there's just so much i can take. im feeling so cold..its killin me. My hair's standing..i sit on my bed clutching the blanket in my hands and starin into space...alredi i was drowning and downright loss and comin to take refuge, and that was the last straw. I neva thot id say this but Life's reli a bitch and then u die!!! somehow..god seems to be takin a break for a while and is not by my side. i hav no appetite to eat or munch..no jovialosity in this no more! i just wana cry i don wana get out of bed i just wana lie there for a hundred years..im afraid to step out..im afraid to hold stuff in my hand..i don wana hold anything anymore..i just wana remain in my room foreva..i just wana sleep now and probably foreva.