I juz came back from a funeral.

Of someone's whos in fact.. of our age. She committed suicide.

I was really enlightened... i guess from the talk that i had with her aunt... i was opened up to a more realistic view of what life really is about.

Life isn't just about hedonistic pleasures of beauty, popularity or wealth. Life is more than just that... When we're too influenced by these superficialities, we tend to be unaware that the people who love us most, our family, are constantly trying to reach out to us.

When we close a chapter of our lives, and when we assume it to be everything, sometimes its only then do we realize that theres so much more that life has to offer... like people out there who need our help and our contribution. For those who choose to end their lives, they are sadly not given the chance to open themselves up to such wonders.

It is very sad... and i dont want to shake my head at her for what happened... for we have not experienced what she has. I believe it must have been really hard on her. It takes alot for someone to self-mutilate.

Im glad im a nurse. After talkin to her aunt yesterday at the wake, all i wana do is reach out to the depressed. And as a nurse, i have so many of such opportunities. I want to be a part of their lives and help em through.... not simply because its a job that i get paid for... but because i really want to.