I am quite in angst. Id thot that tutorial starts at 3. So did some of my tut mates. Apparently it is at 2. So i havent prepared anything cos id intended to use e last hour to attempt the tutorial qns. Hence, i have to skip it.
How terrible can that be.
Bear has hinted to me to not blame the nus system cos' they have stated it in IVLE. unfortunately the timetable im referrin to doesn't tally with IVLE's.
I've learnt my lesson.

That aside,

It was cca day yesterday so i went for muay thai. But before that... rachel asked me to go to e forum with her cos camie will be there. Haven't seen camie in ages so i happily agreed. CS was there too hopping around like an agile monkey.

Rach and I headed off to training after that where we were greeted by Yimin's request for us to fight. JUDO style. I;ve been fighting the muay thai style for sooo long its extremely odd to suddenly fight in JUDO style again. We were taken aback but did so anyway.

I went ahead first followed by rachy.

ok we won. but its kidna sad that we were asked to fight for IVP instead of her when shes been going for training faithfully, unlike us who aint even from NUS Judo.

OKay. So now im officially representing NUS JUDO for IVP. it is quite a shock for me cos i haven't trained in centuries. ANd i MEAN CENTURIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSs

even when we were fighting, my legs were in muay thai stunts.

And the competition is next week, Sunday. OH DEAR.

WHAts worse is that we might be fighting NTU and i know that SITI, my dear baby, the one ive prayed for to win in her judo matches, is part of the team. Its highly upsetting if i have to fight with a team mate whom i've trained for so long with. We'd bled and sweat together for two years.

I really don;t wanna fight.

Yimin says that she'd most prolly put me as a reserve. Honestly, i havent trained for so long im gona bring NUS down. so its pointless if i fight anyway.

Sigh..talkin about judo brings back memories of what happened 2 years ago.

the match that mattered most and id let the team down. Couldn't get over it for a v long time.

Failures happen don't they? Not every journey is smooth-sailing. But it is in failures that we learn and be stronger.

Yesterday was perhaps one of e best times of my life. (okay i noe i have alot of best times of my life in my life)

It was Loraine's birthday and all i wanted was for her to be happy on her birthday.

It was so touching! she cried. Which means it was a success!

And it definitely wasn't just an individual effort .. because pple like celestine and caron did alot of work too. basically evryone contributed in one way or another... so if u wanna thank anyone, thank everyone.

it was tiring but all that effort was worth it..

anyway... it was a significant day too because my boy got me a bouquet of roses and the cutest teddy bear in the world when he 'happened' to meet me in e science canteen. Thanks boy! u made my day =)

sigh two exams next week and im taken up for every single day until next week. its upsettn bcos u noe that u wanna study but u have other commitments and things to do. Ur slowly wasting ur time away when u noe that ur hardpressed and stressed up about work and time is running out. It is a very torturous thing. Mayb not for most people... but it is an extremely terrible situation for me. bcos i hate regrets... i hate failing bcos i did not work hard enough. Hate it to the core. HATE it Hate it HAte it! i feel like throwing thigns around now like an agitated ghost cos im so fuckin fustrated

the highly stressful period. Sian hate it. always make me emo. =(

Esprit, my dearest love.

I
AM
HEAD OVER HEELS
IN
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe
with ESPRIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

they're trench coats are the ultimate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No wonder claudia gets most of her stuff there.

OH My God.

I bought this $110 v cool-looking trenchcoat. Not for myself but for our dear friend's birthday tmr on behalf of the nursing girls.

(i hope she doesnt see this which i don;t think she will)

Esprit. The new paradise. I LOVE ESPRIT i cant emphasize this further.

if only i were back to my workin days.... sighz why didnt i spend my earnings on esprit.

Sigh i really hope she will like it!! but i hav a premonition that she might not :(:(:(

Im so glad that you now think about it that way :)

I've prayed for u to see this importance and thank God for he's answered my prayers :)

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I am not the most logical person. all the plugs in the library are taken up! so i had to extend my line to somewhere really from where i was sitting.. resulting in all these complications. I had difficulty extending the line. This v nice lady helped me with the arrangement of the plug. Its really gorgeous of her to do so. XD

So this is what made my day! Beautiful singaporeans!
shes a foreigner though.

.....

cos im stoning in the library again

Hi im stoning in the library. i think its a pretty good idea to stone. the person sitting in front of me is v irritated by that group of girls beside us cos they are makin a ton of noise... not that noise can be weighed.. but i like strange figurative expressions.

I slept like a pig last night and stubbornly refused to look at the sun rays streaming into my room. I was so tired. mayb it was due to hypoxia, a lack of oxygen.

I bought a wooden doll house... i mean.. i wanted to. For jojo. It was soooo pretty! they come along with cute wooden furnitures. Alot of effort will hav to be put in though. In the end, i bought a carousel instead... it can spin. its gorgeous too... Jojo wouldn't appreciate the doll house as much as i would.. i think she;d prefer the carousel instead.

They have purple(that looks like pink) wood-crafted dollhouses too! its amazingly gorgeous. i feel like gettin it for Lor.. but i dun think i can finish the craftwork in time.

and then i got myself bubble tea and looked at giordano and esprit. Ssuch pretty clothes. I have been starved of shopping for quite a while... i am havin an itch that i need to scratch.

I dont care! shopping tmr! enough of mugging. I MISSS the feel of new cotton on my skin.

OKay 15 mins up! back to mugging. *mutters grumpily*

sian

damn tired... but cannot sleep...argh

cant wait for three months break.

why am i such a pig

Sleeping has been my favourite pastime of late. Which is kinda sad cos im wasting alot of time thanks to how addictive it really is.

I needa snap out of this and come back to reality. The reailty of me being in UNIVERSITY now... not sec sch days when id plop on my bed the first thing i get home.

maybe im juz suffering from one of the illnesses ive been studying lately. signs of fatigue. Could be hypothyroidism... altho i do not present any other of the clinical manifestations apart from sleeping like a pig.

I was juz going home when i got caught in the rain. A very heavy rain. my pair of jeans was soaked. I started thinkin of everyone else! i was hoping none of em got caught in the rain like i did back in school... esp those girls who are livin in hall now!

Yay gonna visit celestine and angie in their new room at King Edward Hall tomorow! its wonderful stayin in schoool.

I'm startin to think that men suffer from menopause too


I wrote a letter that made me cry.


If you even bothered reading


:'(

stress stress

I'm feeling better now!

thanks to e medicine altho i think its abit of an overdosing. Im reducin its dosage.

There'll be a hundred testSSSSS awaiting for my return to school after the term break.

And a gazillion assignments to complete that mount up as high as Mount Everest.

Cant wait for April when itll be all over !!! If i make it out alive that is.

This is harder than surviving in the reality tv game show 'Survivor'.


P.S. please do not take my words literally. they are but exaggerations.

Hulo planet.. ive been sick for e past few days.. and had my share of chills and weakness

I'm on Rest-in-bed status. I might need a potty to pee in.

but i feel better now. after some medication and sleep... altho the thermometer says otherwise.. i almost felt like fainting on my way home.

and i had to resort to skipping the most unskippable lesson of all time! pharm tutorial. It pains
me so. :(

and its saddening bcos i missed faiz's bday celebration :(

I hope itll be better on mon. i wanna go for muay thai!!!!

A minute before lecture

Check out my oversized hat!

Damnit! there's a mosquito bite at my armpit. *scratches*

Chen

WEEE WEEEEE check out our private union! :D I've UPDATEEDDD again after 2 years.



U inspired this.. I Created this!

I've lost the original animated one :'(

My first Valentine's

Hello planet Xeus!

I had my first ever Valentine's day yesterday.
We visited the Night safari (a thousand years since i last visited that place) and saw ourselves. Theres a crocodile specie called 'Mugger'

I screamed when doctor fishes tickled my feet.

****in ITCHY

Thank God CS was there to gag me. Altho it didnt work. I screamed and the tourists ran away.



<3 Thank U Monkey for giving me the best first Valentine's day ever!


Not forgetting that its also Friendship day!

There are so many friends that i want to thank the Lord for... Who have been with me thru thick and thin.. who have withstood my nonsense for the past couple of years/ months.. Even though i may not express it.. U guys mean alot to me. Words cant express how much i love you people

Nursing: Celestine babe... U've been a wonderful friend and amazing role model! I thank the Lord for bestowing such a wonderful friend to me. Loraine.. Uve been so amazing.. bein there for me when i was down.. it upsets me sometimes to see u so sad.. my heart goes out to you and ill constantly keep you in my prayers.. Jade and angie... for being such great companions! its a joy to have u guys around. not forgetting Adora, pam, Jay, JX, Emma, Faiz.. MElissa Fong .. bla bla so many many more! I'm heartened to have such wonderful classmates.. u have inspired me with ur hearts of gold.

Judo girls: ALL U BABESSSSS! The girls responsible for givin me the BEST times in CJ! Siti dearest Love... I love u so! I feeel so guilty not spendin enough time with u now. Yvonne dearest.. Rachel my sexy partner..thanks for titillating me..Sondra christy truddy Ding Ding MIn min U girls rock my sock I love uuuu love uuu love uuuu love uuu

Eelin and les! We havent met up in a lonnnnggggg time lets please do Dear Babes! Thank u girls for bein there for me in our time in CJ!

Muay thai: Rachel my love and wonderful partner.. I love u rachel susu chiangster my baby. Ur the best partner and friend in the world! <3<3

Track girls: Amanda, YS, Ida, Sindhu... U girls ARE beautiful! Ive not been spendin much time with u girls but U girls mean alot to me... words cant express how much u girls mean to me. U've helped me grow.. been with me thru thick and thin.. We'll stay together forever and ever. I love u girls so much. Sisters for life! <3

Weiyu, Jo, pei pei, Arch, Yihui, sz beautiful babies!! we really havent met up in a long time but i love u girls.. U girls are friends for a lifetime.

And evry other friend that i havent mentioned.. it doesnt mean tht ur not impt! evryone of u is impt to me! Happy Friendship and Valentine's Day! <3

Im going to SMU today for some valentine's party!!

I have come to an agreement with sis.

Shd i see anyone smiling/waving at me... I'd do e same back irregardless of whether i know him/her or not

this is so that sis does not come across as being 'dao'


argh.. role playing for lab session today... and i havent studied the 'script'

Id slept in the woodlands library while staring at my computer screen and sitting upright.

I woke up when i was almost leaning against the person sitting beside me.

If only i dont have to sleep.

A new day A new mood a new start!!!!

Ive decided to blog NORMALLy like how i used to when i first started this blog because MElissa Fong wants me to!

she says tht it is normal to blog about ur day to day life.

Really??? i reeled in disbelief!

Today i felt really bad because i have sinned! and its upsetting that a friend has to remind me that i have done so... to make me stop to ponder. It definitely wasn't intentional so why was i so angst over it!! guess it was e trauma den tt made me overreact. I'm so sorry, Dear Lord and friend.

I had my first Genes and Soc lecture today. NUS is like a freakin maze.

It almost felt like we'd stepped into some foreign horizon when we got out of the lift. We have totally not been to this part of science before.

the lecture was kinda interesting although i slept for the first 30 minutes. Angie slept for the first hour with her specs on the table, her arms folded and her head down.

Michelle got herself a nice haircut for 3.80! OH MY GOODNESS! the extent some salons will go to.

I am freakin tempted to cut my hair but i have vowed never to do so until it grows to my ass.

this is so that my hair length doesnt remain stagnant.

But i look like a freakin lionness now and i cant take this anymore!!! I'll ROAR if i dont chop it off

Muay thai later! OOO am i excited!

I cant believe tht IM not STUDYIN!!! Jade juz ticked me off.

Somebody STRANGLE ME the next time u see me not studying.

I'll be eternally grateful.

Skipped dinner for two days!

sure way to slim down.

I love Muay thai and nursing. =D

YES!!! woo!

ahhh i miss eating adorable little man tou buns!

randomness

I am freaking sleepy. Stupid literature.

Before i dose off.. it is wise that i rant here or risk salivating on the school's computer keyboard.

I was just reading a journal article about patient communication.. when i recalled about my time in the hospital.. as a nurse.

altho this episode doesnt relate very much to 'communication' directly

I think my very wonderful patient was scared of me.

Although i was mostly there to listen to her troubles when she needed someone to talk to... i guess my incompetence scared the hell outta her.

That is bad in terms of establishing 'trust' in a patient-nurse relationship.

I am still learning. So its prudent tht i recognise my weaknesses now and work on em before i graduate and go out there as a staff nurse where ill be managing a whole ward!

Juz a random post.

Aftermath

I juz dreamt that my bf was with Beyonce!! OMG!!

btw.. i feel better now.. that drug works like a miracle.. agonist.. or antagonist.. whatver it is. It has successfully bound to a receptor/ inhibited a compound.. and initiated the appropriate response.

Good Job Drug!! I shall consider giving u a pay rise.

*drug cheers 'yay!'*

pathophysiology of my current suffering

oh this is so weird

im havin the weirdest tummy ache right now

i can feel my colon churning thanks to enhnced motility initiated by the unhappy small intestine.
There is also an increase in osmolality in my intestinal tract hence less reabsorption of water.. causing the very watery stool.

in other words.. im currently suffering from food poisoning. Yes it should be from the consistency.

and it doesnt help that this enhanced motility has been ongoing since 6am in the morning.

Ive been painstakingly contracting my external spincter thanks to inappropriate environment.

it is very uncomfortable. my colon is churning every now and then.

I think i should just go home and eat some medicine.

some lame questionaire

Do you have a good relationship with your ex? no.

Do you go to school currently? yeap - NUS

Who were the last 3 people to text you? Faiz, Daddy, Celestine

Do you want to kiss a specific person right now? haha not now.. im in e studying mood.

Your ex says they love you, you say? Id stone for a while before blurting "erm. okay."

Think of your bestfriend / bestfriends, are they virgins? yeap!

You're currently listening to? the noise from e printer.

Does your dad and your boyfriend/ girlfriend have a good relationship? not exactly.

Preferred brand of cigarettes? I smoke! yes i do. Im a nursing student, i know that 90% of e disease tht im currently studying are attributed by smoking and I SMOKE! nOT.

How are you feeling right now? cold. Even with a long sweater from cotton on that says 'thermal wear'

Do you have any homework to do? Shit yes. Dont make me feel any guiltier than i alr am.

When was the last time you smiled? a few mins ago.

Who was the first person you talked to today? Muji.

What were you doing at 5 PM last night? i was training.

What are you NOT looking forward to? Pharmaco tut tmr!

Do you plan on moving out of your parents house next year? No. I'm but a little girl.

Are you a forgiving person? i suppose

Are you on medication of any kind? no

How late did you stay up last night ? 2am thanks to msn.

If you could move somewhere else, would you? OOO yes! to a nice apartment designed by myself.. out of my parents house so that i can enjoy some independence

When was the last time you cried really, really hard? Gee thts hard. erm.. middle of last year?

What did you do Sunday? I had a reunion buffet lunch at a hotel.. and attended angie's bday celebration at Timber at night. It was fun!! but.. i didnt study... again.

When is the next time you'll hug someone? prolly tmr. or at e later half of e day if i happen to bump into someone close and familiar

What are you doing this coming weekend? WOah im doin ALOT this coming weekend. wat with e chinese new year celebration and someone's bday celebration. (u know who. Shit i bet ur sniggerin right now XP)

Are you afraid of roller coasters? No i love em.

What was the last pill that you took? Salmon oil pill.

Excited for anything within the week? OH yes. the weekend.

Do you know any songs that remind you of summer? eh... first day of my life by Bright Eyes.

What were you doing at 7:00 AM? Stoning in the train.

Do you tell your mom everything ? Not really

Has anyone ever crawled through your window? HAHAHHAA yes. in e wee hours of e morning. Thanks for the consideration.

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with? nope

How did you and your number 1 meet? At some chalet party.

Did you speak to your mother today ? No

Who was the last person in your bedroom? my sister

Are you missing someone? Yes. WISPY!! im waitin for ur lecture to end.

If I looked under your bed, what would I find? Cold-marbled floor. mom would kill me if i shd hide anything under it.

How do you usually sleep ? laterally. with a suffocated bolster if bolsters suffocate. I wonder.

Where were you at 3:02 AM this morning? in slumberland.

Who was the last boy/girl you held hands with? the sad and adorable monkey

Will you kiss someone in the next week or two? why not.

Are you someone that worries far too much? yes. Yes. YES

Do you think some people are crazy for wearing jeans in the summer? well its always summer. but almost evryone in campus does so. its almost like a norm.

Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a A? no. I hardly kiss anybody.

Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now? WISPY IM STILL WAITIN FOR U

Do you believe that every thing happens for a reason? Yea.

Do you know what you' re wearing tomorrow? NO. Its always impromptu

Are you irritated with anyone? No. Well.. mayb yes.

Is there something you should be doing right now? SHIT YES. STUDYYYY

How has the week been? depressing. I SHD HAVE STUDIED MORE

Did anyone see you kiss that last person you kissed? no. its always discrete. I respect the public.

What're you looking forward to? the Celebrations!

Last movie you saw in a theater. Ipman!

Do you know anyone who’s pregnant?no

Are you shy? I have a split personality. it depends on who im around with.

Are you currently wanting any body piercings or tattoo? no. Much too painful.

Does your phone go off in the middle of the night? i turn it off at night.

Where are you going to be at 4pm tomorrow? in school.. stoning away.

Are you allergic to anything? Cephalexin.

is there someone you will never forget? Quite alot of people!

Do you hate being alone? I need to be alone sometimes.

Is there a girl that knows every thing or mostly everything about you? haha yea

How did you feel when you woke up today? Sleepy.

Do you regret anything? No. Evrything happens for a reason. Well mayb yes. I REGRET not studying enough this week!

These days.. ive been having the uncanny urge to throw a punch at anyone who is not in defensive position... basically standing still.

SO dont stand still when ur around me... cover ur face or something

This is thanks to my training at muay thai.

Trained to grab the right opportunity to throw a good punch when an opponent leaves his face exposed.

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School has started!!!

I know this means less enjoyment and more distress.

Sigh but life has to go on. I have successfully survived my first week of school. It has been okay.. esp since we were greeted by yet another NUS science Bazaar! NUS can be my next favourite shopping mall. What with the beautiful apparels and accessories at super cheap prices

It also means more studying... i miss PGP! where cs stays. It is e best study environment to have ever existed on planet earth.

Just yesterday.. we had a muay thai CNY buffet dinner at crystal jade. Allow me to just say that apparently.. only me, rachel and felicia are girls in the team. SO we get to train with shirtless buff guys 3 times a week.

fighting with the guys made me realize how terrible i am with my muay thai skills. they are so fast and my moves are so predictable to them. I could do nothing when we spar but merely duck and defend.

I suddenly realize how adorable Sunny is when i fought with him yesterday. His occasional transitions from looking stoned to suddenly looking amused is freaking funny! If i were his mum id cradle him in my arms and hug him everyday like a girl hugging a teddybear.

And just yesterday.. Id threw a punch at melvin while countering his.. and his nose started bleeding.

Apparently.. he claims that ive knocked his originally crooked nose back into its rightful place. A good start for my career as a nurse. (if it was even crooked in the first place) i think he was just saying that so that i'll not feel bad. I hope i dont hurt my girls that way. PLEASE! dont ever let me!

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CNY is coming!! yay!!

tired

Today is a super tiring day for me im shagged beyond anything even tho training wasn't even that tough.

My muscles are degenerating.

My love for Muay thai is actually growing. Although i think the training shd be tougher for that spur to occur

I am very very tired and im not thinking straight

my eyes are half closed.

CLosing, closing, Gone!

Goodbye planet earth! Hello slumberland.

Muji's bday

we were juz celebrating Muji's birthday about 60 seconds ago and im here to blog about it!!

SIs bought orgasmic P.Osh brownies and came home at like 11. while i planned how the surprise will go.

I was gonna light a candle.. turn off e lights and come into the living room together with mum and dad and sing a happy brithdya song.

Unfortunately...

dad was no where to be found he prolly was reading newspapers in the toilet...

Mum and Muji were too engrossed in their YOGA exercise in the living room.

SO i decided tht sis and I should do e surprising alone.

I tried to light a candle but couldnt do it without burning a finger.

so i settled for a torchlight

i turned off e light and made it seem like a blackout but evryone got irritated cos they knew i was behind it

and sis started singing the happy birthday song in front of kak kak without me while i hurried forward to stand beside her.

Sis was seeing a draggy and out-of-tuned birthday song because she thought the idea was lame.
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I went for Spa massage today.

hey guyz i noe its been eons since i last blogged but im really bored of blogging esp since i cant really say much about work and stuff due to confidentiality matters.

But i love nursing like nothing. Im so glad i chose what i want. theres nothing else id have chosen.

The exams have been woo! terrible i must say. but i shall concentrate on my ATTAchment! Thats right. its tmr. !
My first day at work. AS A NURSE.

im heartened that my closest friends have expressed their excitement for me.. they seem to be more excited about it than i am :S

Mayb its cos its drowned out by the nervousness. IM totally... nervous...and scared might i add.

Oh God please be with me.

Id spent my night at starbucks Novena today.... randomly brought this book with me.. and read it as i sipped my green tea frap and took in e gorgeous ambience.

Memories flooded back. I missed it so much... I wish i could have it back again.. juz like how it was before...

For a moment.. i felt the bliss i havent felt in a long time.

I was sitting in e same place prolly just a year and a half ago.. studying... holdin on to it.

but yea.. im going for my attachment tomorow... and i dont want anything to go wrong! It cant! it'll be grave if i do make a mistake... Im dealing with something as vulnerable as human life. I hope complacency wont seep in.. like how it always does when things are smooth sailing for long enough.

well juz last friday i ice-skated with mr. yap. It was lovely.. juz like how it is evrytime I'm with him... And i skated like michelle kwan, the olympics ice-skater winner.

Not.

but hey what du expect? i dont rollerblade nor hav i ice skated before. *looks sheepish*
It was fun... truly.

And.. i love him.

Okay so shan has told me some stuff tht i didnt find surprising... Im happy for her.. and i can only hope for the best! id love to get to noe him one day so tht if he hurts her again id stick something up his cuckoo.

Im sadistic. Juz thot u shd noe.

haha so hinted sherman when he yelled at me while i did an osoto-gari with a junior on sat. "why nurse so violent one!"

HULO! im staying up for the whole of tonight hence the very good mood to start blogging.
im the most energetic person thts ever known to humanity right now! (im reli quite sleepy)

And the reason for this is cause i have an assignment due on Monday afternoon and i will not let what happened to Terri Schiavo's case to repeat itself. Running around the library to ensure tht i could hand it in in time has caused me a big blue black when i banged into e librarian's desk.

Its ok. Im used to embarassing myself in the most ridiculous ways.

I love my to-be patients by the way.

after our very touching presentation which ended with tears, smiles and jubilation, I have come to realize that yes, indeed, that all my life... i have wanted to be a part of this..

without realizing it until i was in it.

Nursing encompasses everything I want to do and achieve in my life.

To care for people
To respect persons and their dignity
To love the disadvantaged
To be free from bias and discrimination

I'm glad i have come to be a part of this beautiful profession.

Dear lord, give me the strength to persevere through this course. I am quite stressed now. Amen.