Today is a sucky day.

Im having a ton of mixed emotions.

bcos something happened... and its getting to me. Of course i cant say it here bcos of confidentiality issues.

the stress, worryin abt muay thai.... the emotions.. its tiring sometimes btu ive gone through worse. So evrything will turn out fine!

Itz juz v draining sometimes. but all will be fine.

Nursing is v tiring.

Evrything will be ok.

haha yeap it wilL!

WOOTZ

SIS is coming back tmr!!! no more lonely nights! and shes got alot of stuff for me. And ill finally get to visit changi airport!! i love changi airport.

YS has juz came back from cambodia !!

Wee too from aussie!!!

The world is round again!

Im loving clinicals but my patients more! I LOVE all my patients and ill do my very best to care for em!

it was emotional to realize tht one of em was discharging today... i teared and hugged her.

HORROR

A catastrophe happened yesterday.

World war 3 broke out! (so says gertrine)

I broke an 8 year record of not having lost a phone.

It happened last night.

When it occured, I was in shock. At first i thought it was a dream, a nightmare that I'd wake up from. My pulse rate, RR and BP became abnormally high. I was giddy from dismay and disbelief.

I feel like the stupidest idiot on planet Earth! How could i be so stupidly trusting of people... and left my bag in the nurses' room together with the handphone (because we weren't provided with lockers). I didn't think they'd steal a fellow colleagues valuable. I was naive and gullible. And extremely upset. I AM depressed beyond anything. My phone was my everything.

Not surprisingly, my parents were furious. I may be phoneless for the rest of my life because I am not allowed to get another phone. Cheers to living life phoneless. *claps*
Not.

In fact, they wanted to blow the issue up by complaining to the director of TTSH and make a police report to investigate on the nurses in my ward. It was really quite terrible. Because in the first place... it was MY RESPONSIBILITY to bring my valuables along with me when im working (but its a lil hard cos i have alot of stuff in my pocket).

Honestly, if they were to do that they'd tarnish the name of the hospital and perhaps disrupt the work of the nurses when they are already stressed enough.

I begged them the whole night to not do it but Dad was insistent. IT WAS SOOO TERRIBLE! I ought to be grateful to the hospital for providing me with the oppoturnity to learn and yet I had caused trouble for them. I felt sooo terrible. Plus it was my burden to bear, not the ward nurses.

Thankfully, I begged Mom to dissaude Dad... and it worked.

My life has crumbled since last night's very fateful incident.

I am an idiot i am an idiot. I am extremely amazed with my stupidity. I cannot forgive myself for what happened. I am depressed. Good bye.

is that too much to ask

if u haven't already known, I've been spending my mornings in TTSH

for the first time, we started work proper and it was really cool! i dont think i've met such friendly staff in the previous attachment.

I think im starting to enjoy work. Theres tons of interesting stuff to see and learn.

I'll needa get the hang of infection control though... i can see why the emphasis.

OK i needa rush off. Sleeping alone tonight cos sis has disappeared to china! why is everyone leaving :(

officially missing you

The adorable one sleeps alongside me. Isn't it a baby?

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Attachment will officially start tomorow. And im kinda scared. It also marks the start of an extremely hectic one month and a week journey... what with training for muay thai competition as well.

Good luck to me. I'll need that badly

EXAMS ARE OVER

My family members are out there in the dining room. They are carrying out an investigating of the person who might be responsible for the presence of a golden cockroach in the study room. Me thinks it was daddy who constantly eats his fruits in the room.... A breach of mom's house rules.

then again.. some chocos in the room might have ignited that.. although they were wrapped up.
And i am responsible for that. Uh-oh.

Mom's gonna blast at me soon.
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Its over?... wait.. hold on.. u mean "IT"?? are.. are we talkin abt e same thing?? OMG.. Its over?! MY exam is over?! I've finally completed sem 2 alive?!

When it finally ended the day before yesterday on 6th MAY 2009,

I was elated that some of my friends were still going out, contrary to the assumption that my friends were gonna elope with their boyfriends to Planet Zeus. The attached ones disappeared but the single friends were gona have fun! I got to spend an interesting evening with jade, angie, adora, Mel, rad!

How wonderful.. i was finally out of my cage.. free as a seagull... without a worry about the pile of work back on my study table. They are a but a load of papers with scrawled words to me now.

My gorgeous meal savoured at Manhattan's fish market.

No the result of this is not from my lousy camera skills.

I purposely gave it an artistic touch. Please applaud me for havin such an aesthetic nature.

Knowin what an amazing cameraman i am... Jade decided to follow my footsteps by takin over my role.

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On May 8th 09 after basic PPE course

My stomach was cut out to be used as an object for learning

My poor leg. Check out my last toe which is tied to my feet by a white polyester string.

At chicagoes's!

In the bus!

BY THE WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I bought the best dress in the world... which is light green in colour with gorgeous oriental prints!

Sounds mighty delicious?!?!?! I loveeee oriental prints.

And the best part is.. its only 15 dollars!

Damn why do i always get all e best deals heh

And the other amazing part about today is... SIS came home with the best invention in the world.... an ionic haircurler! That was originally 200 dollars but is now a 100. Sis is marvelling at her Vanessa Hudgens-like hair. E set includes a volumizer, and natural curler

And the other best part is...

i saw Zac efron on a big screen. he became at least 10 meters tall and a few meters wide. Giant Zac efron! An every girl's fantasy!

I cant believe how much i am in love with his gorgeous smile. Any guy would have easily turned gay from juz watching the show. Jun xiang u've missed out alot!!!

AND when is my paris dress arriving?! i cant wait to wear it but i am not looking forward to mom's nagging on splurging on another dress again. I feel guilty leh...

OK no more! no more new dresses for the next few months!

TMR!! yay spending saturday's morning with mom and muji for breakfast.

And clinicals have resumed. I'll be mighty busy next week onwards. Im not sure if i can cope... clinicals is v physically draining.. and trg at night after that will prolly kill me. Sigh.. i duno whether i shd take part in this comp this year. Lets juz see how it goes next week.

Stressed but happy

Can i just say that my boy is the best boyfriend in the world!!

I was utterly surprised when he appeared at my doorstep with Rive gauche cakes! I am utterly touched and yes boy... You've helped to ease the stress a little =)

Thank u my love! <3

... and im missing him already :(

I cannot emphasize how screwed I am.

I'll need a miracle. A great big miracle to complete my revision.

Necrosis of the skin

OMG!!! i cant believe this!!!

I've developed a saccral PRESSURE ULCER!!!

Just right there:

Ive finally solved the mystery as to how id gotten that strange wound on my back.

Okay i will not lean on e chair again.

Quelle horreur

4 days to study 3 shitloads of work doesn't sound right

oh dear.

My brain is going to shrivel up come next wednesday.

The nightmare has only just begun

after tc exam

Guess where am I?!

in school!!! drinkin my most yearned milk juices. Ive been tryin various combinations... the fruit juice stall auntie was laughing at my bizarre Soursop milk request. How embarassing! the queue of people was laughing at me too. Thank God Loraine was there with me. OKay i laughed along.

After one week of deprivation... this milky concoction is finally down my throat again.

Therapeutic communication exam just ended. Its a load of my chest. Now i can concentrate on the other subjects. After vomitting out all tht information, my puny brain is back to its original size... signaling me to fill it up again.

Shit whos eating in e library?! i can smell food... my stomach just made a loud roar. And i shall not have food until dinner time. And i muz not go home or ill sleep!

Sigh... i juz found out that Agneselle's clothes are from bangkok!!!! Bangkok is certainly paradise! i was lookin through Peiling's posts and was envious.

Sian.. have to resort to purchasing online products to merchandise bangkok's beautiful apparels.

Screw the terrorists, the political unrest and instability! Thanks to u i cant go to bangKOK! Hmph! *makes a hissy fit*

Its the exam period!!

I know its a little late to declare this now but fret not I've came to this realization a week ago.

So its a 'lagged' declaration.

for e past few days ive been attempting to store massive amts of information into this puny lil cortex of mine. (yes memory is stored in the brain cortex)

and my progress is slower than id expected.

Sigh i cant wait for my 4 days of holiday. Yea its better than nothing.
Ive had enough of stifling sleepiness and forcin myself to get outta bed.

Just four days.... its not enough but itll do.

its time i chart down my 4 day hol schedule so tht i dont overlap the gazillion postponed outings.

All u SMU and NTU people!!! im envious :(:(

SIS is watchign Zac Efron movies evryday. Shes head over heels in love with him. I think hes just okay.

Somethign weird happened last night

A stranger called in e wee hours of e night at 1 a.m. but hung up when sis picked it up. Den msged to confirm tht she was still up for an outing. When she questioned his identity in her reply, the alien refused to divulge which planet he was from. Instead, he asked if she was free to chat. Dotz.

It was freaky. I slept with my blanket over my head e whole night.

I suspect this incident to be extraterrestrial caused.

A ludicrous story that happened to shufen, by shufen

Let me tell u a story about a crowded day in e lib at 10 o'clock on the 18th of April 2009.

A visitor to the library, namely Shufen, was lookin for seats but evrytime she spots an empty seat, she is chased away by a person seating nx it bcos they claimed that "IT IS RESERVED BY ME FOR MY FRIEND WHO ISN'T HERE YET"

Allow me to add that RESERVING SEATS IN THE LIBRARY IS NOT ALLOWED. So says the many posters hung on every wall.

At 10.05a.m., shufen finally got herself a seat. After 15 mins, while she is snuggedly settled, the stranger in front of her abruptly spoke up. He said, "I'm sorry but this seat is actually taken by my friend".

(I dont see no friend... hes alone.. unless hes talkin about an imaginary friend.)

Shufen wanted to say, "I'm sorry did i hear wrongly? You are chasing me out of my seat for your imaginary friend?"

Instead, she said, "Erm, but do you know that reserving seats in the library is not allowed?"

"But my friend is coming soon", he reasoned.

"But i came here first, it doesn't matter whether shes coming soon or not... Plus its not like i can find a seat elsewhere because everywhere else is taken." She refused to budge.

The boy paused... before saying, "okay... u seat here... first."

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okay thats e end of e climax. In the end, shufen went around to find another seat so tht the boy could seat with his 'friend'.

Thankfully, after much effort from scouring the library, she finally found an empty seat, a non-reserved one. Hallelujah.



On a final note, allow me to just say that it is a highly inconsiderate and unethical behaviour to reserve seats for 'imaginary friends' especially when the library is crowded. Many who are there on time can't get their seats thanks to these selfish behaviours.

OMG Omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bODY SHOP SALE IS BACk!

IM SO GONNA RUSH HOME AFTER SCHOOL. OMGomg I HOPE ALL E GOOD DEALS WILL STLL BE AVAILABLE THEN. im gonna cab back man.

arghhhhhh how i wish i can go to bangkok and sweep evrything home. I MISS SHOPPING

my agneselle dress still isnt here yet... and my Paris in pink dress will take even longer... prolly a month later.

OMGGGGG the urge to shop is unbearable! I needa ease it soon. One fine day.. after 6th MAY. yeshh

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This sat will be a good day.

After a hundred centuries ill finally be able to taste some delectable stuff with my family. We're gg to TRADER's Hotel!!!! Their buffet is orgasmic. Thanks to their sashimi... which is shall i say again... orgasmic. Trader's has the best buffet tht ive ever came across.

I never thot that this day would happen... in fact... i think its almost too good to be true

and at night... a picnic by the pool at Seletaris! My old house! i miss it so much! the beautiful ambience...the peace... the garden, the playground... (the lizards, NO!)...the wine... and most importantly, the company! See u sexy pple this sat! ;)

. . .

fang loves to pout her lips so grassy offered to snip her lips off

Grassy... I wont have to cook for u cos Muji is not leavin in a few mths time afterall. She tricked me. Shes gonna leave when we graduate.

A while ago, I was drinking alcoholic Peach Cognac while studying Pharmacology.

BTW, I've got good news! Im going to causeway later to eat cheezy orgasmic potato waffles and buy orgasmic japanese salad dressing, as recommended by Daniel's dad.

To satisfy my fan's voyeuristic nature (*crickets chirp*) , i shall announce that im going to Tan Tock Seng Hospital and CCK polyclinic (bumma) for my clinical attachment.

I have a new favourite song now!

Listen to it! ... This song is so intense.. and melancholic... A beautiful masterpiece!

Bang Bang - Nancy Sinatra

OKay back to studying. Your pharmaco test is just next week, u naughty girl!

the pain of losing a loved one

Until a few mins ago, the reality of Muji leaving in a few months time hadn't really hit me.

And now that it has... i am experiencing a profound heart ache.

... as if the heart was broken into a million pieces

I am e worst person alive!

i LEFT my BIG RED BAG behind in MD3! Yet again... e same few pple are implicated from my carelessness. Zee and Jade! haizzzz i feel so bad!!! i owe em a big treat!

sigh why am i so blur! its an inherent trait thats almost imprined into my genes... something of which i try so hard to change but fail time and time again!

ok evryone makes mistakes... but i make particularly more mistakes than anybody else on planet Earth. I do sincerely hope i dont kill a patient from my carelessness

Yes! its the attitude that matters. if being blur is inherent... the attitude that i adopt shall either tone that down or eliminate the problem entirely. ok.. i admit its hard to chg entirely but from now on!!!!!!!!!! I SHALL BE LESS BLUR!!! A Change!! BE prepared to embrace the new Shuffzio.

I like prof David Walter... he taught us some really valuable skills that i thot was humbling and inspiring.

Nursing induces change in people! It changes my perception of how things should be. it taught me to be more understanding, caring, and to respect differences among people.

A note to pamzee... Don't ever change urself for anyone. Be who u are. And embrace that.

Genes and soc assignment to be due on Friday! How could i forget that?

I am pissed at Agneselle for missing out on my order when i could have gotten e dress. When i emailed them there was no apologies, no compensation nothing! I was left to dwelve in my sorrow. After one day of depression, i have chosen to hate the dress. (at least i wont feel so terrible about not getting it)

Its not a nice dress and i would not have bought it if i were to see it in some shop. I have no idea why i liked it in e first place its totally ordinary looking... and the colour pink is much too dramatic.

(not).

Boohoooo.... grassy cheer me up!

Might i also add that the bone at my ass hurts a great deal. Its part of the pelvic girdle... if only i can rmb what the name of the bone is. This is thanks to Rachel's beautiful kick. She wasn't spared either.I kicked her big boobs cos i was jealous of em.

haha juz jk. Its all in e name of healthy fighting. I love darling Rachel. *smooch smooch*

Overcoming Chinny's ordeal spells a good break for me... altho i'm not intendin for it to be a long one. Its time i get back to work.... something which i can't seem to find e motivation to do.

Its over!

im gonna rest for a day

And might i add that i bought two beautiful dresses from agneselle!

only i havent received the invoice for one of em AND im extremely worried bcos i really love it!!!

argh

HAHAHAHHAHA the genes and soc lecturer is hilarious! he is giving free marks to everyone for whatever answer they have chosen for some of e qns cos they'd seemed ambiguous

thats v nice of him tho.

TC presentation has finally ended! I love our group! it was a success :):)

okay Mdm. Chin, my attention can be diverted to u now.

oh shit its raining and im hungry!

Love the nurses! =)

:'(



I'll be ok. I will be. Always will.

No proper rest to-day and night again... consecutive days in a row ive been toiling...

one bad thing comes after another and a hundred issues to settle

Let tmr be a good day.

Give me strength after Judo competition to use what last ounce of energy i have left to finalllyyyy work on Mdm. Chin, my patient in my assignment.

Lord, i am so tired...

Amen.

Haiz i think its been a v tiring semester... evryones struggling for air.. and worn out.. lethargic from a lack of proper sleep and rest. Stuff comes one after another.. exams.. yet another exam.. presentation.. the assignment which i really dread.. and i dont have enough time.

so upset.... and at a lost.

But i know tht alot of dearies are also gg thru this... lets spur each other on to complete this semester together... I love u girls.

OMGOSH

I juz realised that its the SPRING COLLECTION season! juz hearing the word 'shopping' gives me an orgasm.

I LOVEEEE spring collections. No wonder the only decent women's wear shop in causeway Point, ESprit, has such lovely clothes in their newest collection.

Damnit im a mile away from shops like Forever 21, Zara, Topshop... Miss Selfridge..bla.. where their Spring collections are the BOMB! They BLOW U AWAY... INTO BITS AND PIECES.. TILL U'LL NEVER RECOVER YOUR FORM.

Shopping.. my major source of therapy and happiness!

I can't do without it.. even in e midst of my busy schedule. Hence I have resorted to Online shopping. The best solution to satisfy ones shopaholic urges while saving alot of time and transport cost

I got this SUPERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR gorgeous top from agneselle.
It'll arrive at my door step in a few days time! CANT WAIT!

today was a therapeutic day for me! HAHAHA thank u celestine baby altho i dont have a depression. Im so touched that ull write that wall to me when ur upset urself... ur a wonderful babeh my dear!!! I guess its jus v normal for everyone to feel stressed at this point in time. Dear poor Pammy cried while dancing.... you must have been really stressed too. Lets all work hard together to get through the upcoming presentation, assignment completion, and exams!

Check out my new monitor screen that's 4 times e size of my laptop's. Credits to Daddy. XD

The bear that i hug to sleep evry night.

I loveee roses!

Gorgeous aren't they! Credits to my boy.

XD

Find yourself. Its now or never...

Because you wanted too badly to win...

U NOE WHAT????

I LOSTTTTTTTTTTTTT MY PHONE

almost.

My heart stopped beating when i couldnt find it in e library.

Thank God zeehui saw and helped me keep it!

So im officially handphone-less until Tomorow 1 o'clock

Our script is awesome. But i have a ton of lines to memorise... Jay's one is worse.

Dad bought an ENORMOUS monitor screen for me even after i told him not to.

cos he complains that the small laptop screen will spoil my eyes

Great. Theres a comp this sunday. LIke oh my goodness

AND

i juz realized tht my assignment is about to be due very soon

and my presentation is just next week

and my two term tests is held this week

I am dying.