my new roooom

WOW it seems like forever since ive last been here. I hav another diary and unfortunately i do not fancy sharing much of my private life to e world. Most parts of what i like to write about happen to be private apparently.

GOSH I DIN REALIZE I WAS SO SECRETIVE :s

HAHA too bad for my fans who cant get a sneak peek into my life nani nani poo poo
(if theres any in e first place)

Well im still workin in tht hotel.. only ive tried out doin abit of my boss's jobs since i see em busy all e time and its only nice to help em out and take on their work when i can.. they are apparently pleased :)

Ive advanced to liaising with Chefs! Well tht can be abit scary at times cos they can be in such a foul mood at times.

My lil trick would be to simply talk reli sweetly and attempt to sound like im the nicest person ever known to humanity... which err doesnt work on most chefs apparently since i'd still hav to put the phone an inch away from my ear.

As usual ive been going home pretty late at night evryday.. and since ive shifted to this remote area in marsiling.. it can be abit scary sometimes esp since the walkway towards my house is all dark with a forest to the right.

Sometimes i run home... in heels might i add. And get a sore feet after that.

Hence ive decided to brace myself... im workin on being the bravest girl in marsiling... by walkin home with an air of courage, confidence and poise amidst the eerie ambience.

Please clap for me.


Well ive been through some rough patch lately.. but i guess what matters is how u learn to stand up evrytime u fall. Life's road will always be bumpy, but you've gotta take this path and press on.. no matter how hard the going gets.

I can do it YES!

About e lil career path im going to take.. well so far.. my decision is nursing.

Yea i know i know i can see u screaming and reeling in disbelief

Yes i can see u.. im psychotic.

Im glad tht i had e greatest gift of all

ive missed u ok?

its precisely why.. id worked so hard... and if id scored badly it would hurt alot.. ive tried e best tht i could and if my best were only so pathetic.. after evrythng.. what am I?

simple is good

HUllo

i juz bought a curler but its got not much effect since my natural hair is pretty wavy by nature

BYE BYE

After-note (if theres even such a thing):

muji is gg home tmr :( how can i live my life without her!!! :(

welcome back wispy

Happy birthday jojo babe

To evryone whos a part of my life
I <3 uall

I shifted house finally
Its v cold evry morning

Dad modelled for me with his new jacket juz a few seconds ago

I am soo v tired evry single day cos of work ... i come home to collapse

my inbox is flooding evryday i dread turning on my fone

Ive yet to catch up with tons of pple

IM SOOOOOOOOOOOO SLEEEPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY NIght

NEW SKIN!

hulo ive finally chged my skin

i almost forgot tht ive got a blog

omggg that skin was e longest standing skin ive ever had!

I must hence commemorate this day, Febuary 8th, 2008.. the end of that weird skin





I bought missy preppy's clothes! I was alil nervous cos ive nv bought online clothes before but heck! theres always a first time to evrythign.. watch out for it babes!! I'll wear it when we go out

yea and i got this cute apple with words... I had to take a pic of it before i gobble it up.



My new year dress.. i love e floral prints

wooo!

lately i havent been updating cos ive been busy at work.. Yes i end at like 9 plus at night and leave e house at 7.30.

U can soo conclude that shufen has seriously no life!!!

so heres some pix to show whats been up! (Not in accordance to date!)

YAY!!!!!!!!!! did u noe?! i hav a new cam!

i can carry it around evrdya mwhaahaha


In the train with judokas after work XD


I visited my new house!!

okay more like my old house.. its e house ive not been living in for 6 years

coincidentally.. e house im currently living in will be rented to this family.. who has this cj guy with em.

Small world indeed. I can only pray hard that he doesnt ruin my precious room.

okay on to my new-old house.

This is e view from our living room window!! e wind howls like nothing gosh.. its like livin in a windy haunted house!

JUMP!


Oh btw! thats my new black dress from lil matchgirl at an amazing price of $26 only


I was tryina take an artistic shot.. apparently.. it looks more rather ghostly


My study room!


Sitting on my room's window sill.. yea i risked my life just to take this picture.





On christmas day!! with wee and ys :D

U noe...

i think i love workin here.. ok not exactly 'love' but.. i appreciate everything about it and what ive learnt.

Desiree my biggest boss... may not reli like how slow we're pickin things up.. but she.. still hasnt fired us.. like how other bosses would have done..

I mean i totally understand that this department that we're workin in requires alot of excellent manpower.. and obviously.. bein new to things like these.. i cant be as fast as e other perm staffs

I woudlnt mind if she released us. Siti tried to hint that to her.. but she didnt reli get it. Shes keeping us :|

Desiree reminds me of Mom...

seriously!

the way she nags.. the way she dresses.. the way she wants evrything to be perfect.. the way she works with people.. its so Mummy

PLus she has a daughter.. who is of our age, is working, has been as pampered as i have been by well-to-do parents, and who has been complaining to her mom about how terrible e workplace is juz like how i always do to mummy

So i think i can see why ive been gettin this motherly feeling about her

I guess she wants to keep us.. to give us a chance to learn and grow..

She was teaching us about how its like working and stuff and gg on about her daughter and how shes so much like us

And i think i totally agree..


juz 1 week of workin and ive grown to be more outspoken to strangers.. and i reli like this nice lil transformation :)

woohoo! YES im more confident in dealing with adults now XD

And Yes Ive learnt so much about the corporate world.

Definitely not smooth sailing but its amazing experience and challenge

hullO!

long time no blog

id decided to be less self-obssessed for once in my life and hence the result of this empty lil blog

but today! is an exception

I need to blog this out cos im feeling extreme emotions!!!

and when this happens I hav e knack of yelling it out to the world for all earthlings with computers in their homes to read even tho perhaps 0 is even interested in reading abt my life

oh man!

i am sooo terribly bored of my 'post-As' life

so i dont blame u if u do




let me do a lil brief summary of what ive been up to.

post as:

stone like nothing

shop like all e time

got reli bored of shopping

sleep at home

learn to cook!

go to e market

pluck out intestines of chickens and squids and screaming with disgust as a result

i did housework!!! i cleaned my bedroom evry morning and ironed my clothes and did my bed! i can now be deemed as a professional 'housewife'! though one who is too young to hav a husband.



so basically this was how i led my little life

UNTIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shufang (our judo senior... not my twin sis ah!) reccommended us this job.

yvvone, siti and i took it up!

My first every job. Life rocks. I thought to myself then.

OUR boss, desireee did mention to us that it wont be an easy job. but oh well i could learn right

but i thik she meant business when she said it wont be an easy job

First day of work:

FINALLY... I MANAGED TO LIVE THROUGH A DAY WITHOUT STONING.
I LOVEDDDDD WORK EVEN THOUGH IT WASNT AS EASY AS ABC
FINALLY I WAS DOIN SOMETHINGGG... SOMEHTING TO KEEP ME ALIVE. I GUESS U CAN SAY IM A WORKAHOLIC. OH WOW I LOVE LIFE.




Subsequently...

ok i think my jobs rather ok.. its juz i reli hate all e stress and hecticness of it and always bein deemed slow and stuff

its soooo demoralisinggggg


i bet my supervisors thot i was e biggest bimbo to have ever walked this round lil planet.

and evrything has to be fast fast fast fast

no it wasnt borin like any of e other admin jobs my dear frenz always complain about

it was hectic.

so much so u hav no time to feel bored

i work 12 hours a day and i get paid 5.50 an hour.

in e biggest hotels in singapore...

cool shit.

time reli flies and before u know it.. it is time to go home!

Home!! AND ALL E SHOPS ARE CLOSED!

OH HOW I MISS SHOPPING.

sats are taken up as well.

Sundays my only free time and so i can only dedicate one week to one group of friends or friend.

free times have become as valuable as gem

I know im desperate but i reli reli reli reli reli reli hope i can stop workin in this job.. and find something else and start afresh.

I BELIEVE my lady boss thinks im not suitable for this job anyway... and i believe she has no time to train me whatsoever and there is no time to be understanding that this is my first time doing stuff like these and that i may not yet work as fast as e other perm staff who have worked for like years when ive only juz started work a few days ago.

i guess this juz wasnt reli e best job to take if it was a first job.

I tried.. i reli did. in fact today i did e callings reli fast..

oh well.. i can always learn from this. SO this is e real workplace. its perfect experience.

ive never regretted workin here. its tough but.. i think ive learnt alot.

OMG OMG OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

online shopping!!!!!!!!! ive juz found a new love!

the clothes are sooo cheap and gorgeous omggggggggggggg

miss preppy

Agneselle

nelly joy

IM currently leading the most boring life thats ever been known to all walks of humanity

Im jobless and poor as a pauper

im havin insomnia evry night

BUT im designing my new room which ive grown less enthusiastic about of late

Dad wants it to be painted and ugly shade of brown

SO IM GONA Spice it up by PAinting ROSES ALLLL OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

I love flowers mwahahhaa

he is v irritated by the idea

I CANT BELIEVE I WANTED TO FEED E CATS ON PROM DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

in fact i was busy burning my butt off sitting on e sofa for hours watching some show about kings fighting

AND 4 TIMES I WAS ASKED TO LEAVE MY HOUSE FOR SOME PARTYING AT POST PROM OR WHATEVA

AND HERE'S E BEST PART:
i decided it was too late to go out

and at 12 midnight i was starting to regret it when pple smsing me were partying away merrily

ok 0_0

I am abit bored today

evryones gona hav fun at prom while i stone like nothing cos i chose to stay home or around the neighbourhoods to feed the cats

not like i havent done it during my study periods.. transiting from the library when it closes to a nearby macs and having my dinner at some void deck specially brought from home by my maid

basically there are a whole litter of cats around and i feed em my dinner. OKay.. only e fish... cos they arent very fond of rice or veggies


I love cats but i hate spiders!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok random


but i feel this sense of lightheadedness evrytime i do something charitable! not tht feeding cats or givin my pennies to beggars on e streets is anything too benevolent or self-sacrificial.. but at least it makes me happy :D


BYEEEEEEEEE BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I AM SO HUNGRY

Pix ive taken since my release

On the 22nd:
:











Yesterday: (okay we were too tired to pose anyway)

thats not me! i was e camera woman


MY GROCERIES!!!!

so gorgeousss right?!?! its from forever 21





Can i juz say that Ive abandoned DIva cos ive found a new love, CHOMEL!!!!!!!!! its e most gorgeous shop on e planet

OKay today im taking a break!

shopping is more tiring than u think it is.. ESPECIALLY WHEN SIS KEEPS TAKIN my FLATS away so ive been wearing one of my heels all day long (the comfiest one of all the others)

OMG! nx week will be a terribly busy week! my time slots are fully taken up

SO book me fast while stocks last.

joke.

SO today

was a stupid day

cos i almost died

in some stupid facial place called ATOS

not that i was about to be murdered or anything

but i seriously thought i could never get out of that place alive... NOT unless i bought their HUNDRED DOLLAR STUPID PRODUCTS that had not a single bit of teeny weeny beanny bit of effect ATT FRIGGIN ALLLLLLL

AND THAT STUPID LADY WONT LET ME GET OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

i was juz stuck there with those gleamy eyes staring UP AT ME (bcos im taller than her)

Effing shit!

what unscrupulous methods... wen they;d claimed that they're offering some stupid shit for free... its juz all a TRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so that ull enter their shop and then they can juz go on and on and on and on about their prods and not leave u alone

HELLO?! THEY'RE FORCING U TO BUY LIKE 90 DOLLAR PRODS

and likeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i had to work my brain even after my As have ended

like pretending that im calling my mom whose scolding me and commanding me to leave the place (when it was valerie on e other side of e phone tryina help)

yea and the lady was pretty unhappy.. i could tell but she was still tryina keep a straight face while smiling and saying, "haha i dont believe leh... if u reli want it u can just go against her and buy e package... plus ur alr 18 she cant control u"

WTFFFFFF

I felt like stuffin a sock in that lady's mouth

matilda was totally helpless... actually both of us were.. with those short aunties squirming around us going on and on about this and that

so when they finally stopped paying attention to me for like a split second... I RANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN OUT AS FAST AS I COULD

i was damnnnnnnnnn relieved

but oh shit matilda was still stuck in there

after a minute or so hiding behind a pillar far away.. she fnally eyed me and i signalled to her to run

And she told one of e ladies that she was going to discuss with me about the prods before deciding and came to me

DEN IT WENT CRAZY

once we got out of e shop... WE RANNNNNNNNNNNNNNN FOR our livESSSSSSSSS AND NOT STOPPING TILL WE WERE A MILLION MILES AWAY FROM THAT HELL HOLE

i was panting like crazyyyy

Thank god we got out of there omgggg

ERR GUYZ!!! UR PIX WILL BE UP AS SOON AS MY DAD STOPS HOGGING MY MAIN COMPUTER


HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA MY WORD VERIFICATION FOR THIS POST IS " ahwar'

pretty significant day

Awww

today .. for a startling moment.. i realized.. was e last time id be coming to mug at this place, the library.

This place brings.. alot of memories.. it wasn't just a place of tempting empty tables and chairs and quiet ambience.. it was a place where id spent one of e most wonderful times there.. the amazing new friends.. and awesome old ones too..the goal-settings.. where i defined what i want in future.. where i pushed myself relentlessly to the limit...(sometimes to the point of skipping my meals and gettin gastric)... where i sought comfort in times of depression (cos e place brings back so many wonderful memories).. and thank God for being there for me through and through

this whole experience has been a really long fantastic adventure... where the end to this arduous journey was the taking of my As

There were countless of times when i wanted to give up.. bcos of all e obstacles and stones that were hurled in my direction while i was treading this path. But somehow... there'd always be something at the back of head that keeps pushing me on.. a lil voice in my head to tell me to have faith. *whispers 'thank u'*

I may not do fantastically for this exam but im glad i chose to walk through the fire instead of cowering in fear and backing out like how id always contemplated doing. Haha im such a coward.

Today... Faith, a friend i met from e lib, passed me a little letter cos it was prolly one of our last times seeing each other..
(omg im feeling a lump in my throat now)
the letter was so gorgeous... i almost cried readin it.. shes been so wonderful.. id miss her so much.. id never forget those times we've had.. shes been one of e most amazing person ive ever met.

NOT FORGETTING ALL E AMAZING STUDY BUDDIES!!


its jsut two more days before it all ends!

HAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i like to dramatise everything

There is a whole ton of things tht id love to do once i taste freedom on 26th nov 2007


1) cruise with wispy and mat


2) Hong kong disneyland with arch darling and friends


3) Shopping with a whole ton of pple whom ive pang sehed during my course of mugging


4) ANgelina and serrrr!!!


5) shop with Judokassss for e pressies and steamboat?!?!?!


6)as promised.. Movie marathon complemented with turkey and red wine at my house for a few groups of people


7) CT Darlingg!! we planned to run and stuff around ur house remember???


8) Go out with... *ahem*


9) PARTIESSS!!!!!!!!


10) trackkkkkiessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO LETS go CHANGI AND TAKE TONS OF PIX


11) Track bbq party


12) I MUZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ CUTTTTTTTTTTT MY HAIRRRRRRRRRRRR


13) PLay with Leo!!!


14) go to e lib to read more interesting books instead of burying my head into notes


15) Drink under e stars with jo and chairman!


16) Stay overnighttttt


17) Hit the famous hawker stalls in Queenstown!


18) DESign my new roommmmmmmmmmmm


19) Paint it with my Loveesss


20) etc. etc. etc...

CHECK OUT MY EXTREMELY ARTISTIC PORTRAIT OF MR. LEE BOON PING

juz a lil conversation i had in e lib

me: the last time i ate this packet of gummies i farted every second of the day

chairman: why havent u flown to mars?

SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

omg i wana dieeeee

shitttttt

sum stranger juz passed me a strip of paper with his number on ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT


OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

this iss damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn freaky ok

he looks soooo emooooo

omggg and i go to e lib all e time theres no way i can avoid him i feel like dyinggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

i will so not touch tht slip of paper omgggggggggg

this is damn scary ok!!!!!!!!!!!! I NV KNEW PPLE WOULD DO THIS IN E LIB!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG

NEW CRAZY MAN IN E LIBRARY

and he is different from the rest because he was screaming the word HEY repeatedly!!

HE SCREAMS oh dear

Someone is singing some old mandarin opera amidst the stillness and peace in Civics center library in Woodlands

and id really love to shush her but unfortunately i cant trace where e voice is from

and evryones juz sniggering away wonderin who e hell it is..

oh my god

It kills.. it ruins
at that point in time when i was on e brink of falling over.. I realized for a startling moment.. how dangerous it could really be.. and ive been livin with it for 18 years.
how it could ruin a perfectly normal human being so subtlely with such insidious force...
Its e mechanism that drives ones world.. without it.. your world fades away into nothingness.. empty darkness..
it doesnt change reality but it affects it.
And I dont wana lose control again..
but im afraid that im about to.. again...

i cant study at civics lib anymore cos there are too many distractions such as this cute, sexy, hot, tanned, and buff guy with an irresistible dimply smile
to make u soo distracted ud lose conc on evrything else

while waiting for e library gates to open...

With all that talk about plastic surgery.. ive decided to have one and hence ive travelled to korea immediately after e prelims and came back like this.

I think we've all learnt a lesson from here children.

sis and me (before e surgery)



Meet my husband, Keita


14 year old keita


the now keita (im clueless abt his age cos im such a failed wife u see)


ALL u bitches stop stealing him from me! hes mine im sorry to say

PRELIMS ARE OVERRRRRRR

but As hasnt

its pretty unfortunate cos... most of my darlings are still having their exams.. plus mom has graciously allowed only a one days grace of rest.

plus i still needa spend time with em hence i ended up spendin my weekends in e lib

i ended up sleeping there

i love e library... to the point that.. the library isnt juz a place to provide me with a place to study... its also an avenue to relieve stress...a place where u spend time with all ur mates.. who'll stick by u till death.. pple ill nvr forget for life... even if some of u babes dont go to e library as often like ys, siti, wisp, arch, and more (even if i don mention ur name here it doesnt mean tt i love u any less.. i do love u guyz alot neway..each and evryone of u) ...the lib still reminds me of u guyz somehow

Take away all my sadness
Fill my life with gladness
Ease my troubles
Thats what u do

be touched! haha ok la i didnt compose that poem myself.. im listening to this reli gorgeous song "have i told you lately"

i juz wana say.. i reli do appreciate evry single one of u... its juz some things have been happening and i don wana burden any of u with my troubles... and its in all e lil things that u do.. even if u felt like u didnt do much.. but it still means so much to me u noe..all those times u guyz have been there for me when i was down.. the genuine care that i felt.. even if it were juz a mere sms or encouragement.. a decorated letter or postcard...its touched me alot..

id love to stay strong and work really hard...
for ppl who have genuinely cared for me and hope to see me do well.. for God..and for the ones that i love..

Im so thankful <3

Bein narcisstic in e lib with jo.. i shd put some of e face-warped pix up nx time they're hilarious

it was a mad dash to the end.

evryone was geared up at 10am.. ready in gergarisan positions

I recognized that little boy who was licking the closed gate, literally, as he alwayz does.
Its a form of destress i suppose?

the gate opened.

Pple crawled under the gates before it was fully opened

and den evrything happened in a whirl... pple were sprinting to their favourite hot spots

A lady had dropped one of a pair of her slippers and her bag while running but she left it there and pressed on.

Woah the library sure is an interesting place

OKay i think ill never run for my seat again

its too barbaric.

Latest happenings:

u juz cant believe it
i spilled coffeeeeeee in macs
it was e most embarassing thing the world will ever know
I juz wanted toooooo dieeeeeeeeeeeeeee righttttttttt there and then
but a cute guy got me a new cup of coffee and helped me dry my notes and stuff
so it wasnt such a bad thign afterall

I needa drink i needa drink


drink under the starsss... juz to destress

im still dying to get into psychology

i am still studying

i plucked my eyebrows and it felt like it took a century

i ate nasi lemak yesterday!!!!!

AN old man was staring with mouth gaping wide at sis and me for fulll 10 minutes in e bus bcos he thot he'd seen ghosts when we're very much alive... and if he doesnt know twins exist on planet earth

Maccccc juz smiled at meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I broke my clip

I ate in e library
in fact i do it evrytime im there. SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
(but i nv get caught)

MY FILES ARE GONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I heard my NAME ON 98.70 FM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY NAILS ARE SOOOO LONGGGGG.. IVE LEARNT THE LIKES OF YEANG MING SHENG

LEE BOON PING has admitted that im smarter than him and that he is a piggy

Dad was aspiring to get the biggest monitor screen in the world.. hes got it now
I had difficulty finding the cursor


Dad also bought a new keyboard and the first thing i saw when i entered e house was him typing away merrily on an un-connected keyboard (he thot it was fun)

he cut his own hair and he was so proud of it cos he thinks its hip. (it looks like bart simpson's)

byE BYE

Oh man this is really really stressful

tons of stuff have happened... but.. ill tell u in my own time..

juz don feel too comfortable exposing things like that in public.

OMIGAWDD im starting to distance myself from this blog! QUELLE HORREUR

but ya.. i guess.. i hope itll never come back

YAY YAY im gonna pull through this year!! juz.. a lil bit more..

BYE BYE

okay im back to normal