspired me. Ive met amazing people and i know that i want to work hard... for them.. even if they may no longer be around should i graduate and succeed in my career in future.

To serve, you have to be competent. To be competent.. you need to take up challenges with the right attitude... and keep pushing on. I will keep persevering...

Hi i am so tired again.

my head has been throbbing all evening.

Work work work.

Wears my soul.

But im learning alot..

nothings easy... they key in every obstacle is to take on the challenge and turn it into a learning experience.

And you'll see the fruits of it all eventually.

Initially i wasnt takin it well.

Sometimes it gets so physically, mentally and emotionally tiring.

apart from stress from the high demands, I witnessed the struggles of people from all walks of life. Sometimes it brings tears to my eyes and i have to walk away because i dont want em to see me this way. They're such wonderful people.

My instructor challenged me to be a thinking nurse. Shes an inspiration.

You feel so helpless sometimes because u know u cant really help them.

and yet u have to witness the pain and suffering they go through... watch.. as life seeps out of them and loved ones tear.

I guess the best i can do for these people... is to be a good nurse. To aim for the best standard of care i can ever produce for future patients.
I'm still learning.

Man, do i need alot of time before that happens.

OKay seriously i am so sleepy. Good night.

the hospital.. is a very depressing place.
A place of tubes, latex gloves, and pain that is incomprehensible by the people who watch you suffer.

I dont know what to feel anymore.

Hello sleepyhead.

Im talkin to myself.

In fact.. i am so sleepy i can sleep right no...w...zzz

words cant express.

my hair has juz fluffed up again after a bath.

the curls are as tiny as taylor swift's.

Asian + Godillocks hair = Best combination in e world.

Not.

i shall yank my hair straight from now on. ull see me do the hairpull every now and den.

after exams

Hi okay time to fill this blog in with deets.

yesterday was e last day of my exams.

so i havent been sleepin much for e past few weeks as u already know.

On e last day of exams,

which was ytd at 5 am in e morning, I was studying... and in a v anxious mode.

when i felt a sharp pain in my abdomen followed by a sudden urge to vomit.

so i walked to e toilet in e kitchen.

next thign i knew, i woke up and found myself lying on e kitchen floor face up, with chairs toppled over beside me.

first thing tht raced to my mind was... how e hell am i going to e exam if my brain has failed me before e exam.

i checked my head for head injuries but thankfully no bruises nothing. which was really amazing.

in fact its so amazing i have no idea how id manage to lose consciousness while standin and fall to a neat supine position without sustaining any head injury, common complication and cause of death after fainting incidents in e hospitals. i think medical personnels will understand what i mean. Its a miracle and ive gotta thank God for it.

And just when i thought id die for this exam... i found out that id gotten the timing wrong.. it wasnt in e morning it was in e afternooon. which left me plenty more hours to study... and rest.

when He gave me a knowledge that Hed be with me during this exam, i didnt believe it. i think i do now.

I must also applaud myself for bein a joke again. *claps*. Who in e world gets their exam timing wrong.

Okay i managed to survive this exam! and if ur concerned. I am perfectly fine now.

In fact, im going to give myself an explosive break! I need it so bad!

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So i went to Malaysia today!! been years btw.

And guess what, i permed my hair.

You know honestly, i didn't think want this. THIS WAS E LAST kind of a perm that id want to have. I asserted to the hairdresser this.

Apparently there was some miscommunication.

so i look like a mad woman now.

i got the volume that i wanted though... eh which was taken a lil too far.

But you know what, its surprisingly pretty okay. as mad as i look.. it doesnt look horrid.

its okay to look mad.

in fact, the curls will straighten with time. By then itll be straighter and the madness of it all will subside.

YES! I'm as mad as i look now.

IM GOING TO MALAYSIA

to volumize my hair until it hits the ceiling.


I pray so hard that we'll come back safe.

AND details to be uploaded later!!!

oh yea my exams are juz over ytd.

thankfully!

HEY!!

twit twit twitter away!!

ive found a new excitement and that is twitter!

its a time saving habit cos the application only allows one sentence posts. Quick and easy.

i reccommend the world to get it.

pretty slow of me i know since half e world has been active on it since i was born.

even Paris Hilton has twitter. and shes really cool.

in case ur wonderin, no i havent neglected my studies.
I post perhaps once a day which doesnt take up much time.. prolly less than a minute.

Back on to the the exams...

Three are down! juz one more to go before i taste freedom.

of course on the first day of exams... i developed massive headache plus nausea and vomitting and giddiness. I thot i was gonna faint on my way to school. Sounds like meningitis but what a way to start the thread of exams, i thought to myself.

Nothing was going into my head as i studied on the traina and i could hardly recall anything.

Congratulations Miss, You managed to kill your brain, I chirped to myself merrily while lookin as haggard and pale as a cave man... although im sure cave man were never really stereotyped that way.

Second day, Sociology exams. It was better cos my biological circadian clock kicked into action.
i was awake and happy.

But going home was a nightmare becos it meant i had to toil even harder thanks to the psychology exam the following day.

Indeed, i had 3 hours of sleep last night. my circadian rhythm wasnt used to it so i was a zombie until it kicked into action at 6 am.

thank God for a longer study break of 3 days before Microbiology exams.
Phew.

id juz slept my ass off. Oh.. wait. Its still there.

anyhooz... Im really thankful for the support and encouragement during this stressful period. You're really wonderful people!

ill be free next week! book me fast while stocks last.

Tonight's a very beautiful night. Weeeee =D

Happy Birthday Mummy!!!

My ulcer HURTSSSSSSSSSSS

I think i might wanna get a twitter.. can write ambiguous one sentence posts without details HAHAHA I like!

and ive discovered this amazing feature.. histamic? hipsalmic? hisptadalda;amdada Whatever it is i forgot the spelling i know it starts with HIPS_______. Discovered it from Liting's pictures on facebook.

its some photo editting iphone feature tht produces pictures as if they;ve been snapped by those retro plastic Toy cameras.

might i say that it is the best photo editting feature ive seen since i was born.

Im juz exaggerating of course.

but yea u get my point.

Sample (with one of my fav pictures XD):


Of course i dont have an Iphone. Dad hates technology for 'kids'. Apparently he thinks the phone is for immatures.

By the way, my ulcer really hurts.

"Penis envy" (Freud thought that women spent their lives unconsciousy trying to make up for their biological deficit in this department)

Of course like what the authors of my psych book wish of us, I am maintaining a respect for this theorist by marvelling at his hypotheses and publicly on my blog. I dont usually write alot of things on my blog cos im a pretty privy dudette.

Sorry abt the side track.. im at my most neurotic state... i blame this on the pile of work and exams. Exhaustion wears the soul.

my work has ended.

or at least the strings of projects and tests have finally ended.

im left with finals now.

but i feel so bad.


i should really change cos ive been functioning as if the world has stopped turning evrytime i study... evrything else vanishes or is forgotten blarghhhh

and ive forgotten about someone impt today.

:(

OMG CAN U BELIEVE IT?!?!?!


NO I CANT BELIEVE IT!!!


OMGG this is UNBELIEVABLEEEEEEEEEE

I was on STOMP and the BEST part is...


I LOOK LIKE A MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN in e picture!


AND I CANT BELIEVE THEY USED THAT PICTURE to represent NUS OPEN HOUSE


here's e embarassing article.
http://youthphoria.stomp.com.sg/breaking_news/article/1147



Hi thts not me. Oh Gosh this person is so skinny. She looks like a MANNNNNNNN






Jenny rubbing his tummy cos hes hungry.

The hottest, sexiest Muay Thai ring girls ull ever see.

TIME TO START STUDYINNNNNNNNNNNN WHAT AM I DOIN?!?!

sleepin my ass off like a pig every single day!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH

!! Dad got a new Professional camera!!!!!




I am such an amazing photographer

Earlier today, Dad and mom took us out on a 90 dollar buffet to celebrate e scholarship acceptance. Never have i eaten such an expensive buffet! It was soooo cool... the food was orgasmic btw and i had foie gras (is tht how u spell it) for e first time in my life. and there was live acoustic performance amidst a gorgeous ambience.

I love mom and dad :)I used to take e things that i have for granted but now i know that God has given me e best i can ever have in my life and i am so thankful for everything.

then i went to e library to study and got some christian books after tht. I can read it daily before i sleep.

okay back to work!

i shall embarass myself tmr durin PBL presentation.

be prepared to laugh.

when you come to a wall, you can either climb it, or you can simply walk around until you find a door.

Don't make life so hard! - Find the door!

She's God's child... and she doesn't marvel at the world's notion of prestige.

I think ive got a patient to take care of.